On Islam (46)

I have just returned from a seven day sojourn in the Glacier Peak area, drinking lots of pure glacier water... (actually pure snow melt). I fasted on only water for the entire seven days, nothing besides water. Felt light as a feather hiking out over ten miles on the seventh day. Its the longest pure fast I've done in this life, and I would have stayed and continued longer, had I not had obligations back in the city.

For what its worth, I also practiced staring at the sun in a straightforward exercise in practicing what I preach, since I have asserted that it is a lie that to stare at the sun causes blindness. Why ever would a loving and kind god create man and put him in a world with a sun, beautiful to behold, but that causes blindness if looked at? Does that sound like something a loving god would do? No that sounds like a lie that an evil penis-envying deity named Allah might tell in order to keep men from being what they are.. I dont know whether it was satan or allah who came up with this lie, but i am guessing it was Allah, because I see Satan as a passive enabler of such conspiracies.

The lie that human beings cannot stare at the sun could be the single worst lie ever invented, as would be defined by the criteria of being the lie most difficult to overcome. It's right up there with the lie that incest is wrong. But in my own experience, actually opening my eyes and holding my gaze and intently looking into the light rather than fearing it is probably the most difficult thing I have ever done. Of course the person who does it only because of his faith in the love of god, without any support from anyone on earth whatsoever in doing this, is presented with a much greater challenge that those who follow, who will have the evidence of other's continued sight as proof that it can be done. the christ is the trailblazer.

Jesus said something like, "you aren't ready to enter Heaven until you can stare at the noonday sun." He is talking the truth here. (It makes me wonder why all of those evangelical christians who are anticipating rapture at any moment aren't doing anything whatsoever to make themselves into people with a hope of being able to stare at the sun????) When Heaven is presented as an option, then people will have to get busy getting over their diseases if they really want to be there. only the 144.000 members of the nation of israel get raised up in the rapture. the christ is the sun god because he is the one who dares to stare at the sun. this is why (s)he is called "sun" by neil young in greendale. water, the sun, masturbation, these are really imporant elements in what the experience of the christ is about.

The result of that experiment is that it seems like my vision is improved, not damaged. because it forces the mind into intense states of focus, this practice results in a greater luminosity to all visual experience. (you arent ready for this practice until you've had a lot of preparation and healing, so I don't recommend trying it.)

Staring at the sun is an ultimate meditation practice. I can say with confidence that "sun worshiping" peoples have been enlightened groups of people who practiced staring at the sun. (Why would they be called "sun worshipers" if they didnt even look at the sun?) You can't do this without focusing your attention very strongly. Worship, in my opinion, as far as men are concerned, involves masturbation. If you dont love something so much that it makes you want to masturbate, then you arent worshiping it, you might call it worship, but it certainly isnt the ultimate in worship.. I believe that staring at the sun while woshiping it as a manifestation of the love of the master who is inventing and sustaining everything, INCLUDING the sun, in the Imagination, by maturbating is about the most ecstatic possible experience (by this I mean the experience in which men can attain the highest degrees of erotic arousal posible) other than doing the smae thing in the actual living presence of the one whose love is generating reality itself, the perfect master. The light of the sun cannot be more brilliant the the light of the Mind in which everything exists. We are the designated experiencers within the Mind, and it is just preposterous to believe that it is not possible to look at some part of what is imagined.

As a digression, this leads me to say that really what reality consists of is that someone, "the holy spirit," is having the most intense erotic (eros means "love") fantasy that anyone could have. and a part of the fantasy is that people come to live in a world like this one, prove to themselves that they fail if they are not having the experiene of happiness, and eventually the comes a moment of decision whether to pariticipate in the fantasy or not. People who wanted to exist but dont want happiness get what they want, its called Hell, and the people who wanted to exist and who Do want happiness get their wish fulfilled and its called Heaven.

That's pretty much all there is to it, and I am talking about the diseases that cause people to have an aversion to this reality, when in truth it is absolutely perfect, because it is a fantasy of HAPPINESS and what could possibly be wrong with happiness? And I am talking about how i have gotten over these diseases, the ego complex, the oedipus complex, doubt, denial, etc., and I am talking about the truth that me getting over these diseases is a sure sign that the time has come for everyone to make a chioce about whether or not they want to get over their aversions to happiness. And the options will be presented, the way to overcome the diseases of mortality will be shown, and people will make their choices about whether they want eternal life or eternal death.

Anyway, I learned a few things in the process of my fast, not the least of which is that I realized that human beings have a peculiar aversion to the experience of drinking water! If you put down a quart of someone's favorite beverage, the average person will down the whole thing in a matter of maybe ten minutes. But if you put a quart of water in front of them, it might take then ten hours to drink it. People just plain don't really seem to like water. I dont understand, but I know it relates in some way to everything I am talking about, which really has a lot more to do with water and hydration than people would imagine.

Water and only water quenches thirst. Our bodies need water, not the stuff people put in it. So everything that people put IN their water, sugar, alcohol, caffeine, artificial flavors, or natural ones, all are there to satisfy some kind of HUNGER, not thirst. But are these ingradients things that actually satisfy whatever hunger it is? have they even identified the hunger that they are attempting to satisfy by drinking things other than water? Water is perfectly pure, why do we need to adulterate it with other stuff? what's wrong with plain water?

Water is hugely important. I am having or have had the experience that is very specifically referred to in the wizard of oz story. dorothy, as I've been saying for a long time, represents the christ in yet another allegory of the christ's experience.

basically i have killed the wicked witch and am bringing her broom stick back to Oz. And of course it has to do with water. specifically, with drinking water in spite of an aversion to doing so. It has to do with overcoming an intense resistence to being hydrated, down to the core of our being, the parts that we are hiding from. to be fully hydrated is to be fully alive, but there is an evil spell that keeps men from truly hydrating. They are afraid to because they are afraid of the uncomfotable sensations where they are dehydrated and therefore unconscious, in paticular the place that i am about to describe.

the wicked witch of whichever direction it is, east?, is Allah, and her broom stick is a burning sensation inside of the glans penis that men are unconsious of and that is the reason why men have orgasm, putting an end to the generation of the happiness of love. allah somehow has created that burning sensation. but that's sort of jumping ahead.

What is "the heart?"

As usual I offer the explanation that being a man and speaking about experience involving sexuality, I can only speak about men. When I do so I do not mean to imply that what I have to say does not apply to women. I just dont know.

Here is something with absolutely explosive implications, an empirically provable fact about men that 99.99% of men are in denial of.

Men have an organ of sensory perception that is dormant, numb, inactive. It is the organ referred to in the poetry and literature of divine and ecstatic love as "the heart." It is because they are descendants of Adam (Satan) and Eve (Allah) that this is the case, and the fig leaf they placed over their genitals after their fall from paradise represents the turning off of this organ.

The organ is the heart shaped organ called the glans penis. It is not fully awakened in mortal men, and the implications of this are absolutely staggering. I believe that the whole end times scenario is what will inevitably ensue immediately when this fact is brought to light, which I believe will in the near future, now that its coming out here. This is the greatest secret in the world, previously known only to teh elite members of the secret societies that i refer to as the nation of israel. Israel consists of the men who have had their "hearts" awakened.

The major wars of this world have all been fought between two factions, one that wishes that no one ever know this truth ( Allah and Oedipus's side) and one that does want Love to be a factor in human existence, that's us, the Holy Trinity and our nation called Israel. Satan gets to be the ruler of the people who never awaken their heart, whether its everyone, as Allah hopes, or just some, as is the intention of the trinity. anyway, this is the most intense and long lasting struggle on Earth, the war between two sides, one wanting to keep men in darkness, and one wanting men to have an opportunity to choose Life. Obviously you could say one side is "good" and the other "evil."

I believe I am the christ by virtue of being the only person, other than the two other members of the holy trinity, ever to awaken this organ completely on my own. everyone else requires secret initiations, but the leader of the nation of israel is the one who can awaken and become a truly alive male human being on his own. It's that rara, because it is an extremely scary proposition to venture into this terrain without guidance. This ability defines the perfection that is required in order for one to become a perfect master, an inventor of reality. It's a test that everyone has to be put to so that the one who actually overcomes it can prove his own qualification to become the master. . The only others who have this knowledge and experience are members of the secret nation of israel. this is who the christ is, in his various incarnations he accomplishes this feat to various degrees, as Abel, as Isaac and as Jesus.

The Heart is an organ of love and connection between men and one another and their master, the one who is inventing the reality in which they exist. It is an organ of telepathic communication. It is an ogan of knowledge, it is an organ of love. This organ cannot be awakened unless the man has a real sincere love relationship with the Master. The man will fall into Hell if he does not. this is a powerful organ that makes possible powerful experiences that are potentially overwhelming.

The difference between a mortal man and an immortal man is simple whether or not this organ has become awakened. This mass awakening is about to occur. Those who are willing to love the one who makes their existence possible will attain an incredible happy result. Those who are not will meet with an unimaginable awful failure. Its just how it is. It's how reality works.

This is the incredible truth that is about to explode into this world. I have found the way to Heaven, which is simply the appropriate relationship with the master under the conditions of having the heart organ awakened.

"The fall"

The experience of ecstasy that men feel themselves on the brink of right before they have orgasm is the experience that Adam fell from and that men are trying and yet failing to recover from every time they have an orgasm. The recovery from the fall is the attainment of the experience of happiness unconditional.

The reason men have an orgasm is because there is a wound deep inside the unconscious glans penis, and before there is too much awakening of the feeling, the man has an orgasm to avoid the sensation of the burning of this wound. This sensation is described specifically in the incredible allegory called "Charlie and the great glass elevator" by Roald Dahl. The vermiscious knids represent this burning sensation. The story of bringing down and frying in the process the vermiscious knids is the very same experience of Dorothy destroying the wicked witch. Since both stories end with a great rapturous victory party immediately after these two accomplishments, I am expecting that now that I have come this close to fully comprehending the situation and completing the healing of this wound, that the rapture is at hand and will occur in the coming days. based on my present understanding, this could not have occured until now, because i hadnt killed the wicked wich yet. and now that i have, or nearly have, it seems like the "end times" should be getting under way.

men dont understand the wound and so live in denial of it. this is the wounded heart of every man. it is about time for it to be healed, for all of those who want it healed. the wound is the wound of seperation from the master, from god, but it may also be that some sort of metaphsical parasite takes advantage of men's unconsciousness is this huge area of their existence.

(this experience is referred to in both Charlie and the Great Glass elevator (the vermicious knids) and in the wizard of oz (the broomstick)./

i have made my way, I am havin and I understand this healing. i believe i and my brothers will be teaching others how to awaken this heart and how to have the relationship with the master that allows for the flourishing of life under the conditions of an awakened heart.

Satan, the ego complex is really just an enabler. He is a liar, but he never really set out to do any harm, only to be in denial of the presence of the living god in his experience. as Adam, the founder of this race of men, his "heart" went numb because he wanted to be in denial of god, because he big ego couldn't tlerate such a thing as a god whom men were to love.

Allah, on the other hand, is the evil witch who set out to do some serious damage. Satan wanted to be the ruler of Hell, just because he wanted to be a ruler of something, anything, just because he has that big of an ego problem. But Allah wanted EVERYONE in Hell, and she had a plan to try to accomplish that.

Really Satan and Allah are the two antigods, and the antichrist, Oedipus, the major top ten leading global justice messiah, is their spawn. Allah set out to cast a terrible spell on this human race. I am the only one, other than the gods who invented this world, to break the spell entirely on my own. The spell is a profound dehydration that causes unconsciousess, and in particular conceals the burning sensation coming from the wound in the heart. Somehow she has managed to make it so that human beings have an aversion to water.

This is why the importance of water in killing the wicked witch. as well as the role of water in the final scenes in which the chief escapes from the evil cookoos nest of nurse rachet, who is another important allah figure. allah wants to be the god of hell, perhaps as an alternative to a male ego maniac lord of hell (they are allies in the end) and the lengths she goes to in order to keep the human race ignorant are astounding. its like she mothered the arabs with her own son in order to create a whole race of people made out of the same sickness her own unfortunate son is made of. such desperation in unfathomable. she is the much more difficult evil deity to track down and destroy. she invented the oedipus complex, and made her own son its first victim.

the antichrist is the spawn of satan and allah.; his father is an ego maniac and his mother is a nurse rachet. that's pretty much what there is to this story. oedipus is the inventer of such things as denial, doubt, resentment, hatred, and us just a seriously shut down dude. in this life he has major hearing loss, and i believe that its just because he doesnt want to hear the truth.

the human being is necessarily in a deep state of dehydration in order to remain ignorant. there are places in the human body where there is a great deal of disease stored, areas from wihch waste products of metabolism are not being elimated. water is in some way the medium of consciousness. allah is defeated by drinking water, along with other practices, including learning to know and love what is hidden that allah does not want anyone to find. i am attaining what feels like a permanent psychedelic state of mind, just by going through a profound rehydration process, aided greatly by cannabis and psilocybin. i am coming alive out of a half dead state of unconsciousness.

everyone knows that human beings are largely unconscious, and i am telling you why. because there is a whole lot of sickness in the unconscious part. the ego complex (satan) the oedipus complex (the antichrist) and the penis envy complex (nurse rachet). these mental diseases are responsible for the sickness and ignorance of this human race, and they have to be gotten over. or people go to the place where Satan knew they would go,,, to be with him,,, the ego maniac who himself becomes the most ashamed person for having enabled the terrible sickness of allah and oedipus.

ego leads to shame, it is inherently a being of shame. and in the end, following any of the evil deities leads to the ego maniac Satan's Hell.

A seminal moment:

The period of the lifetime of Abraham is among the most important moments in the history of this human race, up there with the fall, the murder of abel and the crucifixion of Jesus. It really set the stage for the events that have been transpiring ever since.

The significance of this is demonstrated in the fact that this may have been the only occaision when all seven of the major players in the saga, Satan, Allah, the Antichrist, all three members of the holy trinity and pontifex maximus were all together in the same place at the same time. I beleive that all three, the father, the god and the pontifex maximus came to negotiate with abraham and then of course the whole thing proceeded from there with the nations and religions that were founded by abraham's descendants. (these same three were the "wise men" who came to bring gifts to jesus.)

After the fall, cain went on to have his own descendants, all of whom were wiped out in the flood. but adam and eve had seth, about whom nothing at all is said, other than that he had descendants and their names. I believe that once adam and eve had experienced the disaster of cain's murder of his brother and his banishment into an experience of misery, they raised seth fully indoctrinated into the various taboos.

Anyway, the only noteworthy decendant of seth in the story is NOah, the best of all men in a fallen, hellish world. I want to make note about the son of Noah named "Ham." Ham was cursed by Noah after Ham convered Noah's nakedness while he was sleeping. This is very significant in my opinion, I believe it identifies Ham as an incarnation of Satan, the one who wants men to be sexually repressed. I believe that this is alluded to by the fact that god changed Abram's name to Abraham. It seems like adding "ham" to the name indicates that this is one and the same person. Yet another thing that I may be the first person ever to have pointed out...

So Abraham comes just a few generations after the flood. Anf of course the Creator has a plan. It is to send in Abel, the one who loves him, to found a Nation to be his agency in this world, to effect his purposes. And of course this is Isaac and the nation of Israel. Then of course Allah and Oedipus get their own multituinous nation as well, the Arabs who have spread their founders' indoctrination throughout much of Asia and Africa. And then there is Abraham's own nation, the Jews, who are the hermit crabs who come to occupy the bloodline, so to speak, of theNation of Israel but who do not practice the lifestyle that made it unique. These three groups become central to the story, the other descendants of Seth and Noah who did not come out of the lines of Abraham being more or less by standers in the story, though they too are mostly locked up in the taboos, the commandments of the deities from hell.

I believe that the descendants of Abraham, excepting the Nation of Israel, are in very poor standing with the Creator, given that they have chosen to be agents of his enemies.

On Islam

It's truly a testement to the superiority of the way of life practiced by the lovers of the living god who is love that 144,000 of them could defeat the hundreds of millions of their enemies who follow Allah.

I openly criticize and condemn Allah as a deity. I mean, let's get real. What would any healthy human being say about a culture in which a woman who is the victim of rape is ostracized and even killed by her own brothers or father? What kind of sickness is that? How could there possibly be the virtues of kindness, compassion, love in such a culture??? Yet this sort of attitude is rampant among people who worship Allah. If you look at Islam, its the only religion that says that people who don't follow their religion are "infidels" who need to be exterminated. The only genocidal religion. ALmost all religious wars ever fought have involved Islam on one side, they have fought religious wars against hindus, jews, christians, and others. This is because it is the religion of the Cain who committed the first act of genocide when he killed his brother. This is the religion of denial of shame. Also, the only people who routinely blow themselves up in order to further their shame denying objectives are Arabs.

There are Nations of people who practice Islam that are more and less effected by the sickness behind this religion. The Arabs are the direct descendants of Allah and the Antichrist, Oedipus, so they are the most deeply mired in the Oedipus complex. But take, for example, Malaysia, whose people probably had ISlam forced upon them, but who remain more akin to the much healthier nations of the people of Southeast Asia.

I happen to believe that "Nations" are defined by indoctrinations into various ideologies, ways of thinking, taboos, etc. And I am thinking about these things and I am comprehending stuff about these things, so I am not afraid to talk about them.

I believe that some of the healthiest nations on Earth are the nations of people who have historically practiced Hinduism and Buddhism (which is really just a sect or offshoot of Hinduism) , the Indians (at least insofar as Islam has not had a negative influence upon it) the Mongoloid peoples of Tibet and environs, and the Southeast Asians. These nations have attracted relatively happy and unashamed people. the most ashamed people have incarnated as Arabs. Another region where Islam was forced upon people was in West Africa, and I find that west africans are far happier and healthier people than the Arabs and some others who practice Islam. People from Turkey, who have practiced Islam for a long time, also seem more peaceful and happy than the Arabs.

I guess one way of saying this is that looking at nations of people, people who share language, religion, customs, etc., rather than at followers of respective religions, is much more informative about the kinds of people that have incarnated into them.

To emphasize, I believe that the Arabs specifically (and secondarily the other nations whom they have most fully indoctrinated into their way of thinking, which could include Afghanistan and Pakistan) are much more deeply mired in shame and the oedipus complex than others who practice Islam. Islam is not the problem, it is the indoctrination of people into the sickness of those who happen to be descendants of the founders of Islam, the Arabs, who descend from the penis-envying mother Hagar (Allah) who invented the oedipus complex as a way of establishing herself as a deity.

The very idea of worshiping this deity is so repulsive, it is such a sickness. She invented a religion to hide her own shame. (I guess you could say the Jews borrowed a religion for the same purposes, though their sickness is the ego complex more than it is the Oedipus complex.)

Of course most of the people who practice Islam don't understand any of this. The are just blindly going along following a religion born of sickness. But the people who have been born into the sickness by being born as a descendant of the source of the sickness, these people really have the sickness. The sickness is not the religion, it is the indoctrination in the oedipus complex and the denial of shame that is passed down through generations of people too ashamed to confront their own sickness.

We don't get born randomly, each incarnation comes naturally in the form of the situation that most stands to further one's wishes. The people born as desendants of Ishmael and Hagar, the Arabs, are simply the people who most strongly wish to be in denial of their shame because they are most deeply mired in the oedipus complex. Mohammed is their leader because he is Oedipus himself.

The oedipus complex, with Nurse Rachet as the mother, is an unbelievably terrible vicious circle. It leads to ever worsening misery. It goes more or less like this: it's the son being ashamed and turning to his mother as a source of love. and the mother making the son even more ashamed of himself... because the more ashamed he is, the more he is willing to do her bidding. Allah wants to be a deity, so she gets her son, the Antichrist, to make love with her and fall into a pit of shame. and it just goes on getting worse and worse.

he becomes her slave and she makes him do things for her that will cause him more shame, which causes the problem of shame to worsen. it's a really bad program. their shame becomes so great that whole nations of people are spawned out of their shame. People who for whatever reason, like the orcs, come into being to play the part of some very sick people. It's a choice they make, that's all I know. Mysterious. This is the worst sickness the world has ever known, far worse than most people can imagine. So the Arabs worshping Allah, no matter what they believe about Allah's identity, is a bunch of men who are really the victims of Allah, like their leader the antichrist, mohammed, and yet who turn to her for comfort. how sick is that? Its what allah wants because she wants to be a god, or maybe at this point she is just desperately trying to save herself from a shame so terrible as to be almost unimaginable.

By the way, one of my favorite preachers that I see on the Trinity Network is Michael Youssef, an Arab immigrant. This man is in my opinion outstanding in the clarity and truth of what he speaks, no hype, no meaningless use of words like "anointing," which I have a pet peeve about how it is used by evangelical preachers. I see in Dr. Youssef an extremely high quality soul. I'm talking about the ideas that people are indoctrinated into and saying that people choose to incarnate in cultures subject to certain indoctrinations that suit their purposes, whatever they are. Of course there are high quality people of arabic descent... (One of whom I happen to believe is named Osama bin Laden.) ... I should also mention that Youssef was raised in a Christian family.

and while I am on the subject of preachers who I think really have an understanding of truth, James Kennedy of Coral Ridge is another who I've seen who stands out. (not to mention Billy Graham, who I have no doubt at all is an agent of the Naiton of Israel, given his important relationship with virtually every US president in the last fifty years... and his excellent teachings) The preachers who pretend like they know what they are talking about, but obviously don't... they really turn me off. It's like some of these preachers make it seem like the experience of knowing and loving god is something that you hype yourself into, whereas it is something that you gently and very quietly surrender into. These preachers are leading people astray.

What of the other descendants of Seth?

I'm talking about Nations, and other than Israel (which controls the USA) , the Arabs and the Jews there are many nations who play peripeheral roles. These people have been indoctrinated into various customs that seek to avert the problems caused by Satan, Allah and the Antichrist. These people have, as I have already discussed, seperated themselves into various nations depending upon their mental state. I have named the nations that follow the hindubuddhist religions as among the most healthy. I would also put the English speaking countries into this category. Americans may be ugly, but this is just the ugliness of the basic fallen human condition run amok because of the affluence of this particular nation. The Americans, Canadians, Brits, Aussies and Kiwis, seem to me to be more willing to be open hearted than people of some other countries.

China presents an interesting situation. I percieive in the Chinese a mentality that seems to me more aggressive and less peaceful and harmonious than I see in the Indochinese people. I don't know how I would characterize the chinese mentality, but when I think about the liklihood of various groups of people accepting the truth that I am talking about, which is why I contemplate these things, I somehow feel that there is less liklihood of acceptance on the part of the chinese people than their various neighbors to the south.

To me europeans in general seem to be less open-hearted than some of the others I am discussing. The europeans seem to me to be more resigned to a godless existence that the peoples of many other nations. The popularity of Existentialism, the de facto religion of the denial god that is the leading religion in europe, suggests this to me. Of course there are many nations within europe, each one with its own signiture mentality.

As I have indicated in many writings, I believe that a higher percentage of Roman Catholics will accept the truth than will followers of the Protestant religion, which I don't even like to call "Christianity" because it is so fraught with lies and deceptions. The people of central and south america are the largest group of roman catholics, and hopefully acceptance of the truth among these people will be reasonably good.

among followers of different religions, I would guess that HariKrishnas might be the group that experiences the highest percentage of acceptance of truth, these people already haven proven that they won't be ruled by shame and that they love the idea of loving GOd. I believe that the Harikrishnas must be fairly dear to the God who is Love simply by virtue of their devotion to loving him, even though they dont really know him yet. Hindus in general will have a high percentage of acceptance. Buddhists from traditionally Buddhist cultures, Roman Catholics will also be high. Relatively lower in percentage of acceptance will be moslems, jews, existentialists and protestant and evangelicals, who are so rapid in their homophobia, the aversion to the idea promoted by their supposed savior, that men love one another. But I think the protestant churches are just doing their best to keep messed up people with a lot of shame pointing in the direction of redemption, even if a lot of that flock has srayed seriously far afield from the actual reality of loving the god who is love.

Have those people really wrapped their minds around a world in which men like Joe Whinney and Jeff Fairhall love one another?? no they aren't even trying. Have they really wrapped their mind around the idea of being the lover of the Christ, a man, who their own good book informs them that if they are going to be in Heaven they will be married to? doesnt look to me like they aspire to such a lifestyle...

There is an experience that men can have (45)

There is an experience that men can have but that the vast majority of men of this world are not having. It is a very good experience, and experience of happiness. As a matter of fact, it is a perfectly good experience perfectly worth having. It is the experience of loving the source of life itself, the Love of the Creator, who is a very loving male human being who has become the Creator, the Wille Wonka of the chocolate factory of Imagination, he is empowered to dream up the worlds that exist solely by virtue of a Law that says that this is the responsibility of the most perfectly loving person among all people living in a given world. Because those are the only world with a prayer of success.

I speak of men because it is men's experience that I understand, and because I believe that men's experiences of life falls short of its potential. I have come to believe that the purpose of human life, as far as men are concerned, is to have this experience and that the crux of every man's existence becomes the moment of truth when he is faced with the decision about whether or not he is willing to have it. I believe that this moment of truth is at hand, this being the year 2005 that comes seven years before the year named in many prophecies, including those contained within the Bible Code, to be the end of the saga in which we are now living, 2012.

The experience I am talking about is the experience that the Creator himself has while engaged in the act of doing that which enables him to conjure world's like this one in the Imagination of the One Mind that is all that really exists. The Creator is loving us, and he wants love in return. He wants us to be loving with him, doing with him what he does that makes our existence possible. This entails doing together the thing we call masturbation. The Creator, the God who invents the worlds that exist in the Imagination of the One Mind, is the Willie Wonka god, the GOd who masturbates and wants to do so with the men who come to live in the worlds that are constructed out of his experience of ecstatic love.

The experience that I am refering to goes by many names including Enlightenment, Nirvana, Oneness with God, God-realization, Self-realization, Ecstastic Love or Ecstasy, Joy, and Heaven. All of these and other words that connote the superlative experience of love, joy or fulfillment associated with both the JudeoChristian and Hindu/Buddhist/Taoist religious traditions, as well as other traditions, all refer to the experience of which I speak.

The reason that the men in this world are not having this experience is because they are afraid to have it. I am talking about the experience that lies beyond the orgasm that mortal men have, and that limits their experience of joy, because they are afraid of the potentially infinite experience of love that exists within the realm of erotic love and ecstasy. Men are afraid to have this experience because the founder of the human race of planet Earth refused to have this experience and indoctrinated his descendants into denial of the existence of this experience.

This experience of which I speak is a matter of significant controversy. There is a group of men in this world whose sole objective has for a long time been that no one at all have this experience. They have attempted to eradicate all knowledge of this experience. The leader of this group is one and the same as the founder of the race of human beings who are not having this experience, the person called Satan in the Holy Bible. The reason Satan is called "The Adversary" of the Creator is because he is trying, by whatever methods he can come up with, to lead men to the inevitable decision, in the moment of truth, to say no to having the experience that the Creator wants them to have with him. All forms of sexual repression, including the taboos against men loving one another, masturbation, incest, discussions of shame, etc., come about as agencies of Satan's plan to lead the men of this world into a final rejection of the Creator and his proposition of Love.

Satan is a person who decided a long time ago that he would be the leader of the men who refuse to have the experience of love and happiness that men are capable of having. He's been working on the fulfillment of his agenda for six thousand years since he incarnated as Adam in order to indoctrinate this human race into the lie that he knew would further his objective by bringing about a race of men ignorant of and resistent to having this experience.

The lie that the liar called Satan told is the father of all lies, the origin of all misery, of darkness, ignorance and mortality itself; it's the lie that boys should feel ashamed of masturbation, the first lie and the worst lie ever told. This lie has come down through the generations intact in the form of an inviolable and unquestionable rule or commandment called a taboo. This is how Satan, the deity of shame, tricked a whole race of men into falling into a terrible trap of sexual (eros- life energy) repression, beginning with Cain, the son of Satan in his incarnation as Adam who killed his brother Abel.

Satan later appeared in the saga recounted in the Holy Bible as Abraham, and then later still as the so-called "friend" of Jesus, whose name I believe was Reuben, who visited Jesus while he was fasting in the wilderness. In this lifetime he is incarnated as a "social justice" advocate who, significantly, happens to be of Jewish decent who lives in Seattle and goes by the name of Robert S. His quasi-partner in a Law pracice is Dan M. who I've been identifying for the past year as Cain the Antichrist, the son of Satan (Adam) who decided he would be in denial of the shame that his father introduced as a force of the collective psyche.

Dan M poses as a heroic, even messianic figure in the "global justice movement," and is associated with the leadership of the World Social Forum (which relates interestingly with the predictions of many Evangelicals that the Antichrist is associated somehow with a plan for One WOrld Government) an annual event that has occured in most year in Porto Allegre, Brazil and has attracted tens of thousands of anti-globalization, anti-corporate activists annually. Dan M is in fact the living embodiment of the deity of shame's denial. The third member of the Unholy Trinity from Hell is the woman who first apprears as Eve, and who becomes Allah after her son Cain falls into the terrible pit of shame after the two of them become incestuous lovers. (Cain is the same as Oedipus, this story just being a further chapter of his life.) At least as of recently she and Dan M were together as life partners.

The other son of Satan, as Adam, was the Christ, who first appears in the Biblical story as Abel, the one who decided that his way of dealing with shame was to get over it. The Christ is the son of Satan, the deity of shame, who gets over shame. The Antichrist is the son of shame who prefers to be in denial of shame. Abel's success in overcoming shame was intolerable to Cain, who thus killed him in an act of preemptive genocide in order to rid the world of the potential for the existence of a race of men who get over shame, a race who would make it impossible for Cain and his flock to live in denial of their shame.

Abel returned as Isaac, the son of Satan in the latter's pivotal incarnation as Abraham, and Isaac did indeed become the founder of a race of men who were not indoctrinated into Satan's lie. The true Nation of Israel that descended from Issac's son Jacob consists of 144,000 men who made a conscious choice in the beginning to be willing to love other men, and in particular to love the Almighty God who is Love, the most loving of all of the men who are willing to love one another.

Cain and Eve also appeared in the story at the time of Abraham as Ishmael and his mother Hagar. As the story goes they were banished by Abraham and founded the nation that came to be known as the Arabs. Eventually they return again as Mohammed and his mother in order to found a religion in an attempt to counteract the growing menace of Abel's Nation of Israel, which presented the spectre that Cain had attempted to preempt when he killed Abel, namely, the spectre of the light of truth illuminating their and their descendants' shame and their denial of it.

A situation of particularly great significance developed after the 144,000 sons of Israel ceased incarnating within the particular lineage that descended from Jacob and spread out over the world, incarnating as persons of various ethnicities, as needed to further the fulfillment of their nation's objectives, which are to create the conditions in which they can openly exist as a Nation and practice their shame-free lifestyle, without the likes of Cain the Antichrist and his mother Allah trying to genocide them out of existence.

The Children of Israel had greatly expanded their consciousness as a result of having the intense experiences of ecstasy that I am talking about. They greatly increased their capacities to experience life itself. The people who followed into this lineage are of course the Jews, who are not at all the same as the Nation of Israel since they have not, since the original 144,000 moved on, practiced the lifestyle that caused Israel to become a unique race of men. This situation has a great deal of significance. The descendants of Satan as Abraham, the Jews and the Arabs, both occupy important roles in the saga.

One question that naturally come up in regards to the matter of men loving one another or not is the following: if men are going to love one another then what sort of limits, if any, should be placed on the expression of this love? When you really wrap your mind around these sorts of questions you realize that the only possible answer to the question is that in order for everything to work out, men need to go all the way to the ultimate experience of loving one another. This inevitably entails getting together and doing what Satan forbids his descendants, through their indoctrination into his Commandment, to do, namely to masturbate together and experience together the unlimited experience of ecstasy that men can experience. Men need to have the ultimate experience of pleasure and happiness, otherwise their coexistence will be fraught with unspoken questions and aversions. Men need to love one another and they need to get it over with and really experience the full extent of this experience. The bottom line is the men need to experience the maximum experience of happiness and arousal, together, that they are capable of experiencing, in order to live together in peace and happiness, without shame. Because the only reason NOT to have a really fantastic experience together would be shame, and when shame (Satan) is allowed to play a part everything eventually slides into his Hell.

The knowledge of this experience is going to be presented so as to be undeniable to the men of this world in the near future, and the men who are willing to have it will seperate themselves from the men who are not willing to have it. When you have a society of men who have said yes to the opportunity to love one another it functions at an entirely different level and in a different way that a society of men who have said no to the opportunity to love one another. The difference between these two societies is the difference between Heaven and Hell.

I am saying that there is a subset of this first category of men that I identified, the category of the men who are willing to love one another. This subset is a secret... I'll use the word "cult," a secret cult consisting of 144,000 men, some of whom may not presently be aware of their membership in this cult. This group of men are the living incarnations of the people who first incarnated as the 12,000 male descenadants of each of the twelve sons of Jacob, the Children of Israel. They have enjoyed a great deal of success in the great game of competition among nations that men play. In the very near future it will be revealed that this small group of men have for hundreds of years secretly been amassing a sufficient portion of the world's wealth such that they could at this point lay down their collective hands and claim complete victory in the competition for dominance in this world.

This "cult," the true Nation of Israel, is going to do exactly this in the near future and the result is going to be cataclysmic. All national currencies could, and I believe will, lose all of their value instantaniously when this occurs. It will be a truly apocalyptic scenario. I believe that "Israel" has accumulated virtually all of the world's gold reserves, and simply by revealing this fact Israel could topple the house of cards monetary system, since the national currencies have no intrinsic value whatsoever, in particular since the lynchpin currency of this system, the US Dollar, is so far out of whack in its balance of payments that it is unrealistic to believe that this imbalance will ever be rectified.

I believe that this cult of men and the women who associate with them will soon all relocate to one specific region of the world. This will be the location of the promised land for the Nation of Israel, which I believe will be in a geographical location in the New World that corresponds to Palestine's location in the Old World, that is, in a strip of relatively fertile land in the far western region of the largest continent in the (new) world, with a capital, I believe, in Seattle, which is the city playing the same archetypal role that Jerusalem occupied in the earlier chapters of the saga that played out in the Old World.

These 144,000 men will then begin to openly practice the lifestyle practiced by the Nation of Israel, a lifestyle which is not hampered by what I call the Commandments from Hell, the taboos of shame and sexual repression that are the laws by which the men of this world live. At this time the remainder of the category of men who are willing to love one another will begin the process of overcoming their indoctrination into Satan's lie and thus their resistence to the idea of men loving one another and will come and join the Nation of Israel. Those men who elect not to join the Nation of men who love one another and their Creator will, by default, be electing to stay in the realm whose ruler is the man who decided a long time ago to be the ruler of that realm, Satan, who, by the way, is a person many would describe as a seemingly good, charming, talented and even brilliant person. I myself was among these before I realized who he is.

next published statement (44)

i've been working on the next published statement that will appear in the seattle weekly this week. it will be a four page magnus opus that pretty much lays out the story of reality in as succinct an exposition as could be written in a couple of days time. i will be posting a few fragments of truth that were not included, but pretty much this wraps up what i have to say, and i really am expecting that the events of the end times will begin shortly.

june 3

i just sent an e mail to someone who i dont know the identity of. it reads:

dear friend, whoever you are, your subject line is what interests me.

It reads:

"The US dollar's value is only a perceived value. Its real value is nothing. When the realisation dawns that there is going to be no nicely "stage managed" end to this situation..."

you are absolutely correct in saying this, and your timing in making something of it is stunning.

the people who have orchestrated the complete farce called the extant money system are going to pull the rug out in the next few days and all "money" will become instantaniously worthless.

these people also happen to own virtually ALL of the world's gold supply.

talk about winning the game of lets see who can rule the world. what an obvious strategy! you couldn't ask for a better one.

who the hell is it anyway that would seek to have this kind of power?

the answer is it's the Nation of Israel, the pro-incest Nation that follows the family that not only RULES this world but who created it in the first place.

and thus will proceed the end times.

you can get ready to kiss your incest taboo goodbye and get ready to live in a world that works. its called Heaven. its what you get when you give up the incest taboo. .

of course, if you cant see your way to living how the ruling family lives, then i dunno what is going to become of you, but it wont be pretty. because people who allow for the incest taboo are not capable of living with people who do not and the ruling family is not going to give up their dream of a world that works.

why does the incest family rule the world? because their men love one another, whereas all other men do not love one another.

and men who love one another are the fit who survive the darwinian and genocidal wars of survival that the men who do not love one another fight with one another.

this is the truest and most important statement that has ever been said to anyone on earth by another earthling, and i don't even know who the hell you are.

but i can almost guarantee you that the world will soon want to know how you felt when you read the truth that triggered the beginning of the end times, a few days in advance.

sincerely, jeff fairhall

june 2

row row row your boat gently down the stream,

merrily merrily merrily life is but a dream....

so what happens when this particular dream ends? you either have faith in the dreamer and let him dream a new dream for you, or you panic and fall into hell. of course the dreamer is teh one who decides who is coming with him into his new dream, and who is not. this is what judgment day is about,,, the dreamer has to make a judgment about who is coming along and who is not... hell is the place for souls who are not participating inthe dreamers dreams any longer. these are people and they have their feelings and their reasons.

as willie wonka said, "we are the music makers and the deamers of the dreams." and its true, the incestuous and homoerotic willie wanker baby gods are the dreamers of the dreams. and if you want to hate them or deny their existence, that's your business... all i can says is good luck to you living elsewhere other than as one of their lovers in their incestuous and homoerotic dreams. (lest anyone be confused, the baby gods love women too, especially their sisters and their mothers. they happen to also love boys, and they love one another most of all. because they are perfect, and perfection loves perfection more than it loves imperfection.

as mckenna said,

"if the truth can be told so as to be understood, it will be believed."

i am telling a lot of truth, but as of yet there isn't much believing going on. but i do believe that i have said plenty that certain VIPs are going to point to as the richest exposition of truth ever to come from one person in such a short amount of time in all of history.

(btw, i have yet to waver in my near certain conviction that mckenna is john the baptist.)

recently i was with my friend "s" listening to one of his huge collecttion of mckenna talks on tape. mckenna was talking about the DMT experience and he relates a description of the experience that "a friend of his" made of a very specific aspect of the experience. s will remember this. and i am like, OK S, so here is terence mckenna mentioning someone who is teaching HIM about the DMT experience and describing it in very powerful and insightful ways, with an understanding about it that if mckenna has not already gained for himself, then no mortal man has comprended it. i said to him that the "friend" who taught him about the DMT experience had to have been a perfectly enlightened spiritual master, and i said i believed it might be neil young himself.

i will be extremely interested to know about the friendship between neal young and mckenna, both now and through history, interested to know what their respective former incarnations were (not to mention my own or those of jed and grandpa green, as well as both carling and Jay Carling, (my brother and father in this lifetime respectively). and of course mary and noah and noah's current partner, who i am also sure is a major figure.

all of this will be knowable soon.

i'd also be very curious to know who the friend of mckenna was who gave him the insights into the DMT experience that he spoke of. if not neil young or prem rawat, then who? i can't imagine who else it might have been. certainly no one who has spoken or written publicly about the DMT experience, because no one has written or spoken on that subject more intelligently than mckenna.

mckenna IS the archetype of the psychedelic shaman who stops just short of the truth of the fantasy in which we exist.

its the saga of the vampires vs the parasites.

so which side are you on in this endless interplay? you may consider yourself to be on the sidelines, but in the end everybody ends up in one camp or the other. if you think you are on the sidelines, you are in need of salvation, because at this point you are in the parasite camp, unless you have already renounced the incest taboo.

because the incest taboo is what seperates the vampires (who don't respect or acoomodate it, knowing as they do that the human being is DESIGNED to be incestuous) from the parasites (who are ashamed and therefore cling to the incest taboo). because ONLY when there is incest is there the degree of erotic arousal sufficient to generate universes. and so the parasites by nature are not of incestuous proclivities and so are by definition parasites, because they are not contributing to the aggregate love that the vampires generate and the parasites feed on.

i have a feeling that the perfect masters conjure worlds in which the negative energies can incarnate, the forces of parasitism and hubris that come into existence as the necessary and inevitable opposite of the love and happiness of the baby gods' (vampires) heavens. think of the yin yang symbol.. the dark and light sides are equal in size. for every action there is an opposite and equal reaction. when there is something to parasitize, parasites come into being. its an opportunity, and someone is going to like that idea as a prospect for an existence.

so they make a world out of their love, and then let it just sit there, and eventually a bunch of parasites come and incarnate there in order to feed off of the products of the love of the baby gods, people like satan, who came to try to fulfill his own idea of a life, without being willing to contribute to the energy that made the world in the first place... and then after a while the baby gods go in and take control of the situation and in the end, they have judgment day, and the unrepentant parasites are trapped in a hell under the control of the masters, so that their suffering can be what stokes the incinerators that heat the chocolate factory.

somehow this is how the good feed on the bad., the good are harnessing the energy of the inevitable suffering that the parasites are going to cause themselves. the parasites are going to end up in a hell one way or another since hell is what parasites create, so it might as well be a hell that warms the chocolate factory of the lovers who give life.

this is why the good will be accused by the evil of being vampires. existence is the saga od the vampires who love versus the parasites who suck the love of the vampires. and in the end the vampires feed on the parasites. and thus the cosmic wheel of the interplay of good and evil goes on turning forever. the good surf this wave forever.

basically what you are getting here is the knowledge of good and evil that god would not permit adam (satan, the chief parasite) to have at that stage of the game, since the whole point was to let a whole bunch of parasites to come in and start sucking and feeling ashamed so that they could be captured and thrown into hell in the end.

of course the baby gods offer forgiveness to all of the parasites, except the ones who have consciusly been a part of a conspiracy to defeat the baby gods. those people, who include Cain and Allah and probably the riddler and others are already damned to Hell, having consciously conspired to defeaet the baby gods.

would it not be the most just thing possible for a host to feed on the parasites that have come to feed upon it? what animal rights activist would complain or throw blood on someone who eats the intestinal parasites that live in his or her own gut? once someone has become a parasite on you, you become the master of that thing, because that thing is deriving its life from you. so a host is just in feeding upon its own parasite.

if all life requires the feeding of beings upon one another, then the ultimate justice would be the lovers feeding on the parasites who come to steal the love that they have gerenated. thus those capable of happiness have happiness, and those only capable of misery by virtue of having chosen to BE the cause of it, have misery, and everything is in its proper place.

basically, to come into existence as a parasite is not a wise thing to do. much better to come as a giver than as a taker. to allow satan or anyone else to tempt you into believing that you can get away with being a parasite is very foolish. if your own conscience doesn't tell you that it just isnt right to be a parasite, then the consequence of your decision to be one is your very own responsibility.

interesting that the being who introduces evil and shame into the situation in the garden in genesis capter one is a serpent, which could easily be understood to simply be a parasite. really its the URGE to parasitize that IS the source of all evil. it's all very perfect, its just that until the end, in spite of the Bible which makes it all quite clear, no one has any idea the degree of the happiness or misery, one or the other, that they will experience in the end.

its just because everything is an interplay of OPPOSITES within a vacuum of nothingness. its just because everything exists in a MIND that wants to be in a state of happiness. and so there is happiness, and it is intense happiness, so there has to be intense misery.

really the misery of hell is just the awareness of the people who are in it of the pleasure and happiness that they could have been but are not experiencing, and teh shame they feel as a result. so the misery of hell and the escatasy of heaven are very much inversely related.. the more pleasurable the experience of the lovers in heaven, the greater the shame of the parasites in hell.

and it all goes on forever as a continuously reiterating incestuous and homoerotic fantasy.

what host would not feel entitled to do with his parasite as suits him? if some leech comes and sinks his teeth into your leg and starts drinking your life energy, you not only have a right to stop him, but also to turn the situation around and feed upon the parasite, do you not? the parasite is the one who said that as far as he is concerned all is fair in love, war and parasitism. the parasite endorsed the idea of being a parasite, he asserted his belief that a being has a right to be a parasite, so how can the parasite complain when he becomes the victim of his host? if the parasite attacks you and justifies in his own mind that he has a right to suck your life then how can he possibly have a right to complain when it gets turned around?

the cost of being a parasite is thus much greater than the reward, because you parasitize for a limtied time, but then get parasitized forever, but what parasite sets a limit on the duration of their being as a parasite? if the intended to ever stop being a parasite, then why do none of them show signs of this intention? a parasite intends to be a parasite forever, and so it would be just for his host to parasitize him forever.

note, the baby gods only feed on the those who not only decided to be parasites in the first place, but who also FAILED to repent being a parasite! so there is not only justice, but mercy in the ways of the baby gods who live forever in happiness because they chose to be perfectly good.

sounds like justice to me. sorry if you do not agree, but i have a feeling that the primordial mind itself, the original vacuum that nature abhors, concurs with my opinion on this subject and if it does, then really no one elses opinion matters. the primordial mind has a will, and it is a will to happiness. and if there is happiness then there must also be misery since we are dealing with a vacuum of nothingness here. and so the only good solution is that the good who are capable of generating the happiness that the holy spirit, the primordial mind, wants feed on those who are only capable of generating misery. its a just way of achieving the goal, as opposed to say, a situation in which everyone is good, and therefore certain people have to be thrown into a volcano (lake of fire?) in order for others to go on... (sounds like cortez the killer... "he (montezuma) offered life in sacrifice so that others could go on....")

this is who the orcs are, the ashamed people, many of whom are incarnated as the descendants of the head parasite, Ishmael (Cain) who come to feed upon the love of the unashamed. and so for the unashamed, in the end, to turn the tables and feed upon the ashamed who parasitized them is justice. the meek win, the aggressors lose.

amazing that the masturbating baby gods defeat the manly man gods like cain and satan. but they do. they do and it is because the primordial mind itself is just trying to have a good experience. the primordial mind is having a fantasy, and it puts the baby gods, the perfect masters, the charlies, in charge. and it works!!!! and those who recieve the blessings that come from being willing to receive them have a lot to be grateful for. the perfect master is the bestower of ALL gifts. and there is no possibilty in heaven of there being anything but the appropiate amount of gratitude expressed. which is a lot of gratitude every day forever. anyone who doesnt like the idea of spending the rest of eternity expressing gratitude to the person who made happiness possible just isn't ready for happiness yet. the gratitude is a natural response to the experience of happiness and knowing exactly where it comes from.

the bible has bizzare acounts of what happens in the end times, including everyone being required to worship satan or the antichrist or the beast, i dont remember which. i believe one thing that may happen is that each being will at that time take on the form that best expresses what they are, and the most ashamed, and therefore most parasitic soul (Satan? I am not sure who "the beast" is) will appear as a multiheaded beast.

i think that the 144,000 children of israel will all be transported into reality at a particular moment in time (rapture) and the rest of the human race will get a really dramatic lesson in truth. everyone will be facing the terrible events of the end times. and people will be given the keys to surrendering in faith to the christ and then in 2012 every single remaining person on earth will be killed and each person will either exercise the requisite faith and love needed to attain reality, or they will suddenly find themselves in a horrible dry place seething will fallen souls who are all trying to suck energy from one another, a realm of anti-existence. it will of course be a very unpretty picture.

one thing about hell, i believe that wherever it is it is a place without water. it is very dry in hell. water is the stuff of consciousness, and hell is the place of the unconsciousness, and therefore it must be devoid of water. imagine being a himan being and living forever without water. this is the fate of those who refuse to accept the reality that love is the reason for everything, and male human beings were invented to be the GENERATORS of love, and that this love is generated by men masturbating with their creator.

there are A LOT of parasites in this world... people who want to partake of the goodness and riches generated by the love of the masturbating gods but who will be unwilling to contribute to the pool of goodness from which they suck as much life as they can. these are the orcs and every ashamed man who refuses to reform himself is an orc, someone who takes from the well of love without adding to it.

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i wonder if any TV commentators, or any christian preachers for that matter, made note of the fact that here in the nation in which a huge majority claim to believe in the judeo-christian god who commanded the human race not to worship idols, the public has been literally worshiping the american idol phenomena.

the cult of personality is at an all time high. magazine shops are filled with magazines that are all about teaching people how to cultivate a "cool" persona. its an epdemic. people are so hypnotized by the whole matter of how to avoid shame by being cool, and the whole human race is thus being led around like a bunch of sheep by the image makers who decide what is going to be the next cool thing.

this is pontifex maximus at work, steering the whole human race toward its destiny.

when martin luther broke open the lock on truth of the church, pontifex maximus went about distracting everyone from the truths about reality contained in the bible. tupper saussy, who wrote the book that tells more of the truth about pontifex maximus (he calls him the black pope) than anything else i have seen, revealed this truth to me that the flourishing of culture in europe that included a revival of theatre was a deliberate effort by the black pope to distract people from scripture.. not even saussy revealed that popntifex maximus is the same person in repeated incarnations, like the dalai lama.

its just so mind twisting that the ruling family puts out this book called the bible, and then does everything it can to keep people from reading it. really the bible exists mostly for the purposes of what happens at the end, in particular as the vessel of the bible code. the importance of the bible and the familiarity of the human race with it will make the bible code entirely irrefutable when the secrets of the bible code are unlocked and revealed to the people of this world.,

really, i think the reason martin luther presented such a threat to the church (the ruling family) is because the truth is too dangerous. they didnt want people to figure out the truth that the reality is simply an erotic fantasy, that truth is too dangerous because the brutes who have no interest whatsoever in participating in an incestuous homoerotic fantasy would have freaked out, realizing that they were inevitably headed for the hell that people who dont want to be a part of reality hide in.

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speaking of his holiness the dalai lama, i believe that he will be one of the people who line up to affirm the truth that is revealed about the nature of reality by neil young later this year.

imagine the dalai lama, bin laden, bush, kerry, clinton, vladamir putin, neil young and whole bunch of other rock stars, prem rawat, oprah, etc etc. etc..,, all of the most admired and respected people in the world, all supporting the most controversial thing ever said, that we all live within an incestuous and homoerotic fantasy in real time., wow. it's going to be amazing. the sound of wailing and gnashing of teeth will be deafening.

imagine what a devastating event the revelation of the truth about the nature of reality is going to be for the human race. this is the struggle of one single family and a very small number of their allies for survival against almost six billion people who would attempt to exterminate this family if they knew it existed. one family with about five members playing key roles in the saga of this world, ruling the world and preparing to send a huge number of people to their self-inflicted damnation simply by revealing the truth to them about what life is made of. shame will do the rest of the damage.

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the degree of erotic sexual arousal is a function of the degree of samadhi, which is defined as the suspension of thought and focus into the sensations one is having in the moment.

the degree of erotic sexual arousal increases as a result of masturbation. thus masturbation is by definition the most powerful meditation technique. men do not use it as such because it is too powerful a meditition technique and they have an orgasm after which they contract from their samadhi and feel tired, etc.

but for the man who can withstand the ecstasy without having an orgasm can use masturbation to attain previously unknown degrees of samadhi. the penis is a meditation organ even before it is a sexual organ. masturbation is MORE natural than sex.

thus the man who has mastered this experience has mastered the mind itself and is by definition the most powerful force in existence. the perfect master is by definition the perfect masturbater. Willie Wonka is thus the master of the chocolate factory of the imagination/.

prem rawat, the perfect master, is the man who best understandswhat a penis is and what a man's relationship to it. thus he is the patriarch of the ruling family named (I believe) Fuck. why has mr rawat never spoken of any of this? because everyone would flee from his as everyone has fled from me.

the perfect master is just the perfect charlie-like boy who likes to masturbate with other boys (because this is what generates the love that everything is made of) who happens to be in control of the controls of the mind itself at any given time. he is by definition the most perfect being in existence, authorized to be the willie wonka by virtue of his humility and goodness.

he is the god of the fathers who are willing to teach their sons what life is made of.

satan is the god of the fathers who are not willing to teach their sons what life is made of.

june 1

everything posted on june 1 was posted in the evening after returning from an incredible day at point reyes. each day the experience becomes more profound. today was a quantum step. i feel that the rapture is likely to occur within two weeks and it will occur when i wake up in the true world, as opposed to this dream world. that will be the beginning of the kingdom of heaven.

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bruce cockburn KNOWS who the father, the christ and the holy spirit are, and he KNOWS what this life is all about.

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"Mind" is just the vacuum of nothingness considering its options. an "idea" in this primordial Mind comes in the form of an idea-haver, a human being. the original idea havers came into being before there was much of a world, back when the original god, the father of the holy spirit, was considering the possibilities for what could be. these early human beings were called angels. one of them was lucifer, who decided that he would be the ruler of hell and abandoned Heaven.

gradually these idea havers began to establish themselves and their ideas. some ideas worked better than others. satan's was a relatively successful idea, since he really is in some ways a person with good intentions. but sooner or later there was a clash between them all. perhaps no one knew that the masturbating baby gods idea was the best idea, perhaps things just mysteriously went their way.

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Question: why does it take a world of six billion people to produce just one who will be a lover of the masturbating boy whose wish for a lover is the reason the world comes into existence?

Answer: That incest taboo sure is a popular mother-fucker!!

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i believe that most men and women are in an incestuous relationship while remaining ignorant of it. this is one REASON for mortality, so that eve can be the lover of her son cain while actually being ignorant of this. its like that "plausible deniability" thing. its a face-saver. but lots of women have gravitated to being the sexual partners of their sons.

i'm sure, for example, that the riddler and his wife are mother and son. ask me who the riddler is, and i will tell you he is the one who says "the answer to how is yes," and "we are all one in our differences." he is a "multifaith" leader and an agent of satan, perhaps a temple priest who conspired to have jesus crucified.

the couple who know that i identified them as, together in a composite, the penguin, also seem to me like protoges of allah and the antichrist. again, masquerading as people working for the better world that they claim is possible while clinging to the incest taboo.

each of these couples is another "allah and the anti-christ" together. the hero and his consort, the major leading social juistice leader and his sick mother/ cain could be the most hate-filled man on earth. his heart is pure hatred.

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the original angels were humans who came into being in the early stages of the process of reality coming into being. these were "angels" who came into being in the promordial minds consideration of what could be. once it was determined that the masturbating baby gods were going to be the ones who would be in control of reality (because they can actually produce happiness, the objective of the primordial mind) the other angels, who came into being to advocate for other ideas, had to decide if they were going to accept or reject the reality that was now determined to be the prefered reality. satan (then lucifer) just was not happy with the decision, because he thought his idea of mortality and the nuclear family was a better idea.

lucifer was a pretty cool angel, one of the favorites among the angels, a very powerful and beautiful angel (he still is). satan is WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAy above average in a lot of ways. if the masturbating baby gods were hard for him to take as the ultimate controllers of reality, then they certainly are going to be for many others.

perfection is perfect, and there is no argument to be made against it. but one thing about perfection, it makes imperfection ashamed of itself. imperfection has to get over the shame and juist accept the blessing that there is at least one perfect male.

wake up sleeping people of this world, for judgment day will be upon you soon. you do not want to be unprepared for the momentous events that are about to take place.

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i think therefore i am??? what bullshit!!! that has to be one of the most ridiculous things anyone has ever said. was that Descartes? i wonder if he really believed it himself. did he ever try to stop thinking? i do suppose it matters who he is talking about when he says "I", since he could be talking not about his true self, but his false self that really does pretty much limit its being to thinking.

this would be far closer to the truth for me: "I pee, therefore i am."

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Does anyone out there have any ideas about how the human race could change something about its way of living that would enable its unhappy male members to fill the emptiness that their inability to fill thus far has caused them to destroy this world and render it incapable of sustaining life?

I have one, and I believe it is the one and only solution to the very real problem of unhappy men destroying worlds.

The human race needs to gather around the incest taboo and lift it up together and huck it, along with its inventor and promotor, the father of lies and the author of all misery, Prince Reuben, AKA Satan, along with anyone and everyone who insists upon clinging to his heinous invention, into the deepest most secure salt mine on this planet, throw in all of the nuclear waste, close it up, and move on to the happiness that is the purpose of human life.

The incest taboo wastes every world in which human beings make an allowance for it, so we might as well throw its adherents into the abyss and get it over with, since that's where they are going anyway.

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Who's your daddy?

Within a matter of days a multitude of the most famous, respected, loved, admired, important, influential and intelligent people on Earth will begin to express their belief that the profundity, wisdom, truth and significance of this very sentence is sufficient to establish as an irrefutable truth that it is infinitely better for a son to have an incestuous father who is neither afraid nor ashamed to love him than it is for a son to have a non-incestuous father who is both afraid and ashamed to love him.

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End of the world.... Armageddon.... Judgment Day.... Heaven and Hell.... what's up with all this? Siimple and straightforward: this world will have soon fulfilled its purpose. the product of a world like this one is one single perfect human being. And this perfect human being saves all of this brothers and sisters who wish to be thus saved from whatever imperfection it is that caused every single one of them to fail to notice that the human being is intended, by deliberate and exceedingly intelligent design, to be incestuous, and that the failure of the human race stems from the incest taboo. When this one perfect human being has completed his awakening, he himself conjures a fresh new world for himself, his family and his lovers in which to proceed with the fulfillment of the purpose of the human race, which is to enjoy happiness. the one perfect person saves everyone from what would have been their fate if there had been no perfect person.

satan becomes the god of the imperfect, and in order to divorce from him and marry the christ, a man has to strive to become perfect. there is one perfect man, and as many perfected (saved) men as want to be saved.

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brothers,

in order to get over your habit of clinging to your thoughts about your experience so that you can just have the experience, you need to learn to have faith in the omniscient god who dwells within everything, including yourself, so that you can rely on him to remind you what you were thinking so you dont have to worry about forgetting what you were thinking. the only possible way that this can ever take place is if your father is willing to be your lover.

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There is a ruling family. It is incestuous. It is the family responsible for the creation and the upcoming destruction of this world. it is the family that knows how to be happy, and their power derives from the fact that they are happy and fulfilled. I sincerely believe that this family has the surname of Fuck. I believe that I am a member of this family.

The opportunity will soon be presenting itself for all those members of the human race who have not already burned their bridges in this respect to marry into this family and to change their name to Fuck. Those who refuse this opportunity will live eternally in regret at having failed to fulfill the purpose of their existence by becoming a member of the one incestuous family that is the only permanent reality that exists.

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Imagine this as a contest, and let's say I offer $100K as the prize for the winner. The contest is to see who can come up with the most erotic fantasy, as judged by a panel of women selected by the entrants in the contest.

In announcing the contest I would mention that I myself would enter, and that my entry would simply be my own depiction of reality, such as it is, which I believe is naturally and by definition the most erotic fantasy possible.

I wonder if anyone would even bother to enter, since so few people think of themselves as expert in the erotic arts.

I would insist upon women as judges, because the shame of men would keep them from voting honestly, whereas I think women can accept the erotic nature of reality more readily.

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indeed, we live in the having of what is by definition the most erotic possible fantasy, being generated by the One Mind itself. erotic energy is simply the energy of love and happiness that sustains life. if you do not believe that erotic energy is inherently good then there is no place for you but in the world in which erotic energy is completely absent, the place known as hell.

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One Sentence Definition of Hell:

The realm of pure misery, a dark rat hole in some far corner of whatever world actually exists, wherein live the numerous immortal souls who choose to become human beings but who, when the truth of what human beings were designed to be is explained to them, fail to accept, appreciate and/or rejoice in the truth that the human being was conceived by an inventor (whether you call Him/Her Father God or Mother Nature) who did not have the incest taboo in mind when he invented them, and that a tribe, nation, race or world of human beings that accommodates the incest taboo will fail to produce happiness and will eventually become a realm of pure misery, a Hell.

One Sentence Definition of Heaven:

Any realm of human existence in which no accomodation is made for shame and the incest taboo becomes a Heaven.

One Sentence Introduction to Satan:

The pseudo-god who is nothing but a rebel against the actual Creators of this world and who decided a long time ago that he would rather rule in Hell than serve in Heaven and so became the Liar who tells the Biggest Lie of all: that there is any hope for human happiness in a world that accommodates an incest taboo. Satan calls himself Prince Reuben. He's also been known as Adam and Abraham. I won't tell you his name, but I will tell you that he lives amongst you here in Seattle. He's a former close friend of mine, a man I admired more than just about any other man I ever knew. He is very charming, charismatic and multi-talented and is known to many as a champion of justice. He just doesn't tell anyone that he is the original advocate for mortality and the incest taboo that causes mortality and is therefore the author of all misery and death.

The Antichrist: Satan's protégé Cain, the Antichrist, also lives here in Seattle, along with the mother of Cain, the very sick penis-envying woman named Eve who is also called Allah who tricked Cain into breaking Adam's incest taboo in order to shame him and has used her son's shame to rule him ever since. Cain is the one who invented the idea of empire and was intent upon ruling the world. He is the original fascist. Cain, like his mentor (in Hell a mentor is also an enemy because mentoring in Hell is about teaching shame and hatred) Reuben, also hides his true and profoundly ashamed self by masquerading as a champion of social justice.

Judgment Day: The "by-when" day in 2012 when you will be judged by your own heart as to whether or not you are capable of happily being what a human being was designed to be, which is a being of happiness. If you are not willing to do what it takes to be happy, something that involves acceptance of human nature being essential incestuous, by Judgment Day, you will be given up on as a fallen soul, doomed to an eternity of misery.

Satan, Allah and Cain are the pantheon of gods of the phobia and taboo laden people of this world, even if none of them are true gods, but are in fact anti-gods. they will remain the gods of the people of this world until and unless they renounce Satan's lies and accept the truth that human beings were designed for Love and not for the Shame and Incest taboo that Prince Reuben has sold to this world as the most evil bill of goods anyone could have ever come up with.

The punishments of Hell are self-inflicted and you will have no one to blame but yourself and your pseudo-god Satan for your fate if it's where you end up.

This is an official warning to the people of this world as far as I, the person who has been claiming for two years to be the Christ, am concerned, about the nature of the situation that you are in as an immortal human soul.

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The lies that the human race has fallen for, that are the cause of all of its misery, and that have brought it to the brink of self-annihilation are the following:

There is something wrong with men loving one another;

There is something wrong with family members loving one another;

Men decide for themselves what it means to be a man;

Men can and should compete with one another for dominance;

People should cloister themselves in nuclear families wherein the uninhibited expression of affection is prohibited between all members, except the father-mother couple who should limit the expression of their affections exclusively to one another;

That there is any hope whatsoever for a successful and happy realm of human existence when the nuclear family, homophobia and the incest taboo are allowed to be the fundamental and unchallenged laws of human existence.

People should not talk about shame and ignorance or the part that they play in the failure of the human race to have happiness.

The Liar who sold this bill of goods to the human race lives among us; he is a resident of Seattle as a matter of fact. He likes to call himself Prince Reuben, but he is known in religion as Satan. He is the one who decided, before this universe was even created, that he would rather rule in Hell than serve in Heaven.

Reuben masquerades as an advocate for the dispossessed, but in reality he is the advocate for Hell. His lies are the cause of all the misery of this world. Prince Reuben is the god of the people of this world who subscribe to his lies, who believe in the necessity of the nuclear family, homophobia and the incest taboo, who would resist accepting the truth that the very good inventor of the human being intended that fathers be the lovers of their sons. Reuben has a lot of followers - the men of this world who believe in his lies and who thus are not in a love relationship with their fathers and sons or their Creator. These men are in a real sense the sons of Satan.

His number one son is his protégé, the Antichrist, who originally incarnated in this world as Cain, the murderer of his brother Abel, the Christ. (The Christ is the one person who eventually awakens to the truth and exposes the lies of Satan.) Cain, like Satan, is incarnated in this world at this time, resides in Seattle, and masquerades as an advocate for the people who would appear to be oppressed by the ruling class, which is really a code name for the nation of Israel -also known as the Roman Empire- that does indeed rule this world.

Cain and Reuben, the Hero and the BS Artist, along with Allah, the mother of the antichrist, are the Adversaries of the God who is Love and who created this world and of the Nation of Tribes of His Lovers who are by definition, having chosen to live according to His will, the Creator's chosen people.

The oppression that the major leading enemies of the Creator claim to fight against is the oppression that is required in order to maintain order in a world of men who subscribe to the lies of these very enemies. The oppression that the enemies of God pretend to fight against is actually the necessary repression of men who would, if left to their own devices, have turned this world into a Hell realm a long time ago in their ignorance and denial of the Truth of what a human being is intended to be and in their attachment to the shame that prevents them from knowing what a human being is.

Cain is the original victim of the incest taboo invented by his father Adam (Reuben/Satan), having been tempted by his mother, Eve (Allah), to break it, and thus has been made a slave to shame. These are the leaders of the people of this world who support and uphold the incest taboo. The Liar and rebel against God who is its inventor, the woman who tempted her own son to break it, and that son who broke it and succumbed to his mother's rebellion against his father. These are the "spiritual" leaders of the hell-bound people of this world who accept as an article of unquestioning Faith these lies perpetrated by the enemies of the author of Creation.

Those who renounce the Lies of Satan and ask forgiveness for their acceptance and embrace of his evil lies and for their participation in the needless suffering and ruin of this world will be forgiven by the Creator. Those who do not renounce the lies of Satan will be left with him in the world that he elected to rule over. Judgment Day is in 2012. It is the day by when you will have judged for yourself whether you want to go with the Incest Tribe on its blissful journey through eternity, or whether you will stay with Prince Reuben in his world of shame.

The secret Nation of Tribes of human beings who have not fallen for the lies of Satan rules this world. The Nation that would have been exterminated by the followers of Satan had it not remained in hiding has won the Darwinian struggle for dominance. Israel is the true name of this nation, though this name has been co-opted by another nation, some of whose members masquerade as the children of God but who nevertheless subscribe to and promote Satan's lies. The true Nation of Israel will soon declare victory in the genocidal war between the followers of Satan and those of the God who created the Universe in which we all have our existence.

Those who know and accept what human life really is are the winners in the struggle against the armies of Orcs that Satan has deployed against them. There may be a few battles left in this war, but it is all but won by its long-ago predicted winners.

I stress that the wars for survival between the ashamed and the unashamed are genocidal wars in a Darwinian struggle between men who do compete with one another for the very right to exist. I highly recommend joining the Tribe that wins this struggle, the Tribe of those who say yes to Love, when the opportunity presents itself to you in the near future.

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hinduism, buddhism, judaism, sufism, taoism and christianity are all parts of an expression of truth that has been given to the world by all of the same people in different incarnations. the only outlier in the panoply of religions is islam, the religion of the god of shame.

islam is the only religion on earth that is founded on complete lies. it is satan's religion. well, actually it is allah and cain's religion, the rebels of hell who rebel against satan. cain is satan's protoge, and their sickness is such that the protoge rises up in rebellion against his own mentor and father. that's how things work in hell.

i published on this subject some time ago, and i am just confirming that i am still of a belief that islam is a lie, whereas all of the other major religions are based on an experience of truth. islam is pure blackness, pure wickedness, pure lies, pure evil. it is a direct affront to the Creator himself. i am not afraid to say this most unpolitically correct thing because i understand who mohammed is, who allah is, what their motives are.

i've slammed institutional judaism, i've slammed christiandom, i've slammed islam, the only religion that i haven't slammed is hinduism, and if you look at it, hinduism is perhaps the most profound religion on the planet, not as pertinent to current events as christianity, but hindusim is the only religion in which people are taught that god himself walks among the people of this world. hinduism has all of the basic truths and is the least corrupted, in spite of being the oldest of the major religions (I consider buddhism to be a sect of hinduism).

look at how men treat women and you can see how much or little shame that men have. men who abuse their women are the most ashamed men. if you look at different tribes you can clearly see that the men of ishmael's tribe, the arabs, are an order of magnitude more abusive of their women than the men of any other religion or culture. ishmael's tribe is the tribe of the most ashamed men incarnating on earth. islam as a whole encourages the abusive treatment of women. it may be true of all islamic societies, or it may be substantially more true of the arabs that it is of, say, teh indonesians and malaysians.

abusive treatment of women by men is CERTAINLY an indicator of shame. Has ANYONE in the world of people who talk about issues relating to abuse EVER pointed this out before? abuse of women corresponds directly to the degree of shame in the men of that particular group being observed.

men who are ashamed only allow the women who they have intimate relations to know their secrets. and so they want to oppress the women because they know the secrets of their shame. ashamed men are incapable fo truly loving women.

islam is pretty much completely devoid of love. there is no love in islamic cultures, the men hate even their wives and daughters. the men of islam are willing to agree among themselves to kill or shun those women who get to know their collective shame secrets. imagine a culture that persecutes the victims of rape!!! what could be more awful than that. how can the politically correct people of the western world overlook this and claim that islam is as valid as any other religion? in my opinion islam is a DISEASE that ought to be eradicated from earth. it is a reinforcer of shame and supports all of the evil that shame begets. the religion of men who ostracise the women who these men decide to rape. what could be a more evil religion, a more evil tribe than that. moslems are like the orcs from the lord of the rings. all people who are committed to shame are orcs, and so southern man is also an orc. but at least in this culture, even in southern man territory it is possible for men to be shamed in to correct behavior, but islam is past that point. shame completely rules islam.

men like this have no business living as human beings. they SHOULD be given one chance to reform or be sent to hell as soon as possible becuase they are such a negative force in teh world.

get a whole culture like that going and what you have is institutionalized abuse of women. "trailer park" culture is really the same thing. prem rawat once said a disparaging thing about trailer park people. it was unusual. he's referring to shame. he's never expressed his opinion of islam pub,licly to the best of my knowledge, but i'd be willing to bet anything that his feelings about islam correspond at least roughly to my own. ditto neal young.

interesting, as far as i know, malaysia is the only islamic country outside of africa that prem rawat has visited. as far as i can recall, he's never spoken before an audience in an arabic country, nor has he spoken in pakistan, bangaladesh, indonesia or the north african countries like egypt. these are some of the most populous islamic countries. but prem rawat has spoken in malaysia. and he has also visited and had a receptive audience in the west african countries of ivory coast and ghana. these are african cultures that have adopted islam, but don't seem to have the same ugly women-abusing tendencies of arabian people.

of course not all moslems are guilty of the crimes that obviously the islamic society is generally guilty of. even still, one wonders why the more enlightened moslems aren't speaking out more vociferously against the ugliness of the aggregate attitude of Islamic men.

i still feel that the forces of "the green army" could soon issue an ultimatum to all moslems to immediately renounce their religion or be destroyed. i just see islam as being totally offensive to god himself. imagine being the living god who created this whole universe, providing the love that sustains everything, to be living in this world amidst the human race that is totally ignorant of the gift you are giving each and every member of the human race, and to have this religion in your face that is a complete lie about who you are, even giving a false name to the deity. Allah is the god of shame, that's all there is to it. how could not the Creator be competely offended by islam, a so-called religion whose very purpose is to thwart the Creator and his allies and suppress the truth about who the Creator is? islam is the religion of cain, the religion of those who resent the creator, who resent reality being what it is.

islam is a cesspool seething with the worms of shame.

i am one whom many people would testify to thinking of as being an impassioned pacifist. i claim to have been mohandas gandhi in his previous incarnation simply because gandhi's self-expression seems to resonate powerfully with my own feelings. in other words, someone who thinks of himself as being an all-time great pacifist would be willing to personally issue such an ultimatum to the people of islam.. renounce your religion of lies and shame or be sent to your doom. they are going to hell anyway, unless they renounce their beliefs, so why not just get on with it?

look at how islam fights against the people of ALL of the other major religions: hindus, jews, christians. islam is darkness, the darkest force in this world. this war really is in a sense the war between christianity and islam because it is the war between cain and abel, and islam and christianity are the highest expression of these two forces in the world.

sure, there are plenty of deeply shamed souls in christiandom, "southern man" is better suited to islam than to christianity, but there is nothing like islam when it comes to institutionalised shame.,

really, protestantism with all of the homophobic urges that it expresses is really christianity trying to be islam. the homophobic christians are moslems wearing the clothes of christianity. i've said all this before, but its worth reiterating since many of my views have evolved over time.

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i am saying the same things that enlightened masters have been saying since the beginning of time. there is nothing new under the sun. be here now. know thyself, the kingdom of heaven is within you, god is love, god is everything omnipresent, omniscient, omnipotent, life itself is immortal.

the only difference between what others have said and what the son says in the end is that he elaborates on the situation with a level of specificity as never before in the history of this particular world. he is the one who points out things like what exactly is the nature of the lie that the father of all lies tells. he is the one who points out the exact cause of ignorance. he is the one who points out the exact cause of all misery and mortality itself: the incest taboo.

people are happy to believe that someone like, say, yogananda was an enlightened master, but they just cannot accept that someone confronting their own shame, which yogananda did not, is speaking from the same experience that all of those masters like yogananda kept secret.

watched the film about martin luther with ralph fiennes last night. what an absolutely hugely important life. i would certainly like to know who martin luther was. though it would appear that what he did may have actually been damaging to the roman church and it paved the way for the feedom of religion that amounts to an exceedingly dangerous free market in religion, he comes across in the film as very sincere, a saint. there is so much history that people have no comprehension of whatsoever.

the thing that people fail to understand about history is that the forces that appear to be evil, forces like rome, like the fascist gvt of the usa, are essential to the maintenance of civilization.

it is simple. people are ignorant and they are afraid of what they are ignorant of.

but amazingly enough, what it is that people are ignorant of is pure goodness. people are afraid of the contents of the psyche itself, as if the psyche were essentially dark, when in reality psyche is essentially light.

the christ delves all the way into the mystery that is a mystery only because people are afriad of it. the christ is the ONE AND ONLY person who comnpletely conquers ignorance. and so all happiness is because of him. because for some reason, existence begins for EVERYONE with ignorance.

someone HAS to overcome ignorance, and not only once in all of time, but periodically someone needs to venture all the way into what is. and that person is the charlie who becomes the new god. and everyone who wants to follows him into the light. and those who elect not to follow him fulfill the essential function of being the ones to experience the misery that appears to be the necessary counterpart to the happiness of those who go to the light.

it's brutal, but it is what is, and it is what works. it's how something exists in the midst of nothingness. what is rewards the good and punishes the bad. it's just how everything emerged out of nothingness. the christ braves the most fearsome terrain that is too forbidding for EVERYONE else. only he can rely upon his own goodness and can realize that reality could ONLY be controlled by the good, because he realizes that faith is what allows the samadhi that seems to be the source of all power. he who can attain the greatest samadhi, which requires faith, is the all powerful one. thus the christ is by definition the most spiritually powerful person to come into existence in this world, in ignorance along with everyone else.

may 30

gratitude - when there is gratitude there is happiness and peace,

where there is no gratitude there is suffering.

we are all blessed with the greatest possible blessing, human existence, so where is the gratitude? where is teh expression of gratitude if gratitude? certainly not enough in just the platitudes that pass for expressions of gratitude that people say before they have meals together.

where is the effort to find out to whom we owe our gratitude>? i am the only one who made this effort.

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what is "meditation?"

it is the practice of allowing yourself to see what you see, to hear what you hear, to feel what you feel. to be what you are. that's all it is. to learn to focus your attention perfectly on the experience of existing, which is to FEEL what you are feeling, and to hear what you are hearing and to see what you are seeing, is to attain enlightenment, to gain immortality, to become whole, to be fulfilled, to really exist, to get over the fear of existence,.

this is what meditation is about. no one is getting anywhere with their mediation practives, because they have failed to address what it is that is causing them to be afriad of existing in the first place. what meditation teacher is telling their students that shame is the cause of the problem that meditation attmepts to address????? no one. i am teh only one tal;king about shame and i am a pariah. i am an outcast. so only BOGUS teachers can get anywhere as teachers. even prem rawat cannot talk about WHY people would even want his knowledge in the first place.

you have to let yourself BE the everything that god is. and you cannot resist the experience of existing. otherwise you are shutting him out and yourself out from him. you have to trust existence or you cannot exist in a world of happiness., you have to trust the god in whose mind you exist. you cannot exist in someone's mind and hate that person. you chose to come into existence in his mind, you MUST love him or you are just a very unfortunate being.

he IS going to show himself to you, and when he does, if you are not in a mood to love, you are going to be very disappointed with what has become of you.

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this thing called life, or existence, has a feeling about it. it IS nothing BUT a feeling, really. everything is made from this feeling. it is the feeling that human beings associate with erotic or sexual arousal.

just wrap your mind around that one sentence before you move on to consider anything else i am saying. when you GET that existence has a feeling, and that this feeling is the feeling of ecstasy, then you will understand everything there is to understand. then it will, for you, become a matter of learning to have the experience of FEELING what you are, which IS a feeling,

by the way, this feeling i am talking about it has a Word associated with it. if this feeling was embodied in a person or a god or whatever, a human being, either mortal or immortal, would have this word as his name.

in fact, i think this word would almost have to be the name of this person because this person is the person you would want to be talking to when you said that word that expressed this feeling. as far as i can tell from my own experience, but obviously not because anyone on this planet told me, the word associated with the feeeling of existence itself, and therefore potentially the name of the creator of this world, is fuck. because, as is true for many people in this world, it is true for me that when i FEEL this feeling of existence in the form that it is experienced which is erotic ecstasy, , i want very much to say this word "fuck." it just feels so damned good to say it, it's a part of the experience of ecstasy to say this word, the Word that was in the beginning, that was with god and that was god. Fuck.

when you are ready to worship a god who is the feeling of erotic arousal and whose name corresponds appropriately with this feeling, you will be ready to love your god with all of your heart, soul and mind, as jesus said as a man must in order to enter the kingdom of heaven.,

he also said that no man would enter the kingdom of heaven but by himself. and i concur, that nmo man shall enter the kingdom of heaven without learning what ONLY i have learned, who and what our creator is, and even his name. you cant love your god with all of your soul if you might hate him because his name is fuck. you need to LEARN TO LOVE the god whose name is fuck or you are going to be toast in a short amount of time. even if his name is not fuck, you should be ready to love him as if it were. because his feeling is certainly consistent with the name fuck and so you will need to have the feeling that you would be having such that calling him by the name fuck was the most ecstatic experience you had ever had.

ask yourself this: why wouldnt the god who is love and by whose mercy anyone exists in happiness at all, want those who live by his grace to say the most beautiful word to him. why wouldn't you want to give that to him? because you don;t really want to exist? or because you do want to exist and you have some other agenda other than love? what could be better than loving a god who is love in return for his loving us? what more could you want? so why would you want to deprive him of your love and praise be refusing to say the word that EVRYONE loves to hear said in a loving way?

my creator and lover, i will say your name to you forever whatever it is, because i will love saying it to you. i just think fuck is the name that suits you best. why would you have chosen "god" "allah" "jahovah" "yahweh" for a name, when fuck suits you so much better?

if this god to whom i pray is not the god you want, then really you are saying you dont want to exist. because your behavior indicates that it is an experience that you do want, but that you are afraid of. when you realize that he is very loving and kind, you ought to rejoice in your relationship with him, for it will give you peace and happiness forever. if you reject him, then you reject existence itself.

beware dear reader, what i am talking about is the matter of whether or not you really want to exist, and i am saying is that existing while not wanting to exist is a terrible terrible fate that NO ONE is in a position to do anything about.

if you cant love a god who is love, then you are a very unfortunate being. you will never be able to get over your problem if you dont get over it in the next seven years.

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i would not be surprised if someone accused me and neil young of conspiracy. here i am in san francisco, living on haight street, hanging out, smoking dope and experiencing profound enlightenment experiences in golden gate park,,, and apparantly neil young lives nearby,

they will say that during these days while i was living here, he and i were secretly meeting and discussing the things we were going to say. and of course the testimony of the girl who i am here in sf to spend time with, my lover of the past 3 1/2 years, the woman who i am enjoying in the incredible incestuous fantasy i am having as the living incnarnation of the goddess, the mother of the father and the son, the sweetest teletubbie goddess in the universe, would be critical if testimony were taken to consider the accusations of conspiracy. i will just call this girl mary.

mary will be testified to by all of her peers in the class she is with in school as having an unususally high degreee of integrity and that she seems to be an unusually enlightened human being. the faculty in her school will concur.

the enemies of truth are going to have to take the word "enlightened" and do to it what they did to the word "liberal" in order to get people to buy into their ridiculous accusations against us.

i think i've said it before , but i will say it again. when these kinds of accusations start flying, i will insist that everyone agree that the same lie detector machine and expert be used to determine the veracity of the various statements that are made in presenting the respective cases of myself and my fellow accused, and our accusers nthat were used in the episode of Dr. Phil in which a child was being accused of raping his sister, subjecting him to the greatest humilation that a human being could ever be accused of in this incest taboo loving world. if those tests were good enough for that boy, then they should satsify ANYONE on any matter whatsoever. because i will pass lots of lie detector tests about who told me to say what i have said, and people will say that the tests are no good.

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i've named many musical artists who have produced music that suggests to me that they are members of the nation of israel. of course neal young and lennon are two who i have named many times, along with dylan, garcia, dave matthews, daniel lanois, peter gabriel the other beatles and many others. one who has always been on my list but that i may have forgotten to mention in my writings is bruce cockburn, whose live album circles in the stream is full of songs that suggest a profound love of god and the christ that i believe could only come from having had some kind of a psychedelic enlightenment experience. his are some of the most beautiful devotional songs i've heard.

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day after day my e mail box is empty in spite of my own conviction that i alone am speaking the essential truth of human existence on planet earth. as of yet, not one single person has come to me asking me to show them anything at all of what i am experiencing.

occaisionally i get a note from someone who came to hear me talk back when i was saying things that weren't so confronting, often to express their displeasure with what i have to say. my vampire friend dy is the only person who writes to express his general concurrance with what i have to say. there are a few like my friend j.l. who can tolerate hearing what i have to say, but even he dismisses.

i am one of the most lonely people in the world as a result of speaking truths that an ashamed human race does not want to hear. ignorance is so powerfully reinforcing because it is based in shame. people are ashamed of their ignorance so they deny it. ignorance, shame and denial are a formidable combination.

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in the struggle between love and shame there are many casualties. this is just how things are. you really do not want to be on the side of shame when you get right down to understanding the implications of this struggle. but it is your right, and you are given a choice. if you prefer shame to love, so be it.

but please do understand that these two ARE opposites. the god who created this world created it out of love, and shame is the anti-existence that is the opposite of the love that is existence. the love that this and all universes are made of is the love between unashamed human beings, including the human being who invented what human beings are, the almighty love god.

. if you are a man and do not want to participate in the generation of the love that creates and sustains universes, then you do not want to be what men were invented to be and you will be left to the only other existence for a man in the end, the existence of those who have rejected being what a human being is, who live forever in a realm of non-existence in shame. it is not at all a fun place to be, though people who like fighting and killing and who love to hate people will find comfort there, whereas Heaven, where men love one another, may give them "the willies."

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i believe that a lot of important clues about the truth have been divulged through history chanel programs over the past few months. it seems that someone who knows what is going on is contributing to the material on that network.

one possibility that the history channel programs have brought up repeatedly is that the planet may be struck by an asteroid. i wont go so far as to predict this, but it certainly seems possible that someone in this world knows that the earth is indeed going to be struck in the time between now and the end in 2012 and that this is why the emphasis on asteroids at the history channel.

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men who fall for the lies of satan, the lies that men must not love one another, not even their own sons, become miserable brutes. to the degree that they refuse to love they become miserable and brutish.

this lie is what sets men on the course that leads to endless wars and strife, to slavery, to oppression, to all kinds of injustices, to self destruction.

civilization itself could not exist if it were not for the fascism, the control of brutes, orchestrated by pontifex maximus. life on earth would long ago have become "post-apocalyptic" if the brutes had not been controlled by fascism.

all of history, and much of human culture, can be seen simply as tactics for controlling brutes.

for example, the purpose of beer, which contains the powerfully sedative herb hops in addition to alcohol and is heavily advertised on television programs that appeal to the brutes, is to sedate the brutes.

the prupose of the television programs that appeal to the brutes, is to hypnotize the brutes.

the elected leaders of the USA seem to encourage activities which cause diseases like obesity in order that the brutes be suppressed by such diseases. the ashamed are encouraged and led by the fascist rulers to have even more to be ashamed of. becuase this is how you keep brutishness down, until the moment when the truth is finally revealed and those who have forsaken the causes of brutishness leave this world and leave the brutes to their own devices.

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the liars who tell the lies that are the cause of all misery encourage people to believe that their leaders are the cause of the misery. people blame fascism for their misery, when in reality their misery is the cause of fascism. they think people like karl rove are the cause of the injustices of this world, when in reality, without the likes of karl rove the brutes would have long ago taken over and everything would have collapsed into crude barbarianism.

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now that i've gotten down to the kernal of truth, my posts have become redundant. its just that there is really nothing else meaningful to say about the truth than the truth, which is that the Creator of this world and the inventor of the human being had in mind that human beings would love him and one another.

men who refuse to love fail and turn their worlds into Hells. what more can i say?

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the three lies that the human race has fallen for that are the cause of all misery and of death itself, and that have brought the human race to the brink of its self-annihilation are the following:

1) that there is anything whatsoever wrong with men loving one another

2) that there is anything whatsoever wrong with members of a family loving one another and

3) that there is any hope whatsoever for any outcome other than pure misery when these taboos and phobias are adopted as the fundamental beliefs and laws of a human race.

the father of these lies is a person who is presently incarnated in this world and who resides in seattle and who is respected as a leader by his peers in his chosen profession. this person likes to call himself Prince Reuben, but in scripture he is referred to as Satan.

the protoge of Satan, the Antichrist, who incarnated as Cain and killed his brother Abel, an incarnation of the son of God, is also a person who is presently residing in Seattle and who is respected both locally and world-wide as a leader by his peers in his chosen area of endeavor.

Both Satan and the Antichrist masquerade as advocates for the oppressed, as proponents for "social justice," when in truth their lies are the source of all oppression, injustice and unhappiness.

those who are willing to repudiate the lies of Satan and his minions will be leaving this world soon. those who are unwilling to repudiate the lies of Satan and his minions will be staying and will be left to their own devices and those of their leaders.

Satan is the god of every person who accepts the incest taboo and homophobia.

The almightly god who created this world is very willing to forgive human beings for having believed and followed the lies of his Adversary; but he is not willing to create or sustain worlds for those who are unwilling to give up the beliefs that will cause those worlds to turn into Hell. One world turned into Hell is enough as far as He is concerned. The proof is in. The incest taboo and homophobia are the ruin of everything good.

JUdgment Day is in 2012. It's the day by when you will have made a judgment for yourself as to whether or not you are willing to Love or whether you are going to allow Shame to rule your existence for the rest of eternity.

The author of this statement is the leader of the secret Tribe of 144,000 Lovers - those who originally incarnated as the descendants of Jacob, the son of Isaac, himself another incarnation of Abel, the son and lover of god - who understand that homophobia and the incest taboo are nothing but symptoms of the disease called shame, and who have gotten over this disease and who will soon be inviting others to join their tribe.

may 29

Here is the predicament of the human race in a nutshell:

If it so happened that there was a tribe or nation of people in this world who wanted to live according the the will of the person who invented and created this world, that is, a tribe or nation whose men were WERE WILLING TO LOVE ONE ANOTHER like the Creator insists that men must, they would be genocided out of existence by people who are unwilling to coexist with men who love one another. The devotees of the God who created this world would be exterminated. Because they would be without shame, and unashamed people are like mirrors, they make ashamed people conscious of their shame; and the ashamed will do whatever it takes to destroy those who make them feel ashamed.

My friends, there is such a Nation of tribes whose men ARE willing to love one another., It has been called Israel, though it has nothing whatsoever to do with the nation-state located in the territory known as Palestine. It consists of something like 144,000 men who originally incarnated in this world as the descendants of Israel or Jacob, the son of Isaac, and the women who have chosen to travel with them. Judaism is the husk of the culture that Israel left behind when they moved on to other more obscure identities in the true diaspora.

Because they would otherwise be exterminated, the nation of incestuous tribes hides itself from the taboo-burdened people of this world and carries out its defense against genocide underground. The true Israel is underground, it carries out its task of gaining control of the insitutions of power in this world through secret societies such as the Illuminated Freemasons, the Jesuits, The order of skull and bones. US politicians are all members of this nation. The true Israel controls the global monetary system, its gold reserves, its largest military machine, its most lucrative business (opiates). Israel, the nation of masturbating boys, rules this world.

Israel is about to declare victory in the genocidal war that is the reason this world of mortality ever existed, a war that most of the people who subscribe to the incest taboo have been completely ignorant has been going on in their midst for six thousand years. It is a war between the children of the god who is love and the children of the love god's enemy, the Liar named Satan who promotes the failed idea that men can ignore the intentions of the inventor of the human being and define what men are for themselves. Satan, the promoter of homophobia and the incest taboo is the god of everyone who subscribes to the belief that the incest taboo has any purpose other than ruin and damnation.

Israel is the nation whose boys masturbate together, and therefore the nation whose fathers are the lovers of their sons. They are the psychedelic tribes that wheel through eternity in the universes created by their Gods, worlds that fill up with people who come at the suggestion of the nemesis of the Nation of masturbating boy-lovers, the fellow who calls himself Prince Reuben, that manly man who convinces men that they can create their own destinies without relying up the blessings of the child-like Love Gods who are the only ones capable of creating the universes human beings inhabit in the first place. I'm talking about the guy known in religion as Satan. He is the liar that tells the lie that men who do not masturbate together have a hope of coming up with a lifestyle that works. Satan's lie leads men into clinging to a way of life that is guaranteed to end up being pure misery for all involved.

Unashamed boys masturbate together, because shame is the ONLY thing that would ever keep them from doing something totally harmless that feels good and allows men to coexist in peace and prosperity. The boys without shame win the genocidal wars. They enjoy so many advantages in the stuggle for survival that it's almost like a joke. 144,000 lovers of god can defeat an army of a billion of satan's orcs if need be. it is remarkable that no one has ever stopped to think, "what if there was a tribe of men who loved one another, wouldn't they be able to rule the world?"

if anyone had ever asked this question, they would have quickly seen the evidence that i have seen that suggests beyond any doubt that the world is indeed ruled by such a tribe. in fact there is no way that it could not, because the boys who love one another and who masturbate together are the fit who survive the genocidal wars that are fought over what constitutes human existence in whatever world. this is very basic stuff here.

this is the ultimate darwinian truth: the tribe whose boys who masturbate together will survive and carry on after all other tribes have failed and turned whatever world they inhabit into a hell-realm absolutely devoid of love. the tribe of masturbating boys is the most powerful force in existence in any universe. no power can defeat them.

To those who might think that there is any chance that Israel will be defeated, I say, "We have not yet begun to fight." The end-times are upon this world, and this is the story. this is how it all comes down: you either accept or reject the truth that men who fail to love one another turn whatever world they inhabit into Hell.

it ALL boils down to the biggest taboo on earth, the one thing everyone forbids everyone else from even talking about. the incest taboo is the crux of everything, it is the crux of heaven and hell.

The incest taboo and homophobia amount to a worthless bill of goods sold to you by the enemy of all goodness, the BS artist named Satan. You will repudiate your subscription to this failed idea that would align you against the Creator himself, or you will perish into the most miserable fate imaginable, being left to your own devices with others who opted out of life when life presented itself. to exist forever in a state of non existence is, i regret to tell you, the fate of those who do not repudiate the ideas of Satan, in particular, the incest taboo.. it is a fate of unimaginable misery.

May 28

There is a guy who lives in seattle who is the actual living incarnation of satan, the adversary of the creator who decided that he would rather rule in hell than serve in heaven.

i call him prince reuben. i also call him the BS artist. i chose this name for him in part because os neil young's reference to "the hero and the artist" in greendale, having a late night shot and discussing their hope and dreams for the 21st century and mostly coming up with nothin'. the hero is another guy who lives in seattle, the antichrist, cain, ishmael, mohammed. the major leading social justice activist whose black heart is full of hatred.

satan has hubris, his protoge, the antichrist has hatred. in some ways, cain seems the worse of the two to me. anyway, this guy prince reuben told me the night before i had the incredibly intense experience of falling into Hell (while i was in the company of Prince Reuben) that he had seven years earlier had a past life flashback in which he realized that he and jesus had been best friends before "they went their seperate ways." i believe he is referring to the episode recorded in the bible when "Satan" visited jesus while he was fasting and tried to tempt him to join his plan to rule the world. reuben hates the christ, i do know this. on the rare occaisions when he speaks of him, there is hatred in his tone. he loves the man, but hates who he is. he loves me, but he can no longer be my friend, because he is ashamed. he did he best to get me off of my path, but it reached a point where he knew he was defeated. that he could not divert me from my path to awakening. yes, satan and the christ have done battle in this life. from what i can see, he seems to feel defeated.

this is prince reuben, the enemy of the incestuous gods, the liar who invites men to come into this world without telling them the truth that the gods who created it and all other worlds are incestuous. somehow satan and the gods got into some kind of a challenge, with satan claiming perhaps that he could be the inventor of a happy world, the gods insisting that only the worlds in which people accept an incestuous god can there be happiness. and thus the story plays itself out, and the gods of course end up winning the game of empire in satan's world.

anyway, the BS artist and i had become really good friends, in fact, that night when reuben told me he had been jesus's best friend was a high point in our friendship, because at that time i was coming to believe that i was the reincarnation of jesus, and to hear my friend claim to have been jesus' best friend was somewhat thrilling. it took me a while from that point to figure out that the guy i had come to believe was abraham was also satan. (i still believe that abraham was an incarnation of satan. see, the thing about satan is, he comes across as a really great guy! abraham is a famous biblical figure considered by all religious scholars as "good." i believe he was an incarnation of the same person who is both adam and satan.

anyway, i have a $!0,000 promissory signed by the BS artist, prince reuben. how did it come to pass that satan owes the christ ten grand? because i loaned it to him at a time when we were close freinds and he was in need of money. (i have provided lots of financial support to both the hero and the artist)

satan, the christ and the antichrist all owned a piece of poperty together, until about a year ago when the antichrist just couldn't tolerate my existence any longer, once he realized i was the one who had come to destroy him. i did them some favors that enabled them to continue to own the property in spite of their inability to qualify for financing without my name on the loan. so satan and the antichrist continue owning the property that we all owned together as a result of my willingness to help them out, even after they kicked me out of our partnership.

satan is the king of shame.

cain (the antichrist) the son of adam, the son of satan is the king of hatred that comes from shame.

shame is the parent, hatred and resentment is the child.

god is love. satan is shame, the son of shame is hatred. this is manifest in that the ghuy who IS satan does not seem like a hateful person, but simply as an arrogant one, whereas cain comes across as full of hatred..

again, this supports what i say that shame, not hatred is the opposite of love. hatred is the result of that which is the opposite of love.

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The Biblical story of Genesis says that man is made in the image and likeness of the gods.,

In other words, gods and men are two subspecies of homo sapiens, the human being.

What is the difference between these two types of human beings?

One, the mortal man, is sexually repressed, and the other, the god, is not.

Gods -immortal human beings - are not sexually repressed.

Men - mortal human beings - are sexually repressed.

sexual energy, eros, is the life energy that everything is made of. if you repress life energy, the energy of what life is made of, then you are mortal. if you do not repress this energy then you are immortal. simple as that. this mortal world is mortal BECAUSE of shame and sexual repression, the repression of life energy.

WHat are the differences in behavior between these two types of male human beings?

the most obvious difference is where is comes to incest.

Men are afraid of it and avoid even talking about it like the plague. For mortal men, incest is the biggest most powerful taboo.

Gods, on the other hand, revel in incest. it is the eroticism of incest that gives gods the infinite experience of ecstasy that empowers them to conjure universes into existence as the manifestation of their erotic fantasies.

If you do not want to be the participant in someone else's incestuous erotic fantasy, then you have no business being a human being, because this is the only way that a universe inhabitable by human beings can ever exist in the first place. if you find this unacceptable, then you have fallen into a very bad trap, a trap laid by a guy named satan who tells the lie that there is some -any- other possibility for a successful human existence other than as the product of such an erotic fantasy, one made all the more erotic by the high degree of liklihood that many people who choose to come and exist in such a world are going to fall into this trap of being unable to accept reality as it actually is.

the male human being capable of having the most erotic fantasy is, by definition, the most powerful being in existence. women may be the objects of erotic fantasy, but there is no woman with the powers of erotic fantasy who can have a more erotic fantasy than the gods who actually have the fantasies that generate universes. its just a difference between male and female human beings.

the goddess has a wish, happiness, and the god is the one who comes up with the plan that fulfills her wish. the cowgirl in the sand is ultimately in command of this place, but the ones who do the work of making it happen are the men who fight against and are victorious against all of those satan-like men who think that things would be better if THEY, rather than an incestuous god, were the one deciding what kind of world human beings are going to have, or to be the one to define what a human being IS... how terribly ignorant and arrogant.

universes get CREATED by gods who have the ultimate erotic fantasy, which is incestuous in nature,,, and the men who come to live in those worlds subscribe to the ideas of the enemy of the gods who created the world. satan becomes the leader of the men who would rather be the god themselves than love the god who actually is. this is the fallen state of the human race. men deny and fight against the gods who are the very source of their existence. and so they end up being left to their own devices, without the blessings of the love gods who are the ONLY hope of a happy human existence.

men have hubris and it destroyes them. the MEEK shall inherit the earth. the humble charlies win the wars of the brats and bullies who compete for dominance. it is so absurd really at how men, in their desire to be strong and powerful turn themselves into losers who will either be defeated in the end, or who will renounce their arrogant ways and come in total humility before the incestuous god whom they have denied and offended, and beg for his forgiveness.

anyone who is too arrogant to do this is condemned by their own arrogance. anyone who insists on carrying on their existence in denial of these truths is condemned by their own denial, their own shame.

shame will keep so many men from adopting the attitude of humility that will be required in order to even WANT to be in Heaven. shame will take so many men into hell, shame of the contents of their own hate-filled hearts in the face of the perfect love of the perfect lover and god.

those who accept the total defeat of satan's ideas and who renounce them and who are reborn in complete humility, who find the heart of a child within themselves will be saved from their own potential failures. no man who has not found the heart of a child within himself will attain the kingdom of heaven. all men who cling to a sense of themselves as being "adult" will perish. the heart of a child is required in order to attain the requisite humility..

all men who fail to find and become the child that they really are will have condemned themselves to an eternity of anguish at electing to be a human being and then failing to be what one is. it is so absolutely important that every man undersand what his options are. this is absolute devastation in the making, and each man must realize that if he is not completely remade into an entirely different person, he will endure an unbelievably terrible fate. Because a man CAN NOT bring about a termination of his existence, and if he rejects the very source of existence, then he is going to exist in a state of negative or anti-existence. not NON exixtence, but ANTI-existence. not a fun experience to have to endure forever.

May 27

Question: Which nation will survive the genocidal (Darwinian) wars between the various nations and tribes of unhappy men in this world?

Answer: The nation of men who are willing to do what it takes to be happy when it is revealed to the world in the very near future how a man can be happy, something not generally known to the human race at the present time. (It's been a bit of a secret until now.)

The one Nation that will survive the genocidal wars of this world of otherwise unhappy men is the Nation of the twelve tribes of happy men, sometimes known as Israel. (Since the time when its 144,000 members incarnated as the descendants of Israel (Jacob), this Nation has also gone by the name of Rome; Israel is also sometimes referred to as the Brotherhood, the Illuminati, Freemasonry, etc.)

The Darwinian struggle for survival among the tribes and nations of Planet Earth will be won by the secret society, or nation, of men about whom accusations of conspiracy have persisted (understandably, since they are true) for many hundred of years. Why will the happy men be the ones to win the genocidal struggle for dominance among men? Because happy men love and trust one another and this makes them far more effective than groups of men who do not love and trust one another; this amounts to an insurmountable advantage in the survival wars.

In order for a human tribe, nation or race to survive in the long run, its men MUST be happy. Unhappy men will turn a Paradise, what this planet was a mere six thousand years ago, into a Hell realm, what this world has become. Their nations and tribes will similarly self-destruct in the inevitable struggle for dominance within these social groups, the urge to compete, rather than to love, being as strong as it is in such men, who seek power and dominance in their futile quests for fulfillment.

When push comes to shove, the nation of men who are willing to be happy, Israel (not the Israel that occupies the territory known to many as Palestine but, rather, the underground nation of happy men who control the government of the USA, the narcotics traffic and the house of cards global money system, most members of which are not Jewish) will do whatever it takes to subdue and eventually destroy all other nations. And they will succeed. The Nation of Israel owns the gold that confers true money-issuing, rule-making and enemy-destroying powers. They have all the high cards in their hand.

In a world that goes by the rule that all is fair in love and war, Israel, the Nation of Lovers, has done what it takes to win the wars for survival. This Nation of Israel of which I speak will win the genocidal wars because its members are committed to doing whatever it takes for one nation to survive what would otherwise have inevitably become the total disaster of an entirely failed human race. And they have waited until the eve of the human race's self-destruction to lay down their hand and claim victory in the single war that has been raging throughout the duration of recorded human history.

And they invite anyone (other than those who have consciously conspired against them) who cares to join them to do so, so long as the men who would join are willing to accept and do what it takes to become happy as men. (Women who join must also be willing to accept men being what men were designed to be.)

That which is necessary in order for men to be happy, and therefore to exist in a realm of happiness, is not something that will seem particularly desirable or tasteful to a human race plagued, as this one is, with the incest taboo and rampant homophobia that the Adversary of the Creator of this world, that seemingly wonderful fellow who calls himself Prince Reuben (but who is known to many religious folks as Satan) concocted as a strategy in his rebellion against the Creator and then sold as the most evil bill of goods ever foisted upon a race of human beings.

For the purposes of what I have to say, Heaven is defined as a human-inhabited world in which all of the men are willing to do what it takes to be happy. Hell is defined as a human-inhabited world in which the men refuse to do what it takes to be happy. And Earth is defined as realm of human existence in which the men are ignorant of what it takes to be happy, some of whom will choose to become happy and some of whom will not once it is revealed how a man can be happy. (Those who will commit themselves to being unhappy when they learn how and yet refuse to do what it takes to be happy, would not so much as permit the measures necessary for happiness to be taken by anyone in their midst. Unhappy men do not like to be exposed to happy men, which is why the story of humanity begins with the unhappy and ashamed Cain (the Antichrist) killing the happy and unashamed Abel (the Christ).

In order for men to be happy, they must learn to allow themselves to fully exist; men cannot hold back from existence itself and be truly happy. The men of this world, "mortals," hold back from the full experience of existence itself, and therefore they cannot be truly happy, which is to say, they cannot be unconditionally happy, happy by virtue of simply existing. And so they die, because without happiness, who would want to exist forever? Mortals die because it's a necessary mechanism for dealing with the lack of happiness resulting from ignorance of where happiness comes from.

Unfortunately for those who in the end will refuse happiness, existence does not end with death. Death is just a part of an illusion of mortality that makes existence in unhappiness bearable. Men need to be saved from their ignorance of how to attain happiness because only those who do know how to attain this experience are going to be in the world in which men are happy, in a Heaven and not in a Hell, when the two factions - the willing and the unwilling to be happy - separate from one another when it is revealed to the world how a man can be happy.

Men who have not yet allowed themselves to fully exist are, by definition, not yet able to experience true unconditional happiness. In order that men may fully exist they must surrender into an experience of fully existing, the most fearsome possible experience for anyone who has not yet done so. Mortal men cling fearfully to their thoughts; they are fearful of forgetting what they are thinking and they are identified with a non-existent self whose sense of existence is based in this primal fear of the unknown of what existence really is.

Mortality is the pupa stage of human existence, in which the human being has not yet become self-realized, before the human being knows what a human being is made of. In order to become happy men need to let go of this clinging to the nothingness of thought and let go into their experience of existence itself, which is full of happiness because it is made of Love. The content of fearful thoughts is empty; there is no love in fear, in shame, in guilt, in negative thoughts.. But there IS love in all forms of sensory experience. Until they surrender into existence, men will never experience even a single moment of what it actually means to exist.

Mortal men by definition have not decided whether they want to exist because they don't yet know what it means to exist, and in order to find out whether it is something they want, they have to commit to it. This is a bind that men need help getting out of. And this is by design.

In order to surrender into the full experience of his own existence a boy MUST learn to be comfortable with the presence of the Living God in whose Imagination everything exists and who is present in the experience that occurs when one fully immerses one's self in any experience of life (other than the experience of holding back fearfully from experience). Basically, a boy needs a formal introduction to the Creator who dwells within himself, lest he live in fear of this Creator's presence and hold back from fully experiencing the sensations coming through his sense organs. A boy must get to know the Creator in order to surrender into what existence actually is. It is mandatory for the fulfillment of what a male human being is. And there is a specific Way that the Creator intended for this to occur.

We are self-conscious ideas living within a mindscape conjured in the Imagination of a fully self-realized male human being otherwise known as a god. We exist as experience machines (human beings) in a real-time erotic fantasy being had by a man who has fully surrendered into being what a man really is. This is all that has ever existed or ever will exist. Only a fully awakened, self-realized and unashamed man having the erotic fantasy that generates universes is capable of generating universes. A Big Bang is what comes about, in the Imagination of the One Mind that is all that exists, as a result of the orgasm that culminates the ultimate erotic fantasy that such men are capable of having together.

Men who believe the lies of Satan (mortality, fear, shame, guilt, homophobia, incest taboo) will resist hearing that such a world is the only available world in which to exist. Yet it is the truth that the only other existence available for men after Judgment Day will be the realm of anti-existence wherein dwell those who, like their leader Satan, refuse to accept Reality such as it is and who spurn the love of the Love God, who reject the proposition of the inventor of the realm of human happiness called Heaven. Those who reject the Creator's offer of eternal life in a realm of happiness are left with existence in non-existence, a very miserable state of being. I can testify to this, having visited its deepest depths myself, on the way to becoming what i am, on the way to understanding what life is really made of.

The way in which a boy learns to have the experience of surrendering to his God is to become the lover of his father, who himself has already become a lover of the God. The boy learns to love and surrender to the Creator through his love for and faith in his father. It is in the experience of erotic arousal that a boy is ultimately going to come up against his own fear of the presence of the Creator who is present in ALL experience, including the most intense sensory experience of all, the experience of erotic arousal.

The experience of erotic arousal is the experience of God's love. Eros is the Love that everything is made of. And so a father becomes the bridge for his son in discovering the erotic relationship that exists between men and the Living God in whose erotic fantasy we all have our existence. A son can feel the presence of his father as well as the god in the experiences of erotic arousal that are available to a boy who has been initiated properly into this experience, and this allows him to surrender into what is otherwise a fearsome experience, because he feels his father, whom he trusts, there with him in it.

Mortal men do not experience these levels of erotic arousal BECAUSE they are afraid of the experience of the presence of God in the experience and they have orgasm before they get to the point of being fully in the experience of this moment that is available to men first and foremost through the erotic experience. This practice of love of which I speak is the ultimate mindfulness or meditation practice. It is the practice of focusing ones attention (meditating) directly upon the experience of erotic arousal, which is the experience of god's love. In a word, masturbation. Masturbation is by definition the ultimate mindfullness practice. It is how a man knows and loves his Creator.

And his father is the person who is intended by design to initiate a son into this practice and the completely fulfilling experience of peace and happiness that it delivers. We humans are essentially erotic beings by nature in that the most intense experiences we can have are erotic in nature; not to mention the fact that both people and the universes they inhabit come into being as the result of the intensely pleasurable erotic experiences that human beings are designed to have. Therefore in becoming fully what they potentially are as men, men must become lovers of the Living God in whose Imagination they exist; there just is no other way to become fully what a man is. Impossible, by definition, because this relationship is what a man is designed for.

All men who cling to Prince Reuben's idea that men can be whatever they want to be, an idea that is really just an excuse for shame, will be clinging to a much less than whole self, for fear of becoming the whole self that they are. This amounts to saying that there is intended to be a rite of passage in a boy's life into becoming what a man is that is carried out when a son becomes the lover of his father. In this way a son is initiated into the experience that mortal human beings know nothing about but that they identify vaguely as "enlightenment." A boy becomes a happy man when he attains enlightenment, an initiation intended by the original inventor of the human being to take place in EVERY boy's life when he becomes his father's lover.

Prince Reuben is the one who insisted that there was some other way for men to be happy other than by loving and worshiping an incestuous and homoerotic God. Thus, Prince Reuben, Satan, is the god of every man who is not a member of the Nation of Israel. Until and unless a man gets with the Creator's program he is with Satan on the matter of what constitutes a man. To attain happiness a man must get with the way things are in the Creator's world, called Heaven (any world in which people live according to his will), in which sons are the lovers of their fathers, all men are lovers of the Creator, and all men are lovers of the Creator's presence in everything, including in one another.

If and when you join this Nation, the Happy Nation, according to scripture you will get married to your Savior - the one who rescued you from the Liar who convinced you that there is something wrong with love, who suckered you into a belief system that is the cause of potentially never-ending misery - whether you are a man or a woman; and if you have a son, when he comes of age he will join in the festivities as well. It's just one big happy incestuous family in the Love God's Heaven.

This is the One Nation under God, Israel, that will still be around in eight years from now. As a famous spokesman for the Nation of Israel, John Lennon, said, "I hope someday you'll join us, and the world will live as one."

If and when you finally decide that you will not be joining this nation, you will be with Prince Reuben, the leader of the ashamed, in his very own world. (I do not believe he will require his subjects to marry him, but I can't guarantee you that he won't demand some kind of affection from them.) His is a world without nations because it's all his. He is the one who signed up early on to be the ruler of Hell. Reuben, whose promise to his subjects is that no one in his world will ever again be confronted by the Nation of Unashamed Charlies, the incestuous mother, father, sister, brother and Willie-Wonka-God-lovers who give everyone in Reuben's world a really bad case of "the willies."

May 27

Bush and Co: The REAL monkey wrench gang.

The seemingly insane policies of the USA gvt, Bush administration polices, Clinton policies, Carter policies, the policies that would have been John Kerry policies, you name the President or the party, the policies that were implemented by these american governments amount to a whole lot of monkey wrenching. This is Satan's world, and the gvt of the USA works directly at the behest of people who have been battling against satan since before this world was conjured into existence. The environmental, social, economic and other forms of devastation promoted by the USA gvt are nothing but a conscious monkey wrenching campaign designed to leave devastation behind when the followers of the Love God leave this world to the followers of the Love God's nemesis, Satan.

All of the whining and complaining of the "Left" is just so much ignorance of what is really going on in this world. nothing but pure monkey-wrenching carried out happily by people who understand what is happening. Since a world of people who refuse to love is going to turn into Hell anyway, perhaps the god whose love they rejected might want to destroy the world he created for them in the first place.

Rome (the empire of Pontifex Maximus, the ruler of the world) is not the aggressor in the genocide wars, satan and his followers are parasites and they have been parasitising the Creator and his family for a long time. victims of parasites often take violent measures to destory the parasites that have attacked them. what human being would refuse to protect itself from a swarm of killer bees? WHo, if they had an intestinal parasite, would refuse for compassionate reasons to take measures to kill such a parasite? The people who seek to suck life energy from the Creator without contributing to its generation are parasites, and a world of such parasites is something that those who these parasites would attack might naturally wish to destroy.

God promised abraham (who i still believe is reuben/satan) that his son Isaac would be the leader of a great nation (Isaac is the Christ, and his nation is the true Israel, nothing to do with palestine). But god also promised abraham that ishmael would be the leader of many nations and that his descendants would be numerous. Perhaps ishmael is the leader of more than just the arab nations. ishmael is cain. Ishmael is mohommed, ishmael is the antichrist, and perhaps he is the father of all nations other than true israel. perhaps ishmael is the true father of the modern nation state of Israel, the one located in palestine.

May 24

I see and feel God in everything,

except I am not able to see and feel him in men who do not seek to know and feel him in everything. everything is of god, except men who refuse to be what men are, which is lovers of the god and one another. these men have satan as their god, and it is not possible to see the god in his enemy or in those who have made his enemy into their god.