I really have no reason to believe (116)

I really have no reason to believe that my mother is not a knowing agent of Allah and Satan...

I have always trusted people including, Satan, Cain, Ramer, Roth, Aal, Diana, Katie, Ptarmigan, Tom F., Goldie, Jim Page.. all of whom were my enemies. A lot of parasites have tricked me into believing that they were my friends, and if the worst liar of them all was my mother, how would i know if i didn't take her with a grain of salt? How would i know if i was not willing to suspend disbelief?

How do i know my mother is not the one who told me lies about the aches in my body that i thought were my own personal aches? Someone told me that lie, and she is certainly a candidate.

at this point i am 100% ambivalent about my mother Edith H Fairhall, and her behavior seems to be indicating to me that she is an evil demon. And so I am resisting her efforts to have me committed to Nurse Rachet. I just don't really know if she is not the worst demon of all, and i am better off believing that she is one when she is behaving as if she were.


And if it turns out that she is, I will have no remorse when she goes to her fate, along with her seeming allies, Satan and his minion, the Chief of the Fallan Souls who Prefer Oblivion to Life, Thomas A. Fairhall. It will be a shock to me, but the wicked witch will be dead and I will be free of Allah forever... certainly it stands to reason that Allah would send her most tricky liar to be my mother if she could. And why not? Why wouldn't this last incarnation of mine include a battle with the worst demon of all, Allah as mother.

So on we go into the fog of uncertainty... i seriously am leaning toward a belief that she is an agent of Allah.

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i am with my brother bill (115)

i am with my brother bill and it is very good and i am very happy to be with him,, for as long as he wants... carling green... my brother, my good brother.. he's awesome.. he's like kenny,, he can listen, he can hear, he can follow what i am saying and he KNOWs. the people who can understand me are the rawat family..

i am hoping to see susan soon.. aunt sea rawat... i want to share the good news with her..

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carling gets that our mama may be the bad mama... he gets it.. i mean, he's not sure either, but he get's that it is possible..

bill... i've always loved him and we've always been close even through difficult times together, the love was always there... i wanted him to be my lover when we were teenagers... i really did. he's my Rawat uncle; neil, susan and kenyatta's brother and arius's son. i think he's like me, but pure lover without the shaman.. he's just a lover. and he is lovable. my daddy knows the kind of people i like, they're my family.

he and i are really similar, he is very bright, he can follow me, his mind is very clear in spite of being labeled "mentally ill." bill's going to move back into the meridian house with me. if we are still here in seattle. i felt very happy to be back with bill,, i think we will give one another strength if indeed we have to get over a bad mother..

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bill told me today that jean, our brother tom's wife, had confided in him that our mother Edie had confided in her that she had been abused by her mother in some way.. not something i was aware of... it's just a little bit suspicious that i heard this today of all days... i am afriad to say my belief in my mother's goodness is slipping from me... she is looking worse and worse to me. and if so, then i cant wait to be free of her.

susan, kenyatta, kenny, bob, AWF, bill, neil, elton, raja ji, jacob, sky, lisa (misty), babysnowleopard, nina, arius, and everyone else, pretty cool family... i am so close to being ready to be with everyone.

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the uncharacteristically direct seeming e mail from neil that i got moments after i got done screaming at my mom on the phone is becoming more and more obviously just another puzzle.. it appears that perhaps once again "the next day the charges [against sun green] were all dropped..."

the word from bill was the police said that they couldnt find me, but i had never left the room, so i think my puppet master may be pulling a few puppet strings other than my own...

those two guys who brought me my papers didnt seem at all disbelieving when i said i was the christ,,, they nodded and wanted to talk mckenna with me.,,,

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who do i suspect of being batman (114)

who do i suspect of being batman villian worthy? the guy with Knid' @Y@s. and the black bard.

i think i might go out for a bowl of soup, some chocolate and do some vitamin P as Prince Rauven likes to call it.. vitamin P... i love it. and vitamin M... that's good too. i feel like maybe i need to blast the great glass elevator a little higher so i can get all of teh Knids latched on... give em every chance to grab hold,,, if anyone objects or disagrees, feel free to e mail me,,

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thinking about the play on names with david young's being a person who "belongs" to Neil young, as a jesuit me thinks, anyway, it occured to me that i would see Neil as a likely candidate to have been Carl Jung, and that this is the clue contained in his name,,, whoever Jung was is an absolute giant in my book

i read memories dreams and reflections, and there is one little detail that i recall standing outl,,, it was his dream of the giant phallus and the words, "this is the man killer" it reminds me of guru muharaj ji referring to the techniques as "min killers" the phallus kills the man, the false self.. of course in order to have been neil jung would have had to have been born after Darby's death and before neils birth but i am not bothering to check because it's more important to share the thought whether its right or wrong rather than only if i am corect. its the thought that counts.

when i abonandoned ship in westport and left my father there, i left him a note in which i named three men i admired from th 20th century, one being Jung, one being Einstein and the other Ohsawa. if i remember correctly and my dad probably remembers. (AW Fairhall, that dad).

I have many times said that i felt that mckenna is like the embodiment of human intelligence, that's why i identify him wiht the scarecrow. . i would name him as a candidate to have been Einstien, even though it seems like he'd have been too old, i think i will check now, after commiting to saying it...

nope born in 55 too late to be mckenna.. perhaps whoever einstein was has not returned.

speaking of genius, a guy who came to my talks a couple or three times was aaron, who believed himself to have been Leonardo Da VInci,,, and i was very willing to believe it could be true,,, he is a guy who is profoundly interested in calanders and the division and notation of time.. maybe he was involved with Mckenna in making the mayan calander,,,, LOL... never thought of that til now... he did seem very intelligent to me, so i think i will go with aaron as da vinci.

and then there is ohsawa... well, i still like him too.

i could see einstein having been the same as mark twain,, similarly wild personality and look.

i can see the possibility that the people of poland and the baltics probably have better karma than either the russians or germans... i like the poles i;ve known, plus, its a very devoitly roman catholiic nation.. and the fact that ann wigmore is from the baltics and other small clues i've gotten, makes me think that there is probably a solid healhty core of people there. scandanavians in general seems like they have better dispositons than people from central europe.

i am still puzzling on the latin american catholics, here is a lot of machismo, the energy of rapists in my estimation, in mexico and central america. south america is more civilized.. chile, and brazil seem to have more upbeat energy argentina i dont understand, but the association with the tango makes it intruiging,,, is it pure nihilism, the melancholy of tango? i dunno.

its like, was the roman catholicism brought by the conquistadors cain's roman catholicism/? if so, what are the implications? for latin american roman catholicism,, could this be why there has not been so much as talk about a latin american pope, even though roman catholics from latin america are probably a majority.

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OK the elevator doors in hotel USA ... i've been seeing them on my psilocybin trips since shine days, really big time the night of the first fall, october 3 2003. at shine,

anyway, there is ONE door that i associate with satan and the possible execution thereof, but the other doors ive been seeing them for a long time,, the knids are about to come out of those doors and come after us..

and then well be on our way back down to earth,, probably on the course of this psilocybin trip

i think i may have said this a long time afgo...

psilocybin trip are journeys in the great glass elevator,

and amanita trips are oompah loompah songss.. its so hilarioous...

i love it... its like the red and blue pills all over again!!! in another story! in a completely different way!

superb,...

i dont care HOW sharp their fangs are or HOW vermiciously they attack me, i am gonna bring down some dinner,,, fried knid... bringing down dinner,, that's where we are over on the greendale side of the story...

the longer you stay on earth,,, the more you'll see unfold!

no hurry neil, no hurry at all, this day can go on for as long as you want it to, im having loads of fun... just dont seperate me from my computer, i wound want to be stopped from recounting this.. i am seeing a lot of visions, even while lookint at teh screen... hark, is that a pair of ross kings @Y@s i see??? i think i'd better go do the first technique and find out,,, i'll be back in the break before its time to start the second technique.

i just realized that mathew smith is probably a rawat cop... mathew are you watching this>??? if so i get you and i love you... .tom's best friend who became someone with a very loud booming voice who i remember could really relate to me, just like my friend daivid youngs, even though appearing so conservative..

what about timothy fay jones, teh prosecutor in tacoma my "other bast friend" for so many years, him too? jsuits no doubt.. mathwe for sure, daivd youngs and he are meant to remind me of one another in a certain christian cop sort of a way.. . really like i see my dad in his cop capacity actually, very much both in the image of the owl.... i love it. mathew was a witness to tom...

makes me think this is THE matthew,,,each significant person from the story, that person has this name in this life,,, like me Arthur and Jefferson,, and my borhter, might have been ANdrew Jackson... which would mean real babylonians might have help office UNTIL the civil war of course, that was breaking of babylons back in the USA awesome insight there awesome.

so mathew in mathew smith by this logic, and we have Luke of oxbow farms mark od m=bagalore, lemme think about john... john locke comes to mind but lemme think about it... i like hjohn locke my ultimate friend a s john i thnk, but i'll let y0ou know if i change... abraham lincoln was seigel... wowl... of course abraham.



HANDS DOWN that makes George D pasquale george washingtton oh my gosh... is i am onto something here then this is spectaclur news for me if george was washington.. wow, it must be... thats of course why he flies with me... OH MY GOODNESS that is fantastic.

the reference to galahad in the america song MAY refer to james arthur,, because of the name conflict and the fact that this occurs to ne tonight of all nights... anything that COULD seem to relate to tonight probably does.

im having fun but i'm a little edgy on the machine and my hsoulder hurts, but i will return no doubt..

i sent this to tom and cc'd neil
hi tom,

it occurs to me that i think matthew smith is a jesuit who was planted into our family's midst so that he could provide reliable testimony as to your and my characters and relationship,,,

something tells me you are busted really bad my fake brother...

j.

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i have always believed that robert e lee had to have been israel, probably jefferson davis too (me perhaps if he was born after TJ died) lee could have been john lee, of john lee's bar my disc throwing pal

Franklin Jones, benjamin franklin is my first guess,, adams,,,hmmm??? when did babylon come in? if tom faith was jackson... maybe jackson was andrew weill and i needed to make that little typo joke booboo to show myself that i ws thinking of the wrong andrew,,, yeehawwwww/.

love rules, you den of vipers!!!! you tried to kill me,,, now i'm gonna kill you,,, right RemedY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yee hawww!!

all of my best friends and lovers got to be president,, even William Henry Fairhall, who was obviously William Henry Harrison, made what you might call a "cameo" , no wonder I was a president fanatic and a USA fanatic, those were my friend,,, who the heck was chester arthur? saturn??

adam hewey was probably ONE of the two Adams' john and john QUIncy adams, lemme think... maybe adam and his dad who i love,,, his mom is a jew but i think he's good he was very loyal to me and they had their period of falling out, as i did, emotionally, witih adam for a few year when i wrongly suspected him of something that i realized he didint do,, i wonder if the same thing happened back in the day.. so yes adam hewey and his cool dad were the adams/..

teh other harrison benjamin could have been george... john lennon was probably vladamir, all the more reason because of my joke that we needed a john lennon, Karl Marx Groucho Marx statues to go with our Lenin,,, maybe marx was marx, what the hell why not were psuchedelic, the more variety the better...

people just dont realize how we toy with the alcohol people. its a carnival of toying...

its almost like a flood of knowledge, of intuitive understandings of things,, i suppose you could say i relly truly am realizing knowledge... yikes, its almost overwhelming,,, but of course its beautiful.. its another much happier world that i am coming into with all of those friends alreay there... i bet every other president may already be there except the ones who know me personally, bill and george obviously\
by the way, the same cast of men were probbaly roman emperors too,.

lennon might have been John,, yes for sure, that's the John who fits there for me... so there you have the four aplostles.. wow cool..

i think i need to go put my head on earth browns poor sore shoulders... there's some KNIDs there...

please dear heavenly father, i really prefer not to have the police coming whilst i am in this most vulnerable state of trying to know and love and serve you to the best of my ability, but of course i know you know this and would never do that to me unless its what just absolutely had to happen ,,, thank you dear father for knowing and doing whatever is best...

martin van buren ould have been martin volker my ski guide whom i really liked a lot. james madison probably is james arthur but james bowles could be the other virginian named james, my hot headed but otherwise well intended and likeminded friend form the bakery.

light is appearing very red to me know,,, isnt that part of the bringing down of KNIDs,, one thing i will be watching for is the SOUND effects of KNID frying... i htink its what mckenna secreibed as the sound of cellophe ripping .. he was probably referring to the same thing...

thomas forster must figure significantly, but perhaps as a behind the scenes guy.. who was alexander hamilton,, bill richardson, the teacher i know at Hamilton school,, perhaps, alexander wrist is a better choice there... alexander who is into steiner and was very interested in my jmoney ideas but who couldnt deal with me being the christ.. alex wrist was hamilton if my name theory is correct..

mckenna probably invented or introduced the I Ching to htis world... the Yellow Emperor of CHina might have been Remedy, Dr Weill. the Yellow Emperors classic is a very important book..

Lao tse, who was that? me again?

i am the more logical choice to have been vuddha and bohdidharma, since i am maitraya obviously,, buddism is a HUGELY positive force in this world, whugely positive, that was my Tamarind Tree "eiiphany du jou"r today. always an epiphany when i go there, and ALWAYS a comment to a staff person how muvh i like the whole happy nonaryan man staff,, why did people become aryans if they didnt want to be one, when they could have heen a happy buddhist from vietnam instead?? crazzy..

i have no doubt that men make an agreement, a willie wonka agreement with important fine print about secrets and honesty, when they become aryan.

if you are aryan the HOLY BIBLE is your book and the roman catholic church OR mahayana buddhism are your relgionsl, which ever one you choose,,, they are equal in my opinion.. they both can keep a man on the striaght and norrow path that lead to the eye of the needle.,. one through midfulness in mediation and one through indfulness in appreciation of who the christ was and confession of sin and communion.,, two good paths in life, both of equal worth in my eyes.. both would have prepared a man well for the moment of truth.

and aryan men cannot become alcoholic.. that;s really a bad combo.. they have to tow the rawat line. ovey one or the other of some sipiritual path laid out for them by the rawats.

and as an aryan you are probably advised with a disclaimer that you are ON YOUR OWN RECONEISSANCE, as well as that of the all seeing eyes of the rawat family.

aryan nation, this is your wake up call,, you may have a righteous attitude about aryans, but are you sure you havent forgotten some basic agreements,,, its not a lisence to arrogance and aggression... it comes with a reposnsibility to be humble and kind your racist attitudes are so ugly sooo sooos ooos ugly./.. Kenyatta and his father Arius, hte original Aryan are not happy with you... Kenyatta, what are we going to do about southern man with his attitude about what "aryan" means???? i would need to know your opinion on this if actions were going to be dictated by me...

by the way, if i have erred in thinking that Arius would have already adopted Kenyatta as one of his own perfect manifestations, then i shall certainly be recommeding him to my father for his consideration of such a special status, because i honestly believe that i see such virtue in that man as to be worthy of wuch recognition from the father of all men.,. kenyatta is a 100% honest man in my estimation,, which is about all it takes to become a rawat, either before or after being saved from your own dishonestly by his most honest son, the SUN, sun green. sun rawat. thats me sun rawat.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I am Sun Rawat I like this Name very much, can I have it now, am i worthy of it yet dear father??? HmmmmmmMMMMmmMMMMMmmMMMmMmMmmMMMM?

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the godfather story was a HUGE event in my life, including the only reqal argyment i ever got into with my father was about whether or not at about 14 or 15 shold i be able to see it.. he was adamant no, until a freind ecouraged him to let me see it... interestingl.. that it was "teh godfather" perchance, was that little incident in the bible code dear Neil??? hmmm???

how about the fact that Lennon was killed during an event with Maharaji, guru puja if i remember correctly?

any chance that my eating a mango for the first time in Tuscon at a maharahi event is something that anyone alreayd knew?

how about my association with gardenia smell being so strongly with prem rwawt,,, daddy do you like a=gardenia smell??? should i wear that smell some how when i see you???

how about a trip with joanie natale to daniel park just south of denver one time, when we notived the nice light on the small shrub oaks that grew there in that oanie mitchel paradise that no doubt got turned into yet another parking lot infested development of some kind,,, memorable events, like sitting on the overhead walkway in the Hyayt hotel in KC with jane riskin, the exact one that collapsed soon thereafter.. stuff like that.

my ski friends who skied in the exact spot on baker that some snowboarders got buried in a GIGANTIC avalanche the year of the record snows at mt maker,, they had skied that spot a few mintues before that avalanche, probab;u a bibile code ref there;.. millions ofr thenm like that.

there is no limit to the detail that is possible, and everyone in the nation of israel is probably weaved SOMEHOW into his life, and hence the mckenna exponettial ly increasing rate of reference leading up to this moment rgith about NOW!!!

9:50 pm that is...

susan and i skking wirh frith and brian at whislter,, bible code,,, these are memorable events with imnportant people FRITH by the way is a godess nlike Nina,,, she could be a Nina from another world.. possibly with brian as her mate, even though they had a hard time,, he's an interesting guy who i can see in a sane world would be very powerful and accomplished. powerful guy. much moreso that the other endodontist i know in sanoma... frith is a powerful and important woman who may actually be able to shed some light on gudrdjieff,, it occurs to me to say this, the association is that she lead trips for REI to the caucuses for many years, she;s a major expert on that all important area of the world where the ARYAN race is said ny some to have emerged..

frith really turns me on,, she is VERY alluring to me,, which i want to emphasize just so that the reason can be a topic of dsicussion,, i have a feeling she is very honest. like susan;.. they are close, i hope to be friths lover some day. she is so sexy.

the "I customer" commnet, i really felt like it was revealed to me that she would go for me,, now i forget her name sids trippy italien fellow light-artist friend iole,, she's hot...

i feel like if i knew the details i could understand the significance of jusr about everything that has ever occured inthis world, and the identies of just about any historical figure of note, i would just need to get the pig pictuure who what the circumstance,, there would alwys be an association if i looked fir it,,, we're tlkaing mondelbrot set here, everything is fractal and logical, there are not jumps no suspension of intelligence or logic required,, no Kierkegaardian leaps of faith into the unknown.,. no, its a step by step process, there IS a yellos brick road, the leap if faith would be for those who are shut diwn and cant access the sublime where the fine logic occurs..

its teh shuolders stupid... by the way,, that reminds me of my carrol quigly observation,, hey carrol did you like that one that i figured you out so easily??? did any journalist ever follow into the obvious implications of WIlliam Jefferson CLinton coming out of seeming no where and getting a Rhodes scholorship to Oxford to study with the WORLD"S TOP TWO RO THREE MAJOR LEADING EXPETS ON SECRET SOCIETIES>>> ? any one want to DARE to even consider the implications of a man whose father's identity is shrouded in secrecy rising to power in such an amazing way AFTER studying with Carrol Quigly on a rhodes scholor ship,,, and then around the time that this guy from BURKES PEERAGE starts saying things that you just WOULD NOT EXPECTaul to hear coming from the top guy at burkes peerage, i mean PiKrugman (my favorite columnist fromteh past few years, hands down over that other guy, the one whose always on ty,,, mr know it all, goldsomthing you know who i am talking about,,, me know it all,, ) reporrted this in the NY Times, that the burkes peerage guy says the more royal candidate always wins the election,,, and clinton BEAT poppy, which suggests either that he was controlled by poppy, or his mother is more roal that poppy... interesting,, no one ever talks aobut this kinfd of obvious emperor has no clothes kind of stuff.

... coulf poppy bush have actually been Bill CLinton's father?? if i had to guess that would be it,,, they are damned close like father and son,,, Icke told me that,, but i;ve seen it on TV since,,

that's my guwess, poppy was bill clintons dad in this lifetime... huh???? what???? yup.

its one thing to sit in a monestary and practive intelligence by attaining aenlightenment by puzzling on a series of KOANS, but when teh KOAN is the truth about the relationship between Poppy bush and Bill clinton, then intelligence becomes a obvious manifestation of superiority plain and simple. psychedelics RULE, because this all comes as a result of having used and mastered psycehdelics EVEN WITH the handicap of an alcoholic condition... just because i have GOOD intentions and humility i can manifest SO MUCH MORE intelligence than others, even people like SID who doesnt think about why Krishna is blue when that is SOOSOOOSOOOSOO elementary to me,,, sid cant even begind to appreciate the many more sibtle truths that i am revealing to the world,, he is amazed by the most obviuous ones like the blue krishna, but cant even begin ot consider all the finer ones i am talking aobut, all of which HAVE LOGICAL associations, which is ALL THERE EVER IS, when it comes to KNOWING things... even "the sky is blue" involves associations, it associates the sky with other things that are blue and the concept of blue as an idea can exzist wihtout people making thse associations,,

i have always associated left from right as a result of that watch that my dad bought for me in wales which that book reminded me of,,, left wrist, i can still "feel" that watch on my left wrist... so we use associations in every thought we think, but people limit the length and fineness of a TRAIN of logical thoughts whish inherently involve assocaitions... its how the mind works =,s stipid... !

its rad... i'm going with adida da aka franklin jones as nejamin franklin and therefore saying he is a major archangel sort of a rawat kind of a guy... all the most amazing that i have paid enough attnetion in this life NEVER to have forgotten the obviously interesting fact that the guys name was "franklin Jones" and i also remember what he said aobut his own name, how franklin jones somehow translates as free man or something, like freemason in a wayt... franklin jones is a 33 1/3 degree or whatever the highest highest level of free masonry, very high guy in the rawat world,, i have never doubted that guys authenticity,, to the point of risking my whole cerdibility saying this and so many other things that HONESTLY seem true to me,,

this puts barbara benker and even debbie carson in favorable light as witnesses like me to the Beast, and also Jack Garvey is probably a rawat plant, along with richard france and others,,, richard france may be involved in busting a guy naked sandy who lived in boulder,, there was another guy, the cute one who also came out from boston, possibly to help put sandy who is proabably a babylonian brother out of business,,

lots of cops in Kushidom i feel ... including michio probably... i liked him a plenty, a giant of a man,, if he is out there,, i sent my courteous repsects.. to aveline too of course.

aveline and lima ohsawa and michio and all of those macro people from japan as well as fukuoka are most likely high rawat royalty from the japan branch of the family... also jan walker is a powerful woman who played a hugely important role, including turning me on the the essene material from Zsekeley..

this life of mine has been a parade through a seies of encounters with everyone in the saga,, the whole gammut, whether i met them in this life, like sid, or whether like james arthur otr roald dahl they just had a major and highly beneficial impact through their work.. this is an increible culmination just appreciating all of thise incredible people, each and every one of whom i will be with so very soon,,, i love and apreciate each and every one of you soo soos very much and i am fdoing my best t oacknowledge each one of you, to the point of sitting here typing when my body would be happier if i jst went inside... i LOVE YOU ALL SO VERY VERY MMUCH espcially me lovely wonderful sweey generous mother, who ive been pounding so brutally these past few days... i hope she;s OK.,, she is good and she is doing her best,, in spite of it being a thinly veiled nurse ratchet job that she is pulling on me at the moment,,,

it just what women do in a world of dihonest aryan men...

that has got to be the MOST BASIC ARYAN commandment,,, you MUST BE HONEST<,, and any aryan man who has been dishonest has set himself up for the only just fate. get ready to repent, confess, apologize for and be forgiven of your sins aryan men or prepare to be fed upon by vampires for the rest of eternity.. as agreed to in the fine print of the agreement every aryan man made in becoming an aryan man i have little doubt.of this.

its only the aryan men who truly live in heaven or hell even while on earth.. teh wars between heaven and hell are fought by aryans,,,

china vs. the antichrist,, that would be the nonaryan failed souls vx the aryan failed souls., over the opium... may the best side win... i personally couldnt really care less, feom my perspective at this time,,, that's how i see armageddon at this point in time... nothing to do with israel at all, contrary to my stranger ad in which i defined Armageddon as the final defeat of babylon,, as far as Israel is concerned, i think that defeat happens right about now, when i slip down into the temple through the doorway that satan tried to obscure, the alvohol doorway which is like when gandoloh falls into the bottomless pit and then reappears wtih new and greater powers, is that me, now???

i literally could type nonstop now saying amazingly intelligent things that no one has ever said befreo,,,, this tryly is the moment of the shock wave of eschsatology, moreso, i belive than 2012,, i belive that the crescendo may peak in 2005 at the moment of rapture, and then fade back toward judgemetnt day in 2012,.. this is the main event, not judgment day.. rapture is the victory, the defeat of babylon, the last seven years is just clean up and sorting out and all of that,,, but this is the moment of the shockwave, the KEY moment in the enture sage that everything by definition leads inexorably toward, inspite of the anemic and pathetic efforts of satan and his lonely band of fallen souls who emplor the dirtiest tricks imaginable in their last ditch efforts to prevent me and others from fulfilling the agrements that we all made when we became aryan men,, ]

those losers, thos e Hell people, have NO EXCUSES for their actions, they blew it PURE AND SIMPLE!!!!

... its not the big bang that is key, it is rapture that is key as the absolutely fixed moment in time that is a given that everything revolves around,, its like the venter point off the infinity symbol in a way,,,

teh story of the Holy Bible is the skeleton of a story that contains the archetypal events and characters that must occur in the sperm dream,,, the sperm dream like this one that is wrapping up now..

adam and eve , cain and abel, abraham isaac and ishamel, joseph'e experience in egypt and the whole saga with his family all the way up to moses and the ten commandments, kings david and solomon, the temple of colomon, teh temple being destroyed by babylon, jesus and his crucifixion, , these are all event that must occur, but all else is what "teh father" neil young in this case, who is to me as i am to daniel i beleive, i just happen to be his favorite in this little circle of lovers,, like daniel is my facorite,, who is neil really, other than that, i dunno,, like there is a lot of freedom outside of the baisc story of the main events of the archetypal story... grandpa arius has a few pictures of his own that "the father" has to work with

arius is really a professional grandpa in a way.. he's the perfect GRANDFATHER and this makes me wonder about the native americans= indians who prayed to a grandfather / great spirit... maybe buffalo will shed some light on that for me sometime very soon.. i hope so... mayb buffalo was weither lewis or clark, and the ohter was the other,, also in his tribe, ed abbey,,, the monkey wrench gang guy who neal refers to in greendale something about sun gren being a monkey wrencher,,, i forget but there is a reference to ed abbey i believe,,, and alss john wesley powel was a part of buffalo's tribe.. buffalo must related to mozzarella cheese,, that;s strange but his last name reminds, and buffalo, maybe there is a cheese made from buffalo milk, maybe water bufffalo or something that he had something to do with.. oxen blue payl bunyan,, psilocybin all of that relates to buffalo and who he is.. who he represents to me,, like doug peacock the bear guy who came to the pariarie festival with the earth first guy and doug tompkins of esprit, those guys with ed abbey are a part of the monkey wrench tribe of buffalo,,, the poppers, wes, wendell possibly, they could all be with buffalo, and they are near and dear to thomas jeffersons heart, that is the spirit wiht which he sent lewis and clark out to explore the vast praiiries..

i have my own story that i was sworking on, the daneil baker story, and i think neil may have deliberately alluded to it with the name of his new album, prairie wind, and that is something that there will be more time to delve into later, but it may involve a stpry that i have already started working on FOR daniel, and daniel may have shown up in my life as a foreshadowing of that... thanks neil, i feel that you are going to be helping me wiht something that i had a strong premonition of at brning man with respoect to daniell,, maybe its what it seeems like to me, that neils last album, the title would allude to what lies ahead with me and daniel,, priarie wind, its and image from a dream that i imagined as a pat of the story of daniel and how he creates a ccyclone of energy aound the idea of heaven on earth,,, like t crop circle kind of prairie wiind, no? wihch may allude to my assertion that crop circles are just imagined into being like pyramids and other things are.. crop circles are not madem they are miracles performed by the lords of the rawat family,,

\its really after about three hours on psilocybin where it has plateaued that the sexual feelings really get strong... mckenna said something about psilocbin and eroticism,,, if you are a master, then of course there is an erotic aspext to speychedelic experience, yet mckenna said somethng about that as if he were dispelling a common miscomception that a peron on psychedleics doesnt have an erotic experience,... mckenna must have gone ALL the way in his life time...

sid has a girl friend who is VERY psycchedelic and very cute, and very interested, like sid, in mckenna,, and i really had the hots for her at stinrg cheese, neil can tell you who i am talking about,,, when i mentioned my mckenna john the baptist theory she got totally cold in a hurry, never to be friendly to me again, what's up with her/? the most exreme female version of the ralph melcher reaction.. hey terence, wassup with melcher??? you cops got your eyes on that guy???

he absolutely detested me for suggesting that mckenna was jon the baptust.. detested.. hated like i was a vile creature frmo hell just for thinking such a thought, very vehemently opposed to the ideat that someone could be smarter than him,,, what kind of a batman villian is he>>>? anohter candiate for bookworm if its not tom.

very dark and ugly reaction to my light and optimistic and cheerful suggestion that mckenna is john the baptist to me as the christ... just could not tolerate that thought... never have i seen such a strong objection other than in the case of dan, tom, and others of the many "enemies of mother earth"

funny, the only time i EVER ran into my brother tom randomly and unexpectedly in a social situaiton was at a little percussion jam session at ra;phs back in denver days (i got a bit close to ralph when we played go together a few times in santa fe where we both were during my time there...) it was a joke that i was there being a person without a good ability at percussion, but what is interesting is that tom and rajph seemed to know one another better than i thought..

one huge question that occurs to me,, when exactly tom become aware of being a minion of satan , a fallen soull,l did he always know it, or didi someone have to give him a _babylonian bump on hte head_ so to speak

(now come on, dont tell me roald dahl isnt rolling over on the floor laughing at that one,,, babylonian bump on hte head... )

i sort of have this vague memory of knowing that he was a parasite in the ether clinging to an esxistence,,, way back when i was visitin the temple as a young child,

its seems likely to me that neil had his own awaikening into being a son or arius around the time that maharaj ji realize knowledge, , neil might have been around 15,,, i really look forward to learning more about that..

the two guys who delivered the papers and told me that the polive would be here today, who i DON"T hate but in fact do love, i think they really got me,, the one who knew about mckenna and psilocybin, he was smart enough to get that i am not a crazy,, i wonder if he was able to influence anyone among the authorities that this action would be inappropriate.. he is certainly capapble,, he was familiar, both were did i meet them in the last barborview go 'round?

mark pomerantz, funny enigmatic guy, seems like he could have been another victor bremsonish babylonian type trying to mooch off me, with an insincere interest in the kinds of things that he might have thought would attract my attnention, ot he could be a sincere guy... ben kauffman and his partner whose name i should not have forgetten,, heather nordell who wrote my everygreen monthly bio,, they are excellent people in my book..

brian allen has been on my mind,, another one on merkle's shit list,,, hmmm what does that say about brian??? actually not much, even the babylonian brothers like ramer grumble about merkle.

brian allen is a mystery to mel,, seems sincere and yet very unhappy and lost,, but he really didnt seem to like my message... hmmmml i dunno

psilocbin plus water = healing... amanita plus just being awake or maybe even asleep - healing,, cannabis plus meditation = healing.. these are medicines, truly beneficial... F

cannabis and mediation are MADE FOR EACHOTHER literally.., hello you idiots out there who insist that psycho active drugs are bad,,, that;s just your excuse for your own fear of your own demons pp period,, like this guy whose been e mailing me the past couple of days, it all boils down to him wanting to refute me because i rely upon sychedelics,,, so idiotic so stupid, so not worthy even engaging in a conversation with because nothing i say, NO MATTER HOW INTELLIGENT he refuses to regocnize or acknoweldge the superior intelligence.

as i said to Lane, it is a LAW that the less intelligent must listen respectfully to the more intelligent, and this ought to be in arius's willie wonka agreement fine print ... if your intelligence is inferior you shut your mouth, you dont shoot it off at your superiors, if you do you are like violet beauregard and you get turned into a giant blueberry,, not that i understand that image, but to me that is an obnoxious characteristic that i have had to deal with so much of.... people who are to me OBBVIOUSLY of inferior intelligence, including my nurse rachet mother, acting as if they were so smart that they knew better than i do what is good for me... i hate that with a passion and i am sure arius is of a similar mind..

i sent my mom an e mail and copied this paragraph onto it...

its possible that my mom and family have been informed at have just been given a script of how they would have behaved with me - just by e mail and on the phone= had they not been told,, just an idea... palmo could be in the same position... lots of people could at this point, including george.. washington????

imagine, me and george and prince rauven, abraham, along with noah and other close friends, checking out the monuments in DC to US in prvious lives, arius leading the tour perhaps, maybe james arthut will come along for that tour alomg with raja ji and kenny.. i dunno, i can imagine it would be amazing.. i've NEVER visited a single monument or building in DC... its like the ONLY major tourist thing ive never done in the usa if you think about it.. i've been everywhere, even DC, but only on the periphery and georgetown, never went into the center, within the owl, so to speak.,..

and that i have not is no doubt by design.. this is so exciting!!!!! i know for absolute certain becuase of the obvious fact that i am living through the for real charlie experience tht we are very close now, a matter of tomorrow, the only wild card is this hospital imprisonment thing, which is begning to feel like a little trick that was played on me, the puppet master reminding me not to be such an adult, reminding me that we are kids who toy with adults, and that's all.... so why should i fear an opportunity to toy with adults?? i toyed with them last time i was at horborwiew, and i could probably toy with them even worse now... in fact, LET ME AT EM!!! i wanna toy with those DOLTS>>> !!!

i'm rp mcmurphey and if nurse rachet really wants me then let me at her,, it'' be a curse that will be on her if she drugs me against my will, and i will benefit from that curse forever...

i sent a coy of the last three paragraphs to my mom...

so franklin peirce would be franklin jones again, in his turn as president.,,

ulyses s grant,, big drinker,,, evert>>> ???

grant dermody really pops to mind actually. a gy i went to HS with..

Teddy roosevelt , same person as teddy kennedy, and that's why he never was pres, he already had his turn?>? franklin delano,, and other franklin, could that be our franklin jones again,, if so this guy is sUPer important if he was ben franklin and fdr,, i dont know if he was born before or after 1945 if after then obviously its not him but otherwise, it seems like "franklin" is probably his property as far as president s go...

like no one would have a lock on the name john or george, but franklin seems unusual enough that i would say that all three franklins, ben, pierce and fdr, would be the same person who in this incanattion is adida, franklin jones, da fre john bubba free john, YOU KNOW, HE ONE OF THOSE "WHAT'S IN A NAME" GUY, KIND OF LIKE POPPY??" or like martin roth, who used to be a what's in a name sort of observant person, until i pointed out to him that his own first name (at the time) Marty, plus the first letter of his last name R spelled martyr,,, after that he became Martin, and i neveer again heard him making note of funny puns wihtin peoples' names... I would call that another case of "CURIOUSLY STRONG HINTS" if you know what i mean....

now show me an alcohol drinker who could have come up with "curiously strong hints" in reference to this sibliminal suggestion of the hypocrisy of Martin Roth???

" a miraculous thing!" as neil says in greendale about what is happening in this very moment...

is "curiously strong hints" in the Bible Code perchance??? just one of those brilliant moments that just had to be a part of the story and therefore is in the bible code... fun fun fun fun fun funfun fun funfun fun fun

who would have guessed that the bible code would exist in part so that the christ could tell the world exactly what is in it and why and every detail practically about its significance, without ever having done any research on it other than what little there was to learn fomr the history channel documentaries created for the purpose of eduating me, and anyone else who was willing to even consider the implications of the bible code which most sinner most definitely do not want to consider.... not too many people would have imagined that scenario,, but really, its a scenrio that i myself have imagined being the reality, and i think it is, because i think i am of like mind with the person i;ve always said came up with the story, the picture story, that it tells,,, the words are just the elements that describe the PICTURES that are the events that MUST by definition happen... by definition,,, the pictures that tell of the moments that MUST occur, everything else being left up to the machine elves to figure out for us...

Terrence and Neil, am i talking your language here??? hmmm/??? i cant quite hear your answeer....

or am i really just as full of shit that everyone around here keeps telling me that i am,,,, ????

am i as crazy as my mom insists on believing??? or is it true that i am just a little bit out of her league in terms of ability to comprehend things,,, maybe Nina, as the most brilliant woman on earth, and i sincerely honestly believe that she is by definition as my twin sister,,, dear beloved sister, would you mind commenting upon this on behlaf of the female side of the rawat family, do you think my mother is correct that i am in need of pharmaceutical drugs in order to bring back the old jeff that is slipping away from her, or do you think that rather, she is in nees of a certain act of letting go to her subliminal terror, TERROR of men having an experience that she cannot understand... please dear sister, I consider you the most qualified person on planet earth to adress this matter most intelligently and convincingly as a woman.. you are the most qualified to address this matter... thank you sister..

it really IS the TERROR that drives Islamic terrorists, ALlah's fear of men having an experience that she cannot have, this feeling like it means that she doesnt really have an existence of her own, but whatever the implications she makes the fatal mistake that even my own sweet mother makes the mistake of making,, she makes the mistake of making the mistake that is most definitely a mistake, of living in TERROR of men having a more sublime expeirence that women cannot have, rather than just enjoying the benefit that women who DO accept this enjoy... heaven forever instead of hell forever, a choice that all women even my mother are stuggling with... inferiority complex is a disaster, and i think my mom could really benefit from a little bit of education by seeeing Mary ann rossi, ptarmigan and rachel brought to justice and the nature of their crimes revealed,,, i think that is all my mom will need in order to give up insisting upon being a nurse rachet.. and allah. who wants to put her son on drugs to keep him from going beyon where she could go,,

if she could only think of me as her lover and lose the parent child sickness that she has a bad case of she would be healed of this tendency that will lead to her doom if she does not give it up... because such an attitude will not be permissable in my heaven.... my mother is NOT ready to exist in this temple,,, she is an allah, but i know she will be easily cured when she has something to go on besides my intelligent explations which she is COMPLETELY UNABLE to conprehend because she is a woman who is not willing to let her son become more than what she is, to be more knowlegable, to KNOW her and her little lies and secrets, even if she only has a few she has them, which is why she resists her son being the christ and supports satan against him,..

she's a sinner, in a word, and all sinners resist the christ... until they have no choice...

i sent the followng as a lead in to an e mail to my mom with the preceding three paragraphs...

hi mama,

i hope you are willing to read a few passages from my writings,,, if not then i really would hate you for judging me and sentencing me as if you were the almighty god, (when you are really just an allah) without even letting me make a case for myself..


i believe that nina, who is diana to apollo, mary magdelain to the christ, was also mary baker eddy, and this is why the reference to drugs as a form of treatment,,, the rawat family includes mary baker eddy who was totally opposed to the use of pharms.. i will tell the people that i am a christian scientist, which i am ,, and that it is against my religion to take drugs and i will fight for my religious freedom from your fascist nurse rachet interference with my spiritual evolution in this manner..

it really is so perfect that the christ should have to do battle with his own mother as allah in this lifetime..

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there must be a provision (113)

there must be a provision in the law that says that a christian scientist should be offered other forms of treatment before drugs are employed against their religious freedom,,, i will fight for my rights on the basis of this,,, i should be able to undertake a non drug therapy and be evaluated on the basis of some sort of reasonable empirical testing of a persons vital mental functioning using EEGS or something,,, the State cannot trample on my religious freedom based on a specious accusation of "mental illness" with NO empirical evidence WHATSOEVER that i have a condition that has been identified and that there is an effective drug therapy for,... that's all bullshit and i will fight them on it with every penny i have in legal fees if i have to..


i will spend every penny i have on newspaper ads accusing my own mother of conspiring to thwart my own spiritual journey as a nurse rachet... i will shame her into leaving me in peace from her totally unjustifiable meddling in my life..

dear mama,, i swear to god i mean what i say... i will sell my house and the chocoate company at auction to the highest bidder and use the proceeds to fight against you and tom and satan joe whinney, the biggest liar in the history of planet earth...

you've been duped by satan, hte most pathetic liar in history into believing that he is going to save the christ from himself,,, you are so stupid...

you're such a stupid girl

you've really got a lot to learn,,,

that song is so fitting in this moment..

i gotta go get the lyrics and put em up here.


You're just a stupid girl
You really got a lot to learn
Start living again
Forget about remembering
You're such a stupid girl.

You're such a beautiful fish
Floppin' on the summer sand
Lookin' for the wave you missed
When another one is close at hand
You're such a stupid girl.

You're such a stupid girl.

I saw you in Mercedes Benz
Practicing self-defense
You got it pretty good I guess
I couldn't see your eyes
You're really stupid, girl.

You're such a stupid girl.
You're such a stupid girl.


is this just neil speaking the truth that women, when they try to outsmart men. really just are plain stupid??? lesser intelligence MUST respect superior intelligence, its a sin not to... its just flat out wrong and contemptable when a person of lesser intelligence pompously pretends as if he or she is of superior intelligence its buffoonery, like my mothers present buffonery.. ..

there's a piece on AOL home page right now about luxurious private aircraft of the type that my father jtes around in... hmmmm,,,, what is the meaning of this appearing on this of all nights>>>> ???>??????

aany possible association there????

or just randomness,,, neil could tell you the answer to that one.. he might have that one in the bible code too..
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what i just said about my mom's TERROR about men having an experience she cannot have or understand being the root cause of what is manifesting as Islamic terrorism is an extremely important thing that is being said here. it comes from a lack of having her relationships with men in the proper order,, she is not lovers with her son so she opposes him, whereas Palmo is my mother who is my lover, and she supports me...

ALLAH is the cause of all the religious wars in this world and my mother is putting on a nice little demonstratoin for the world of how widespread this problem is...

i'm sending her all of these comments as exerpts in e mails.

i am fighting my mom in spite of an e mail that neil sent me that seemed to be VERY EXPLICITLY directing me to lay off... but all he does is send puzzles, even when they sound like directives,,, i am atacking my mom, and i wouldnt be doing it if it was not meant to happen, in all honesty this is what i believe at this time..

he said he wanted to pick me up in his helicopter the first e mail, that was what, three weeks ago or somethng/

so if i took that too literally, i'd a been standing in the parking lot waiting like i did last november,,,

now i dont take what he says lieterally and my gut instinct is what i am going wiht,,, i want to fight against the system and protect my body from their poisons if i can...

what an incredible controvery,,, the christ trying to protect himself from satan and allah in the form of his own mother against pharmaceutical poisoning , using as the basis for his defense against involuntary suicide, or shall i just say, his defense against _assault with a deadly weapon_??, his own sister's religion, christian science, the most profound understanding or interpretation of his own life's teachings that anyone ever came up with..

as i finish clearing the "yellow" out the nerve cells in my own body and my central nervois system appraoches full functionality, i feel a certain sense of erotic desire that i feel could never be fully satisfied by a woman... i believe that this is a trait the i am coming to understand that i have that is associated with what it really means to be Aryan, to be Aryan is to be a lover of other men, as well as women,, it is to be completely free to experience an intensity of experience that is intense, and that requires goodness and a lack of need to conceal anything at all about oneself... if you are a man who has chosen to be a member of the aryan race, you need to get back with the program that you agreed to or its curtains and worse for you, for you will have subjected yourselves to a terrible curse by having aligned yourselves with a terrble conspiracy with epic consequences devised by a really idoitic but evil guy named Satan the promoter of distilled alcohol who as an Aryan made himself and some of his friends into the enemies of the Aryan Race, and the whole human race, as a result of deciding that he didn't really like being what an Aryan is because he wanted to conceal his own evil intentions..

if you wanna go with that guy, good luck to you, but i do recommend if you have any ambivalence about it at all to check us out, we're the rawat family, the source of the Aryan Race in every world that our family invents and we're what you wanted to be before you aligned yourselves with the mortal enemies of teh Aryan Race..

there is nothing i can do about your own stupidty, all I am is a person who didnt fall into the traps that you fell into,, i am just trying to save myself from your own failures to be what you said you wanted to be... it's your sickness, and i need to release me and my family from it regardless of the consequence.. if you can still reform yourself, then i adivse getting in the line ot get in line that should have already formed at teh doors of the nearest roman catholic church... your salvation is at hand if you want it, otherwise we will need to get you out of the way with the greatest possible efficiency... i cannot see why there should be any delay in ridding this world of aryan men who are unwilling to abide by the agreements that they must sruely have made when they made the choice to accept the gift of being an aryan man.. the thing that everyone wants to be until they realize that they cant be that AND be evil at teh same time, and they decide, like Joseph P Whinney, Mr Satan, the Alcohol Salesman par Escellence, that being evil is just a little more important to you than you admitted to yourself when you made a vow to be honest..

did not all aryan men make a promise to he honest/?? i want to know?? if so then lets get the truth serum ready and get busy with some truth tellinjg.. please,,, it is time is it not?> weve had it with cheat and deceit and lies and deceptions... its time for the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth, so help me god... it's time for honesty..

to toy with Patrick Henry, Henry???? is that YOU??? man if that's you Henry then you are a good actor!, "give me your honesty or give me your death, one or the other,"

honesty or damnation as far as i am concerned for the aryan men who've wrought havoc in this world by breaking their own promise to be honest.. '

teh women are all messed up allahs but its only because, as adam SYMBOLIZES, but did not necessarily manifest himself as the person of adam, since he was a rawat, its the men who are dishonest that give license to Allah to ever come into the world and play.. Adam invited allah in by being dishonest.. and that may have been a rawat allowing her in, perhaps as what dave matthews is referring when he says "the wicked lies we tell."

but that isnt a wicked lie, to set the stage for allah, becuase even though they promise to be honest, virtually any man who was in adam's stead would have done the same thing.

Aryan men who are dishonest are, like adam symnolises, the beginning and the root of all human failure. once their dishonesty is established, the worst RESULT of this failure to abide by the agrement to honesty is allah, but its the dishonest men who INVITE allah to come and play..

ARYAN MEN, you are busted, almost all of you for renegging on a hugely important agreement, to be honest.. and you need to get with the program immediately in my opinion there will be little delay in dealing with this situatoin... it is time, obviously..

it is time for the ALCOHOLIC DOMINATOR culture to give way to the PSTCHEDLIC PARTNERSHIP culture... yes terence, you were most certainly PRECISELY DEAD ON in virtually everything you said, as i have been,,, and yet NO ONE really got that you were SO OBVIOUSLY john the baptist, any intelligent person could figure that out, and anyone who HEARD me say that and dismissed it without giving it deep condieration, virtually everyone, is in my opinion stupid by definition..

stupid:someone who thinks he is smarter than someone who is actually smarter than he is is stupid.

i can't think of a better definition for "stupid" than that, and i tell you, there are a lot of stupid people here in Babylon by this definition.

i know, i know, Bill Clinton will look at that and say, "it depends on what the definition of "is" is... since he and i are two people who like to use consecutive "is"es, maybe that means we're secretly lovers,, is that why your middle name is Jefferson my lover dear slick willie?? because you are a secret admirer of mine>>> ? Hmmm?? or even a descendant??? you know what would be so perfect for me to learn????

this: that here is the explanation for how Bill CLinton could have beat Poppy Bush in spite of the burke's peerage's adage that the more royal always wins,,, so here is my hope and my prayer is the truth about the man with the cigar in monica's "tu" as its called in Tibetan...

That he is a desendant of Thomas Jefferson through his liason with Sally Hennings who was really my sister Nina, and so is of he most royal blood possible, the Blood of the holy twin brother and sister, the holiest of holy blood, is that is dear bill??? or should i present Carroll Quigley with this interesting and quite queer query???

that would be too cool.. nahhh too cool, it could possibly be THAT cool that CLinton was a descendant of Jefferson and Hennings, who was Nina,, no that would be just too perfect, justitcouldnt bel.... nooooo jo jeff put that cray idea out of your head.. stop it!!!!

the longer you stay on earth, the more you'll see unfold,,

so who was Nixon dammit??? i wanna figure that one out... who got to play that role???

no wonder i cried when i heard clintons speech, i think it was his acceptance speech, thinking, now here is a decenty human being - only to become totally depressed by the reality of what he did in office, which no doubt had nothing to do with his Character that i could see was so good and so sincere that is moved me to tears, the only time a political speech ever did that.

i was pulling for you ALL THE WAY throught that incredible farce Bill... believe me, i didnt fall for that crap,,, the only thing you ever said that i knew was a lie was "i didnt inhale,,"

did you hear my joke about what W said when asked about his rumored cocaine use from long ago? "I didn't inhale."

he figured since Bill got away with it he would too..

i told that joke to a few people but never got much of a rise, but dammit, maybe bill and george will appreciate that one,, and of course poppy and others... now i never heard anyone else tell that joke, but come on, isnt it sort of obvious, didn't you all tell that joke amongst yourselves???

how's the truman show going? you all having a good time out there in greendale, which i know is probably right in front of my face so close i cant see it..

that scene from finding neverland was SO realistic and trippy, and it so reminded me of the back yard hot tub at Inn San Francisco, i actually wondered if that was deliberate... i loved those quiet times in that tub alone late at night... s

does the pinch nerve spasm thing that just happened to me that has always happened infrequently until recntly,, that intense pnch nerve in the top of the spine,,, does that happen to everyone?? is that something that happens to everyone but no one talks about??? it's happned a bunh during this time of breaking up the ension in and around my spine,,,

its amazing.. i think this is exactly what harrison is referring to when he says "the ice is slowly melting," in here comes the sun... in a sense it's sun rawat, and the ice that is slowly melting that melts because the christ the sun can do what it takes to melt it... its the ice that when it melts the spine really starts crunching.. it feels like pack ice breaking up,.. that image works.

all of the beatles, though i cant say for sure about ringo, must have gone through an initiation very early in their career, if not before they even got together,, someone rounded them all up and gave em their roald dahl bump on the head... lots of those people.. lots... how could hendrix and morrison not had some kind of knowledge experience>> or garcia and the grateful dead, and so many so many too many to list. they KNOW things, like i said about bruce cockburn, you dont write and sing songs like those if you dont understand the story...

ELvis is SUCH a singular character in the culture of music this century,, he's got to be an important high up sort of a guy, no??? plus with that pelvis action, he's like something very unusual,,, i never really got into elvis at all, wrong age, and i am not sure i like what i see of how he really seemed to descend into a deep sickness, so i find him to be very enigmatic.. its like for some reason i almost feel like i dont like him, but i really cant say why other than he just deteriorated and seemsd really strung out on drugs, not very israel sort of a life, but as an entertainer he was so popular and archetypal he seems like something that a magister ludi would pull out of his bag of glass beads...

it wouldnt surprise me if cirque de soliel has rawat connections,, i think they are really a superb phenomena within the realm of high priced high budget entertainment..

i sort of hope so, like it'd be cool to have them at the green r@@m party whenever that dANGED THING is going to get started... so kenyatta, can we have circusy stuff like curque de soliel and these cool people from seattle that i love called Circus Contraption, at your massive??? at your MASSIVELY MASSIVE MASSIVE????

ive cut back water consumption, inluding tea to maybe about i gallon in the past couple of weeks, and now i sometimes, like just now, get really really dark pee, and i can feel the water and drugs and just my own attention really working deeper into the vermicscious knids, which i now believe the word KNID may actually refer to te kidneys, were that everlasting godstopper is located, the one that we all think is our own little personal and very private, tab@@!, symptom to our own myserious disease that no one should ever know that we have... just because that;s how allah wants it...

but i am slowly washing that thing away, and teh wicked witch will soon be dead and gone forever.. very soon... i can almost here the munchkins warming up for the ding dong the witch is dead... hey i sure hope judt garland is watching all of this... are you there Judy! I love playing you in my little journey, its fun, thanks for playing the role so beautifully for me, and the songs, oh my thank you dear Judy, and i cant wait to be with you... maybe we can have some special ways of sharing this experience with one another... it's been such a meaningful and helpful story for me... good thing i watched it faithfully every year when the big event of its sowing on TV came around again.., was that for me that they re[peated that so many times?

there are so many story tellers and actors and film directors and music people and tv people who have been treating me to a wonderful experience of awakening and putting these pieces all together,,, there are too many to mention, but i hope everyone who had played a role that would be worthy of my mention will at least get that i appreciate it all and just cant possibly think of everything and name everyone...

sometimes i wonder, like Josh the guy who takes me on little archeological expiditions that alwyas give me cool and obvious clues like the defacing of the face of nefertiti by allah...

does he know when he is making those shows that they are largely for my benefit and that i am going to be sitting there going, "man, he's so cute, I wanna go crawl down into a King's chamber in some big giant Pyramidal Temple and get down to some worship togehter..."

or is he completely oblivious that i am actually going to watch his shows... i wanna know!!

dont tell me that beautiful aryan looking sweetheart of a boyman is not a lover of mine! no way! i know he;s gotta be, he's too sexy not to be...

who knows, maybe he can feel me loving him right now... i'll try to send him a little cupid arrow, and if he's paying attention maybe he will feel it...

maybe he will lead me deep down a long dark stairway and into a secret chamberof some great pyamid in palenque,,, with just a candle to light up the great stone walls of the temple and then we'll just let go into the nice feelings that we can have together and enjoy... enjoy what the children of arius, the self-realized deity, are given to enjoy, which is loving one another... oh yeah and i hear there's a lot of cubensis around there, hey maybe terence will join us in palenque for some exploration of temples and the local cow pastures,,, and cow pies..

its really hard to even begin to imagine the scope of difference between an alcohol culture and a psychedlic one.. utterly different, and the most obvious difference in the eyes of most of the people of this world is that it is a million times more erotically charged... burning man is a festival of sexual repression compared with what i see... if that many people were going somewhere to be outrageously creative and free and self expressive in Israel it would be so compteley different of an experience from burning man which is really so tainted by alcohol and general oedipal repression of the actual having of expereince,...

you know the holy blood holy grail idea behind the davinci code, i read that book many years ago, never read davinci code, just holy blood holyy grail, and i didnt fall for it, it just didnt seem right to me,,, but now look, maybe they were right, bill clinton is the man they were looking for the descendant of the holy blook of jesus and mary, as TJ and the slve that the feminstas like to accuse him of raping..

there are all kinds of bloodlines that descend from the rawat family, including teh one that began with Adam.. so really its all a bunch of crap from what i can see, unless you want to say that jesus's blood was more precious than the christ's vlood when he was TJ;

surely Clinton doesnt have jefferson in his name unless he is related to jefferson...

imagine, am i correct that nina my twin sister was mary baker eddy the one woman in all of history whose thought has made the greatest impact on me.... and she and i, the christ, are going to be lovers??? what a SHOCK for this world of people who have so ignored and poopooed the incredible truth that mary baker eddy presented to them..

and are we going to conceive a child together? and if so, what kind of child will that be/??

and then you imagine us being lovers with that child in due course, and it gets out of control,,, this incest thing is dangerously erotic, which is why people are so afraid of it,, it is dangerous if you are not purely good and honest and open hearted and well intended.

from my limited experience of going to christian science services, i think that the church is really boring and stagnant, but i have found over the years that the christan science montior has been consistently good... i am curious if the rawat family has continue to have a hand in the monitor,, i subsripbed doe a while, and i always would read the religious editorial,, i used to read christian science literature all of the time, i would even go in reading rooms and study the weekly lessons... but i did nt get anything at all from the church service itself. too dry.. no passion.

obviously the holy bible is absolutely paramount in its importance above anything else in this world, but a person wishing to understand who the christ is doesnt really learn as much from the bible as there is to know... look at the life of sakyamuni for starters, study buddhism, read all of herman hesse, who really is describing different aspects of the christ's personality in his books, read the essene gospels, read mary baker eddy, there is so much more to understand,, consider his other incarnaitons, kefferson especially...

nina may or may not have invented the ideas of mary baker eddy,,, it may be somehting like the koran and the bible that is just a glass bead game bead, and nina is the one who interprets it who presents it, but doesnt actually do the writing.. it seems like a major picture in the sperm story, like an archeype, its an eternal book, science and health with key to the scriptures, by mary baker eddy,,, maybe its something that gets originally reinvented by each nina, but here is what i know,, nina has what it takes to come up with it, that' her role, its like a christ like role that nina pays are his counterpart in a seriously intellectually powerful way.. i am quite sure i have heard that teh english vocabularly that Mrs Baker used is third to Shakespear and King James. is there a bible code in shakespeare??

is there a bible code in King James? How about Mary Baker Eddy? maybe Nina has her own code in tehre...

What about Goethe? What about Dante and Virgil? what about Cervantes, Hugo, Melville, Twain and Tolstoy? I would nt be surprised if all of those leading authors in each language are rawat items that are used each time and contain code.. of course.. i would say yes probably a list like that would all have codes in them... there is a lot of detail somewhere in code i believe.

in one of those history chanel shows about the bible code one of the critics, who seem so idiotic to me, said he found some evidence of code in Moby Dick, as if that DISPROVED that the bible code wasinserted deliberately, a totally illogical arguement,m and then he's saying sarcastically that someone will just claim that that was put there in Movy Dick too, and there's me, the christ watching going, damned right you idiot, if you are finding statistical probability defying occurances of code in Movy Dick then Moby DIck has code, if someone could put code in the BIble that has accurately predicted past events, then wouldn't that person be like a pretty powerful person, powerful enough to have also put a code in Moby DIck???

I mean, the idiocy that people resort to in their efforts to deny the truth that they are just in denial of the truth about the truth that they are in denial of, if you can follow my overly contorted logic, people are just idiotic...

i feel very close to those KNID doors right now, i better go have a look in case they are coming out o fthose doors and chasing me 'n mr. wonka out of the hotel USA>>> be back soon..

if some doctor was actually willing to spend an hour with me actually looking in my eyes and listening to my heart, without a presupposition that i needed to be drugged, but with a completely open mind and heart, with a sincere and compassionate concern for my well being, I think I could sit down with a copy of the greendale green family tree and just tell the story of how those cahracters obviously correspond perfectly to a perfectly coherent explanation of reality that is consistent with so much myth and religion that an intelligent person, one intelligent enough i should hope to be a Doctor of Psychiatry, would have a really difficult time beleiving that i was anything but the christ.. it's all to obvious, even that neil young is obviously earl green... i mean, my understanding of greendale alone, my ability to present a coherent version of reality through and through, just by interpreting the music and all of the accompnaying material on the web and in the CD package is nothing short of the most bnillinat thing that anyone has ever come up with... yet i doubt that i would get such an opportunity to present my own case for why i am sane and not be drugged into sickness in a hundred years of being committed to Nurse Rachet institutions and assylums of human insanity enforcement.


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what i said about the lie (112)

friday 4pm

what i said about the lie that we all got told somewhere along the way about the pain that is uniquely our own in the kidneys? that's really important, though very subtle... it relates to teh everlasting gob stopper,, its how allah keeps boys out of the temple somehow... just a form of denial...

OK so lane came by to see me, which was so sweet i love him... and he brought me comic, and i never looked at til now, and finally i am like, there must be a clue here, and its like right there in the first three panel, catherine of alexandria is a rawat obviously,,, probably nina. she "wed" the christ child.

maxentius, who was that guy, i gonna thrash his ass. was that CAIN??? wow, amazing... who put Lane up to that, he didnt come up with that on his own,,, no way,, someone put lane up to giving me this piece that says that Catherine of alexandria, hands down is Nina, and Cain or whoever that was intended to kill her because she would not marry him.. wow amazing. who was it that sent you with that Lane come on, tell me, i know you are reading this... you are following me play by play... lane and david are both playing wth me.

i once referred to "the everlasting godstopper of shame" and claimed that Roald Dahl would be struck by the genius of that... since i have wondered if i misunderstood the everlasting god stopper, er, gob stopper, and now it seems like it IS related to shame,,, people are ashamed to admit that they've got this annoying little pain in their kidneys that they think is uniquely their own disease. no one wants to have a disease that no one else knows about... a lie and a denial of it..

its Kind of like a little bottleneck inside the body, if you know what i mean,,,

"that's a secret that we all conceal.... how does it feel.... " bob dylan said something like that...

i think my reference to SHerpananda Point being my own perch on Mount Olympus will probably be a bible ode reference.

is it possible that both gurdjieff and yosamian conspired to get open hearted people to pass out on alcohol and so become alcoholic??? bejurin and dan bejeski might possibly have had that happen to them while under his evil spell. if so, then lets bust him and hang his sorry ass! WHatdya cops know about Yosamian,,, i wanna bust the motherf'er's ass myself with some of my friends if he's as bad as i think he might be..

that would be teh most perfectly "satanic" thing, in the absolute truest sense of the word, that anyone could ever do. There could not possibly be a worse crime other than what satan himself did when poisoned the deity himself. man oh man, if satan is willing to pull off his crime, then it stands to reason that there would also be a yosamian working in cahoots... i really think yosamian is a bad guy.
if what i am saying is true, this is a terrible evil and absolutely terrible terrible horrible crime, as some one who has fallen into that alcohol hell of joe whinney's... wow... it makes too much sense for me not to feel honestly convinced that i may have nail a major bad guy without any personal contact with him in my entire life.

if i am correct Yosamian, the false prophet, is a very important Babylonian criminal, worthy of Batman villian status. like catwoman, linda liebold, who works by luring men into the alcoholic experience.

bad girl. very bad girl... we boys might have to spank her, everone who ever fell into her trap... she and yosamian are a pair,,, which villian is he/?? HERE WE GO OOOOOOOOO

WOW CHECK IT OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is amazing. yosamian is probably egg head, and here is why,, because he is also gurdjieff, who likes to tell storiess that start out in a cellar of old calvados. vincent price in his tales from teh crypt is a reference to gurdjieef and then that translates over to vincent price as egghead... yosamian is egghead, and the subliminal clues are freaking fantastic. i love it.

oh, and vincent price is Israel all the way! thanks vincent! great clue! did you come up with that one yourself?

got any more puzzles for me to figure out now that i nailed gurdkiefff? any more,,, besides gurdjieff and maxentius??? i think bejurin dan steven G. and Mark music and Rami, and Richie and all of those other awesomly cool boys are gonna have fun tomenting Gurdjieff/Yosamian...

yeah, bejurin tried (inadverntantly) to pass that sickness on to me, but i resisted... the toasting circle, he came to town spreading the religion of yomanian, but not demanding that they stay up all night doing it at pain of some kind of shame based guilt taden ostrasization... he's good at making people feel bad about themselves and its no fun, so people are really stoic about the all night toasting madness.. what a crime. terrible crime.

meditating on the batman villians, teh babylonian gang of criminals that includes cat woman, who to me is linda liebold, she came down drunk to witness me falling into the alcohell time #3.

OK, so penguin. I have this very strong association with his persona with a guy in seattle named Alan Alh@deff, he's a member of a very influential but invisible family of possible safardic Jews who own a lot of real estate and stuff here in Babylon. He's a mediator and he is the partner of hte woman whose name i've had trouble remembering but hwo icredited with helping me out of that same third hell experience i just mentioned.. it was just my own feeling of love for her, not of hers for me, because she never was friendly with me again after that... i am not sure i trust her even though she seems very nice, because of how she rejected me when i told her that loving her had helped me out of that hell experience.

anyway alan A. reminds me of penguin in his manner, and he;s someone who dissappeared from my life after the nnov 1 2003 talk, along wiht robin. who came with david spangler.

so i am going with alan alh@def to be teh penguin. i dont know what his game is, but he's suspicious, hanginign around me, being my friend around that time, and then disappearing after it seemed like i was on to the babylonian brotherhood.

king tut is probably victor bremson, if he';s someone in seattle. bremson is a pontificator, and he's got the same mannerism,,, i've mentioned him recently in context of the disappearing jewish friends,,, he came to town with BALLE which was probably invented JUST to distract me..

judy wicks heard me out on the phone once, i'll be interested to see which side she is on,, i do like her a lot, but i got fooled by goldie caughlan nad i knew her a lot better. judy wicks is more original though. i like her. she's sort of the founder of this BALLE thing that victor introduced to seattle. progressive business ideas, just an idea of ideas of ideas, but no action.

who else popped into my life and then faded away... lemme think about that.. we got martin as mr freeze a long time ago, he was totally silent when i accused him of that.. oh yeah i used to think of penguin as bill aal and margo together, they both waddle,,, so its either that or alhadeff or maybe its meant to be a three way composite... they've got the waddle, but alhadef has the face, so i'll go with that, a 3 person composite in Penguin. if i nail that one someone's gonna have to congratulate me. .

the longer you stat on earth, the more you'll see unfold, (before your very inner eyes... )

this is PURE intelligence.

maybe if i google batman villians i will get reminded of some others, i cant think of any more. two face/joker is whinney, alcohol, riddler is ramer, we got a bunch i wanna get em all like i did the greendale family.

it says egg head is the world's smartest villian,, well yosamian's plot is pretty darned smart.

bookworm and madhatter are the only other two i can remember... lemme puzzle on those two for a bit.

now that i think of it, bejurin probably still is nursing his yosamian wound.

a man feigning to be a teacher of enlightenment who guilt trips his disciples into turning themselves into alcoholics... what a wonderful idea... he and catwoman really are quite a pair.

well whomever is the ACTUAL inventor of batman probably had one real babylonian villain asscoiated with each batman villian and this is no doubt known and there will be lots of testimony about this from whoever the inventor of batman was.

i think i mentoined that our good satan Todd is a step- member of the Alh@def family so mwyb he was put there for a reason, as a spy.

if the alh@def family came to seattle whenever they did, i think its been a few generations, because it was destined to be babylon, then perhaps they were a sort of advamce crew from babylon and an important babylonian family, i presume this has been the home of babylon here in seattle only since bob seigel got his bump on the head eight years ago. back when Dan merkle was mentoring with john caughlin. i have no idea but i wouldnt be surprised if babylon moves around a lot, and has only been here for a short while.

its 5:30, 3:25 was my deadline for reporting to harboview, so i am not sure what's up/. the police ought to have been here by now.

hey Joe, if you're tracking me, you might want to call the police and light a fire under their asses, its two hours later that it might have been and i've almost slipped away into the temple,,, there may not be much more time to poison me,,, !

or maybe you could sick teh police on me Tom, after all, you're the lawyer for this ~rawat~ person whom you are seriously messing with.

speaking of tom, there's my guess for bookworm, the guy who calls himself my brother, but is really a bad viper whose working with satan to try to thwart destiny.

mona lisas and madhatters// by elton john,,, just to wrap up my guesses, and this is the WILDEST of the WILD guesses, I am going to guess Bob of the L@tona pub, who became lorraines boyfriend. why? because his pub is next door to where i started e foods, and the space i was in got turned into a restaurant called Mona Lisa, so when i thought of mad hatter, i looked for an association and found elton john's song mona lisas and madhatters,,, and then i thought about mona lisa and i thought of that space, and then Bob came to mind.

He came and stood in my kitchen once for a really long time inexlicably. i always liked the guy, but he's the single most visible beer-industry person from this life, the one who i sort of got to know the best, and another association already there is alcohol, so i am going to say that bob of latona may be the inventor and or major promoter of beer. and in this life he manifested that by starting the pub that was right next door to my first place of business. logical.. bob is mad hatter, that's my guess.

so i think i satisfied myself that i've made a good guess for all the batman villians whom i ever saw on the show, which by the way, was one of the first TV shows, if not the first, that i ever watched regularly as a kid... in fact when it first came out we didnt have a TV in my family and a friend of mine who i used to what to school with used to recount the episodes for me while we were walking, so i got hooked on batman BEFORE i ever started watching TV at all,,, cool,, and today i've named a few of the actual villians.... amazing.

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3pm

was just thinking of scott gelband my lawyer before walt,,, maybe neil was thinking of him at the same time.

i am so hung because i am so good, and so I can be the christ.

its almost like this: how much are you wiling to know about yourself? the answer determines, ultimately, how hydrated the testes are. if you dont want to know, they become less hydrated, if you do want to know, they become more, and this actually effects their size, dramatically, not to mention their health.

"teeheeheehee BINGO!!!"

my dad was very good man, and he was so hung. i never thought of myself as so hung, but its really just a matter of what i am understanding about what is happening to me, and to my genitals in particular and the association between my ability to sense what is there to sense and my overall power really, as a man, as a god.

Goodness rules, and I am talking about the mechanics of it on a very physiological level.

there's a certain tingling feeling that i would call "borderline ecstasy" that i am beginning to sense. my body is starting to shiver.

"Glad of the Love that I've found....." led zepplin

teh eating of the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil is not something that a pre- aryan man was capable of doing. Aryan really is the step in human evolution from "man" to "god." pre-arian man is closer to baboon in this sense than aryan man, in terms of heavenly capabilities. aryan is the man who is fully ABLE to be a God and do all that a god can do.

if that makes an aryan man a "titan" or something like that, something that someone lke Zachariah SItchen would say invaded the earth, what he really means is, that was the Creator of this world and his family coming down from heaven to establish a successful human culture here on the Earth that they created.

but then "the neighbors rose up, and some of them were made as Hell, cuz it used to be the double L... So if Zachariah Sitchen prefers Hell to Heaven, then I'm afraid he will have to be moving along soon!

(not that i beleive this about him, he could easily be Israel, just like i believe Icke is, in spite of all the wrong things he says... it's just part of the puzzle.. icke is too brilliant, and beautiful, not to be isael.

..................i like icke!.............

he's really danged cute if you ask me!!! tooo cute not to be one of my lovers!! did you know i was in your audience at town hall david>?>> i loved your show and of course i appreciated the GIGANTIC clue to me that you could not possibly be babylon when you told me about your ecstatic psychedelic experience. i look forward to seeing you soon, i'm sure we'll have some great story telling !!!!!

dang, now that i think of it, add Icke to my list of pottential archangel personages.

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throw sid up on that list too.... just naming the guys i think of as being most brilliant.

i consider myself to be a Christian Scientist, its the only christian church i ever identified with... when they take me to Harborview i am going to tell them this, that it is against my religion to take pharamceuticals.

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i think i am having what you might call " a spiritual experience " if you know what i mean

i think david sort of told me that he can do waht satan (from greendale) can do,, walk through walls...

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just sent neil this e mail

would you object if i asked the police to pick me up inside the cathedral? i'd like to be pulled out of there in handcuffs.

i like the idea of looking them in the eyes and saying, "just so you know, i have been saying for 2 1/2 years that I am the christ, and now am saying that the rapture is in progress."

it seems like maybe we're past the everlasting gobstopper incident now.

"turning the pages of this old book, might be worth a second look..."

i might have to go back and read those lyrics..."Bandit"

"AYe aye aye aye, I am the Fried Knid Bandito..."

it seems like the reason that "g*d" expects an offering from Cain and Abel is because it is part of the aryan agreement, its probably in the willie wonka fine print somewhere. of course Abel was more than happy to oblige, but then he was gone. and Cain gave up the practice.

I dont know about Noah and his descendants, whether or for how long any of this descendants carried on a meaningful relaitonship with G*d... really isnt meaningfulness the reason for the sacrifice, that the sacrfice encourages one to get something out of the experience, rather than just going through the motions of an empty ritual? it's makes it sacred, "sacrifice" by encouraging a person to put their heart into it, otherwise there would be no point in making a sacrificial offering... it's a way of manifesting and thereby assuring sincerity. Without sacrifice a ritual tends to become meaningless. Even communion is a small sacrifice (tiny) but it puts some meaning - people have to sacrifice their time and energy to get in line, etc.,,, it's an offering of sorts. probably enough that done once per week it's the minimum to keep a person on track with following the commandments and the golden rule.

didn't i hear something on tv about a "rescue operation?"

i think this aryan thing pretty much boils down to this: aryan men can access the temple through their own bodies and non aryan men cannot,, somehting like that..

its possible buddha was a non aryan and bodhidharma was an aryan... the founder of mahayana buddhism, i wonder if that was arius or neil or me,,, one of the three, most likely.

or else His Holiness the Dalai Lama, the very important Rawat ally in the wars between Heaven and Hell.

it seems possible to me that Sakyamuni and Bodhidharma were both the same person, either neil or me, his holness or eido roshi, one of those four. they are stages in the same journey, the journey of arias from out of the deep and into the Kingdom of Heaven.

there are certain indescribable sensations that i associate with the DMT experience and the temple, the temple in the head of the penis.,, i am sensing those sensations.. i feel close to the place dmt takes you. (1 pm)

last time satan took over the temple 2500 years ago he poured alcohol into the completely vulnerable body of G*d, this time he wants to pour pharmaceuticals into the body of the deity in teh Temple,,,, is he really going to get away with it?????

sheesh!!

personally i would be a lot more comfortable if i thought this was going to be pre-empted.

i guess i better go on about my work now... and leave the driving to you....

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and honestly, i don't know why those other kids and their parents were so rude to Mr. Wonka, but they got what they deserved out of the deal, there is justice in those inner workings of the chocolate factory, if you know what i mean...

I'm ready to do my part to administer it.

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it seems to me like adam is just the founder of the aryan race. and adam is pluto who could actually be a son of arius from another iteration. seems quite plausible. of course teh japanese are aryan, i have been saying i was the emperor.

so i wonder, are ethopeons ayans, and if so, are they the only aryans in africa, what about kenyans or west africans,,, interesting.

so then, were the meso american natives who had templs aryan?

does aryan apply to the temple, any civilization that had a tmeple was aryan?

aryan relates to the temple and descent from prem rawat or one of his perfect sons. Kenyatta could perhaps be the arian founder of ethoeopia.. so i was confused, it's not kenyatta who is revered by the rastas, it was salassi, anyway, i still see kenyatta as having possibly been whoever the king was who the rastas revere. he seems like he could be the rasta god. \
certain nations, such as germany for example, may be housing criminals who are aryans, and some are probably housing criminals who are non-aryans, such as possibly china, burma and north korea, as well as central african countries where there have been mass genocides.

most of the good aryans, if i am correct, would be in english speaking countries, japan and small pockets like Tibetans. for some reason i like italy the best of the non english speaking european countries. and now that i think of it, royalty could be an indication of a good nation, so Spain, Sweden and Holland look pretty good. any other monarchies? i dont know,,

I have this feeling that jordan is apart from syria and iraq, more of a good population there perhaps,,, there is a monarch and a liberal culture, unlike Saudi. i still like turky, malaysia, w africa incluing perhas morocco through to tunesia, possibly all of N africa, everything beyond the pakistan to arabia portion of islam plus i'm not too sure about indonesia... just dont have a sense.

i could be totally off base with my sense that there might be some salvagable islamic nations... the main clue that i am going on is that Prem Rawat visits malaysia.

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the willie wonka agreements could be the same as what was laid out in the Knowledge session,,, one hour two times per day in the temple, plus its possible that the sabbath day is for the temple as well. i dunno, just wanna say that i'm thinking aobut this,

i've long though of grandpa green's morning newspaper ritual having to do with the morning visit to the temple. and then there's sun's dinner with dad... two "sessions"

i feel like the kidney knids are joining the chain that the knid-killing kid is brining back down to earth ...

david young's (that's a clue i didnt get till last night) said something curiously about himself having "passed through a bottleneck..." hmmm what could the meaning of that be...

hey david, are you enjoying the truman show???

i'm going to guess that the boy named Mars with the goddess and the puppies in the convenient store's parking lot is someone who was cousin jed in another go round, or else whatever James arthur is, who for all i know was a cousin jed once too. wouldnt surprise me, actually. he got so close to the secrets that p max controls. Mars. i think cousin jed is mars, of course he is, he is sun tzu according to the world's leading and probably authorized authoristy... authorized to tell me exactly what i was allowed to know about P max.. and WHO ELSE would have written the Art of War if not Mars himself!!! i love raja ji. !!!

SPEAKING OF WHICH, i cannot believe that i never mentioned this on my web site,,, i think neil had to send mars and his sister as a wake up call... star babies!!!

I realized last year at the string CHeese INcident that there was a huge wave of perfectly pure souls incarnating in this world, and a lof of them show up at string cheese and other such events.

I met one named sol who was the one i was really seeing this perfection in when i came to htis understanding... there is a generation of young hippies who are having these pure star baby babies, children who have never been adults, or at least were not in their past life.. they are children who want to be children... they are like an advance wave of Heaven... Mars and his lover are two more of these star babies, and I think Harry might be one too. but most of them are under 20... maybe they are just kids of the woodstock hippies.

235 i do feel like it could be alcohol that is burning in my glans... did they just inject alcohol,, or maybe its beause that part is really a par of the central nervos system.. the part of it that you can really feel..

whatever pharmacceicals will do to a completely non-shut down person is what they will do to me if satan is allowed to. i hope i slip into the temple in the next 40 minutes, so i dont have to deal with nurse rachet again...

from david:



Take care of yourself Jeff, and please stay in touch............ I'd very
much like to see you again at some point when the dust settles a bit and you
have time!!

>< David

maybe he's talking about the dust from the elevator crashing through the roof of the factory ... which could happen at any moment now....

i said, "i'll be there soon,"



good non aryans in india, se asia,, etheopia, west africa,

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