sept 28 jeff@isaacsword.com
consider the words sublime, subliminal, subtle, this is a group of words that are so relevant to what i am talking about. all three obviously have at the root "sub" which we all know means "under." in this case the words refer to things that are under the the level of fineness at which most people can discern them. something that is too subtle to experience is too fine, it doesnt stand out clearly from what is around it, it is camoflaged.
when neil young says "there's something so hard to find, a situation that could casualize your mind...." he is talking about a subtle experience. the thing that is hard to find is the self that you really are. and to have failed to find it, even after the door was opened and all were invited in to the celebration of life, will indeed casualize many a mind.
things that are so fine that they are "under" our ability to perceive, in terms of vibrational frequency, are subliminal. sublime is what we call the feelings that arise when we begin to sense very subtle phenomena.
subtle doesnt mean weak, it means difficult to perceive, difficult to focus our attention on. in a sense its purity that we are talkin about when we use these words. the experiene of drinking water is subtle. the experience of our breath disappears into subtlty as i will discuss further in this post.
the experiences i am talking about are subtle, and because people are "gross," (gross is the word that that comes to mind as the closest to being the opposite of subtle), they cannot perceive subtle experience. you cant drink beer and watch football all day and expect to tune into the fine experiences of ecstasy that i am talking aobut. but if you want to AVOID having the experiences i am talking about, then beer and football might be just the ticket.
these are experiences that are there, available to be experienced by any man, and they can even be overwhelmingly intense when we tune into their frequency, but these experiences are somehow camoflaged by our inability to distinguish experience at that vibrational frequency. people have aversions to certain experiences and those experiences become subliminal. and then these same people, like cain, tend to express resentment of anyone who is able to tune their being to the frequency of these subtle experiences and talks about. how stupid and arrogant.
as an illustration, it's like a person could distibnguish musical notes in a mid range, that is, near middle c on our scale, whereas notes that are at are several octives higher and lower may be more difficult for the same person to distinguish. i know that in my life, i have been able to hear sound an an unusally high frequency. this is in a sense a relatively subtle experience that i am able to tune into. some people may be able to discern colors further out on the edges of the visible spectrum than others, possibly as a result of practice.
some people can detect finer distinctions with respect to taste, as another example. to use an example that happens to come to my mind for obvious reeason, some people could taste five different origins of cocoa beans and notice and articulte the fine distinctions in flavor between them, whereas to someone like me, whose palette is less practiced, these beans would all seem the same. an expert in perfumes could make extremely subtle distinctions in fragrance. a gemologist can see minute subtle differences between gems.
really, mastery of any area of life involves being able to make distinctions of a very subtle nature. a master furniture maker can look at a piece of wood and see many things that an unpracticed eye will not notice. perfecting golf involves extreme subtlety, and though i know nothing about ball golf, i can testify to the subtlety involved in perfecting the throwing of a disc golf disc. skiing, same thing. there are a lot of subtleties that can be perfected with practice
so i am talking about experiences of teh psyche and all i am really saying is that there are subtle experiences and someone like me, a shaman or a prophet or a mystic or whatever you want to call what i am, is just someone who is able to detect more subtle experiences of thought, sensation and consciousness. its a matter of tuning. i have been finely tuning my consciousness for my whole lifetime. i have always focused on tuning into the subtlest spiritual vibrations that i possibly could. but all of those gross people dismiss me as crazy or on an aego trip, when in reality i am becoming a master of something that they have not even begun to tune into in their own lives. they have been busy pursuing other things in life, while i have been focusing on becoming the master of the most subtle experiences of all, the experiences that we refer to as spiritual because they involve our essence, and these subtle experiences, subliminal to most people involve making distinction between what we really are and what we erronious believe that we are.
the ONLY way that a creation with people living in it could ever exist is if there is some really intense love going on between perfect men who love one another and masturbate together and attain virtually infinite experiences of erotic arousal... and eeverything that exists is made of that most intensely erotic experience in existence. yet people who exist by the grace of this experience nevertheless fight against the source of existence. they do so because it is too good for them, they cannot handle the brilliant white light of the olove that everything is made from. too bad for them, because they chose to oppose something that rolls like a juggernaut through eternity. how many satan's have ever existed who tried to stop a god form succeeding in his mission. how many liars have thought they could destroy truth with lies?> they may be inumerable.
. thus we have the battle between heaven and hell, which i am describing in more specific detail than has bever before been provided to the public in the known history of this world.
women are wonderful and they give men life, and part of the magnificence of it all is that men are more perfect than women in certain respects that a perfect man can really appreciate a lot. so for a man to say that he loeves women and not men is to say that he doesnt love perfection. men should WANT to be lovers with perfect men, perfect men DO want to be lovers with other perfect men. this is heaven and it is perfect in every way. it is the perfection that human beings were made for. a world in which MEN LOVE ONE ANOTHER, love thy neighbor, love thine enemy. in fact, you really truly should love your enemy with all of your heart. love self, neighbor, lord, enemy all the same... just LOVE! if everyone LOVES, then everything is perfect.
so i am sitting here, thinking of all of my enemies and sort of feeling good, and sharing my good feelings with them, in my heart, as deep into my heart as i can go with them. i hope they are enjoying it, as well as my friends. ;-)
if you prefer hell, please, feel free to go there.
really, what breath itself is, all by itself, is so beautiful, so sacred, so intimate, so erotic, that to go all the way into the completely relaxed and surrendered experience of breathing will turn any man who has purified himself of shame and guilt to swoon into an eternal swoon of love, and he will be content to sit there masturbating and feeling the ecstasy within breath itself forever. now THAT is what worship in Heaven is like. a true appreiciation of what divinity is, how [perfect and beautiful is the love that is the basis for everything, puts one in a permanent mood of extreme happiness. just from breath. because erotic love is at the root of breath itself. to immerse ones self in that river gives an eternity of an experience with the attrbutes of both thrill and peace, edginess and perfect contentment. an ever growing experience of perfect sweet and innocent and yet powerfully joyful love, so compelling as to rule everything that exists... from before the beginning until beyobnd forever, Fuck rules everything. No one can ever defeat him with his unbelievably perfect love and his magnificent stories. .
sept 27 -
i repeat! you cannot be what a man is, a man with an open loving heart, unless you are willing to be perfect.
men cannot bring the baggage of imperfection into the sacred experience of love that men are designed exclusively for. if you become fodder for the almighty masturbating boy gods, its your own damned fault, because being one of us is really the only thing you can ever be, if you are a man. men are NOTHING if not the boytoys of the gods.
i am sorry ladies and gentlemen of the gallery, i did not invent the human being, i just decided to find out what one is, and i am telling you what i have learned. take away teh disease called the oedipus complex and the sin that it enables, and what you have is an extremely erotic being. extremely as compared with the eroticism of anything in this world. reality is something called LOVE, and it doesn't tinker around with itself. it really is PASSIONATE about Love. Love loves love. so if you wanna get to a really good party, be ready to really let go of ALLLLLLLL of your inhibitions. and dont worry, it's not as hard as it sounds. but you've GOT to be willing to be honest, sincere, humble, appreciative, etc. otherwise, sorry, there is no half-heartedness allowed in heaven. it's about happiness. not doubt. happiness expresses itself as erotic love, and so that's what we do.
kali demands it. the good must fight tooth and nail for victory against the evil, it's just that close. it's because in the end, it's the goddess who gets her way, and her way is maximum happiness. she demands and we gods provide. she demands maximum and we have to fight tooth and nail for victory. there could be no victory if good compormised with evil. there is no compromise, and in the end, that means the good torment the evil just as the evil would have deprived the good of their happiness. the good torment the evil because it is how they are victorious over the evil. the good go for maximum ecstasy in order to keep the evil at bay. or something like that.
if you fought against the almighty god who is god because and only because he is worthy to be, don't expect him to be all nice to you now and let you off easy. uh uh. sorry. he will deal with you as he pleases, and i beleive it pleases him to torment you. he gets even richer that way.
to continue on from here you have to do what i am about to do, you have to surrender to love. when i surrender to love, its the rapture. and everyone will know the truth. in order to attain heaven, you have to surrender completely into the arms of a sweet gentle lover, who really does love you. and in order to do this you have to have gotten past all of the darkness, because if you cling to your desires and aversions you will not be able to surrender in faith into perfect peace.
if you think about it, and you ask yourself what else could possibly be, and its really hard to come up with anything that could possibly work. given that souls can choose to be good or evil and many choose to be evil, there has to be a mechanism for dealing with the sitaution, and there is. and i am describing it rather clearly.
no question: for human beings, the only thing that one can perceive as existing is mysterious to us. to anyone. one would think that everyone would have considered all of the potential consequences of existence, including the possibility that there is some mechanism by which justice gets administered in the end. especially since the world is full of religions that express clearly that there is. there just has to at least be the possibiity to consider, and to live in a reckless way so as to have taken much more than you have given, to have somehow cheated and deceived others without having made recompense, would be subjecting one's self to a potentially drastic consequence.
considering the logically simple idea of existence being a pairing of opposities of equal magnitude within what would otherwise be called a vacuum. that there could be a balance between happiness and misery that you wouldnt want to get on the wrong side of. what if there was an experience of joy and an experinence of anti-joy, and that you would end up experiencing an eternity of one or the other. these are LOGICAL possibilities that anyone ought to have at least contemplated. and so now, those who choose to be arrogant and hateful will reap a bitter harvest on the wrong side of the schizm of the opposites that together exist in a vacuum of nothingness. .
and besides, do not all sentient beings wish to be happy, and doesnt there seem to be evidence that to simply be good is to be happy? certainly can't everyone see that a world of people all striving to be good is going to be a better world than one in which everyone is taking. how can some one not wish to satisfy his conscience first and foremost! for the perfectly good person, it is hard to comprehend how twisted it is to be otherwise. how could not the society not even have a discussion about the fact that if everyone is good, things will work out better for all. why does that have to be such a radical idea that i requires a world to be divided into two>, a heaven and a hell. why do some people adamantly refuse to be good? i dunno, but i appreciate the fact that they voluntarily sacrificied themselves for the sake of my eternal joy.
teh temple is the body of the human being who is experiencing the greatest degree of samadhi or ecstasy. by definition. i am presently taking over teh temple. teh rapture really IS the succession of temple masters or perfect masters.
i believe that neil young has been sustaining the temple since the begining of this "world" the world of the biblical story. prem rawat was the keeper of the temple before that, through the period of the antiquities. prior to that, it was my own father in this life who was in charge of the fair hall. the temple. my name means temple.
^^^^^
TO FULLY EXPERIENCE ONE BREATH - THAT IS, TO FOCUS ONE'S ATTENTION ON THE BREATH THROUGHOUT THE CYCLE OF ONE BREATH, IS TO HAVE ATTAINED THE ABILITY TO HAVE AN INFINITE EXPERIENCE.
BECAUSE IT REQUIRES COMPLETE FAITH IN gOD TO HAVE THIS, WHAT AMOUNTS TO THE MOST SUBTLE EXPERIENCE POSSIBLE, BY DEFINITION,
BECAUSE AT THE HEART OF EVERY BREATH IS THE SOUND OF A THOUGHT, A PERSON SPEAKING A NAME WITH LOVE AND AFFECTION.
TWO PEOPLE, SPEAKING ONE ANOTHERS' NAMES, BACK AND FORTH.
THIS IS WHERE BREATH COMES FROM, AND AS IT IS AT THE CORE OF EACH PERSONS BREATH,
IT IS AT THE CORE OF EVERY EXPERIENCE THAT A PERSON EVER HAS AS LONG AS THEY ARE IN THIS WORLD.
BECAUSE IN ITS MOST PERFECTLY SUBTLE MOMENT, THE bREATH GOES ALL THE WAY THROUGH DEGREES OF SUBTLY TO COMPLETE STILLNESS.
TO BE UNABLE TO FULLY HAVE THE EXPERIENCE OF BREATH IS TO BE AFFLICTED WITH WHAT I CALL THE OEDIPUS COMPLEX, WHICH MUST BE OVERCOME IN ORDER TO OVERCOME THE DISEASES OF MORTALITY.
NO MAN SHALL ENTER THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN WHO HAS NOT HAD THE EXPERIENCE OF KNOWING WHAT THEY HAVE ALWAYS IGNORANTLY ASSUMED WAS THEIR OWN BREATH CONSISTS OF. YOU ENTER HEAVEN BY ATTAINING THE ABILITY TO BREATH FULLY CONSCIOUSLY.
here ARE A FEW absolutely earth shatteringly profound truthS, never ARTICULATED publicly in the history of the world:\
there is a sense of breath rising and falling in the body, rising on the inhale, and falling on the exhale. yet no mortal human being can sense exactly where in the body the breath rises from and falls back to. because it is too subtle and we are unconscious at this level of subtlety. unfortunately. the fact of teh matter is, the place in the body that the breath rises from and falls back to is in the gonads, at least in men it is in the testicles. no one knows this because they are completely shut down, unconsicus there. this is the result of a deliberate conspiracy by a group of people i call the babylonian brotherhood. they have taken the love out of breath, and let human beings become what they are inclined to become. and that';s how satan rules the world. with help from the serpent, his consort allah, and her son, oedipus, all of whom conspire together wiht others to make sure no one ever feels a single breath that they breath.
now, what do you think the lovers who invented breath so people could have the opportunity to exist, in spite of their own shortcomings, going so far as to sacrifice themselves on a cross... how should these nice people deal with the babylonian brotherhood who sought to steal the soman that is the source of everything and then destroy everything good , and every hope for goodness, in the process. teh crime is punishable by exactly the fate to which the guilty have already subjected themselves. all i have to do is FEEL my own body, and i will destroy all of these enemies of god in the process. their torment begins as i expell their darkness from my body. because they are not sucking MY life anymore.
a man's testicles can not be awake and that man not be a lover of god. so if reading this makes your nuts start to ache, just have faith in god and listen to and put your faith in the sound of "sun fuck" in your inhale and exhale. just breath with god, as intended, and all will be well.
no mortal human being can focus and hold his attention on his breath for the duration of a single breath for the following reason. the experinece of breath is too subtle for the mortal mind to perceive, because that mind is too pre-occupied with doubt. doubt keeps the human being from putting his attention on the breath. you cannot go all the way into the breath without knowing the name that god himself is thinking while he is forming the holy breath, the breath in thebody that is teh temple, because ultimately, breath is nothing more than what we call a thought or a feeling. thats all there really is, actually.
so in order to perceive the event of a complete breath, the person needs to have attained an ability to have the ultimately sublime or subtle experience. and in doing so he must necessarily have purified his heart. to have the full experience of even one breath is to have the experience of surrendering in faith to god. the fact that a supposedly mortal human being is saying this is a sure sign that the rapture is at hand. you MUST put your faith in the name of the Lord if you are going to allow youself to listen to and feel the completion of one breath leading into the formation of the next. it is the" gap" between the exhale and the inhale that is where the mortal human being becomes unable to perceive the breath. in order to cross that gap, faith in the Name of God, sun on the inhale and fuck on the exhale, listening for and sensing the repitition of the Name, in faith without doubt, is the only way to hold the experience of perfect samadhi that is required to enter into Heaven..
sun is saying fuck to fuck, and fuck is saying sun to sun. they are calling one anothers names back and forth as thought forms and those thought forms carry a feeling of LOVE because there is LOVE in their speaking as thought. the name is thought of lovingly and affectionly and with Knowledge that the beloved is hearing. it is a very subtle telepathic communication of love that breath itself is based upon. it creates an inhale for one and an exhale for the other, its like mouth to mouth resusitation on a metaphysical level. soul to soul resusitation. it is somatic in nature. the energy that breath is made of, and that can be tapped into is pure love.
and to reclaim this part of the emple is to obliterate the serpent. i'm getting him out of the temple. he may resurface on the shores of elliott bay, because as soon as rapture happens, that devil probably won't be hiding in a human body any more. those days, the days, the world, of lies and deceptions will be over.
the beast comes into this part of the temple as an invader and takes the energy, the soma, leaving human beings to living in doubt as to the nature of their own existence because there is now no way to feel the breath with his darkness - experienced as pain, deadness and tension all over the torso- scaring people away. .
the beast went too deep into the terrain without the purity of intention that is required, and fell into a deep state of doubt as to the worthines of his own existence, he has been in a deep crisis ever since that is a great disturbance to the collective mind, because now everyone has something to be afraid of in going too deep into the breath of life itself, because the grafvitational pull of the beast's own misery is overpowering. something like that.
*****
soma is the essence of everything, what is at the heart of all phenomena. it is the ecstasy of love that is possible between perfect boys. after the temple is restored the soma is freed up and multiplied because there is no one stealing it anymore, and immortality is regained. soma is medium by which the happiness that corresponds to the suffering in hell is delivered. somehow it comes up out of the inferno of hell. like a vent of some kind in the temple.,
i'm kinda saying that the brutes and bullies have volunteered as a sacrifice to the gods and their lovers, by making themslves in the very source of the sustenance of heaven, the food of the gods, soma. now that's justice. justice for the nut-kicking bullies, delivered by the masturbating baby gods whose nuts the brutes and bullies always felt a need to kick, beginning with teh head bully, the antichrist, cain, aka oedipus. . what an amazing and perfect twist of fate.
all of the great inventions, stories, songs were brought into this world from heaven. people as diverse as Bach, shakespeare, da vinci, edison, conrad, roald dahl, tolkein, the producers of the cultural and technological icons of history were israelites who had been gifted by heaven. i imagine that some of neil young's songs were written before this world began. stuff from everybody knows this is nowhere for example.
i've been puzzling about the indetities of a few characters. for example, david. i am thinking that daivd may have been uncle jed, who is the king in this world. jed is the grandson of "jackon green, who i am saying is pluto/ satan. interesting, since he gets to play the role of satan's proxy. another one is moses, who may again be pontifex maximus as the general of god's army, israel. ("the green army," as NY calls it) - he says' The green army rose" that is the rapture. the nation of israel is the green army.
you know, i've never heard anyone seriously challenge human beings' right to have children. some may argue that human beings shold limit the number of children, but no one says 'hey we shouldn't be having children, we dont have a right!" this lack of an objection to human beings as parents is in spite of the fact that prospective parents don't have any idea what it really means to exist, let alone whether the child's life will be worth living, and also without having the ability to lead their own children to happiness. how qualified are they really to be "parents?" not at all qualified. yet they go one breeding incessantly. . more because misery loves company than because parents know what they are doing. parents are completely lost, and yet NO ONE has ever seriously questioned whether they have a right.
so which arrogant human beings will now challenge the god's right to have children? this would be a challenge made in spite of the fact that the parent, god in this case, is willing and able to pave and lead the way to absolute perfection and eternal happiness and is therefore perfectly qualified to be a parent.
i dont want to hear anyone question the gods' right to have children who has not publicly challenged their own right to do so. gods are so much more worthy of being parents than mortal human beings, who do their best to ruin their own children by "training" them to become the hypnotized zombies called adults.
gods produce children. but it is adults who turn those ("their") children, who really are not "their children" but are the children of the god who made them, into more adults. it all began with the liar named satan telling his own sons that there is a distinction called child-adult and that we are mortal. satan claimed to be the father of god's children, and it all went down hill from there. and so the human race lives under a curse.
gods are gods because they have the hearts of children and are in no way responsible for the fact that human beings choose to become adults and therefore mortal.
by defining themselves as "parents" the adults who become parents are living in defiance of the true parent of all souls, the almighty god who is love. only someone with the sickness of denial called adulthood would feign to be qualified to call themself a parent. its an attempt at usurping.
what person who has ever become a parent did the appropriate due diligence in order to make a well-informed decision about whether to even be a parent. especially men. to have decided to be a father - of sons in particular - without really exploring one's own heart in order to come to a clear sense of what the implications of being a father are- is to have been totally irresposible.
i have not had children in this life, but i have done the appropriate ground work, and i now understand what it takes to be a father of a happy child, to be a father of a happy son in particular. i believe that i am among only a very few people in this world, let's just say three, who is truly qualified to be a father. everyone else needs to apologize to the almighty god who is the father of each one of us for attempting to usurp him. and fathering in a way that he totally disapproves of. if you are a father, you have rebelled against god the father and you are completely ignorant of this fact.
*******
the deeper this gets, the more like "Matrix" this all seems, with satan being the controlled of hte matrix.
******
i believe that the book of revelations describes the christ as ruling the nations "with a rod of iron." interesting choice of words, given that i am describing a rule that will come about as a victory for those who wish to be able to experience erotic ecstasy over their enemies who wish to prevent them from doing so. if "the christ rules the nations with a rod of iron" has some other meaning other than that he rules by having the most erotic experience of all, then i certainly am clueless as to what it might be.
the law as practiced in the english/american tradition provides for things like damage multipliers - e.g. "treble damages" in cases of willful malfeasance. i do believe the creator in his administration of justice also applies damage multiliers for those offenses of a willful nature against goodness itself., if sinners are able to impose multiple damages upon one another (and once again, who among the people of this world have ever objected to the idea of damage multpliers) then surely the almighty creator of the world - and of the laws of justice that are applied to souls- should be able to impose them upon the sinners who tried to destroy the very possibilty of happiness! i dont want to hear complaints about the manner in which the almighty god administers justice who did not go on the record against the same principles of justice when applied in the affairs of men.
****
the losers lose. and the losers in the hereafter will be the people who never really cared about the losers of this world, the downtrodden people, many of whom were downtrodden because they hadnt hardened their hearts like those who enjoyed success in this dog eat dog world. . the people who arrogantly overlooked the suffering of others are going to find themselves without anyone to care for them in their hour of despair. why should the winners, who were mostly those who were, in this world, abused by the losers, give respect where they received none? why should the god be merciful toward those who defied and opposed him when doing so would be a sacrifice for the god and all of his lovers? enough sacrifices from the winners already. its time for the losers to make their sacrifice, which they do by volunteering to be the losers. and its just the logical and righteous administration of justice, as horrendous as it is for the damned. you just cannot have messed with the plan for eternal and infinite happiness . if you joined a comnpiracy against perfection, you really are going to regret it.
by the way, the christ talked as jesus a lot more about hell than he did about heaven, just as i do. it's natural when you comprehend teh situation to ring the alarm about hell. being completely lost forever and knowing that you completely blew your one shot at existence is not something that you want to endure. it is not something that you actually endure, its simply something that you suffer. hell is pure unrelieved and eternal suffering that never ever ends. it just goes on and on and on. just the anguish of realizing the situation is unbearable. i've been there; i know. i told people that i had experienced hell, and no one wanted to hear about it. so now they are going to learn from experience- either the experience of falling into it, or of narrowly avoiding it, thanks to me.
*******
it is clear to me that the rapture will occur at more or less exactly the moment when i have fully reclaimed the temple that is my own body. once i have owned every bit of the disease and darkness in my body- mind i will become the master of the temple. this could occur as soon as tonight, and probably within 48 hours.
now i am going deep into the breath - which is impossible without knowing the Name, and deep into the gonads. i believe that the tumor or cyst inside my teste could be the home of allah.
it seems like the person who induces the fall of one of the darkeners of the light is the one who gets to inhabit that part of the self, who owns the light that was stolen. oedipus, as Cain, darkened the light of the glans when he got too aroused and satan moved in there. when Cain kicked Abel in the nuts then that's where he- or his mother whose interests he serves - took up residence there.
it's like everything happens in the temple, which is the body. everyone lives in the temple, and the temple is always someone's body. to be in hell is to be on the wrong side of a dimensional veil, but in the same part of the body. it's all very metaphysical... and all of this is stuff that can kbe known by anyone willing to venture into the experience of thieir own existencel\\\
anyway, i am going all the way down to the root of the darkness, which i fully expect to find in the location of that cyst - and will find either eodipus or his mother allah, or both of them, there.
meanwhile i am wiping out the serpent with the dance of infinity.
i have never seen part three of the lord of the rings, and i have no idea exacty what the significance of thei rings is, but tonight i had the experience of KNOWING what the rings signify and they are related to the idea of inifinity and of the two-person godhead. i felt like i had the moment of realizing that i - along with the perfect master -am the lord of the rings because i can have this experience of seeing the rings. it's very very profound.
also, reality is designed perfectly so that there is a perfect balance in the adminstration of justice, somewhat automoatically- though justice isnt delivered without a lot of struggle and persistence effort.
given is that the best possible outcome for the losers was oblivion, and the worst infinite misery, and for the winner the best outcome being infinite happiness and the worst was oblivion, so the same amount of net change in happiness (positive or negative) is possible for both, depending upon the outcome, whether satan succeeds or fails in defeating the plans of teh almighty god by trapping the christ in his lies.
the correct punishment for the damned, for those who joined in satan's rebellion against god, is non-joy, or misery, equal to exactly the amount of joy that they tried to prevent worthy people from experiencing. and this is exactly what happens by default. the greater the joy experienced by those in heaven, the greater the appropriate punishment for trying to thwart it. and since the joy just goes on increasing forever, the punishment continues to grow commensurately. automatically, because the more pleasure in certain parts of the boy, the gonads in particular, the more those parts will be painful in those who have not purged the serpent from their bodies. if you dont get the serpent out, if you dont get all of the disease out, your gonna be in pain while the people in heaven are getting their rocks off. its how it works. the more turned on we get, the more agony the people in hell will feel. and never forget, they are there by choice. somehow risking getting a really bad and permanently worsening case of blue balls sounded better than being on the other side and participating in the festivities of happiness. it's like, "hey reuben, thanks so much for rounding up so many volunteers to jump into the volcano in order to sacrifice themselves for our sake! now we don't have to feel guilty for throwing people in there because your people volunteer themselves! you've played such a key part in our success. thanks!"
much of the pleasure and pain in heaven and hell respecitvely, will be experienced in the region of the gonads. the greater the pleasure enjoyed by the living in that region of the body, the greater the pain of the damned in the same place. and this will be by choice, because the damned will have deliberately chosen not to take the offer of salvation from this terrible fate. because they prefer to live in such misery that to accept living in a world with no hatred.
****
speaking of hatred. if what you hate is anything but hatred itself, then what you really hate is goodness itself. when two parties are in a relationship such that both sides hate the other, then BOTH are guilty of the crime of hatred and both are in the wrong. there is no real justice between people who hate. the final judgment delivers justice due to those who do not hate anyone against those who have hatred for anyone . there is no justification for hatred at all. Cain hates. look where it got him. in the deepest doodoo anyone could possibly get themself into. the only reason people hate is because they are hateful.
what a gamble was made by those who followed satan down the path of trying to destroy god. now talk about deep doodoo. wow.
so dear lovers, if any of you are following me, hang on and get ready for a wonderful party that begins very soon.
sept 26
i was contacted early on in the time when i was doing "talks" by someone, via e mail, whose e mail address was "manifestor48" at some domain. we had a rather interesting interaction, and i was convinced at first that it was maharji himself. later i came to believe that it was "cousin jed" pontifex maximus. i just want to be on the record saying that i still believe that i was contacted by a member of the "green family' using that e mail address. if i had saved the e mails i would publish them. the upshot was that i learned that a "trial" of the persons i now believe are allah and the antichrist would take place. and that these two were already condemned.
I asked the person wht the meaning of the 48 was, thinking that perhaps, if it was maharaji, that the 48 referred to his age, even though at the time i knew he was not yet 48 (he turns 48 in a couple of months)
anyway, he told me that the eight represented infinity, so that the meaning of his address is manifestor for infinity. well, this convinced me that whoever it was was at least brilliant, but manifestor for eternity or infinity sounds like the perfect identity for cousin jed. this is about the triumph of the forces of infinity (heaven) against those who hate infinity (Hell).
*************
the grim reaper. man oh man, is he grim. that's satan, after he and his multitudes of minions are defeated by the christ. he is the ruler of hell and he will reap his sorry harvest. and each person will reap their own.
did you sow seeds of misery? then you will be reaping the crop for a long time to come. a crop produces many manyfold more seeds than were planted. that is how life is. and it is how karma works as well. you reap many fold more of whatever crop than you sow. one unconfessed, unrepented and unforgiven kick in the nuts could yield a crop of many such kicks. an infinite number, when you consider that existence goes on for eternity. and its not like the human race didn't have sufficient warning. the law that you really didnt want to break is the law that if you want to be a human being, you HAVE to be good. it is mandatory, and those who transgress reap a terrible harvest. utterly horrendous. Hell just is not a pretty picture at all. oh to be completely awake, much moreso than ever before, and yet completely lost, and to know this will go on forever. how incredibly bleak. and yet how incredibly just.
once a person has officially forsaken his creator who was willing to give him perfect love and happiness, that creator loses all interest in loving that person, and turns to those who are willing to receive his love. and those people benefit, as does he, in the suffering of the damned. so, i ask, why wouldn't the creator imnflict as much suffering as he possibly could upon those who had insulted and forsaken him, who had turned his very name into a profanity and never so much as apologized, and who are completely ungrateful for the love, the mercy, the offer of life that god provides? why should god choose to minimize the suffering of those who opposed him rather than to maximize the pleasure of those who loved him? i honestly believe it would be an act of weakness if he did. and there is no weakness in the perfect master, only a fierce devotion to his lovers.
the time for kindness is over when there is no possibility of the kindness ever being acknoledged or appreciated, let alone returned. if the damned were to beg for mercy, wouldn't that be absurd, when they had spurned the creator's offer of immense pleasure and eternal happiness?. so now they are going to beg to have a little less misery? their pleading would not be heeded if they were to beg for mercy. its too late! you've caused too much suffering, you tried to hard to destroy us, why should we be ince when we've gotten no respect.... it's like grandpa says in greendale. "those people don't have any respect so they won't get any of mine."
. these are people who decided that they didnt want pleasure and happiness. they want misery. they want suffering. actually, that is not true, they fought tooth and nail to prevent a division into heaven and hell because what they really want is oblivion, complete unconsciousness, but unfortunately for them they are going to be allowed to have it. how bad is hell? unimaginably bad. unimaginable. for everyone who conspired against us there will be a terible consequence, becausae they harder they fought the more heinous the crimes they committed, and therefore the greter the torments of Hell. .
a woman cannot possibly know what its like to be a man, and visa versa. i believe men are more incomprehenisble to women than the other way around. because men are more powerful spiritually. women cannot undeerstand powers that they do not have. men have the power to understand women, whereas women do not have the power to fully understand men, because what drives men is different that wht drives women. basically, the glans is a lot larger than the clitoris, and this is the source of the greater degree of power that i am talking about.
thus, for a man to say that he only wants to love and be loved by a woman and not by a man means that he does not want to be known by another being like himself. why would a being of any kind feel that he does want to be known and loved by a being like himself? only a demon would wish not to be known by a like being. only someone with something to hide, to be ashamed of. allah is the god of men who believe that they only can love women. oedipus. oedipus is a man who cannot love men, because he doesnt want me to know him because he is hiding something. and oeidpus is the ruler and leader of the men of this world.
the oppprtunity to partcipate in perfection has been knocking for the past six thousand years. yet almost everyone is passing it up. it is just hard to understand why human beings are so depraved that most of them pass up the opportunity for eternal ecstasy. is it because our souls are dredged up out of the stuff of hell?
today, while i was at the good shepherd center, doing my usual thing, drinking water, smoking caanabis and meditating, i had a very powerful comprehension of the situation that i've been alluding to, involving the male human anatomy, the temple and a terrible conspiracy to thwart the will of the almighty god. the implications are staggering.
i am wondering now if it didnt begin with cain and abel. satan's first initiate was cain, and perhaps he passed through his initiation when he kicked his brother where it hurt. if this is the case, if cain really did kick the creator in the nuts, then its really hard to imagine how bad it is going to be for him. if his heart was such that he would have continued kicking me there as long as it took to shut me up, well, his karmic siuation may not be looking too pretty. but the things is, anyone who would not renounce cain and give himself over to the christ, is really just another cain. and if what is in his heart is the same as what is in cain's, then what is their karmic circumstance.
the penalty for having opposed perfect goodness is extremely severe. it's like, there is no punishment too severe. the nature of the sitaution is so extreme as to be mind blowing. there is no limit to the pain that the enemies of god could rightfully be subjected too. the nazi holocaust may look like a picnic compared with the sitation when the almighty god begins to vent his wrath.
a human being having the experience of doubt is the thing that creates the illusion of finiteness. doubt turns infinity into an appearance of finiteness. doubt is the root of all evil. the dark force. doubt. the beast is the god of doubt.
this world is sinful. full of sin. i know, because i am experiencing that there is virtually nothing in this world for someone who doesnt want to sin. what people call "fun" is not fun to someone who is without sin.
^^^^^
the only possibilty of a world of human happiness, and so many people would rather fight to the death to oppose it than to participate in it.
*****
that thing we call "thought," that constantly doubting voice inside our heads and the conversation it is having with itself is a very very ppor substitute for the conversation with a very loving and gentle omnipresent, omnipotent and omniscient creator that was intended.
instead, human beings live in a prison cell that they have built around themselves so that they can live in seperation from the lover who is their only hope of happiness. human beings are already living in the hell that will be their eternal hell unless they do something to get out of it. which is to learn to be in relaitonsihp with the lover who created them so that they could enjoy happiness..
september 25
there is karma - a law that says that you reap what you sow - and the justice that karma entails is played out in the world during the "end times" that will begin momentarily.
there is something about chi gung and fallan gung (whatever the spelling) that they play some part in the struggle between the serpent people and the infinity people. the guy i think is the beast does chi gung constantly, and he refered to the fallan gung people as "fallen gung" using the word "fallen" to suggest that the people who do it are fallen souls. but i believe HE himself is a fallen soul, and so i wonder if these two factions are working to opposite ends. it's about the beast not wanting ANYONE to have an infinite experience. because he is destroyed when they do. "fallen" means, cannot have an infinite experience, cannot sustain as experience of samadhi, an ability that is required to have the experience of ecstasy.
do you perchance have a repressed memory of having kicked another boy in the nuts and not having apologized sufficiently for him to have forgiven you? if so, this memory may be coming to light for you in the near future, and it's a memory you will never be allowed to forget again.
if there was someone who, by virtue of being the creator of this world, had had to endure every experience everyone in this world has had over the course of time, then this person would have been the co-recipient of that kick. in such case, you just might have one coming back at you from the almighty god who created you.
i would like to suggest the possibility that there is a connection between the following words: "monmot" (a word (I'm not sure of the correct spelling) that i think of specifically as meaning "a person who has violated the perfect master in some unforgivable way" - it's a word prem rawat knows the exact meaning of), kick in the balls, jew. i believe that there may be some line that, when someone crosses it, they are put in a certain category called "monmot" which perhaps is the same as "condemned."
i believe that these people (men) may incarnate specifically as the sons of jewish women. if so, they are just biding their time in this world before receiving a really bad punishment. they had hoped that their leader and ruler, satan, would be able to stop me from ever saying these words by dragging me down into the hell that they, the monmots, are in. i'm sorry boys, he failed, and so now you are going to get your just punishment after all. these people most certainly did have a motivation to see to it that NO ONE escaped their fate, the fate of having fallen completely from grace.
if my intuition serves me well, anyone who has committed that particular (kick in the nuts) crime without asking forgiveness is already condemned as unforgivable. i believe that the descendants of abraham may be the perpetrators of this crime on a massive scale in a deliberate conspiracy to inflict pain upon the creator himself. a possibility that i can conceive of is that people who now incarnate as jews - the babylonian brotherhood - may have led the conspiracy to get as many others to commit this particular crime, and those who have committed it are incarnated as arabs, or perhaps as moslems. as such these peoples' would represent - with some possible exceptions - populations of the damned who are really like staged in this world for the purposes of receiving punishment from god in the aftermath of the rapture. nations are arranged by the nature of the crimes committed in past lives by its members. (americans may be more innocent, on the whole, than most others, but will still need to make a major adjustment to reality.)
as such, the jews are represented very specifically by what i will call the greater orcs of the lord of the rings. and the moslems are represented by the more numerous lesser orcs. i believe that all of these people are going to be enduring an eternity of the pain that they inflicted upon others. its how reality works. by refusing to apologize and repent, people are keeping these pains intact in their own bodies, they are claiming them as their own. and they will be enduring that pain, just because that is what the creator demands as perfect justice.
******
as well, anyone who has ever participated in a conspiracy involving the use of alcohol to poison someone who is responsible for managing the collective Mind for the purposes of thwarting the objective of happiness will most certainly be frying in the very near future.
i have not given enough emphasis on the fact that in some important respect you could call the war of the world that is about to be resolves as a war between the alcohol people (those who cannot sustain an experience of samadhi because of their own repressed guilt and shame) and the psychedelic people (those who can sustain an experience of samadhi because their hearts are pure).
those who want a finite world and mortality use alcohol, those who want an infinite world and immortality use psychedelics and cannabis.
*****
a most unfortunate scenario: a mother teaching her son anything whatsoever about his sexuality, other than by encouraging him to enjoy it. another: a father failing to teach his son any of his own wrong ideas about sexuality.
adults think they own their children and that it is their job to turn them into adults. imagine. an indoctrination so strong that everyone puts themselves through a lot of efforts to bring children into this world so that they can fulfill the job of turning them into unhappy adults just like them. this is indoctrination into adulthood, which is to say in what maharaji called "Mind" which is his name for the forces of the psyche represented by his enemies, satan, oedipus and allah.
think about the infinity symbol for a moment. draw this shape with your face, like pretend that you are drawing with the tip of your nose, and just keep the continuous movement of the symbol going. keep your focus uninterupted on the formatin of the symbol./ this is actually quite a powerful meditation technique, the definition of which being something that strongly holds your attention in continuous unbroken focus on a sensation of some kind. (you can't mediate on nothing, you can only meditae of something, and that something is always something that you sense as sound, light, taste (rarely) or feel. feeling the sensations in your body, whatever they are - and the focus should be on the most prominent sensation - is the most powerful meditation practice in my opinion. of course, when one is aroused, then the focus obviously will be on the sensations of pleasure... those being the very source of life itself..
men have so diminished the importance of their own phallus. this is the organ of generation, of creation. the fact that men all go around acting as if they dont have one just indicates the degree of sexual repression in men. for those who have gotten over the disease of oedipus, it's really sort of laughable to see how repressed men are.
when i got together with my friend bf recently he ended up being offended by my saying that i dont care what he thinks when what he thinks something that is inconcsistent with what i sincerely believe that i have knowledge of. he doesnt really have a clue what he is talking about, and he will admit this, yet he is offended when i dont care what he says from his place of ignorance. basically, people - men - dont want to admit that someone else is better than they are. men are arrogant. they dont have the humility that is required. they would rather conceal their imperfection than actuall admit them and work to correct them. it's truly amazing, really, to see how stubbornly and arrogantly men cling to and defend their ignorance. what the hell is wrong with admitting that you dont know and that someone else could no. basically, people dont want to admit that there are things you can KNOW by virtue of being a better person (in terms of humility, commitment to goodness, etc.) then those who dont know. there are things you can know. you can know everything that there is to know. but the ignorant deny it. because they are ashamed of the fact that they dont know. men were designed to be perfect, and when they can see their own imperfection they can either admit it and strive to be better, or they can be in denial. most choose the latter.
after a while you might notices that there is something in you that doesnt like this, something tries to thwart focusing attention on the formation of this symbol. you might find it hard to keep your head moving in the right direction after a while, due to the resistence of the very idea of infinity. it's the same thing that causes orgasm, that causes people to turn away from the sun that has an aversion to drinking water. something in us doesnt like infinite experiences. it is the serpent who is resisting these experiences,,, earth brown. shadowing your every move, pretending to be you hypnotizing you. but when you start doing things that he doesnt want you to do, like focusing on the repreated formation of the infinity symbol, he freaks out. .
maharaji has dawn a comparison of the perfect master to a swan that can seperate milk from water. he seperates the lovers from those who dont want love. he discards the latter. if you dont want to know him and love him there isn't any place for yo u in this world and you are completely lost and fried forever, your mind becomes completely "casualized." (i like that word- it's from neil young's song mellow my mind...)
he has no place for sinners, for people who want to lie cheat and steal. only for those who used to lie cheat and steal, but then completely purged that disease from their bodies and became pure of heart again.
only the lovers, only those who are not harboring any dark secrets in their heartss, can comprehend infinity. and if you cannot comprehend infinity, when reality truly is infinite in nature, then your mind will be casualized. you MUST be able to surrender completely into the arms of a lover who really truly does love you because he is a lover and he created you to be his lover. if you are a man he created you so that you could masturbate with him. if you allow yourself, you will realize that this is the only possibility of happiness because you are a male human being, and any other prupose that you invent for yourself other than to be a lover of the one who made you to be his lover will inevitably lead you to total destruction.
whatever egoic objectives you are in pursut of, whatever self-centered goal you are working toward is just an illusion. if it is not to be the lover of the one who made you, you are walking like a hypnotized zombie directly toward the gates of hell. the promise of fulfillment that has been made to you or that you have made to yourself is a complete lie, like a mirage it will evaporate and there will only be the dry desicated desert of your unconscious body when you arrive where you thought your fulfillment was awaiting. without the love of god, your life will be completely empty, parched, desolate, an eternal existence in a landscape completely devoid of water. i can pretty much guarantee you that there is no water in hell. you will be so thirsty you can't even begin to imagine. because water is a form of light, and hell is a place of pure darkness. the only light in hell is probably the light of fire.
******
reality is extreme because the laws of karma are extreme while at the same time being perfectly just.
assume that a stable state is one in which there is an interplay of forces that are equal in magnitude and opposite in nature. (i've run through this idea before, but it is SO important for people to wrap their minds around this truth>)
Heaven is infinite in its happiness. Therefore, my thoeory goes, Hell is infinite in its misery. SO then, how can it possibly be just for some people to suffer infinitely and eternally?
because those people tried to prevent others from having infinite and eternal happiness. and they WOULD HAVE SUCCEEDED had that not been dealt by seperating the good from the evil. without this plan, even the good would get dragged down into a hell that they had no part in causing. hell is what you call the realm created by human beings who are incapable of living together in a happy world and so are seperated from those who are willing to love.
see, the goal of the fallen souls is that everyone fade into oblivion, everyone should just shut down and go virtually unconscious for the rest of etenity. that is teh outcome that the enemies of god are after. they want EVERYONE in their hell so that everyone can fall asleep and never wake up. .
\why does god torment the people in Hell? because they are required to stay awake. no rest for the wicked, as they say. you just don't get to fade into oblivion. its either heaven or hell. one cant avoid the consequence of being evil, becasue there is a job to do, which is basically to be a cog in the machine of imagination, and to supply the energy required, through suffering, to light up the world that the god inhabit, Heaven.
so the degree of punishment for those who conspired to ruin everything is that, instead of oblivion they experience infinite suffering, and this is just because the difference between zero (oblivion) and infinite misery is the same as the difference between the infinite happiness that they tried to prevent and zero.
the suffering of hell is equal in magnitude to the happiness that the people in hell tried to prevent the people in Heaven from having. wht could be more just. especially because it is necessary that anything exist at all.
it's extreme, but it's the way things work. and it is just. perfectly just. and it rewards those who incarnated and chose to be good - to promote happiness, and it punishes those who incarnated and choose to thwart happiness. its either that or nothing, and why should the good give up there opportunity for supreme happiness just because some who are unworthy of it will suffer as a result of trying to thwart happiness? the answer is, "all praise and all glory to the perfect master, forever and ever and ever, for doing what only a perfect being would be willing and able to do, which is to invent and manage such a reality. because he is good and loves goodness he does this. and it is so good and so right.
