i hope that i've really made it clear that what i talk about ultimately reduces down to a simple truth: there is a god who is a lover who wishes to love men, and the way things work, success as a male human being is 100% absolutely dependent upon being in a relationship with the lover. men absolutely have to be willing to have the most erotic possible experience with the lover, because it's his love that we experience in all erotic experience,,, we just cannot be in denial of the god who is love.
if we live in denial of the living god, we will end up with a dysfunctional world ruled by the oedipus complex, because sooner or later someone will fall into the abyss of doubt that oedipus fell into, and that person will become the King of the world, with an agenda of sexual repression. men who live in denial of the living god by definition must be sexually repressed because they are incapable of having the most erotic experiences of all. the incest taboo and homophobia are inevitable in a world in which men are not in relationship with the living god.
we cannot as men be in denial of the existence of a perefect master who really controls everything in existence., men are running around as if they were the gods. maybe some are hoping that god really is dead. its going to be a rude awakening for billions of people who really do not like the idea of a creator. people believe in the theories that they want to believe, and very few people believe in the theory that there is indeed a living god who in control of everything and who has an agenda of his own (love).
yes the vast majority of the men in this world seem to be here BECAUSE this appears to be a godless world, a world in which the men have all been lured into an existence devoid of a relationship with the lover. the men living in this world by and large would much prefer an existence in which there is no one who really knows them, who really understands their hearts. men turn to their mothers for this, or to a mother figure, and this is the oedipus complex manifest. it's just amazing to realize that as soon as reality is presented to the human race, the whole planet is going to look more or less like new orleans looks now. there is going to be a lot of misery, and it will be the problem of the people experiencing it. we are all free and we are all created equal. each person's fate is their own doing.
it simply reduces to this: it is a choice that men make whether to be good or not. whether to strive for perfection, or whether to succumb to the temptation to cheat, to lie, to try to get ahead, to live a selfish existence. boys can CHOOSE to remain as boys, children. boys can choose whether to strive for goodness, boys can choose to enjoy the blessing of eternal life when it is offered to them... unless they have deliberately conspired against the god who is love, in which case, they probably don't have much hope.
here in babylon, it is popular to be an atheist, or to have some brand of spirituality that denies the existence of a living god who actually has a will of his own, who actually has a plan. it's just amazing the crap that people are willing to subscribe to in order to live in denial of hte truth. for example, the plain and simple truth that matter is a product of consciousness and imagination, not the other way around. people really prefer to believe in a purely material existence that began with a completely mysterious big bang, that somehow just occured without any sort of reason or will. human existence, as highly complex as teh human being is, (and most people would abandon the darwinian myth that they have chosen to hold as a truth if they realized how complex existence is even at the cellular level), is pure accident, the outcome of random processes. people like that idea better than the idea of an intelligent Creator, and so they believe in it. at their own peril.
September 1
I've been away from seattle for the past week, haven't had an opportunity to post. now i am watching coverage from new orleans, and what i am seeing looks to me like the beginnings of a chaos that is only going to grow from here on out. the new orleans disaster is going to create a culture of anarchy and lawlessness that could really get out of control nvery rapidly. a class of desperate people is being created right before our eyes. and there is a scary racial element to what is happening. the most desperate people in N>O> are black. we could soon have refuge camps right here in the USA full of people with little hope of future happiness.
this is the arrival onto the shores of the usa of the hell on earth (lots of reporter are using that phrase) that is already the reality of life for much of africa and places like Haiti. this is what the world is going to look like after the rug is pulled out from under the economy in the coming weeks. this is the post apocalyptic reality coming home to roost.
what would the world look like without the intervention of the secret nation of israel? like new orleans looks today. this is what the world is going to look like in the near future. total breakdown. total chaos. rule by barbarism.
no one seems to have noticed that the worst hurricane disaster in recorded history has come less than one year after the worst tsunami disaster in history, and that this seems to be consistent with biblical prophecy that such disasters would increase in the lead up to the end times.
they are talking about engaging the armed forces and declaring martial law. this is a major breakdown of the civil system.
August 24
It just keeps getting closer and closer... i am slowly destroying the serpent who has taken up residence inside of me and all of the maggots who followed behind him. The serpent whole stole the holy breath of god. The evil deity who is the myseterious dark lord, the beast at the depths of mordor, is it doubt itself>?
what an ordeal... what a grip the serpent has upon each one of us, stealing from us our psychedlic reptilian and immortal nature, and making human beings into zombies. this world is full of zombies, people who are completely hypnotized by the most superficial appearances of things, appearances that they have tainted and defiled with their own delusions and fears, prisitine thoughts of god turned into the dessicated wilderness of hell.
the love at the heart of everything is so prisitine, so pure, so crystaline, so pefect. how can darkness withstand the perfection of the clear light of reality? it cannot, and the people who are attached to darkness are going to be left with darkness. The holy spirit, the almight god, is so perfect, is so absolutely essential, who is so good, he is the absolute ruler of everything, and his purpose is love, and his purpose is justice, and his purpose is the defense of innocence, of the childlike heart buried deep inside of every man and woman.
It just is the case that he creates each one of us as perfect ideas, potential lovers, and a majority end up hating him, defying him, working aginst him, denying him. what he is, and what he and i are, what the holy trinity are, who and what the holy mother is. people come into this world to participate in a conspiracy against the perfect god whose ideas they are! perfection makes perfect children, and those perfect children become corrupted and turn themselves into demons whose only home is the place of nonexitence called hell. what can we do? those who will love the perfect master are so blessed. He can't be expected to stop being what he is just because a majority of people fail to become what they were made to be, its still a blessing for those who do say yes. How can the fate of the doomed determine the course of events? why should the holy spirit care more about those who defy and deny him than he does about those who love and acknowledge him? he cannot possibly, there would be nothing, none of this would exist if he did not care more for his lovers than he does for those who deny him their love.
The ALmighty love god, the one who is perfectly willing to love anyone and everyone, will go right on loving. Because it is his right to do so, just as others have a right to fight against him if that's what they insist upon doing. those who would deny him, or myself, the right to love, the right to be what we were made to be, they will be dealt with as they must. they will be destroyed once and for all, they will be totally fried, forever, because that's jut what they set themselves up for.
AUgust 22
As of today, on the eve of the rapture, after two years of claiming persistently to be an incarnation of the christ, i have never been invited by any group of two or more persons to speak about my experience. no one has asked me to provide empirical evidence of my claims (which could easily have been obliged through some kind of eeg test that measures the brain wave patterns, which I believe would prove that i am capable of achieving and sustaining a greater degree of samadhi than anyone else in seattle, including whatever holy people are selling their holy services as mediation teachers, etc.), nor has anyone asked to be with me while i am having the ecstatic experiences that i have been having.
Seattle is Babylon. It is full of liars who pretend to have good intentions but who know that they are the enemies of goodness itself. Sickness. Seattle is the home of the sickness of this world. It is also the home of the salvation of this world. Everyone in this world with either go with the christ, the psychedelic willie-wonka-loving messiah or the major leading top ten global justice messiah, oedipus, dan merkle the antichrist. It seems like so many people in the "progressive" commiunity are going to be going with Oedipus.
why do so many people seem to prefer an existence of depression and desolation to one of joy and freedom? shame is a difficult force to overcome. an unbelievable crisis is going to occur in the coming days, the crisis of people being forced to accept the reality that they are so resistant to, the reality that there really is a creator, that existence did not come about by way of some kind of freakish probablilit- defying accident, People who have clung to a materialistic understanding of reality, who believe that consciousness is a product of matter, are going to feel like the complete idiots that they are.
the holy bible tells the story more or less exactly how it happens, just leaving out the details that the people of this world just havent been ready to know, until now. we're setting things up for a world that works. and all those who don't want to participate are going to be left to their own devices. its gonig to happen any moment now.
I still have not finished breaking the curse of allah, i haven't quite finished retreiving the broom of the wicked witch, eve, allah, the consort of the beast himself. but i'm honing in on it. Oedipus really blocks out much more light than anyone can imagine. And there is a lot more to the relationship between eve and the serpent than is told in genesis. these two are coconspiractors. realizing who the beast is and how he is the real villian along with allah, makes me think that "satan" is just an agent. The beast, allah, oedipus and the babylonian brotherhood all sure must be sweating now. They know their days are seriously numbered.
I still think a lot about how it seems as if the nations are how people - souls - are sorted out. there are commonalities among peoples, a common consciousness among the people of a nation that attracts like minded people.... birds of a feather flock togther i believe that china may be a nation of people who are in some way naturally allied with islam.
August 20
I'm adding Robb Thompson's name to the list of preachers who I believe is a Jesuit who has had a "bump on the head." It seems like he knows what he is talking about. He's one of the people who is saying that to be saved is not easy. he talks about the mental effort that is required. He's talking about reaching for an experience, for a "picture."
It' just amazing how many people choose to ignore the truth that comes out of every tradition in this world, the truth that there is a hidden truth with huge implications. yet such a huge majority choose to live in complete ignorance of what they are made of, of what their own breath is made of, what their own experience of sight, sound and feeling is made of. WHho refuse to know themselves.
We are MADE to have a relationship with our creator. our own bodies are equiped for this relationship. The heart in men, the glans penis, cannot remain turned on without this relationship. we are anatomically designed to have a realtionship with god. but now the realms of existence accessible to the man with his heart turned on has been made into a mine field of terror. and only the name of teh christ, and faith in it, and a will to love god every moment of every day can carry a person over this ocean of sickness deliberately laid down by the babylonian brotherhood, the enemies of the Temple.
August 21
I think I've made it clear that I believe that the issue between the human race and its creator pertains to the heart, the glans penis, and its condition, whether it is open or closed.
The heart has a muscle that has atrophied. It's the muscle that a man can feel flexing inside the phallus when he clenches his anus closed. That's the feeling of opening the doors of the heart, of focusing one's attention on the heart. To do this while experiencing whatever experience of the senses we are having connects a man with the holy spirit, the friend who is with him all of the time.
To flex the heart muscle is to feel a certain feeling of resistence, of fatigue, that is impossible to pin point, because it is a lie coming from the beast, who really doesn't want us to open our hearts, because it changes the way we breath, and the beast makes his living on the faulty breathing of the human race.
SO the mission of the Babylonian brotherhood is to do whatever it takes to prevent men from flexing the muscle that opens the heart. They want all mens' hearts to shut down. Desperately. and to defy them is to condemn them.
I believe that the rapture will occur when I have made a final breakthrough eliminating the beast from my body. reality will become psychedelic when that occurs. it will occur when i have perfected my commitment to keeping my heart open, keeping my attention on my relationship with the creator who made me.
the ability to flex what i call the heart muscle may be inverse to the degree to which a man is afflicted the the oedipus complex. it's possible that some men have enturely lost the ability. i don't know. there may be a way of testing the ability of a man to flex the heart muscle. if so, then this test could be employed in the end times as a way of seperating the men whose hearts are still open from those whose heats are permanently shut down.
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