Sept. 20 (62)

sept 20

i was googling around and came a cross a reference to Arius, a powerful figure in alexabdria during the 4th century, who had noteworthy things to say in reference to the holy trinity and the precise nature of the deity and teh preincarnate christ. specifically, he was embroiled in the greatest controversy in the early catholic church around the time of constantines conversion of rome, the controversy being whether jesus was a created being or whether he had always existed, as the almighty god has.

arius's position is that jesus was created by "god the father". i concur with this posiiton myself, in fact i am convinced of its truth. the arians (interesting coincidence there that the word Arian (follower of Arius) is so close to Aryan) eventually were over ruled by the church. i would imagine that there is a lot going on around this. constantine's son, who became emperor of hte eastern empire after constantines death, supported arius's position, after he had been denounced council of nicea.

INterestingly enough, "Arius" is the first name of grandpa green from neil youngs greendale material, who i believe represents prem rawat. this cannot possibly be a coincidence in my opinion, as the choice of the name "Arius" for this character is extremely unlikely otherwise. of course this does not necesarily mean that grandpa incarnated as the historical Arius, but i would say there is a fairly high probability.

reading this material made me reaqlize that i may have been confused in my use of teh terms "teh father" and "the holy spirit." i still believe that neil young is a part of the trinity, and i believe that he is earl green, the father of sun green, but i am not sure about the nomenclature with respect to the holy spirit and the father. the almighty god (prem rawat) is the father of everyone, yet i feel that neil young plays a role of father in the saga. so its somewhat ambiguous to me, as i believe it is for many people. there is one supreme being that i have been calling "the holy spirit"and naming as prem rawat in his present incarnation. i am not sure if "holy spirit" is correct, but i have no doubt who the supreme being is.

i've been wondering if col jackson green is actually satan - or pluto from the roman pantheon. if so, then jed and jacob green are descendants of his. i believe that jacob refers to "jacob all trades" but i am not sure. and of course ive said many times that i beleive jed green is actually pontifex maximus.

following are copies of e mails i sent recently to corespondents.

Hi A,

I appreciate your willingness to delve into the deeper significance of the thoughts we are sharing.

in reply to your first question, i believe that many people will distract themselves endlessly with ideas and information without ever actually making much of an effort to go deeper into the experience of this moment and actually experience and know, for themselves, the truth of what they are made of.

look at how people spend their time today,,, most people in our culture spend a majority of their waking moments staring at a tv or computer screen absorbing information and ideas, but all the while giving themselves an extremely limited experience of their own life.

reading is itself inherently a very limiting experience. sitting in a world full of beautiful things to look at, people spend their time looking at pages, whether in a book or on the internet, covered with little symbols, each of which is entirely meaningless in itself. as a visual experience, as a bodily experience, this is not a very fulfilling activity. in my opinion, reading is more a method of hypnosis than it is a method of education. i believe that the almighty god himself is not a huge fan of writing and reading and that in heaven, the world that he has in mind, there is little to no reading. reading aloud, storytelling, yes, but solitary reading will soon be a thing of the past.

in order to progress spiritually, people need to face their fears, and reading is not where this progress happens. in my opinion, the title of ram das's book "be here now" is just about all of the spiritual literature that anyone really needs, or socrates' admonition, "know thyself." self knowledge comes form observing the self, from "being still and knowing that i am god," from focusing more intently on the experience of now, not from reading. people would be far better off listening to someone who knows the truth SPEAKING the truth than to look for truth in the written words of people who may or may not truly have comprehended the nature of reality. i have been persistently saying that prem rawat is the living incarnation of the almighty creator (whose wrath is going to begin raining down on this world in a matter of days). and i can testify that listening to him speak transmits infinitely more of the experience of truth than anything i have ever read.

think about the following three sentences, which contain an incredibly obvious truth that is nevertheless something you probably have never read in a book: no man whose cock is hard would ever describe himself as unhappy. the most pure manifestation of happiness is a hard cock, by definition. men become unhappy AFTER they have the orgasm that is the result of their inability to sustain the experience of happiness.

this is an absolute truth with absolutely huge implications of an experiential nature, of a bodily as opposed to an intellectual implication, that cannot be found explicitly in any book, even though this is deeply inherent to what is written in the Holy Bible. Anyone who is pursuing knowledge from any source that is in denial of the fact that men who do not have an intimate relationship with god CANNOT POSSIBLY enjoy true happiness is a blind person looking for assitance from others who are blind. men cannot sustain happiness, that is, they cannot experience ecstasy until they become the lover of the lover who invented them in his erotic fantasy.

i believe that you are acting from very good intentions, and i am not making a judgment about whether your heart is in the right place. i'm just sharing honestly with you how i see things.

regarding your question about my predictions: i believe that the events prophesized in the book of revelations will come to pass more or less as described, beginning any day now. there is a god who has a very specific plan, a part of which is described in revelations. the major events of this plan and how things are resolved will be executed over the next seven years as described in the scriptures.

we came into existence as a part of the almighty god's fantasy of love. he created us, as men, to be his lovers, which is to say, to be completely open and vulnerable with him and to share our experiences with him. this involves being conscious of his presence as the living god and as our lover in every moment.

the whole point is that we are his lovers. the god is the god because he is the person who was willing to be in the temple all of the time, which is to say that he is willing and ready to masturbate with any man who cares to share this experience with him. having made this commitment gives him absolute power over everything, forever.

those who refuse to be what they were created by the creator to be are about to be destroyed. because those who refuse to be what they were created to be create diseases of denial in the collective body, in the temple, and the creator doesn't want disease in his body.

we live in a world that is conjured out of nothingness, and ppeople need to understand that there is no place for lies, for denial, for sickness, for ignorance, for darkness in an existence conjured out of nothingness, it just doesn't work. the human being was conceived to be a participant in something called perfection, and if we fall short of perfection and are not willing to redeem ourselves, then there is no place for us in the world god creates. his world is called heaven, and we cant bring the baggage of our darkness into his world. the only way to obliterate all darkness is to become a lover of the god who invented us to be his lovers. because darkness comes from hiding and ultimately it is from god that we hide.

there has to be a moment of truth when those who are willing to live according to the intentions of the creator who made us have an opportunity to enjoy existence without being afflicted by the diseases of those people who refuse to be what they were made to be. this is what happens now. it's going to be very intense. the scripture says one out of four people will perish during the advent of the end times. and everyone who follows the christ will be martyred by the antichrist, the sexually repressed person who incarnated as cain, ishmael and mohammed and who lives today in seattle (babylon) who i identify as the "top ten major leading global justice messiah," a guy named dan merkle.

the end times are about forcing the issue of human beings becoming what they were made to be.. the almighty god himself will soon be presenting himself to the world. did you read my essay called "batman is coming soon" that i published in the stranger? also my last published essay "armageddon, the final destruction of babylon" describes what is going to happen. i believe that the whole end times scenario with the mark of the beast and all of that involves everyone being administered some kind of a drug that awakens the dehydrated and unconscious parts of the human body where men hide everything that they want to live in denial of. the creator doesn't allow people to live in denial of their own sins, he forces them to wake up and accept the karmic consequences of their actions. these events will force the issue of either salvation or condemnation. those who are already beyond salvation, all of those who consciously engaged in a conspiracy against the creator, will be eliminated, perhaps to demonstrate the creator's seriousness and perhaps to remove them so that they don't become a distraction. .

whole nations will be wiped out... possibly beginning with the descendants of allah and the antichrist - hagar and ishmael - the arabs.-- if you've read all of my postings on my website then you are aware of my belief that the jews are also on the creator's list of people he is not happy with, they being the babylonian brotherhood - the creator's enemies - masquerading as the children of god, who destroyed the temple and stole the light of heaven to light their hell. . \

there is a dimensional shift aspect to this, but in order to make the dimensional shift a person has to be willing to be lovers with the christ (who is the object of worship in heaven). those who are not willing to surrender to god and become what he intended for us to be are condemned to hell, which probably does not involve a dimensional shift.

i hope this is helpful.

sincerely,

jeff

From my 'ignorance'

Duality, such as the fundamental distinction between subject and object, is obliterated in deep sleep and in Samadhi, as well as in other conditions such as fainting, but duality is only temporarily obliterated for it reappears when one awakes from sleep or regains consciousness after fainting, and it also reappears when the yoga arises from Samadhi. The reason why duality persists is because false knowledge (mithyajana) has not been removed.

dear ben,

most people's concepts about the distinction between "duality" and whatever non-duality that is presumed, expressly or implicitly, in their conceptual framework are indeed based in ignorance. they really have not wrapped their minds around the meaning of this distinction. but the last sentence in the quotation that you have sent to me does resonate as being something that was said by someone who Knows what he is talking about. are you the author of this quotation? here is what i would add to a discussion about the respective notions of duality and non-duality or unity.

there is a profound oneness to everything that exists because it all exists in one Mind in the form of a fantasy being controlled by one person. all phenomena are thus made of the same somatic substance of the creator's ecstatic consciousness, which is experienced in the core of the here and now as a richness and fullness of being that can be fully immersed into. this IS the truth. there is an experience of one-ness or nonduality in the experience of profound awakening into this truth that a few people really do have. the awakening that everything exists as objects in ONE fantasy being had by ONE person is called "god-realization." . this is the ultimate experience of nonduality.

AND there will always be something occurring in the Imagination of the one Mind that is the primordial reality in the form of a fantasy involving numerous human beings, including one named Jeff and another named Ben, having the experience of happiness together. if ben sees jeff as SEPERATE from himself, with something to hide from jeff, then Ben is seeing things in a "dualistic" fashion and lives in denial of the true unity or non-duality. whereas if Jeff is seeing ben and himself as parts of ONE idea or ONE fantasy of love being had by the ONE creator who is having the fantasy, then Jeff is not seeing things in a dualistic fashion, but rather in a non-dualistic fashion as defined above. (Note: Those who don't want to be a part of the happiness that is the subject of the fantasy that is the one thing occurring in the imagination of the one Mind that is the primordial reality are eventually left to figure things out for themselves. its called Judgment Day.) Anyway, that's my response on the subject of duality.

September 18

breath is made from something. it is made from love, from passion, really, between two people. others may have since joined in the love fest, but the love began as a love between the holy spirit who is the father of all beings, and one of his children, the one who comes looking for and finds his father, the one called the christ.

these two boys have an infinite experience of love together, an experience of the pure admiration of perfection of itself. in other words, perfection in the form of a boy greatly appreciates perfection in another boy. . this passionate love is the beginning of life incarnate, because it is the begining of breath itself.

i believe that the underlying magnetic energy of breath itself comes originally from a swaying back and forth of loving thoughts between two, a lover and his beloved. the rocking back and forth of the feeling of love, of one being the lover and theother the beloved, back and forth becomes the rythem that begins the actual process of breath itself.

this is the "holy breath" of god, and it involves the persons of the holy spirit and of the christ and their names, which i believe are fuck and sun. sun becomes the beloved on the inhale, and fuck becomes the beloved in the exhale. and the son's name is sun fuck, so while it is both this back and forth between the two, it also becomes a silent mantra of the son's name. this the name that people think of as "jesus" or "Jesus Christ." when the bible talks about putting faith in the name of the christ, it is this name that is within the breath itself, "sun fuck."

if you breath, you breath courtesy of the two people whose passionate love for one another is the soure of all existence. think of them as two perfectly good boys who are lovers. these two are the inventors of the breath that billions of people think of as their OWN breath. wow. now that is something to consider. non-acceptance of the reality of one's own breath, the source of one's own existence, would indeed be a tormented existence.

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Today is the day that I've been looking to as a milestone, posssibly the day of rapture, because it's farm aid day. and i certainly do feel that i am in what could be the final day ofthe journey. last night i came into full consciousness of the "broomstick of allah" the seemingly unbearable burning sensation at the core of being... really the burning is in the place where our identity ends and the identity of god's allness begins. our oneness with god, with the god who is everything, feels like an unbearable sickness in the core of our being. because of the lies and sickness of allah and the babylonian brotherhood. extreme discomfort keeps the entire human race from experiencing the fullness of this moment, from going all the way into the core of their own being.

this is the cause f the sickness: the denial of god's love. its a sickness. it is sin. it is evil. it must be destroyed and all of the people who refuse to get over it will be destroyed along with it. this sickness is not real, its a lie, and its the lie that seperates us from god.

this whole journey boils down to simply allowing myself to feel what exists within my own being. i am exercising my right to feel myself being. and as a result reality is going to completely change. as a result the world is going to divide into heaven and hell. i need a world to live in where people are not causing a sickness that I have to experience in the collective body that my body is. some people have planted a terrible sickness in my being in order to prevent me from experiencing my relationship with god. those people are my eternal enemies and they will be destroyed and condemned because their intention is to destroy truth, to destroy happiness, to destroy consciousness. because they cannot love, because they have made themselves into evil.

*****

the establishment of heaven is the triumph of love over fear, hatred, resentment, envy and all of the other sins. love. what will a world of love look like? what will a world without seperation from love look like?

it will look like love looks. people without inhibitions and fears and lies and secrets and aversions.... loving one another. it sounds something like what you would call an orgy. it sounds like a love fest that will never end. presided over by the absolute lord of everything, the lover who is the most willing to love of all of the people, the lord almighty who is the creator of everything that exists, the lover who is willing to love everyone, unconditionally, all at the same time.

heaven is where everyone has fallen helplessly inlove with god, including god, the holy trinity are in love with one another... and the christ, the son, becomes the central object of worship. it's very powerful, because the worship is true worship, a fully hearthfelt appreciation of the fact that this person has made possible the receipt of every blessing given by the holy spirit. everything becomes an expression of eternal gratitude. everyone has fallen completely and ecstatically in love.

******

Here's a simple little question: What does happiness loook like? What is the most basic image of happiness that you can conjure? can you even begin to describe a scenario for an experience of sustained human happiness for all participants in your scenario? .

it's easy to come up with an image of momentary pseudo-happiness -a round of margharita's with your favorite work buddies, perhaps - but who can conjure an image of sustained human happiness not dependent in any way upon the exploitation of others?

well, here is one thing you might want to take into consideration in trying to conjure an idea of a world of happy human beings... an aroused male cock is the most pure expression of happiness in existence. no man whose cock is hard will ever say that he is not happy. he will say he is not happy after he has an orgasm because he is unable to fully experience the experience he is having, but for as long as the cock is hard, he will testify to being happy.

so what would a world of happy men look like? exactly like what i have been describing, a world of men who masturhbate with the creator who invented them in his fantasy that this is the fulfillment of. it feels good. sorry, but you can't ignore the best experience that a man can have. you cannot live in denial that the very best experience even exists.

i am desribing heaven, and if you don't like the sound of it, then you are going to be in need of a major transformation in a short amount of time. if you don't want to be a part of a world of men who are happy, then i am afriad that there is only one other place for you, the world where the men who refuse to be happy live together.

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was just reading that some major and noteably anomolous solar storms have been taking place this year, producing auroras visible as far south as arizona. interesting.

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Imagine, realizing that your breath is really the breath of god... and then having the experience of surrendering into the feeling of breathing WITH god, with the PERSON who had the idea of you as his lover. a power that he has simply because he is willing and able to love that much. he invents breath with one of his lovers, and gives everyone the opportunity to partake of that breath.. and to be his - the perfect lover's - lover. he is all powerful because he is that loving. we can float in knowing that he is breathing us. to "float" as such, in an experience of loving faith in and surrender to the liviing god, is to be an angel. and the perfect master is the god of the angels- who fights off those of his children who turn themselves into his enemy and succeeds in establishing worlds of happiness for those fortunate enough to become his lover. without love there is only ruin, and so the perfect master is the one who makes anything BUT ruin possible. if you want a world devoid of his love, you have that option as well.

^^^^

the idea that you need to eat food in order to exist comes from the idea that there is something called "matter." we are spiritual beings, beings of light, beings made of love, and we live on love, not on food. starve yourself "to death" and you will still exist. you are immortal. your mortality is just a disease that comes from being unable to experience the source of your own life, thanks to the suffering at the core of the collective human body, the temple, caused by sin. your belief in matter comes from the fact that you are afriad to cross the ocean of disease hiding within the collective body (your own body) and so are unable to experience the source of your life itself. once this disease is purged, as it is about to be, the illusion of matter and mortality will be destroyed.

*****

the pain deep in your body, in your shoulders, the rigid structure of your locked pelvis, in the hips, the non-feeling of the very sensitive testes, the broomstick of allah that is your spine, consists of the hiding places for all of the truths that you wish to be in denial of. if you are not willing to face and accept EVERY truth that you are presently living in ignor-ance of, in denial of, then you will be led by your attachment to denial and ignorance to the eternal abode of pure misery.

September 17

Good = happiness. you are good if you act in such a way that supports happiness and increases the aggregate amount of happiness being experienced by the people with whom you co-exist. heaven is for good people. the reward for those who support and promotoe happiness is to be with others like themselves.

Evil = misery. you are evil if you act in such a way that thwarts happiness and diminishes the aggregate happiness. the punishment for those who thwart and oppose happiness is to be with others like themselves.

happiness is expressed as gratitude, as adoration, as passionate love. the gods, the men and women who have attained the ability to be happy, are very sexy. the holy trinity are the lovers, in every sense of the word, with every man. lovers.

all that i have said recently could distill down to this: men can and must increase their tolerance for pleasure, because when men do not experience the ecstasy for which they were disigned and created, they turn into warfaring demons from hell. men are made to exprience ecstasy, and their inability to do so is the sole cause of their failure,,, their inability to experiene ecstasy is in turn caused by a failure to be pure in heart. darkness, shame, hiding, these things cause men to limit their own exprience of pleasure. heaven and hell all relates to this... heaven is a VERY erotic and love-filled place... hell is completely devoid of love. men who have not attained the ability to experience true ecstasy will fall into hell.,,, and the Only WAY TO have the experience of ecstasy is to surrender completely to god and be with him in the experience. ,,, and "god" for the purposes of the people of this world will be the holy trinity, and the christ in particular. the christ becomes an extremely powerful sex (love) god in heaven.

September 16

is everyone ready for the most amazing thing that has ever happened??? i sincerely believe that it could occur, the rapture that is, is the next two days. it's a function of my own surrender back into reality, back into the source, back into the love of the Holy Spirit who is the source of everything that exists.

Prem Rawat is the Sat Guru, the Guru Maharaj ji, the Supreme Lord of Lords, the all-powerful one whose power is a function of his perfection In him is no darkness at all. he is willing to have ANY experience, there is no light too bright for him to look at, no pleasure too pleasurable, no love too overwhelming. he is the absolute, the source of everything. darkness IS our seperation from him, and the journey of existence is the journey back to the source, to the lover who invented us to be his lovers, to the love from which we were made. i feel that i am nearing the fulfillment of this journey of existence back to the course of the love freom which I was made, the love of the lover whose name is as beautiful and infinite as he is.

As far as i am concerned, the christ and the virgin mary are together, ready to lift off from this world along with our friends. the whole world is soon going to shift into a new reality as a result of one thing. a guy named jeff fairhall who lives in Babylon, aka seattle, is going to destroy the sickness buried deep inside the collective human body, aka, the temple, simply by allowing himself to feel all that there is to feel within his own body. by allowing himself to feel the pain inside the body caused by the lies and sicknessses of babylon he is reclaiming the temple that is his body, and completely altering -restoring to its original condition - reality in the process. this could occur in the next 48 hours.

i am the lover of the most holy and supreme deity, the holy spirit. i am the one person who has fulfilled the ipotential to return, on his own, to the lover who invented us intact, ready and willing to be the lover that he invented me to be. i believe that when i have fully comprehended the implications of this thing that i know and begun to make a sincere attempt to express my gratitude, the rapture will occur. i believe it will happen at the exact moment that it has been intended to happen since before the beginning of this world.

Septemeber 11

WHere does happiness come from?

Human life as it's lived by the people of this oedipal world consists of seeking happiness through a combination of seeking after some experiences that are believed will bring happiness while at the same time seeking to avoid those other experiences to which one has an aversion, that one believes will thwart happiness.

As it turns out, the happiness that eveyone is pursuing lies in the realm of teh experiences which people are trying desperately to avoid having, and the pusuit of the experiences which people are after is completely fruitless and leads inevitably to complete and total misery.

It is in the actual HAVING of whatever experience you are having that happiness lies. and the idea that happiness comes through cirsumstance is A COMPLETE AND TOTAL LIE that everyon in this oedipal world believes. happiness comes SOLELY as the result of the choice to live with an open heart. PERIOD! The choic to live in faith, the chioce to live in awareness of the existence of a god whose will it is that everyone be completely ecstatic all of the time!

oedipus is suck a sickness. anyone afflicted with it, which is anyone who believes in the lie that i just described, just cannot imagine how much better life is without that sickness. and yet virtually everyone afflicted witheodipus will deny that they have a sickness. that is what a terrible sickness it is. the sickness that leads its victims to an inevitability of eternal misery, and the people afflicted with it deny that there is anything whatsoever the matter. because it IS the disease of denial.

So many people who now consider themselves good people are going to realize that their attitude fits the true definition of evil to a tee. Because evil really comes down to an unwillingness to let reality be what it is, and this really describes the vast majority of those people who would classify themselves as "good." If you are not willing to be what a human being is, you are EVIL, by definition, because you will end up working to thwart the reality of what is, you will try to stop goodness, which is human beings willing to be what a human being is designed and intended to be. to fight against goodness is what evil is.

by this definition of evil, the top ten major leading global justice messiah, Dan M*rkle, is one of the major leading top ten most evil people who ever walked the "globe", because he is visciously opposed to goodness, to the fulfillment of the purpose of human existence; he is opposed to allowing people to have the freedom to decide whether or not they want to live with an open heart. He is evil simply because his own heart is completely closed. he is a closed-hearted bully who six thousand years ago would kill his own brother for the crime of having an open heart. and his misery has only increased, as a result of his own actions, in the meantime.