current june 8 (42)

june 8

many people, if they took note of what i am saying, would scream bloodly murder, saying that i am inciting hatreds and so forth. the same people who allow for Islam to be just another "faith" equal in validity with all others, when in Truth Islam is just a part of a very concerted effort to commit genocide against a family of perfectly decent people who happen to be so decent as to make others ashamed of themselves. But because it is the religion of shame, ashamed people who are not Muslims would defend Islam against the truth that i am speaking about it. people like the riddler (JR), whose song says "we are one in our differences" when really what he actually means is "we are one in our shame."

i saw a bumper sticker the other day, "who would jesus bomb?" and i thought about it.

here is my answer:

he would bomb the holy shit out of any nation of shamed souls who would rise up in any sort of last ditch effort to thwart the truth, the salvation of souls, the orderly conduct of the world during the period of time that lies ahead, the end times.

he would annihiliate any genocidaly inclined nations of fallen souls who cannot tolerate the truth about the nature of reality, if there were any such nations, the reality to which i refer being the incestuous family that IS the one and only permanent reality, and the only person, family, tribe, god, goddess or whatever that could ever invent or sustain a world of happiness. .

he would bomb into oblivion anyone who would seek to defy the incestuous holy family its right to exist in the world that it created for its own puposes .

in preparation for the events that are to come, he might even invade Iraq and destroy it's military capabilities, possibly in advance of putting Cain in a tower in the middle of Babylon so that his followers - the people who follow the so-called "religion" of shame that Cain's mother Allah invented and that he, as mohammed, gave to the people of his (Ishmael's) tribe of shamed souls, the spawn of Cain's hatred and resentment, the religion of resentment against goodness, the religion of resentment against the unashamed, the religion of resentment at reality being perfect -can pay their respects to their leader. 0r maybe it's reuben who will be put in that tower. or both. they can fight it out up there, each one blaming the other for their failure.

the penis envying woman who wants to be a god, allah, has been fighting against the incest family since before this world began. it is hard to imagine that salvation is even possible for a majority of the people of her nations.... i could imagine jesus giving an ultimatum to the people of Islam: renounce your allegience to my family's enemy, Allah, who has been doing everything in her power since even before she conspired with her shamed son cain to kill his brother abel to destroy the incest family, or meet your doom. You have x amount of time to do so.

there are many muslims who do not have the black heart of cain. whole nations have had islam forced upon them, nations perhaps like Malaysia, whose people are more closely related to the typically much more loving people of the other southeast asian nations than the descendants of Ishamel the tribe whose evil matriarch invented islam.

though i dont know much history, i wouldn't be surpised if west africa is another part of the world in which islam was forced upon the people against their will. these people need to be liberated from islam, and jesus might drop a bomb or two here and there is order to help free people from the lies of those who would lead as many souls into hell as they possibly can.

jesus himself said that he would not return in peace, but with a sword. perhaps he was talking about the sword that will be used against the genocidal enemies of the incest family, Allah and her unfortunate shamed son the antichrist and their followers.

june 7

in a world of nothing but lies and ignorance, what is perfection? what is the perfect intention? is it not to discover the truth?>

my dear high school friend angela, who i later completely alienated in expressing my zeal for the particular source of truth i had found (prem rawat) will remember me saying at the age of 17 or 18 that my goal in life was to attain the truth, which i could see quite clearly was not known to anyone I knew. she stated that her goal was happiness. i hope that my discovery of the truth is something that brings joy and happiness into her life.

truth and happiness are teh same thing, really, but the intention to find truth is what brought me to the true source of happiness. everyone is after happiness, because the drive for happiness drives everything, but in a world of lies happiness is elusive. first truth, then happiness.

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Prince Rauven, (reuben) the perfect liar who tells the perfect lie. thank you reuben for playing the necessary part of the one who decides to try the absolutely futile of become a god by lying and so telling the lie that has to be told in order for perfection to be perfection, which is to say, in order for everyone to have their wishes come true, even the people who wish to believe in a lie. Perfection. The perfect lie to compliment the perfect truth.

i cannot imagine how someone would make the choice that you have made reuben, but i am happy you have had the opportunity to pursue your own dream of being the god of the lie..

reuben warned me off from trying to save him so many times, reminding me that he doesn't need to be saved. no you don't need to be saved Reuben, you need to be exactly what you are, if this is what you wish to be. thank you for being what you choose to be.

reuben is the perfect mortal man really, which is of course pure folly. he is the god and advocate of mortality. he admitted to me that he had been a friend of jesus who went his seperate way when jesus got into his messiah trip, just like he passed into and then out of my life again this time. he insists that we are mortal, and yet he confesses to having been alive two thousand years ago. sounds exactly like immortality with a lie thrown in to me. which is it reuben, mortality (live and die, end of story) or immortality? maybe he means to say mortality as in samsara, the cycle of birth and death, but buddhism teaches that mortality is an illusion. i never did get an explanation form reuben exactly how he sees reality. i wish now i had pursued that with him. now if i try to get in touch with him, he says he cant interact with me because of his obligations to the people he is reponsible for, as if referring to his two kids or something, when really he is talking about the six billion people who he promised to be a better god to than the incestuous god.

reuben said lots of interesting things to me in our year or so of close friendship. another one was "i do have sons." yes his sons are all the ones who he tricked into believing that happiness is possible in a world of lies. he has billions of them. his first, cain, is of course his protoge the antichrist.

the man who wanted to rule in hell and the first two people to incarnate into his pre-hell, the world of lies that is his world, a world that he made the rules for, turn on him and become his adversaries trying to usurp his rule of hell. imagine, people competing to rule a realm of pure misery. really the saga of history is the struggle for power in hell between satan on the one side and allah and the antichrist, with of course the incest family doing what it takes to preserve itself and recoup what was stolen from it.

i watched the film brother son sister moon this evening, finally, after all of these years. somethign struck me today that i should see this film.

it seems clear to me that francis is another incarnation of the son. and i believe that sister moon, claire, is an incarnation of the "brother" of sun green, moon green, who is also guenevere and i believe magdelaine, the sister and lover of the christ. this is the great secret of who magdelaine was, she was the sister (though not necessarily biological, but an incarnation of his sister from the incest family). forget all of this da vinci code , holy blood holy grail stuff. i do not believe that the bloodline of jesus, if there is one, has any significance at all. its the true family that he is a part of, the family that has hopped around the world in its quest to be victorious over the Liar. the significance is what none of the writers of any of that stuff even allude to, the incestuousness of the holy family of the Creator. that is significant.

i am neil youngs son, but obviously we are not of the same bloodline, nor are prem rawat and either myself or neil young of the same bloodline. we are from the same soul line, but not of the same lines of decent here in Satan's world. that is insignificant.

the woman who i am convinced is the present incarnation of the sister of the christ knows who she is. she told me herself she had a past life regression reveal that she had been guenever. i got together with her once (she also lives in seattle) and the first thing i asked her was if she had a particular affinity for the king arthur stories, having had a premonition that this was guenevere who was asking for an audience with me the day after i realized that i had been king arthur. her answer did not surprise me. sister moon, who i think will be married to me as the symbol of the bride in the incestuous marriage in heaven.

the sister and the brother are lovers.

incest is the white light. you cannot be incestuous unless you are perfect, and when you are perfect you know that incest is the way of life for human beings. there is so much peace in it. so much love, you are home when you are loving your father, mother, sister brother. of course when we are all brother and sister, mother and father, its heaven automatically. automatically. all those who want and can handle incest make up the only group of people who can live together in peace.

the human being is the being who expresses the archetypes and energies of the Mind in the saga of how the mind evolves into a stable state of happiness. Human beings are the beings OF the mind. all other beings express ideas of beauty (and a few, scavengers in a mortal world, ugliness), but human beings express, by design, the story of the MInd that is the only reality.

male human beings were created for the purpose of participating in the generation of the love that everything is made of. and female human being were created to enjoy that love with the men and to produce the sons who also will participate in this generation of joy.

rapture, the rising up to heaven of the christ and the 144,000 member nationof israel, which is followed by the seperation of the people who choose existence and the people who choose non-existence, occurs, i believe, when the sun god, the son of god, takes the light that lucifer stole from heaven and brought down into this hell realm that we actually live in (Hell + lucifer's stolen light equals the mortal realm of lies that we call earth) and takes it back up to heaven.

the light that we experience as the light of the sun is the light of consciousness that lucifer stole from heaven. all so that the souls in hell could have a chance for redemption, though as far as lucifer is concerned, its just for the betterment of hell.

hell will become dark again as i take this light back to the people who generated it.

i watched the film 2010, the sequel to 2001 a space odyssey, which i consider an important allegory of the journey into reality. 2010 suggests what i just said, depicting the creation of a second sun in our solar system out of one of the moons of juputer. it is quite possible that this is a reality, in my opinion. in heaven there just might be two suns. the association between myself and the sun is something that is just dawning on me the past few days. even though i am called sun green in greendale.

by the way, for some time i have been thinking of this as my true name. Sun. my last name being Fuck. Sun Fuck. seriously. when i whisper it, it sounds right. its like saying the name sun attacts my attention, and the word fuck just sounds good, like an invitation to make love. imagine a gathering of lovers, everyone whispering the beloved's name and saying fuck to him lovingly.... its just like that... whispering alluringly to a lover named sun, inviting him to love.

its a sound that makes for a very powerful mantra, once per breath, though when i say it, i am not necessarily thinking about my breath, i am just saying and listening to myself say the name. and letting go into the experience. i dont know if this is the word or name that my father and god speak, but it resonates pretty well for me.

in heaven, everything and everyone has the same name, because it is all a part of the same thing. i think this is really important. everything having names that are different is something that reinforces seperation., with just one family everyone has the same name. it makes a difference. one language, one name, one family, one god, one world, one cock. one reality. we are all one in the name, in the word.

years ago prem rawat used to have something called a darshan line. perhaps he still does, though its been 20 years or longer since i walked through one. he would sit in a chair for hours while each premie (lover) would walk past and have a moment at his feet, actually having the opportunity to touch him. the first time a person walked the darshan line - only those who had received his Techniques of Knowledge could pass through the line - he or she would hold his hand up to his or her ear to signifiy that this was the first time through the line.

as this person came in front of him, maharaji would place his hand over his mouth so that it was concealed. this was called holy breath, it always seemed to me that he was just breathing a puff of air toward the person to somehow signify the giving of the breath of life.

now i am not so sure whether he is not whispering "the word" so as to identify that person as part of the one reality that he knows by the Name that i believe is the f word.. strange? i am sure any premie who read this would think i'd lost my mind, and i don't know maharaji's secrets, but i would not be surprised at all to find out i am correct. i believe the f word is the word, in spite of being the only one ever in history to go on the record as saying so.

but why else would one word carry so much charge unless it was the word that god himself speaks or unless it is the name of the incestuous holy family?

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all that exists is Perfection. it is all that exists. perfection is the invention of a particular human being alive in this world at this time. its a story that tells itself over and over, and leaves happy human beings living in perfect worlds in its wake.

perfection is an eternally unfolding and reiterating and therefore expanding experience of supreme happiness being enjoyed eternally by human beings who said yes to Perfection when it was offered to them.

perfection includes an opportunity for human beings to exist as a part of itself. this opportunity is presented to human beings as a world like this one, a world based on a very stupid idea concocted by a human being, also walking this earth, who happens to be the biggest and worst posssible liar, the one who tricks people into saying no to perfection when it is offered.

it is this liar, a guy who calls hiimself Prince Rauven, who says human beings are mortal and that there must be a prohibition against incest.

his world in one in which people become what they want to be, and then they decide whether or not to say yes to the perfection offered by a perfect truth teller who teaches people that they are immortal and that incest is mandatory for a happy world to exist.

because if you have an incest taboo, someone will break it, and they will then proceed to ruin everything and turn the whole world in question to ashes.

the only other option for an existence, other than as a person who said yes to the perfection invented by the perfect and incestuous father, who just wants to give his perfectly not-quite-perfect incestuous consort the happy family that she craves, when it was handed to them on a silver platter, in spite of their having been incapable of coming up with the idea of perfection themselves having not chosen to be perfect themselves, is the existence of one who goes back to non-existence when he or she "just says no to perfection" when it is handed to them on a silver platter.

this existence in non-existence is an existence of regret at having said no to existence. it is not a fun existence, especially compared with the alternative, which is perfection, but it's a choice that many people nevertheless make. which fulfills what existence is all about, which is freedom.

the happiness of the Heaven that is the only reality increases eternally.

It is something infinite that grows in size forever.

the greater the happiness of heaven, the greater the regret at not being a part of it, having passed up the opportunity. this regret then, is a corresponding inverse of the happiness of heaven, which is growing and increasing eternally.

needless to say, the incest taboo is a rather heinous lie that has been sold the the people of this world and accepted unquestioningly as if it were the first and most important commandment from the same god who repeatedly urged the people of this world to love one another as themselves, and to love their parents in particular, who stressed the importance in particular of the necessity that men love one another.

the incest taboo is a curse for the people who have embraced it as their own personal law of shame.

we live in a vast infinity of freedom of imagination, in which every single person invents for themself what they want to be.

to be a person who invented themselves to be one who was unable to get over their preference to live with an incest taboo is one of those choices that every single human being who has ever existed has had available to choose from.

to be a person who was willing to get over the incest taboo in order to have eternal happiness is another choice that people have always had available to them.

sing a song for freedom, sing a song for love, sing a song for depressed angels, falling from above... that's a line from song written by a member of the family of the perfect god who invented perfection named Neil Young.

it just happens to be quite an amazing fact that so many choose non-existence in regret at their choice to say no to perfection, rather than just saying yes.

Just say yes to perfection, dear brothers and sisters. Please, just say yes, when it is offered.

do not doubt whether you are worthy of the gift, just come empty, vulnerable

go to a magazine store and have a look. a zillion magazines each with an idol pictured on the cover. an idol is just a model of imperfection that is held out as worthy of a human being's aspiraton. prince reuben is the original idol, but look how idol worship has prolifereated in his world. no one is worshiping him, because everyone is worshiping allah. allah is like the mother you love that you dont know is your mother. everyone is worshiping their mother but they dont know it. and allah, eve, the mother of oedipus is the god of the men who think women are the intended object of love. allah is all about getting men to worship women.

real men worship the love god. satan worships himself and fallen men worship satan and allah. they aspire to be the manly man that reuben personifies, and women ebcome the sole objects of their desire. , and really they are trying to love their mothers in spite of the incest taboo. tons of men are with women who really are their mothers. its what women do in a world of fallen men. because fallen men sure are not going to worship one another, so they worship women,,, and so women compete to be the objects of worship. its all idol worship and it all leads to self-created hell.

the thing about hell is, its not a place a wrathful god sends his bad children, its a self inflicted misery that is the inevitable result when a world in which ignorance and the lies of satan are allowed to exist. that's ALL hell is. it's the result when the god who created the world in question is ignored. worlds where false gods like the manly man and the enticing woman are the objects of worship. it's not a punishment from a jealous god, it is the self inflicted ruin that results from allowing shame to prevent you from enjoying true happiness. its 100% self inflicted. hell is a natural outcome, no matter how gentle and merciful the god who invented the world, when human beings defy him. there is no world that is not the product of the love of the gods. and in every one of them there is someone like prince reuben who says, we don't need you, we've got me and i am better than you.

reuben says, "look at me, i am smarter, i am more charming, i am more talented, i am better looking... if someone needs to be the object of worship it should be me and not that incestuous faggot who claims to have created this world. no one created this world, its just an accident. its just a random occurance, but i am the god becuase i was here first and because i am perfect. so get on your knees and worship me."

science is another of satan's lies, used to deny the existence of the loving god who invents worlds so that people can have something infinitely better than the death and misery offered by the god of hubris, reuben.

so many of those idol worshpi magazines are about perfecting yourself, about how to succeed in life. particularly about perfecting one's self on the outside, but a few tht try to be about imroving one self - but not perfecting becuae no one knows what perfection is and they wouldn't be selling lying magazines if they did- on the inside. all of it is allah worship and satan worship. it's all lies. it's all missing the point, every scrap of it. becuase no where in that magazine store are you going to find the truth that is going to save the audience that reads the magazines from an eternity of failure.

the truth that is not present in this world except right here on this website - the web site that is specifically referred to in roald dahls sequel to charlie and the choclate factory , charlie and the great glass elevator, in the letter from the president to willie wonka inviting them to the white house, where he makes a big deal about a word play, very random, otherwise completel pointless word play involving the sword and and how its the word words with the s moved to the front of the word... a word play which my domain also play with- isaac sword and isaac's word- . roald dahll knew the domain name of my future web site back in the 70's and i never picked up that book in my entire life until after i already was using this domain.;

anyway, this is the only place on earth where anyone can find the truth that matters:

a world in which men refuse to be the lovers of their sons is guaranteed to turn into something called Hell, and Satan is just the otherwise perfect man, Prince Reuben, adam, abraham, etc., who insisted that happiness could be possible without fathers and sons being lovers. the disaster of his world began when his son became the lover of his mother and all hell broke loose in Adam's idea of a perfect world.

the episode in which god asks abraham to kill his son proves that reuben/adam/ abraham/satan is willing to kill his son when the god says kill your son, but it unwilling to love his son when the god says to love his son.

this is what the yin yang symbol really represents: the presence of perfecton calls forth imperfection and the presence of imperfection calls forth perfection. nature abhors a vacuum, and perfecton (success) and imperfection (failure) are opposites. everything that has a front has a back.

there is an unstable period that leads to stability, this is how a mind/universe evolves. perfection works beautifully until a parasite attacks it, and then the parasite is used, eventually, to help bring about a steady state in which the balance is achieved by a balance of happiness /perfection /success and misery/ imperfection / failure. and ech person plays a part that leads them to being in one of the two worlds that correspond.

and this is how the wheel of existence turns, and people like reuben who think they have come up with something better are the biggest fools and liars that could possibly exist.

men are happy to kill one another, but they refuse to love one another. its almost like the definition of an adult man is simply a man who is so unhappy and ashamed about who he is that he is incapable of loving other men. you could say that another word for an adult man (one who refuses to love other men) is demon who turns good worlds into hells, and prince reuben, satan, is just the patriarch of the universe of adult men, men who would kill their son before they would be his lover.

this is the answer to a riddle that no one has ever answered before: why the heck did god ask abraham to kill his perfect son. to show that he was willing to do so while being the person whose distinction is that he is the original man who was unwilling to love his perfect son, who incarnated as adam/reuben/satan/ abraham's son abel before he was isaac.

and then when the perfect boy comes as jesus, reuben, who conspires with the followers who are a part of his conspiracy to rule the word, kills jesus himself this time. reuben himself told me that he and jesus had gone their seperate ways (reuben told me himself that he had remembered, a few years back, that he had been jesus's friend turned adversary)

interestingly enough, this recall happened to reuben while under the influence of psilocybin at the oregon country fair about 9 years ago. it was there two years ago, while i was with reuben under the influience of drugs that he gave me, before he ever mentioned about reuben (he actually uses the name Rauven,and Prince Rauven which is almost identical to reuben but also very similar to ravana, the villian of the ramayana), that i first had a profound sense myself of being the reincarnation of jesus. ironic huh? ihave a feeling reuben has had a few very dissapointing experiences during this time when he has been trying to throw me off the trail of perfection.

its his own lonely hell that he knocks people into ... does he somehow feed on people who are in this state of hell? he sure seems in good spirits for someone who is in hell. maybe he isnt, just the people he sends there. he is not ashamed, really. i dunno. not sure. its his hell, but i am not sure he is in it himself. its like in greendale satan runs the prison, but he is not locked in it like his prisoners. satan's a unique character, the lord of hell doesn't suffer the way his subjects do. he seized his opportunity to be the lord of hell because its better than what he would have otherwise been which is just a guy who got suckered by someone else into hell. better to be the suckerer than the sucker he reasons. his fate as a result is just whatever is inevitable.

this happened as the result of a trip whose intensity far exceeded what would be normal with the dose that i supposedly took but that reuben had prepared for me. this became a somewhat common occurance with reuben as he uses drugs to induce people into the fall into hell. i came very close that night at the oregon country fair, under the influence of reuben's devil dust, and yet, after an intense ordeal, i had a wonderful experience, but i have no doubt, i was drugged by reuben in a way that would have given anyone else a seriously bad trip. when i took the same does of psilocybin later on, i had NOTHING like the same experience. reuben uses a drug, and i am sure the father NY knows exactly what it is that he uses, that is an extremely powerful psychedelic that takes a person to the place where incest with the mother will take a son, to a point beyond the precipice from which a person who is ignorant of God's presence in consciousness and his Name will be guaranteed to fall into the abyss of ignorance.

this is an indictment of abraham that is very specific in nature and that the three wise men (jed, earl and grandpa who visited abraham and told him to kill his son isaac will agree is the exact truth of what that little episode was about.

judaism, christianity and islam are called the abrahamic religions, because they all pertain exactly to the point about what happens when the guy called abraham refuses to love his perfect son.... his other imperfect son, ishamel/ cain/ mohammed becomes a total pariah and ruins his father's world when he falls into hell as a result of fucking his mother and the mother is so ashamed that she casts an evil spell in an effort to prevent anyone from knowing that her son is a failure as a result of loving her,

what a sickness. sickness times sickness. sickness to the power of sickness.

no one has EVER said anything like this about abraham, about adam, about eve, about cain, about the religions, about the truth, about men about life nothing. this is a world completely devoid of truth, except the words you are reading, if there is a single person in this world, besides two guys i know named david, who is not too ashamed to hear the words of an unashamed human being. (other than what could be a substantial number of enlightened folks who already know exactly what i am saying, but who have never talked about it outside of their secret societies.)

amazing to think that the likes of John Lennon and terence mckenna and many who are alive, including people like bruce cockburn, whose music resonates perfectly with these truths, belong to secret societies in which absolute truth is revealed to the elect.

the knowledge of good and evil

i have a little secret to reveal. It is an absolute truth even though this truth has enemies who will deny it.

perfect boys - definition: boys capable of creating perfect worlds, or any world that will not turn into hell for that matter- love one another.

they are totally turned on by one another. they are so turned on by one another that they imagine universes in which they can have sons who are so perfect that they can defy the lie that fathers and sons shouldnt be lovers.

perfection. it's all about perfect boys loving one another. and expressing their love, appreciation and gratitude to the magnificently brilliant and unbelievably generous and merciful god who invented this whole idea,

and to the goddess who makes it all possible by being willing to participate in something that the liars all say is wrong.

and to all of the women who are the mothers who give men sons who can be perfect lovers... even if the women who give men sons are imperfect, the men are grateful to them and love to show their gratitude.

the perfect boys who know and enjoy this truth want sons who also know and enjoy this truth. and they get them. and they create perfect worlds in the process.

and parasites come hungrily looking to parasitize the worlds created by these boys. this is allah. the parasite who comes hungrily looking to parasitize the perfect worlds created by the boys who love one another.

so one thing that the perfect boys do is they set up traps to trap the parasites who want to parasitize their perfect worlds.

they trap the parasites, and then they forgive the parasites who sincerely apologize and see the light and join the one huge multi-universe incestuous family of the perfect boys (gods) that is really the only reality that has ever exited. because when it comes to perfection, and what perfection does, the more the merrier and it doesnt matter at all what little saga you went through on the way to becoming perfect. You could have been a mass murderer and clild-slave raper, and still repent, be forgiven and become perfect and enjoy an eternity of happiness.

i believe that one thing you cannot have done and be forgiven is to have deliberately conspired to usurp the gods once you knew how reality works. if you, like reuben, allah, the antichrist and their minions like Mr. Freeze and teh Riddler, conspired against the only mechanism by which happiness can occur, then it may be too late. why do i say this? because it is what makes sense to me intuitively, knowing what i know about reality and how it works. there is too much goodness at stake to forgive someone from trying to destroy goodness itself. that kind of depravity is just over the top, and it leads to damnation.,

it may be that parasites suffering in hell is enough of a disincentive to keep any new parasites from coming around. you only have to go through this once, one big trapping of parasites, and then you are home free with a perfect world. so this may be another reason why there needs to be containment of parasites. parasites must be destroyed.. it puts an end to parasitism, so that now the good can live in peace. until the parasites were trapped, there was constant warfare between the parasites and the gods. these are the stories of the world pre adam, the mahabharata and the ramayana in particular. but you see it everywhere in the records of antiquity. this is the saga. the gods against the parasites. the gods who eventually trap the parasites and put an end to parasitism..

i think one possible explanation is that the suffering of the people in hell, the trapped and condemned parasites who failed to repent and ask forgiveness before they had conspired against the gods, somehow counteracts the happiness in heaven and brings balance so that there is not a vacuum needing to be filled by parasites. there is a balance that otherwise would be an imbalance which would create the need for balance, a vacuum that gets filled by souls who see opportunity for happiness in being a parasite.

and thus the wheel turns.

its a long difficult saga that the perfect master has to endure in order to create a perfect world, but he succeeds, and part of the success is holding the inevitable parasites who come to leech off of your perfect world in a hell realm under your control.

parasitic souls who come to parasitize the worlds created by the perfect masturbating incestuous boys perish into an eternity of suffering all so that the perfect masturbating boys can masturbate together, and of course there are lots of derivative benefits, but the love between the perfect boys who make perfection possible is the main event, along with loving their mothers.

its ALL about incest and homosexuality, really. the biggest taboos and phobias are actually lies designed as the major leading top ten tactic in a fight against the fulfillment of the purpose of human life, which is simply happiness.

of course people like reuben, allah and cain will tell you the lie that happiness comes from not doing the very things that bring happiness. boys masturbating together with their fathers and brothers and fucking their mothers and sisters. that's the heaven that the parasites who tell you that incest and homosexuality are sins desperately want to parasitize. can you believe that?

there is the basics that come from eating freely of the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil as the son of an incestuous father who is incestuous because he is not ashamed of himself and who loves what his son can be if he will be his lover, which is perfect.

the knowledge of good and evil - fathers loving their sons is good; fathers not loving their sons is evil. end of story. evil isnt' evil intention, like someone wanting to hurt others, that's what people do who have become evil because of things like hubris, ignorance, blind ambition (ambition in ignorance of what matters) and shame. these are the source of the sickness called evil.

how am i doing daddy? can i wake up and come home now? please? i've had enough of satan's sick world where boys dont love one another, where people are afraid of the perfect and unashamed boy and treat him like dirt, who fail to notice or appreciate his goodness because they are so ashamed of their imperfection,,, who are ungrateful even though he is their only hope of averting an eternity of misery. i've had enough. i wanna come home now. (and yes, of course I will wait until the perfect moment that you have in mind...)

Bush and Co: The REAL monkey wrench gang. (41)

May 27

Bush and Co: The REAL monkey wrench gang.

The seemingly insane policies of the USA gvt, Bush administration polices, Clinton policies, Carter policies, the policies that would have been John Kerry policies, you name the President or the party, the policies that were implemented by these american governments amount to a whole lot of monkey wrenching. This is Satan's world, and the gvt of the USA works directly at the behest of people who have been battling against satan since before this world was conjured into existence. The environmental, social, economic and other forms of devastation promoted by the USA gvt are nothing but a conscious monkey wrenching campaign designed to leave devastation behind when the followers of the Love God leave this world to the followers of the Love God's nemesis, Satan.

All of the whining and complaining of the "Left" is just so much ignorance of what is really going on in this world. nothing but pure monkey-wrenching carried out happily by people who understand what is happening. Since a world of people who refuse to love is going to turn into Hell anyway, perhaps the god whose love they rejected might want to destroy the world he created for them in the first place.

Rome (the empire of Pontifex Maximus, the ruler of the world) is not the aggressor in the genocide wars, satan and his followers are parasites and they have been parasitising the Creator and his family for a long time. victims of parasites often take violent measures to destory the parasites that have attacked them. what human being would refuse to protect itself from a swarm of killer bees? WHo, if they had an intestinal parasite, would refuse for compassionate reasons to take measures to kill such a parasite? The people who seek to suck life energy from the Creator without contributing to its generation are parasites, and a world of such parasites is something that those who these parasites would attack might naturally wish to destroy.

God promised abraham (who i still believe is reuben/satan) that his son Isaac would be the leader of a great nation (Isaac is the Christ, and his nation is the true Israel, nothing to do with palestine). But god also promised abraham that ishmael would be the leader of many nations and that his descendants would be numerous. Perhaps ishmael is the leader of more than just the arab nations. ishmael is cain. Ishmael is mohommed, ishmael is the antichrist, and perhaps he is the father of all nations other than true israel. perhaps ishmael is the true father of the modern nation state of Israel, the one located in palestine.

May 24

I see and feel God in everything,

except I am not able to see and feel him in men who do not seek to know and feel him in everything. everything is of god, except men who refuse to be what men are, which is lovers of the god and one another. these men have satan as their god, and it is not possible to see the god in his enemy or in those who have made his enemy into their god.

If you could divide the human race into two groups and send them on their separate ways, would you? If so, how would you define these two groups?

Here is my answer: Yes I would.

One group would consist of those human beings who strive in life to insure that they give more than they take from others of the things that human beings value, the products of people's time, energy, love, kindness, creativity, passion, and the fruits of the earth that were given to us all in common,

And the other group would consist of those human beings who strive in life to take more than they give of these same things. Imagine these two groups going their separate ways. Imagine them both being given a world to live in like, for example, this one.

What would happen to these two groups and their respective worlds? Which of these two worlds would you prefer to live in? What would a world in which everyone is trying to take from everyone else be like? Just try to imagine such a world in which even the pretense of generosity has been vanquished, and everyone is known by everyone else to be a parasite.

How do you feel about this idea of separating these two groups? Would this be fair and just? Does it excite you? Or does it make you feel a sense of dread? Should the givers be given a chance to enjoy the Heaven that they are capable of having, or should the takers be allowed to ruin it for them?

Who are the net givers whose generosity is what offsets the parasitic tendencies of the majority of the human race, so many of whom dream of winning the lottery or hitting the jackpot or developing the perfect scam, or of finding some way to enjoy the fruits of others' loves and labors without contributing their own? The givers whose generosity made this beautiful world, which was endowed with so much beauty and wealth and given to the human race, are the enlightened and unashamed male human beings, called gods, whose love is the source of all life.

This particular world is made of the love between two boy-men and their shared love fantasy of another, one who would be a son to both of them. These three boy-men are all living in this world today. The love between the unashamed boys who love one another is the source of all existence.

The role of men in the scheme of things is to contribute to the energy of love that generates and sustains universes. Men must give up shame in order to fulfill this role.

The difference between the two groups I've described is that one consists of people who are without shame, and the other consists of people who have shame. Shame causes human beings to take without giving in return. Shame causes men to turn a perfect world created by the unashamed boys who love one another into a Hell realm. Men who have shame take from the well of Eros (erotic love) without contributing anything to it. To have shame is to hide oneself from others, and it is to hide others from oneself. It is to hide from experience itself. To be without it is to prefer being known by others and therefore to be open to experience.

The events that will begin in the very near future, known generally as "the end times," will be about the gods (unashamed boys) whose love generated this world administering the justice that will give the generous, and those who are willing to do what it takes to give up shame and to become generous, what they deserve, which is the world of happiness that comes about when everyone is unashamed and therefore generous.

The Christ said that the meek shall inherit the Earth. The meek are those, like Charlie, who have the hearts of children. Children are not ashamed; shame is a function of age. The meek are those without shame and they are the only ones CAPABLE of existing without turning whatever world they inhabit into Hell. The Christ promised to return to save the righteous from the unrighteous, and said that when he returns it will be with a sword. The Christ gave a commandment to the human race that its members love one another. Perhaps the sword that he brandishes upon his return will be used to destroy those who failed to follow his commandment, those people, men in particular, who have failed to follow his commandment to love their fellow men.

In the place called Heaven, men have the hearts of children, they love one another, and they are not ashamed. What do unashamed boys who love one another naturally do together? They masturbate together, that's what. Why do I say this? Because it feels good, and unless shame is allowed to interfere, human beings, designed as the ultimate pleasure machine, do what feels good. It's as simple as that. The ONLY reason boys do not masturbate together is shame. And they are missing out on a love greater than anything that anyone who has shame has ever experienced. Because there is a potentially infinite experience that shame keeps men from experiencing.

Male orgasm is a limiter caused by shame and ignorance that prevents men from experiencing the far greater degrees of erotic love that are available. Giving up shame turns off this limiter and allows men to have this infinite experience. In Heaven, the Willie Wonka god and his lovers, Charlie and all of those who learn to be meek like him, enjoy generating the love that sustains universes together.

Those who do not want to participate, who would take from the treasure house of Eros while refusing to contribute to it, will forge a realm of their own. If you decided to become a man, but are not willing to fulfill the purpose that men were designed to fulfill, you will end up wishing you had decided to be a woman or an animal or anything but a man. But it is too late to change what you are.

Everything exists in the Mind, and all that exists is one giant and eternally self-perpetuating erotic fantasy. Why is every living thing in this world sexual? Because each is a part of a sexual fantasy, the objects of which are human beings, because those who are actually having the fantasy are human beings.

The original inventor of the fantasy is called the Holy Spirit. He takes up residence within the perfectly enlightened male human being who is, by definition, the consummate lover, by virtue of having voluntarily given up shame without anyone so much as suggesting this to him, and he demands that men share and so generate the love that is the substance of everything. He demands that men worship him because this is the purpose of men, to generate the energy that sustains existence, and because men who do not worship him fail.

Men who refuse to love the god who is love perish into a realm of pure anguish at having passed up the opportunity to exist in a realm of happiness. Men were DESIGNED to worship the Holy Spirit, and when they try to be something other than what they were designed to be, they do not enjoy good results. Shame is absence, it is darkness; it is the anti-love that destroys that which love creates, this world being given to us as a perfect example of the failure of shame. In the end, the fate of every human being hinges upon their willingness or lack thereof to give up shame. Love is the alternative, and it is so much better. I hope some day you'll join us…

Since Patriarchy is failing us, do you think we should consider what Matriarchy might look like?

Hello Cowgirl in the Sand, is this place at your command? Can I stay here for a while? Can I see your sweet sweet smile? When so many love you is it the same? It's the woman in you that makes you want to play this game. -Neil Young, from the album Everybody Knows this is Nowhere

Imagine a family in which there are a father, a son and a grandfather, two of whom are sons of the same mother, and all of whom are the mother's lovers as well one another's. The son's relationship with this woman is thus lover, son and grandson, and he is half brother to his father-lover.

Now imagine if this whole scenario were so charged with the erotic love energy of Life Itself that all four of them were immortal. I believe that this is a more or less accurate description of the family whose members created and secretly rule this world. It is the family in which the decision of whom she can love, and how, is left to the woman. This is what Matriarchy is.

Patriarchy is what we call a society in which men lay down the law that mothers cannot love their sons. Matriarchy is freedom. Patriarchy is fascism. Matriarchy is Life. Patriarchy is Death. Patriarchy is the ruin of everything, the destruction of worlds, the cause of all misery, the fatal error of those who subscribe to it.

The Adversary of this matriarchal family is the inventor and proponent of patriarchy and its necessary elements of shame, homophobia and the incest taboo. He calls himself Prince Reuben; he is also known as Satan. He is the god of the people of this world, even though they do not know it. Reuben is an incredibly smooth BS artist, very talented and charismatic. Before I figured out who he was, I thought he was the coolest guy on the planet. Reuben's been battling against the ruling family for a very long time. He is in the process of being defeated.

This world was created to resolve the conflict between these two factions. It is about to be resolved once and for all. You will be amazed when you see who turns out to be on the side of Matriarchy. The Roman Empire, currently based in the USA, is the agency of the pro-matriarchy faction that rules the world.

Soon the people of this world will be divided into two groups: Those who prefer Reuben's idea of shame and Patriarchy will comprise one group; the other will be consist of those who are willing to live in the way that the inventor of the human being has in mind, which is without shame, phobias and taboos. Peace will come when everyone knows and accepts who their leader is.

In one world everyone will worship the immortal Goddess (Mary) and her lovers, and in the other, everyone will worship Prince Reuben, the god of those who favor patriarchy and the incest taboo. The realm in which the followers of Prince Reuben carry on their existence is called Hell, because Hell is what a realm of such people inevitably turns into. The realm in which the followers of the Holy Trinity and their Goddess carry on is called Heaven, because Heaven is what a realm of such people inevitably turns into.

The only reason this world didn't become Hell a long time ago is because of the fascist rule imposed by the secret pro-matriarchy Emperor of this world. Once the pro-matriarchy faction pulls out of this world, it will become pure misery.

I am aware that the words Heaven and Hell are loaded. Please feel free to call whichever world you choose whatever name you want to give it.

Good luck to anyone who chooses to disagree with the truth when the day comes to make a judgment about what the truth is.

May 20 3:00 am

buzzing out in orbit on a combo of psilocybin, syrian rue - the incredible MAO inhibitor that makes psylocybin a vastly more rich and grounded experience, i am convined that the true prophets of Israel ALL!!! were tripping on this combo, and i am talking about prophets from ABEL ONWARD. abel, isaac, jacob and jacobs desencdants (while ISRAEL's descendants were incarnated as ISRAEL's descendant's) were trippers on psilocybin and syrian rue. and they were masturbaters and lovers of god (and not even mckenna came up with anything like this) -

so anyway i'm on this combo along with plenty of cannabis, as usual, and a dose of amanita muscaria as well... nice combo!

its like, psilocybin without syrian rue is like taking only the DMT half of ayahuasca. ayahuasca is a superior experience compared to the triptamine alone. a much more deep and true prophetic shamanic experience comes from the combo of the psychedelic with the MAO inhibitor. this is the first time in a long time that ive taken syrian rue., i misplaced my stash of the paste made by extracting the alkaloid , and never made more. i found it today. im sure it was for a reason.

there was an incredible rainbow this evening in seattle that went on for hours. it was easily one of the two or three most amazing rainbow phenomena i've ever seen. i'm sure others who saw it would agree.

anyway, this experience on syrian rue is very amazing. i'd forgotten how much more illuminated it is. it's different. you feel closer to the core of being.

this all takes me on a momentary digression... a person in the state of mind of absolutely profound apprciation for the TRUE enlightenment that can ONLY come to one who is willing to COMPLETELY SURRENDER everything to his Father, a state of mind which i am pleasantly enjoying at this moment... this experience is the hallmark of what makes a person a child of israel.

such a person wonders who the hermit crabs are who came to dwell in the genome shell of jacob and his descendants, hermits who are not among the 144,000 members of the psychedlic tribes of jacob..... one wonders what kind of man would elect to inhabit a body whose genetic legacy comes from his ancestor's erotic love relationships between sons and their fathers, and with other men together with their god.... to adopt the gene-type of the tribe of unashamed masturbating boys who love to masturbate in a temple with other boys. to have the characteristics of such a person and yet not BE one of these boys oneself.... it is a fascinating question, in my opinion. as a person who is absolutely 100% convinced that he is the founder and leader of the Nation of the Twelve Tribes of Isael, i cannot help but to find this matter to be of the utmost interest.

it is possible that many such men who are not among the 144,000 who consciously CHOSE to be a member of a society of men who masturbate together choose to incarnate as the post diaspora (which i think of as when the 144,000 members of the tribes of Israel were no longer incarnating exclusively as the biological decendants of jacob) because they feel intuitively drawn to this lifestyle. but it also seems like some of these men may have gravitated to this ethnicity for other reasons, to take advantage of certain attributes of this gene-type without having any inclination whatsoever to participate in the activities that are the essential hall-mark of what it means to be a child of Israel..

i dare say, i would also be quite interested to know what Adolph Hitler, or if he was a puppet, then his puppet master, would have to say about this matter. if there was one question i could ask any historical figure that could potentially shed some light on what are some of the great secrets of history, i do think this would have to make a very short list of finalists.

what kind of a person would gravitate to being a person who, whether he consciously knows it or not, is falsely masquerading as a member of god's tribe of masturbating lovers? it's a bit ludicrous to even ponder how absurd this is. i cannot help but think that many of these men must bave some interesting karma. as i've noted before, most of the guys who rushed to do whatever they could to thwart me on my journey are jewish. i mean, satan himself, teh BS artist prince reuben, the person who deliberately decided to be the adversary of the god and his loverrs, is incarnated in this life as a jew, and he was a jew when he was jesus's erstwhile friend reuben.

(now if people were actually reading my stuff some would accuse me of being anti-semitic, but all i am really saying is that the children of israel are the boys who masturbate together. would anyone base their accusation of me being antisemitic on the assumption that i am wrong about what it really means to be a child of israel? if anyone is offended by what i've said here, just remember that, whether you believe it or not, i myself am CONVINCED of the truth of the things that i am saying about what a child of israel really is. if you can really wrap your mind around my beliefs, then i can't see why you wouldn't understand my belief that this is an interesting matter.

just want to throw out one other little thing. in my 4 page ad in the weekly i mentioned that i believed elton john is a major player in this saga. the past couple of days some lyrics of his are going through my head, in particular, the song "don't let the sun go down on me" which has the following very suggestive lyrics "i can't light no more of your darkness" "all my pictures seem to fade to black and white" "frozen here on the ladder of my life" "too late to save myself from falling" it all sounds like someone struggling on their journey into this truth that i am experiencing.

i really believe that there is something about the lyrics in this song that correspond wiht the description of captain john green of greendale, the old greendale hand who never goes into greendale anymore, and furthermore, who seems a bit grumpy about the people of greendale.

i dunno, it's just a wild intuition... (it certainly would be an interesting situation for me, since before i discovered neil young at aage 18 or 19 elton john had been my favorite popular music figure. to this day these two stand out as the two musical artists who i have been most into . they both certainly project a certain homoerotic quality, though obviously neil's style is a lot more subtle and like my own.

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the goddess is the object of worship. she is the one in control of everything really. and she is so so so so so good, so sweet, so innocent, such good intentions. if it were not for the goddess, i don't know if the gods would be able to do what it takes to manage things such as they are... the necessity of giving her what she wants and deserves, which is a world in which people love one another, makes becoming a god imperative. its the love of the mother-lover that makes the son go all the way to becoming a god. without the goddess the gods probably just could not do it, it's just too difficult to do what it takes to insure that the givers are seperated from the takers

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anywayz here is an idea that should be lit for the world to see by the most sparkling starlight anyone can conjure, artistically speaking....

imagine a one question personality test that divides the human race into two groups, one called "the tweedledums" and the other called "the tweedledees." no commentary is required on these two personality types, they speak everything that needs to be said on the matter for themselves.

a one question personality test that makes the most important distinction between people that in my opinion could ever be made.

imagine such a personality test being offered for free, by its inventor, as a super trippy psychedelic newspaper or magazine ad in which the seller is just trying his best just to get people to read the question, not necessarily to take the test, but just to check it out, out of curiosity, as a cultural phenomena or whatever.... so the ad is like the flashiest, most stylish ad you've ever seen --- the total opposite of all of my other drab ads, this is all colorful playful, highly stylized, and psychedelic,

so its a multiple choice question with only three possible answers, one of which is "i don't know" and you answer it for yourself. but then it's not your answer that matters, there's a couple more parts that follow.

so here is the one question of the amazing one question personality test:

which of the following two statements rings true for you:

A) I am a person who, when it comes to situations in which there are interactions between myself and others involving the products of the human gifts of time, effort, love, passion, creativity, happiness and affection - in a word, life - typically strives to do whatever it takes to truthfully convince myself that I have given more of this "life" than I have taken from others.

B) I am a person who, when it comes to situations in which there are interactions between myself and others involving the products of the human gifts of time, effort, love, passion, creativity, happiness and affection - in a word, life - typically strives to do what it takes to get more from others than I give to them of this "life."

c) I don't know.

OK. So the person taking the test answers the question for him or her self. but we're not ready yet to categorize the person taking the test, there are a couple more steps.

after answering the question, the person is asked to imagine the people of this world being split in two so that these two groups would go their seperate ways, and to think about what these two worlds would look like respectively. how would a world in which everyone is an A person differ from a world in which everyone is a B person?

ok then there is one more step... the person taking the test is asked to imagine that the people for whom the truthful answer is "B" could, if they wished, sincerely apologize to and be forgiven by the people for whom the truthful answer is "A" for having essentially been a parasite on the backs of the their hosts, the givers, and that in this way a "B" person could, if they chose, go with the "A" people.

in other words, imagine two worlds, both starting from nothing, one inhabited by people who all are trying to give more than they get, the other inhabited by people who are all trying to get more than they give.

and so the respondent imagines that this is how everyone would get split up, the "A" people and the reformed "B" people are one group, and the remaining unreformed "B" people are the other.

it's the person's reaction to this last idea that determines which group they are in. perhaps there could be some sort of apparatus that would actually measure the person's reaction to the idea. so here is how people get categorized:

if considering this whole scenario makes you feel a sense of dread, you are a tweedledum;

and if considering this scenario makes you feel a sense of elation, you are a tweedledee.

if the answer is neither sad nor happy, then i guess you could call that "purgatory."

'Nuf said.

could anyone ever come up with a more succinct definition of what heaven and hell really are?

or could anyone imagine a more important job for someone to fulfill than to be the one who actually does whatever it takes to effect this seperation. this is the job of the one and only person who chose to be perfect in this particular respect of making sure he was a giver and not a taker. and it is the the perfect master who must endure having his own life sucked from him by the aggregate taking of a world inhabited largely by type "B" people. it is the generosity of the lovers whose love is the energy that sustains EVERYONE's existence who provide the GIVING that is offset by virtually everyone else;s TAKING.

and the son comes and literally washes away the sins of the world and so rejuvinates the God himself who has allowed himself to bear the brunt of the suffering that results from of all of the takers taking as much as they can take from others. the love between the father and the holy spirit and their love of their mutual perfect son, is the well of life that everyone drinks from.

it is the love of the unashamed. and the ashamed feed on this love without contributing to it. the shamed are parasites at the expense of the unashamed. this is the truth, and this is why there has to be a judgment day. because without it, everyone gets dragged into an eternal hell caused by the parasites all trying to take, and no one with anything to give.

its not like SOMETHING exists before people that we can mine for its goodness and life. what exists COMES from the love between people who love without shame. the ashamed are just like psychic serpents feeding on the love in the collective consciousness that is generated by the unashamed. the unashamed MAKE the collective consciousness a good feeling. its like existence all by itself is happy BECausE THE UNASHAMED LOVERS are generating a feeling of happiness and love in the collective consciousness. but slowly slowly the parasites are feeding on this and creating misery and genereally using up the immense amount of love that was there in the beginning, so that in the ned, the collective consciousness is full of feelings of discomfort and suffering.

so the ashamed turn heaven into hell eventually. so that have to be dumped, for the sake fo the unashamed who DONT live in such a way that everyone goes to hell.

if the sweet goddess is going to get what she deserves, which is happiness, since she is willing to do what it would take for everyone to be happy, there MUST be a seperation of the ashamed from the unashamed. it HAS to happen and the person qualified to make this decision to seperate the good (givers) from the evil (takers) is the perfect one, the one who figures all of this out COMPETELY on his own. no one but the perfect master is qualified to run the show in the mind of god.

and so i, as a person who always considered myself to be very compassionate and kind, will eventually be a person who has to be the judge of who gets to be in the group along with myself and the others who are givers. and the takers who want to reform themselves and join the ranks of the givers have to be judged as to the extent of the sincerity of their intention to reform.

there are these fqascinating tv commericals that portray men using the product being advertised as being in some way like gods... like the guy buying a car while sitting on this throne like easy chair with this huge lever that he pulls to make the cars go by,,, or the customer of the "on-demnad" television who has "discovered on demand!" as if the ability to watch whatever meaningless trash they are showing on TV is the attainment of godlike powers.

may 19

new essay posted here on patriarchy vs matriarchy

there was a british pastor in england in the 1840's named Darby who spoke about and popularized the idea of "the rapture."

i believe that darby may have been another incarnation of the father, along with nostradamus and possibly john of patmos, author of revelations. he sort of looks like neil young in the pictures i saw of him on a history chanel documentary called countdown to armageddon. same sideburns. ya never know. of course the reason i think darby may be the father is his knowledge of the end times.

may 18

"Hello Cowgirl in the Sand, is this place at your command?

can i stay here for a while, can i see your sweet sweet smile."

long ago, before there was any universe like the one we live in, but just a big gelatinous emptiness quivering with possibility, there emerged out of the primordial void a being who took the form that we call a male human being in order to have an idea. it was the primordial haver of the idea of what would come to be, having his idea.

let's just call this first haver of an idea "the judge" because he intended to be the judge of how the infinite void of nothingness that nature abhors might be fulfilled by the best idea. The idea that came to him presented itself in the form of a perfectly sweet, child-like, almost pussy-cat like goddess of a woman, who herself had the sweetest ambitions to be the mother of a sweet happy family of lovers (since hers would be the only family) all of whom were totally in love with one another. She imagined her family growing successfully and potentially creating the demand for and filling endless new worlds with happiness.

the goddess's idea was the idea of heaven, of perfection, but there needed to be a way of actualizing it. who would be willing to participate in such a world?

well the goddess's father, the judge, decided he would help his perfect "daughter" to find an appropriate husband. so he made a request for proposals from whatever man wanted to come into existence with an idea of who to be that would make the goddess happy, on the condition that he and his daughter would choose the best husband and that all of the other characters could come into and join whatever world came about as a result of their choice.

i think of human beings are havers of ideas and intentions, the things that come into existence to fill certain cosmic necessities, to fill, in some way, the vacuum that nature abhors in the way that the vacuum wants to be filled. human being is simply the ultimate experiencing machine, capable of the extremes of ecstasy and anguish. no other being is capable of either.

lots of men showed up with grandiose ideas about how they would become a great emperor and make her his empress, or more romantic ideas about how they would forever hold her upon a pedestal, allowing no others near her but himself, and on and on. but none of them proposed the idea that she had, of a sweet loving family of which she, the perfect goddess, would be the matriarch of. all of the guys wanted patriarchy but she wanted matriarchy.

So naturally none of the men captured the goddess's fancy, and her father wasn't going to be satisfied that perfection had been attained until there was a mate found for her who would make her happy.

well, necessity is the mother of the inventions that fill the vacuum that nature abhors, so it took a while to develop, sooner or later the solution showed up in the form of three very child-like boy-men who really loved one another a lot and masturbated together a lot, and they had developed a fantasy of their own in which they would all be lovers with one another and have a world in which they would be the fathers and sons of one another as the lovers of the goddess.

of course this idea fit perfectly with hers, and so she and her father agreed. the goddess decided to go with the holy trinity, the loverboys who masturbate together and are perfectly happy to have a goddess in command of everything.

well the problem remaining to be resolved in the story is that some of the other men were not happy about the choice that the goddess and her father made. they didnt like the idea of living in a world ruled by an incestuous family that they were not going to be in charge of. and so they don't hold up their end of the bargain. they refused to accept the decision of the goddess and there was a rebellion... so as things turn out there is a lot of warfare over trying to control reality. the goddess may have even been stolen away by one of the god's adversaries at one point, as related in the ramayana.

(this story doesnt come as a retelling of existing stories, it's the understanding i have arrived at through my experiences)

worlds were created and destroyed and recreated again as battlefields on which this struggle took place between the three loverboys and their friends and the array of adversaries who were teamed up against them. but they enjoyed certain advantages and came closer to victory. finally this world was invented as a final battleground in the struggle between the god and his few remaining adversaries, who had become the leader of the anti-god factions who were rebelling and trying to wrest control from the loverboy gods.

well, this is how the story goes, more or less. once she had made her decision the rest was history. the goddess became in turn the mother and then the lover of the "the father" and thus the mother of "the son" who is the grandson of the holy spirit. the son's mother is also his grandmother.

well, now fast forward to the present moment of victory, and lo and behold, the son becomes the lover of his mother who is also his grandmother while the father and the grandfather watch approvingly and masturbating ecstatically at the sight of it.

pretty much end of story, everyone who wants to lives happily ever after in the perfect world envisioned by the kitty-cat goddess, the matriarch who in truth is in command of everything. the sweetest tele-tubbie goddess anyone could have ever imagined.

of course prince reuben, AKA satan, the adversary who fought to prevent this reality from becoming the reality and those who follow him, who believe, like he does, that there should be taboos and phobias and patriarchy, that there should be rules against love, has to go to the realm that ends up being the reality when it is based on those failed ideas of his. Hell, in a word.

"i am a child, i'll last a while.

you can't concieve of the pleasure in my smile!"

says the father of the son who is the lover of his mother who is also his grandmother, the father who is the son and the lover of the mother of his son. this is how matriachy works. the mother gets to be the lover of her sons. and matriarchy RULES every universe, because it works, because the men who agreee to abide by it love one another, and the men who love one another are vastly more fit to survive that the men who compete with one another.

when the boys love one another every thing turns out just fine, except for those who oppose them, who get tossed in the incinerator.

long live the goddess, the mother, the one who makes everything possible.

long live the boys who all love their mother-lover, the boys who obey the perfect tele-tubbie goddess and so love one another.

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the age of your body is a function of your time in this world. the age of your heart is a function of your preference for how old your heart is. if you choose to have the heart of a child then in your heart you are a child.

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men are lost; they don't know where they came from, they don't know where they are, and they don't know where they are going.

men are ignorant; they do not know why they were invented, what they are, or what they are becoming. men are ignorant of what they were intended by design to be, and they certainly have not become what they were designed to be in spite of their ignorance.

not being what you are is a recipe for unhappiness, and men are not happy simply because they know not what they are and so they are trying to be something other than what they were designed to be. men are like square pegs trying to insert themselves into round holes.

and when someone comes along and attempts to inform men of what they are, almost none of them want to hear it. men don't like what they were designed to be so they don't want to hear about it. so they insist that men have no chioce but ignorance; they feel more secure in believing that they always have been and always will be ignorant than in believing that ignorance is something that can be overcome. they'd prefer it if this just wasnt possible.

men do not know what they are, and so they work under the assumption that they are whatever they can make themselves to be. as opposed to making the necessary efforts to find out what they are, which my own experience proves is possible. and though this is an extremely popular idea, men inventing what they are for themselves, it actually doesn't work very well. a world of men all of whom are trying in their own way to be gods, trying to rule the world, trying to be the one to decide what kind of a world it's going to be, doesn't turn out too well.

men are no different in design that the beings who create universes. Man is made in the image and likeness of the Creator who made the universe that men live in. in other words, men are powerful beings, and to choose to become one is a high stakes proposition. if you don't want to be what one is, the consequences are high. (men in this world are much futher from being what they are than women)

a world with only one god works much better than one with billions of men trying to be gods. so what could be done about that? why should only one man get to be what ALL men would like to be?

one really good way to solve this dilemma is to take turns. but there is a catch, you have to love what a god is in order to be one. in order to take a turn at being the god, you have to have shown, before you knew that a man is a potential god, that you loved what a god is. that's one of the important things that this world of ignorance is about; its a chance to see who loves what a god is and who does not, so that the one who does love what a god is can take a turn at being one. allowing someone who didn't decide independently that they love what gods are just doesnt seem like something that would make much sense. it's too scary for everyone else to let a guy who once had an aversion to being what a god is to become one and so put their fates in his hands.

anyone would agree that letting the one who DID decide that he loved what a god is be the god. this also happens to be the person who made the effort to figure out what a god is.

it's the charlie and the chocolate factory story. to inherit the factory (become the god), you have to love and respect willie wonka, and of the kids who came as guests to the factory only charlie loved willie wonka and behaved accordingly. only one true willie wonka-loving boy shows up in a world. all the other boys want to become something other than a boy who loves gods. everyone else except this lone charlie figure has their various aversions to loving the god.

but the silver lining to this situation is that having only one god-lover makes the selection process for who gets to be the god much easier.

i'm just describing how perfection works.

look for yourselves ladies and gentlemen at what happens to a world of men who do not want to know what they are... these men turn such a world into Hell. they turn it into a place of complete and unrelieved misery, such as this world is rapidly becoming. it's not the god, and its not the women, and it certainly isn't the birds and the bees who are responsible for turning this formerly pristine world into a hell of war, famine, injustice, inequality, slavery and servitude, environmental destruction, etc. it is the men who are solely responsible for this.

ignorant men turn worlds into Hell.

the men of this world follow a leader who is the one who invented the idea of men inventing what they are. this leader is someone who DOES know what men are and were disgned to be, and who decided to rebel against the excellent plan of the one who designed what men are so that he could become the ruler of the men who, in the end, decide that they just are too ashamed to be what a man was designed to be.

I'm talking about that really excellent-seeming guy, that talented and charismatic guy who is so nearly irresistable in his charms, that BS artist named prince reuben. I know most people call him Satan, but I know the guy, and his name to me is Prince Reuben. He's the one who rebelled against the love god. Reuben is the father and leader of all of the men in this world who prefer to live in a world in which men get to invent what they are. The men who prefer to invent themselves rather than be what they were designed to be are all the sons of Prince Reuben. These are the men who reject being what a man is, which is a lover of the god of whatever particular world it is that they live in.

I think even Prince Reuben wants his sons to be his lovers, but he never told his sons that... i don't think they find that out until they've said "no" to being the lover of the love god.

Soon all of Prince Reuben's sons are going to be introduced to their father. I don't think its going to be a particularly happy reunion. I dont know if prince reuben's sons are going to be happy with the lies that he told them, that they could come and live happily in his world in which men all get to invent themselves. Prince Reuben didn't tell his sons that his idea of a world ends up turning into Hell.

And now Reuben's sons have to either renounce him and his idea and become what they are, which is something that they haven't heretofore expressed any interest whatsoever in being, or they have to accept the eventual consequence of clinging to the hope of Prince Reuben's false promises being fulfilled.

brothers and sisters, the world in which men are willing to be what they were designed to be, lovers of one another and of their common father/creator, is called Heaven and it is a very happy place.

Prince Reuben's world, in which every man gets to invent what he is, which leads most of them to trying to have power over one another, to build their own empires, large and small, is called Hell and it sucks. Hell is for losers and Prince Reuben is the King of the losers. King of the suckers who fell for his lies.

men are an invention, and they have a purpose. if you choose to defy that purpose you are taking your eternal existence fully into your own hands.

Good luck with deciding which world you want to live in. I am going to the world where the men are lovers. I hope some of you are coming with me.

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are you or are you not willing to live in the cowgirl goddess's world on her terms?

the loverboy who is the patriarch of the loverboys who love the tele-tubbie goddess and one another will deal with you in the only way there is to deal with you if you do not wish to participate

satan is the guy who rebelled, who said he would rather rule in hell than serve in the heaven ruled over by a childlike tele-tubbie goddess. he was sure he was more powerful than this incestuous family and that he could create something that would be more grtifying for his patriarchy-preferring self. he was going to create and rule over a world dominated by men who werea ll trying to be gods themselves, instead of the lovers of a goddess.

of course the first woman to come into this world, eve, rebelled by trying to create her own sick matriarchy by luring her son cain into violating the incest taboo that satan as adam had established as his ground rule. so now satan had his own civil war between himself and the combo of eve (allah) and cain (the antichrist) and the whole thing spirals down into Hell from there.

so now the trinity of lovers who love the tel-tubbie goddess are going to take anyone with them who wants to leave satan's world of patriarchy and move on to a world that fulfills the tele-tubbie goddess's dream.

its her dream, she is the dreamer of the dream. and her dream will be fulfilled because the trinity of lovers who love eachother and the goddess are far more powerful than all of the forces of men who hate and distrust one another that satan can array against them. the orcs are numerous, but they have many deficiencies as warriors.

pontifex maximus, who directs the war of the loverboys against the orcs has a few amazing tricks up his sleeve. being able to think multidimensionally is the advantage that he and his army enjoyed. the ability to trust one another,

it's the art of war. pontifex maximus has perfected it, and he defeats his enemies even when they are as numerous as the stars. one trick he tricks the enemy into fighting against one another.

he makes sure that the enemy doesnt even know this war is going on.

may 17

here is a statement of three facts that, if people could just stop for a moment to hear them, would cut right through the largest pile of crap ever to accumulate around a set of otherwise perfectly beautiful truths, and would quickly get the human race of planet earth on with resolving some serious issues that is has with itself and its Creator:

1) gods and goddesses are just men and women who have gotten over the self-perpetuating disease caused by shame and its spawn the incest taboo and homophobia, namely, mortality.

2) there will be a day in 2012 by when everyone will have made a judgment as to which of two groups of people they want to affiliate with henceforth: one group who would, if given a choice, prefer to live in a world in which anything and everything about anyone can be known by anyone else at any time (the unashamed); the other group consists of those who, if given a choice, would prefer to live in a world in which they can conceal things about themselves from others (the ashamed). this day is called judgment day. there is no doubt that the unashamed are preparing for their final irrevocable divorce from the ashamed that has been scheduled, since before Cain killed Abel, to go into effect at this time.

3) the realm, wherever it is, in which will live the unashamed is called "Heaven" by the authors of the judeo-christian bible. and of course the other, wherever it is located, is called "Hell" in those same scriptures.

anyone who chooses to ignore, resist, deny or suppress these truths does so at their own great peril. This is a truth to be accpeted, embraced and rejoiced, for it is the truth that will set free those who choose to be free; it is the truth that will give eternal life to those who believe and have faith in it.

may 16

what exactly is a god? and what exactly is a man?

a god, the potential creator of a universe, is a male human being who does not need to be told that a god is a male human being because he figures it out for himself; a god is a "self" self-realized human being.

men, as opposed to gods, are male human beings who need to be taught and shown that a god is a male human being.

gods are shameless male human beings and one of them is produced, as the product of a shameless father's fantasy of a shameless son, per iteration of the wheel of creation.

men are ashamed male human beings who have taboos and phobias as a result of their ignorance of what reality is, taboos that prevent them from even considering the idea of a world in which fathers and sons are lovers.

the mill of creation has one god and many men as the products of each turn of the wheel.

the generators of universes are the erotic fantasies of the gods, unashamed fathers fantasizing about the unashamed sons who will be their lovers.

the holy spirit is the father of the fathers who create worlds, the guy who had the idea of how human beings could be the ultimate expression of perfection way back before the beginning of time.

the story of creation is the story of the father teaching his son to know and love the holy spirit in a completely free and fully unashamed way that recognizes the awesome power of the erotic fantasy that generated the universe in the first place, the erotic longing of the father for the son. thus the deity of every creation that exists are the father, the son and the holy spirit, those who aspired for and attained the perfection of figuring out for themselves what they were. "oz never did give nothin' to the tin man, that he didn't... didn't already have."

a saved man is a man who accepts reality, and so overcomes shame, once he learns and understands what reality is at the end of the story.

a non-saved man is a man who does not accept reality, and so does not overcome shame, once he learns what reality is at the end of a story.

a savior is the son in the final stages of becoming the god who is the product of the fantasy of his father that generated the universe in which the savior and the men he saves exist. the savior teaches men what men and gods are and their appropriate amd necessary relationship. he teaches men to do what he did, which is to get over shame and become what a man was designed to be.

gods are male human beings who can attain an experience of infinite degrees of loving feelings, which is to say infinite degrees of erotic arousal, as a result of learning entirely on their own, what it takes to resist the urge to have an orgasm before infinite degrees of erotic arousal are attained, as happens in the case of mortal men.

men are male human beings who have an orgasm before attaining the experience of infinite erotic arousal that is possible for gods and saved male men who have overcome shame.

a god, in his creative act of creating and sustaining universes as the product of his sexual fantasy is, needless to say, in a very sexually aroused state.

"worship" of a god, the experience and expression of gratitude and appreciation of what a god is and what he gives, involves, for men, an erotic experience of masturbation simulataniously with the gods. the erotic love energy that is generated in this practive is the energy that generates and sustains universes. this is the love that is referred to in the expression "god is love." men eventually have an obligation to participate in the "work" of energizing the creation in which they exist. or they don't get to participate in the worlds that are energized by this love energy. that's what a man is. if a man does not want to be what a man is designed to be, then there is no place in the world in which the saved men participate in the activity that men were designed for.

"judgment day" comes when men are given the ultimate choice about which they must make a judgment for themselves: whether or not partipcate in doing what men do, which is to generate the love that powers the universes they inhabit. the only alternative is an anti-world in which the energy source is the shame that everyone present feels as a result of choosing not to participate in the happiness of Heaven.

The greater the degree of happiness in Heaven, the greater the degree of the regret in Hell. The magnitude of the positive and negative forces of happiness and misery correspond in an inversely proportional relationship, because the degree of shame of those who choose non-existence corresponds to the degree that shame is appropriate. for example, if heaven were only slightly happier than neutral, then the shame at not being there would not be too great, the shame would be only slightly more miserable than neutral. whereas if Heaven was absolutely unbelievably wonderfully ecstatic in every conceivable way, then the shame at not participating in it would be much more severe. this is why hell is said to be a place of such torment. it is the torment of regret at having said "no" to enjoying and appreciating what life is.

This is why misery loves company so much. The more the merrier is the law of misery. If there was only three people in hell the shame would be so much greater for those three than if there were three billion. So the gods and the demons compete with one another for souls. Both want as many as they can get.

Thus turns the wheel of creation. It is an unforgiving wheel for those who do not ask for the blessing of forgiveness.

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the more child-like and beggar-like i can make myself feel, the more astoundingly erotic an experience i can withstand. the gods are baby gods because the baby gods can sustain an infinite experience of erotic arousal without having orgasm. boys do not have orgasms because they do not have shame. men with the hearts of children do not have orgasms, if they do not want to, because they do not have shame.

so the shameless baby gods, boys without shame who shamelessly masturbate together, create universes out of the INFINITE erotic experience that they can and do have. the creators are the male human beings who can have an infinite experience and you can ONLY have an infinite experience if you give up shame, phobias, taboos and all other forms of fear, and live completely fearlessly. completely fearless men masturbate together because it feels good; and healthy people, unless they have fear, do whatever feels good. there is no law more true than that people do what feels good, unless (one would think) it brings harm to others.. .

and so unashamed men masturbate together because it feeels so damned good! and when they do, the eroticism that results becomes the energy source of everything that exists. this is how things have ALWAYS been. there was no beginning to what-is being what-is, which is baby gods creating and ruling over universes in fulfillment of the eternal erotic fantasy of the holy spirit. its a fantasy that goes on perpetuating and expanding itself forever, and you perhaps you could say that it all happens so that the good, who choose to love, can win at the expense of the losers who do not choose to be good or to love and who therefore choose to be miserable, completely by their own choice, they don't want happiness anyway, and they get the misery that they prefer to happiness. its a win win situation for everyone. perfect, which is why the holy spirit is SO perfect. he makes EVERYONE'S wishes come true, even the ones who get to be in misery forever.

these shameless masturbating boys with the hearts of children rule over the worlds that they create with an iron fist. their roman empire serves as the perfect demonstration of this. because the baby gods know what a realm of PURE HELL the men with shame who do not have the hearts of children will turn this world into if they, the baby gods, did not rule over them with an iron fist.

some liberals (like me until recently) may believe that fascism is what keeps earth from turning into heaven, but wise men know that it's what keeps the world from turning into hell. fascism is not to control the hippies who hate fascism; it is to control the red necks who prefer fascism.

if i learned that adolph hitler was one of the baby gods, or a baby god's puppet, then i would say hitler was good. because i know that only the baby gods can keep a world of ashamed men from quickly turning their world into Hell. hitler may look bad, but virtually no one on earth knows the true story of what hitler was about. since i believe all of history has been controlled by caesar (pontifex maximus) then of course this has to include hitler. hitler somehow fit into the plans of the baby gods, possibly as a necessary measure to keep the people of europe under control in a sitauation that could have turned out much worse.

why are ashamed men, men without the hearts of children and beggars, so miserable that they will destroy worlds? because they are all so dissatisfied with life, and they believe that satisfaction will come through domination and power. and they will stop at nothing to fill the hole in their own hearts. they are dissatisfied because they are not having the infinite erotic experience of love with other men and with their fathers and with their brothers and with their god that is THE PURPOSE of male human beings. they are dissatisfied because they are not being what they are. they are not fulfilling their purpose. they are not having the experience that is by defintion satisfaction because it satisfies the hunger that drives men to do things in order to try to achieve happinesss. because it satisfies the reason why anything exists at all.

men HAVE to become what they are, when it is revealed to them what they are, or they will fall into a terrible pit of remorse at having ever chosen to be a man in the first place.

every thing that exists is conjured out of love in imagination. but its not like love just sits there waiting for something to do, love is an energy that is generated by feelings of affection that exist between male human beings first and foremost. the holy spirit's erotic fantasy is a fantasy of boys masturbating with him as the energy source for a happy world involving men and women. The fantasy is the energy source. and the energy source is fed by men having this experience. men GENERATE the love that everything is made of. its not that our duty is to feel and respect it, it is to PARTICIPATE in the act which creates this energy. either you learn to want to be what you are designed to be as a part of the Creation, or you made a big mistake becoming a male human being.

basically there is this creative thing in the heart of everything, and i guess you could call it the cock of god and it wants and needs to be worshiped in order for worlds in which things like women having and loving children can occur. so men have to come to the temple and worship the cock of god in an experience of masturbation and feeling the cock of god inside their own cock. and this generates a really ecstatic experience that just kind of multplies itself in the act of a whole bunch of men and gods doing this together. everyone keeps feeling better and better, and it just kind of is almost but not quite out of control. its like a feedback loop that lifts everyone higher.

(the flipside is that the misery of the people who said no to this is perhaps by definition somehow commensurate. it must in some way corespond, how could not the awareness of what goodness is possible not increase the misery of those who do not have it.)

men have the experience of love that allows univeses to exist. and as a result there are universes, and men along with women and any number of other species of sentient beings can enjoy the blessings of that world. but MEN have a duty, which is to participate in that which allows a creation to exist in the first place. and this involves men coming in a temple and masturbating together and wosshiping the cock of god togehter., because it feels good. its the essence of everything simply by definition because it is the best possible experience. it is an experience of infinite happiness.

it's as simple as that, and i am going to be repeating myself from here on, because i really dont think there is a whole hell of a lot more to say than that.

may 15

new essay posted: if in the next seven years

In the struggle for survival, who will survive?

How can there be any doubt that darwin was correct that there are natural variations in the traits of a species and that the members that develop advantageous traits will survive at a higher rate than those that develop disadvantageous traits? Having made the claims I have made about my identity, I would like to be on the record as saying that I absolutely concur with Darwin that the fittest to survive are indeed the ones who do survive in a system in which members of a species compete with one another for survival.

If there ever was a species that seemed well-equiped for survival it would have to be human being. Yet it appears that humankind is riding on an unstoppable juggernaut toward self-destruction. Is there an undesirable trait that is causing this species that is otherwise so well-adapted for survival to hurtle with so much momentum towards its own failure? Are there recessive traits that could lead to success where some dominant trait is causing failure?

In this great diverse human "race" in which men compete for survival, is there any one trait that could be more advantageous to survivability than all other traits? Could it be that the "end times" involve a sort of tectonic shift or a quantum evolutionary leap for humankind in which a trait present in some but not all humans is going to become the survivors' unique trait after those who do not have this trait perish?

I say yes, this is exactly true. There is one trait that is going to emerge as the survival trait, the absence of which will cause vanquishment. There is one single quantum evolutionary leap left for humankind to make; it's voluntary, and only those willing to make it will survive and the surviving members of the human race will have found the success that so far has been elusive.

The specific struggle for survival that I am talking about is a struggle between men and the traits that i refer to are traits of men and not so much of women. I am talking about competing constructive and destructive traits of men. Women typically cooperate with one another whereas men tend to take on an adversarial role with respect to one another, so this is a discussion of what MALE trait is going to survive the competition for survival between men and what male trait is going to perish.

What is the trait that the men who survive the end times will have, and that will be lacking in those who perish? Is it the popular combination of cynicism, irony, skepticism and sarcasm? Or apathy? Is it greed? Aggression? College education? Political correctness? Brute strength? How about cunning? Or computer skills? Perhaps investment prowess? What about the ability to stay ahead of the fashion trends? No, it is not any of these.

The winning trait of the men who surive will prove to be willingness to do what it takes to cease being competitive with one another, which boils down to giving up shame. Shame is the loser trait and those who insist upon clinging to this failed trait are going to be eliminated from the human race. Only those men who are willing to give up shame in the next seven years are going to survive and move on to the happy world that thrives and prospers in which men are not ashamed and who therefore love and cooperatre with one another as if they were brothers, and so thrive and prosper when men who compete with one another, as if they were all one anothers' enemies, fail to create happiness and prosperity.

Let me define shame for the purposes of what I have to say about it: Shame is what would make a person prefer to live in a world in which he can conceal things about himself from others, whereas a person without shame would prefer to live in a world in which everything and anything about himself could be known by anyone who wanted to know it, at any time, including his actions, thoughts, feelings, motivations and intentions. To want to be known and seen by other men (at least those who also have given up shame) is to be a man without shame; to wish to hide things about oneself from one's brothers is indicative of shame. Simple.

The women who survive will be those who choose to live in the world with the men who give up shame and so survive. Those women who prefer to live in world in which men are ashamed and do not love one another will have that unfortunate choice available to them also.

The sole survivor in the game of survival between mortal men is the nation of twelve tribes of boys who masturbate together (once upon a time known as the Nation of Israel) which is something that unashamed boys naturally do, just as it is something that ashamed men naturally do not do, regardless of religious, genetic or cultural affiliations.

The boys who masturbate together not only survive, they also create the worlds in which they become the eventual survivors. They invent and eventually rule over every world in which human beings exist. And in every such world in which human beings seek to exist some men will object to and fight against the gods, the loverboys, whose job it is to be the Masters of what is. And those who object and fight against the sustainers of existence end up having to exist forever in a realm of their own, seperate from the gods whom they have fought against.

Boys who love one another survive eternally as the most powerful beings that could possibly exist in any universe. They are the beings most suited to control reality itself, and they do so, as they always have and always will, as the Willie Wonka masters of the Imagination itself, in a way that promotes an agenda that is unimpeachably holy and good. And those who realize that the only viable option for the remainder of their eternal existence is to know, love and appreciate reality such as it is, which is quite wonderful, are given the gift of eternal happiness.

But it appears that there are some who cannot bring themselves to say yes to reality. A man cannot live in a world in which gods are openly known to be present if you he does not love who and what they are; this wouldn't be a comfortable situation for anyone. If you end up being a man who hates gods, which is just a perfected form of the male human being, you will be in deep trouble. There is no happy realm for men who hate what men are and were designed to be, which is the lovers of one another and of the holy trinity, the father, the son and the holy spirit, first and foremost. Because this is what it takes to survive as men, men who tend to want to dominate and control one another, to be lesser gods, gods who don't know what a god is, rulers of their own little empires.

Can you appreciate the advantage that would be enjoyed in the competition to rule the world by the boys who love one another and who can have complete trust in one another? Against men who do not love one another, who have shame, who tell lies, who compete for power, who are not trustworthy? The advantages are immense; there is no competition whatsoever! Slam dunk, even when the shame-free are outnumbered by the ashamed by a factor of tens of thousands to one as depicted in the Lord of the Rings. The benefits of this advantage will be soon known to this world when it is learned that practically every ounce of gold bullion in the world is owned by the Tribe of boys who masturbate together in worship of their Creator, and moreso still when the Tribe of boys who masturbate together pull the rug out from under the global financial system that they have complete control over.

Ladies and gentlemen, this world is a war zone in an unbelievably huge war that's been going on since before this world began. This war has been waging since before Cain killed Abel - between the gods who love boys and their lovers on one side; and the enemies of the gods who love boys, the proponents of shame, taboos and phobias on the other. It is almost completed. Victory will be proclaimed and proven at any moment now. And then we will move on to the process of judgment that each person will make about whether or not they want to join the tribe of people who are willing to live in the way that human beings were perfectly designed and intended to live - a life of complete happiness in a world in which shame has been eliminated.

The enemies of the gods are those who try to thwart the very basis for the existence of a creation in the first place. The enemies of the tribe of loverboys are the enemies of existence itself, and there is no place in a happy world for them, because they destroy happiness. The only place for those who oppose the lover-gods is in a world all of their own. The baby gods' enemies are vanquished and their self-determined fate is not pretty. Please don't be among them.

The tribe of men who are willing to participate in the fulfillment of the will of the God who conceived the idea of heaven and who invented what a human being is intended to be and of the women who want to be a part of this tribe is the tribe that will be victorious in any struggle for survival amongst human beings. And the moment of its victory is at hand.

I have gotten over shame and I can tell you that I know for a fact that Life is Better without Shame, even when many of your friends become ashamed to be known as your friend. It's just that reassuring when you have developed the trait that you know will enable survival and happiness; because you know what a human being really is and you know you have become that.

Ashamed human beings are not fully actualized, not fully developed. To cling to shame in the end, when it comes time to become a fully self-realized human being, will be to choose doom.

may 12

What is the difference between a boy and a man? What is the difference between a person who is young at heart and a person who is not? What does Prem Rawat mean when he says that happiness is attained when a person has "the heart of a child?" What does Neil Young mean when he says "I am a child, I'll last a while. You cannot conceive of the pleasure in my smile?" What does he mean when he says, "Share your loving and you'll live so long?" Where does love come from? What is the wellspring of life itself? Where is it located?

i posted a new essay today. on the big bang and darwin

the shame self does not talk like a child. it does not feel like a child. so put yourself in the frame of mind, or heart, of a child. let yourself FEEL like a child. and then when the enemy starts talking to you, you can recognize him. because he is not very good at pretending to be a child. remember, a child does not have shame and guilt. so if the thoughts are shame and guilt-ridden, you are hearing the thoughts of your enemy.

men, listen feel and look with your whole body. bring yourself into the experience you are having. you are holding back from having every experience you have. feel god inside you. feel yourself being an idea of his. feel yourself being made of what he is made of, which is the love of the holy spirit. feel god inside your body and especially inside of your cock. his cock is in your cock, and to the extent you let yourself FEEL that, you will have gotten past shame. bring your whole self into every experience, and feel god inside your cock when you are having the experience, whatever it is. feel him in your whole body (i just say pay particular attention to that part, since its where the fig leaf is located, its the specific experience we are blocking out.

energy or light turns to heat as a result of resistence. heat is energy meeting resistence. so why does looking at the sun supposedly Burn teh retina? because of resistence. the resistence to life itself and immortality is shame. the resistence to light is shame. the resistence to the sun is our resistence to experience itself, and to being known and seen., the reason jesus says (sonething like) when you can gaze at the sun you will have attained heaven, it's when their is no longer resistencve to the experience of light and threfore no burning. only an intense experience of light. we resist ALL experience in this way. the blindness of someone who looks at the sun - or the deaf person who heard too much sound, - are just the most obvious examples of how our resistence to experience is the cause of mortality itsel;f.

may 11

Consider for a moment the following possibility: a "big bang" is what happens when a god and his boy-man lover have an orgasm together, while masturbating and having a fantasy together of a perfect boy who will be the lover and son of both the god and the god's lover. the holy spirit and the father together create the world that serves the purposes of a god having a son. These three are the holy trinity who, along with the fourth musketeer, their close relative and lover Pontifex Maximus, rule over heaven and earth.

The son is the perfectly shame-free son who is the only boy out of how ever many billions who awakens to realize that he is the lover of his father and of the living loving almighty god without being told this or taught how to experience it. To the point of being willing to make a complete ass of himself in the eyes of a world of people who are ruled by the shame-based laws of the adversary of the father and the holy spirit, Prince Reuben, that charming and charismatic proponent of mortality, phobias and taboos otherwise known as Satan.

Perhaps the world that begins with the big bang and that gets trashed as a result of mens' refusal to be what they are intended by the Inventor or Reality to be ends once the son, "the apple of the eye" of the almighty god, has fully awakened and become a god himself, a god being defined as a man who did not need to be taught what a man is designed to be, which is a lover of the gods.

People who do not like me or what i have to say are just affirming within themselves their own preference for shame over the freedom and joy that come when shame is abolished. People have no idea how much more there is to life than they are experiencing. I may sound queer to you, but this is just because you have no idea how HOT a lover the god is. A god is, by definition, a man who is capable of having the ultimate erotic experience which enables him to conjure whole universes out of the infinite love that he can feel. To be arrogant, judgmental and negative in the face of such a power is not something that I recommend as a strategy for dealing with this confrontation of your attachment to a non-existent self whose non-existence is rooted in that experience of hiding from life known as shame.

The boy who is the son of god by virtue of independently discovering that he is the lover of the god, shares with his brothers and sisters how incredibly hot as lovers the Holy Spirit and the father and their friends are. And he offers to show them how to become the lover of the gods. And he is appreciated by those who are willing to have what human beings were intended to have to the point where EVERYONE wants to, and does, marry him.

I expect the father will show up soon to concur with his son and share his own appreciation for how absolutely unbelievably perfect a lover the Holy Spirit is.

And in the unbelievably erotic fulfillment of the fantasy that began with the Big Bang, teh father, the son and the holy spirit convene a love fest from which the most pleasurable experiences imaginable are made possible for all of those who choose to accept the gift of Life with due appreciation to the bestower of all gifts, the living, breathing, feeling, loving, all knowing and all powerful Love God. It's a party that goes on forever.

Those who decline to participate in this eternal festival of ecstatic love spend the rest of eternity together making what they can of their existence. And that's not a pretty picture.

may 10

there is perfection, and there is imperfection.

in the end there is nothing else. the grey area called mortality seperates into black and white. its teh yin yang symbol. what exists is not grey, it's black and white. it is extremes of infinite happiness and misery. grey is just a temporary situation while everything gets sorted out. grey, a world of moderate amounts of both happiness and misery, is just the line between the balck and white sides of the symbol. its out of this "thin grey line" that the black and the white emerge in a process of seperation that occurs after a period of time in which the story plays out and one person attains perfection.

it is impossible to overstate the magnitude of the situation. it's just what nothingness gets turned into by vacuum of infinity. what fills the vacuum that nature abhors? something infinite, which is to say, something that increases in magnitude through time eternally. the vacuum may never be finally satisfied. heaven gets bigger and more populous forever. hell gets bigger and more populous forver. "somethings keep getting better, some things a little worse. it's a situation much like a curse."

misery, when it goes on forever and keeps getting worse, is not a happy prospect.

it is because love exists. it is because happiness exists. it is because goodness exists. it is because someone chose to be perfect. it is because goodness works and everything else fails. whether there was good before evil or evil before good, it does not matter. both exist and always will. and so grey seperates into black and white. those who choose perfection go the light, and those who choose to forgo perfection go to the darkness.

it is the tyranny of perfection. perfection rules everything. the rulers of reality, the gods, are men who chose to be perfect. worlds come into existence so that one of these men who strive for perfection can come into being. and thus worlds are spun out of nothingness, the great wheel of perfection rolling through infinity, creating worlds, teh masters of perfection saving as many people who will be saved, and leaving those who forgo salvation to deal with their fate of having chosen to exist but who then decided not to exist.

and those who live cannot care too much about those who live eternally in death. it was their choice. they too had a chance to choose happiness, and they passed it up. first having failed to be good and then, in the end, having failed to repent and be saved their fate is entirely in their won hands. they will get the world they would have had if everyone had been like them

anyone who does not find their way to truth will end up in misery unless they accept the gift of salvation. this is because whatever world ignorant human beings inhabit togehter will eventually turn into hell. it will eventually decay, because decay is what happens in a world of ignorance. even well-intentioned ignorance will fail and turn to hell in the end. the only redemption for the ignorant is salvation by someone who overcame ignorance.

people hate me, they resent me for claiming to know things that they do not know, and if they dont figure it out they will end up hating me for having been right. they will hate me for having succeeded, making their own failure all the more miserable. humility will come to many once it is time. once truth explodes those who yearn for life and happiness will admit to their own ignorance and accept the gift. but some people will feel so insulted by what reality actually is that they will turn away from reality in shame.

imperfection is the only alternative to perfection. there is the pupa stage of the fully sentient human being, called mortal man. then, when that stage is over, people will have become either willing and able to accept perfection or they will have become unwilling and unable to accept perfection. people who CHOOSE imperfection get stuck with one another, their world becomes hell, an absence of life, negative life. anti-life. the people who choose perfection also get stuck with one another. one of these realms is called heaven and the other is called hell.

the difference is just the answer to this question: are you willing to be what you are?

are you willing to accept perfection? are you willing to be known? are you willing to be seen? are you willing to give up all of your secrets? are you willing to love? are you ready for an infinite experience of happiness? are you willing to have everything about yourself, past and present, everything about yourself, every thought, every motivation known by anyone who wants to know it? are you willing to own what you have been so far? are you willing to humble yourself and to ask forvgiveness for your contribution to the misery of this world? or are you too ashamed to be known by the one who can hold you, and care for you, keep you safe from evil forever to be and have been who you are?

it's a choice: perfection or imperfection; life or non-life; existence or non existence; happiness or misery; shame or love. darkness or light. peace or torment. contentment or anguish.

how does one who has participated in the craziness of this world become a part of perfection? by owning their imperfection. by allowing themselves to be reformed, by surrendering to one who is perfect, by becoming perfected. to accept a gift of salvation from someone capable of saving them from their own self-inflicted misery, and by being eternally grateful for this gift.

those who fail will curse those who win. those who choose imperfection will hate the ones who strived to be perfect. the vanquished will resent the victors.

and the good, the willing, the humble, the victors, will enjoy their victory. they will enjoy the reward that is given to them by the nature of how it is that the vacuum that nature abhors gets filled. there is no chioce but to accept reality as it is, whether you are bestowed with the gift, or whether by your own choice you reject it, each person has no choice but to accept reality.

those who had the audacity to come into existence within the holiness of the vacuum that nature abhors with an intention to take from others, to live as a parasite, to lie and to cheat and to deceive, those who had the audacity to risk ruining things for everyone else, and who pass up redemption in the end, have to endure the terrible fate of enduring existence in nonexistence forever.

the reason why one must worship perfection is because the whole situaiton of existing as a sentient being within the vacuum that natue abhors is a very tricky situation. you cannot fall short of perfection living in what is essentially a vacuum.

may 9

i think i've pretty much said everything i have to say... my recent posts have tended to get drawn into the same thing, which is that at the heart of everything there is a fantasy love affair between a god and his male lovers and that the fantasy the god is having involves sons learning to love Him by loving their fathers. thus the holy trinity - the father, the son and the holy spirit. the father and the son fulfill this relationship and the son learns what it means to love the holy spirit, in spite of the world's prohibition of this relationship. the father initiates the son into the experience of being what a man is designed by perfect intention to be.

the holy trinity is basically three guys with the hearts of children who are all over the top in love with one another, just totally crazy about one another, because they have learned how to experience being one with one another. when jesus said, "i and my father are one" he was talking about an erotic experience. he could have said, i and my father are one with one another and with the holy spirit.

socrates said 'know thyself.' soocrates, plato and friends knew something that the men of this world today dont know. that boys with the hearts of children can love one another and that this is the ultimate love. socrates the pedophile said "know thyself." he knew something about himself. he knew what love really consists of. he knew what he himself was made of.

another of the trinity's lovers is pontifex maximus, another man with the heart of a child, the fascist ruler of this world since the beginning.

it's pretty simple: the definition of what a male IS must include a description of what he is capable of experiencing. and the truth is that a male human being is capable of experiencing something called ecstasy. and ecstasy is, BY DEFINITION, something that everyone wants. because it is just an intense state of happiness, and everyone wants happiness. well, any man who is NOT able to have the experience of ecstasy is unable to have this experience because he is preventing himself form having it by being repressed in some way. of course i have said it is shame that prevents this.

sexual arousal is an experience of awakening into what life itself is made of. when a man begins to feel the sensations in his own phallus he is waking himself up, and orgasm is a trigger that goes off when the awakening is getting to be overwhelming. god-realization is the awareness that allows a man to endure an infinite amount of sexual arousal, to know what it means to be all the way awake. a man who is god-realized can masturbate realizing that it is the erotic arousal of teh holy spirit who is himself masturbating and having the fantasy of men masturbating and feeling him in the experience. this awareness, this surrender to god allows for a far greater degree of erotic arousal than is otherwise possible.

in other words, masturbation is the single most natural thing a human being can do because he lives in teh fantasy of a creator who is imagining him doing this. to masturbate in awareness of the love of god in the exprience is in a sense the purpose of human life, womens' purpose being to support and participate in this fantasy of gods. it is to be a part of the fulfillment of god's plan, whereas to resist this experience is to resist being a part of the fulfillment of gods' plan..

this experience is a feedback loop of pleasure and love that is infinite in potential. this is the experience that rules everything. because it is possible, and because it is pleasurable, there is a problem for the people unwilling to have it. there is no reason on earth not to have it other than shame. a man unwilling to know the god who is love, and to love him in the way that he wants to be loved is going to experience the only reality that can exist in which people allow shame to rule their lives. if a man is going to let shame prevent him from knowing the source of his own life and all happiness, then that man is doomed to the hell that any world of shame-ruled men turns into.

well, there are some men who HAVE learned how to have the experience of ecstasy, and these men are called gods. and gods create worlds, and they rule over the worlds they create. and in the end, any man who is UNWILLING to have the experience of perfect love, the experience of true happinesss, the experience of ecstasy, who is therefor unwilling to be what a man is, is condemned to the only world that such men can inhablit in the long run.

a man who is not willing to fully be what a man is is letting themslves be ruled by shame, and shame is nothing but darkness, it is absence of life, absence of love, absence of consciousness. men who are not willing to be lovers of the love god are followers of satan, and satan takes men into an abyss of misery. satan is the shame god,, the lord of the ashamed.

the men who are willing and able to have the most ecstatic (erotic) experience of all are the ONLY men who survive in the long run. all other men condemn themselves to the land of the ashamed. all men are doomed to hell who do not learn to know the god whose fantasy they are living in. if you arent willing to be a part of the dreamer's dream, then the only place for you is with others who are unwilling to be a part of the dreamer's dream. it's a erotic dream charged with eros and dripping with love. it is the ultimate erotic fanstasy. it is beautiful, it is what is, it is the love from which universes are made. there would be no lasting happiness if not for this one idea of the holy spirit, this self perpetuating fantasy of love.

those men most fit for survival are the ones who know what they are. those men most fit for survival are those willing to have the ultimate experience. teh experience that is the ultimate experience _by defintion_. there is no more ultimate experience than being one with the god in the fulfillment of the god's fantasy./

may 8

the love of the father, which comes from his surrender to the holy spirit, is great. he sets the creation of a whole world with six billion human souls into motion. it is his fantasy, his yearning for a son who will be his lover. one person fills the role, the object of everything. and six billion others come into being as a part of the process. the son fulfills the role he fills by finding his way to being what it is that his father wanted, what a human being is intended to be.

he becomes a lover of his father and of the holy spirit, the latter is the inventor of the reality that is. the love god who demands our love because it was he who chose to be the person who makes eternal happiness possible. eternal happiness is not possible unless it is perfection. less than perfection just doesnt work when it comes to eternity. there HAS to be a seperation between those willing to accept perfection and those who are not willing to accept perfection.

it is through the love that the son has for the father that the son fully arrives into his relationship with the holy spirit, with the almighty love god whom both the son and the father worship. it's like the love of every man for his father connects him with the holy spirit. it is the circle of love.

who rules universes? the men who love one another, the men who are willing to fully be what a man is designed to be, an ecstasy experiencing machine.

a man who is unwilling to be what he is is unwililng because he is afraid to fully let go into being. this fear of being is shame, it's limiting. it so happens that the man who IS willing to be what he is is by definition more powerful than a man who is unwilling to be what he is. so in the darwinian struggle to survive, it is the lover who is victorious. the man who does not limit his love. who does not hide himself from being.

imagine if everything you could see could see you, everything you can feel could feel you, everything you hear could hear you. everything that you can know can know you. this is all about life being what it is when it is not thwarted. it is about becoming fully what a human being is.

every person who could possibly exist eventually comes into being. there are an infinite number of potential human beings, and the are eternally being brought into being so as to be able to make a choice whether they want to be fulfilled a or not. whether they want to be good or not.

who survives? the happy. who perishes? those who attempt to thwart the happy, who work against happiness. the lovers love, and the haters hate. the haters perish into a realm of hatred. this is all about survival. this is all about being happy forever vs. being miserable forever. perfection rules. and those who turn down perfection perish. and the failure of those who fail is a terrible fate.

i am speculating that for everything there is an opposite. happiness creates a need for misery to come into existence so that there can be balance, so that there can be an aggregate of nothing. there is heaven; heaven is, say, the white half of the yin yang symbol. the existence of happiness brings forth worlds into which misery can come into being. those who like the orcs come out of the emptiness of the void into this world become the living experiencers of the misery that is required to offset the happiness of heaven. and the happiness of heaven is intense.

existence, as the product of the vacuum that nature abhors, is not a small matter. what comes into existence to fill the vacuum that nature abhors is not temporary in nature, it exists beyond and outside of time. it just becomes a part of an infinite and every increasing amount of happiness or misery of the wheel of life that turns and turns.

the masters of perfection, the willie wonkas, manage what is for the sake of goodness being triumphant over evil. it is SUCH a high stakes game that we are in brothers and sisters. there is NOTHING in this world that matters even one speck in the face of the terrible choice that everyone is in the process of making about how they will spend the eterntity that begins when this temporary world of ignorance ends.

it is impossible to emphasize the agony that those who just can't accept perfection will experience forever. the greater the pleasure of those in heaven, the greater the agony of those in hell.

i think i am running out of things to say. it gets down to this. it gets down to understanding the enormity of this moment, the monumental importance of what is happening now. this is judgment day, the moment where everyone either matriculates,,, into one of two realities.

may 7

what fills the vacuum that nature abhors is an eternally expanding reality in which there is suffering and there is happiness. we live on the narrow line that in the yin yang symbol is the interface between the dark aand the light sides. it's kind of where reality begins, in the grey area, its where stuff emerges into existence, ultimately to choose between good and evil.

everything splits into two realms, one of perfection and one of misery. because someone figured out perfect happiness, the counterpart has to be terrible misery. the greater the happiness of heaven, the greater the misery of the people who fail to accept.

heaven is what happens to a group of people who say yes to perfection when it is offered,

hell is what happens to the people who insist upon settling for anything other than perfection.

the perfection that is heaven consists of human beings who are untainted by shame.

the imperfection of hell is the inevitable result of any world in which human beings cling to shame.

reality has no tolerance for imperfection.

the father's brilliance is that he offers a world in which perfection is attained through humility, repentence, surrender and faith,,, and his own forgiveness. only the son of the father attains the perfection that in the end becomes the only alternative to misery on his own. everyone else attains heaven through mercy.

may 6

Imagine an existence in which you can be seen and known in a completely naked and vulnerable state by anyone who wants to see you and or to know you, in which the sensations in your body can be sensed by anyone who wants to feel what you are feeling, in which your thoughts can be known by anyone who wants to know what you are thinking, when the motivations and inspirations of your heart can be known by anyone who wants to know who you really are, in which your most intimate acts of love are watched by others;

Now imagine a realm of existence in which these conditions are true for everyone existing in that realm, in which everyone's most intimate selves and activities are known to everyone else;

When you become a person who would prefer such an existence to an existence in which you can hide parts of yourself and to keep secrets of the heart from others, in which you can shield yourself from being known, when you become a person who would prefer to live in a realm inhabited by people all of whom prefer to be known by everyone else,

When you become a person who WANTS to be seen and known by others and by your Creator, you will have taken off the fig leaf of Adam and Eve and regained what was lost in "the fall."

You will have re-attained the immortality that was lost when Adam became ashamed of himself and covered his genitals to prevent himself from being seen and known, thus cutting himself off from the source of life itself.

Shame is what we call the urge to hide one's self from others, particularly from one's father and one's Creator. Those people who choose to give up shame will soon move on to a realm free of all suffering, disease and death.

Those people who do not choose to give up shame will remain in this realm of suffering, disease and death.

The Christ comes to save mortal human beings from their own shame who choose to give it up.

Everyone, men and women alike, is invited to marry the Christ and become his lover and to join the tribe of immortal lovers who travel though worlds conjured in the Imagination of the Almighty God who is Love. Once he teaches those who choose to give up shame the Way of Life of Heaven, everyone will be quite happy and grateful to be the Christ's lover.

The path to giving up shame will be opened this year, in 2005, to inaugurate the "end-times" into which humanity in entering and which will last for seven years until the day in 2012 by when everyone will have made a Judgment as to whether or not they care to give up shame and become what a human being really is.

Shame is the shroud of ignorance and death that humanity wears. It will soon be time to remove it and so have life.

This is a message from The Dancer in the Temple, son of the rock and roll father, the father who says, "Share your loving and you'll live so long." The son of the father who says, "I am a child, I'll last a while. You can't conceive of the pleasure in my smile."

The secret to lasting a while, to immortality, is to have the heart of a child.

Universes are created and ruled by men who have the hearts of children and who love one another, who are open and vulnerable with one another. Such men are otherwise known as gods.

Darwin was right: Survival of the fittest is the Law of Nature. ANd guess who the strong are who will survive?

The men who know their Creator and who love Him, their father, and one another, along with the women who consort with such men. The men who love one another rule every universe that ever existed and that ever will exist. They create those universes, and they rule over them. They create worlds in which ignorance, shame and suffering are the law and they take the lovers with them to their Heaven.

Who are the weak who will perish?

The men who do not know their Creator and who do not love their father and one another, along with the women who consort with them. The men who hate one another perish into a Hell of hatred and mutal torment. It is the Hell they are left with when the gods take their flock of lovers and move on.

In Heaven, everyone is lovers with the Love God (the Holy Spirit) together as one family of incestuous lovers, without shame-based taboos and phobias, and it begins with the father and the son. The son is the one who gets past shame, wakes up, and realizes that he is the father's lover and that this world was created by the father so that his son could have this awakening, and save everyone who wants to be saved from their ignorance of what life is.

"Look out for my love," says the rock and roll father. Look out for the rock and roll father, says his son, the Dancer in the Temple.... the Dancer, who when he dances, his Father can really love, can really love.

"Share your loving and you'll live so long."

Stay tuned.