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may 5

i have a request i would make of the people of this world, if i could, here it is:

Dear fellow human beings,

Please consider for a moment the thing we call love. I ask that you think about whether you believe there is not enough, just the right amount, or too much love in this world.

what would not enough love look like? what kind of world would have just the right amount of love? and what would TOO MUCH love look like? is there such a thing as too much love/?? what could be the potential problem, if any, with too much love?

are you a person who is doing their part to make our world a world in which there is a deficiency of love, the perfect amount of love, or an excess of love?

how much love between men is just the right amount, how much love between men would be not enough, and how much love between men would be too much??

would you rather live in a world in which men love one another, or hate one another? What sort of relationship between men would be optimal in your opinion?

men, would you rather live in a world with just yourself and all women, or would you rather live in a world with an equal number of men and women, or would you prefer a world with moderate preponderance of men or of women.

would would your optimal world look like? if you were god, what kind of world would you invent, and what kind of people would you want living in it? would you want your world to be a world with or without taboos? would you want your world to be a world with or without phobias?

would you want a world in which men decide things for women, or would you like a world in which the women make their own decisions.

if you could invent the perfect world, would you yourself want to live in the perfect world you had invented? and if you did choose to live in the world of your invention, what wort of system of government of the people living in it would you want there to be? would you yourself want to be in charge of your world, or at least to have veto power over any decisions made?

if you were the inventor of your own idea of the perfect world, what would you do about people who were trying to make your world into something that you didnt want it to be? if they refused to comply with your will, would you want the right to kick those people out of your world? what if someone threatened to ruin your world, then would you kick them out? if so, would you care what became of them if you had to kcik them out if you had warned them that if they didnt correct their ways that you intended to kick them out? what if they would suffer eternally as a result of being kicked out of your world, through no fault of your own. would you let that stop you from kicking them out?

what if you created a world, invited anyone who wanted to to come live in it, and then at some point realized that there was a certain character trait that the people who had tended to make your world a better place, and the people who lacked this certain character trait tended to make this world aworse place. if you could divide your world into two worlds and had the two groups, with and without this certain character trait, each go to one or the other, would you do it??

do you believe that love is good and that hate is bad? if you could invent a world in which everyone got to prove whether they were good or bad, and you could then reward the good by giving them eternal happiness, but that in order to reward the good you also had to punish the bad by giving them eternal suffering, would you do that, or would you just make everyone live eternally with neither happiness nor unhappiness? what IS goodness in a person and what IS badness in a person? do you agree that bad is when people cause suffering, and good is when people cause happiness? should there a limit to happiness? does too much happiness somehow become an evil?

here is a question for christians: if everyone is married to the christ in heaven, as described in the bible, what sort of relationship will there be between the christ and the men in heaven? do you expect that there will be love between the men who are married to the christ and the christ? .how do you expect that this love will be expressed?

I ask these questions because i believe that, in the end, much of the anticipated gnashing of teeth will done by people who couldn't make it into heaven because of feeling that heaven was just too much love for them.

people will be perplexed as to whether the gods love so much that it makes them evil. i mean, so many people think men loving one another is wrong, is an abberation, how are they going to feel when they realize that the gods themselves are just men who love one another.. this idea is a hallmark of shame and mortality. nevertheless, people are attached to their ideas of what is right and wrong.

thus, deciding whether or not the good men or the evil men are the ones in heaven could be difficult for some to ascertain. the rulers of Heaven and Earth are the men who love one another.they are just the fittest who survive. does that make them good, or does it make them evil? does it make reality evil that the ones who love the most, win? is it just or unjust that those who are willing to love win and that those who are unwilling to love lse? you dont need to think about justice, you just need to think about reality.... those who refuse to love will fail no matter how that comes about. those who love will triumph no matter how that comes about. people sharing the feeling of love with one another causes those people to be nice to one another. to support one another. to give to one another. people being afraid ot share the feeling of love with one another causes those people to be mean, to attempt to exploit one another, to take from one another.

an easier question for people to consider in order to make a determination for themselves whether the men who love the love gods are good or bad, could be this: which women love the love gods?. which women choose to be with the men who love the gods? and are these the women who you would have always thought deserved to be happy? are the women you thought of as good and beautiful the women who choose what the love gods call heaven??? or is it the mean ones that choose the love gods? you will have an easier time understanding that love is good this way. because the good women will be with the love gods that many people will say are evil because they love one another.

gods are men who love one another. and they create and rule over every world that exists. its amazing that all of those christians who believe in god never even considered whether the god who created the world also rules over it. i am perhaps the first person in recent times to even sugest this. and watch, it will turn out to be true. the love gods are going to bring an end to this world and judge the people who live in it as to whether or not they are people who they would want to be with forever in heaven. a lot of people won't even get in line to find out if they qualify. they will turn away in shame and let themselves go to their fate in prince reubens eternal realm of torment.

the love gods cannot be defeated, even by the charming and charismatic and seemingly kind and compassionate guy called satan, prince reuben.

the men who want to be gods are the enemies of the children who are gods. the baby gods -the men with the hearts of children without shame, phobias and taboos, the charlie's, rule everything, they are the fittest who survive.

and their enemies are the men with the hearts of adults, men who are all all messed up with shame, taboos and phobias, who think that they should be able to be gods. the worlds that men with the hearts of grown ups create fail turn to hell. like this one of prince reuben's.

so the baby gods don't have much sympathy for man-gods like reuben. they don't care much for the men who aspire to be like prince reuben, or his son cain, either. the baby gods know that only men with the hearts of children are capable of existing in a realm of happiness.

the invention of the "adult" is the worst invention. whose idea was that, anyway?? an adult is just a child who has been "aged" by the disease of shame. we are born as children. who ever decided that we needed to become something other than what we were created as? god did not give the human being the incest taboo. that's satan's gift to the world. the god who wanted patriarchy. the god who wanted all the boys to be his sons. prince reuben.

the father and the son save people from satan's terrible idea of shame.

any man who does not want to become like a child again loses this game. the christ is the one who figured out how to do that. he IS the savior

may 4 .

evening... no man shall enter the kingdom of heaven who does not have the heart of a child.

children are born without taboos and phobias. what is a taboo? it is something that people are too ashamed to talk about. taboos, by this definition dont exist in a world without shame. shame is fear of life. love is life. shame is fear of love. if you want to be in heaven you have to sort of remember and rebecome what you were before they laid the incest taboo on you. before anyone told you "just say "no" to love." children are taught to have shame, taught about taboos, taught to fear love, taught to be older, taught not to have the heart of a child. this is satan's world,,, it is an anti child world. it is a world that deprives human beings of the joy of the child. children are happy. adults are not. the incest taboo is the biggest crime against the human soul.

satan is going to be one miserable dude, along with all of the men who got duped into being old at heart. full of fear, full of shame, full of insecurity, full of alienation from everything. god, what a disease that prince reuben created. it's his darkness. all of his people came out of his darkness. and to their darkness most will return.

you cannot bring the attributes of the heart of a grown up into heaven. you wont make it in. won't happen. immortality is the heart of a child.

in order to get into heaven its not enough to believe or claim that you have the heart of a child, you have to demonstrate that you do. how does one demonstrate that one has the heart of a child? by doing things that people with the hearts of adults would be too ashamed to do. i have a hunch this is what it will take.

you have to come naked and masturbate with god (the father, the son, and or the holy spirit) while saying his true name, which i believe may be the f word. do that and dont cum until he cums, feeling him within the experience and loving him and feeling loved by him. this is exactly what jesus referred to when he talked about when he spoke of loving god with all of one's heart, etc. now, in order to do this you have to have the attitude of a child. so for those who want to be in heaven, it will be a process of rediscovering the heart of a child which has been buried in a tomb of shame. now it would be impossible to do this without having attained the heart of a child.

maharaji's lila: (Prem rawat is known to his followers as maharaji, lila means "play")

in about 1973, guru maharaji, as he was then known, had a huge event in the houston astrodome called "millenium" which he allowed his followers to believe was going to be like the rapture, people were expecting the astordome was going to take off and leave this world. he did nothing to stop this idea. i have no idea where it started. i did not know of maharaji until several years later. it was like the story of the leader of the christian cult, i think its the jehovah's witnesses, who led his followers to wait on his farm for the end of the world in the 1800's in spite of the failure of that event to occur, many continued to follow him and they started a religion that continues to this day.

anyway, it's funny. i have a feeling that this event was deliberately intended to happen the way it did to make a point. prem rawat may make a point of noting that even after that whole PR disaster people still loved and admired him as much as ever. it didnt really put much of a dent in his stature with his followers.

but now, when the real thing is happening and it involves both me, who is speaking about it, and him, and he is not speaking about any sort of end times events at all, and absolutely NOBODY wants to hear about it form me. while it is reported recenly that maharaji expects as many as 2500 people to come here him speak in a possible seattle event this summer., the point being that because i am an actual person in the community claiming to have attained an experience of happiness that no one else has, and especially now that i am talking aobut taboos, not a single person is interested in what i have to say... NOT EVEN prem rawat's followers!!! even though i have been so up front about claiming that he ISthe almighty god, the god of the jews, incarnate. to me, this is a stroke of brilliance, and of course it is equally brilliant that i figured it out! of course no one has ever come up with that one before. its funny, no one ever asked, if maharaji is god, then maybe the christ should show up sometime soon? never heard it mentioned even as a theoretical question.

before there is ever a taboo or phobia taught to a child, children are unashamed. and they love one another. the appeal of the erotic love experience between unashamed children far outweighs any temptation to hurt one another.

there was an episode on dr phil that i saw (only time i ever watched dr phil, my mom happened to be glued to it one day when i came by to visit) featuring a kid who was accused by his whole family of some terrible sexual crimes, molesting his sister or something like that. i forget the exact nature of his transgression. but the point is, there was this huge deal about a lie detector test. i had strong feelings about that incident, they really went far in faith in the lie detector test. they risked wrongly ruining that boys whole life in the event of a false positive result (indicating a lie that was not a lie). i dont defend the boy, but i think people will be giving serious consideratoin to the risk that was taken in srongly stigmatizing a human being in order to shame a person who had crossed sexual boundaries. its like ONLY because the crimes were sexual in nature would a child be exposed to such a possibility of wrongfully being found guilty. because shame is so intense people's aversions to any deviancy is so strong. NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON, even the boys parents, who seriously questioned the beleivability of the lie detector test. everyone wanted blood. everyone hated him. because he challenged the taboos he rocked the unrockable boat.

now what happens when the situation is reversed. what if a lie detector test SUPPORTS the sexual deviant? so if the statements that NY PR and I make hold up to the scrutiny of lie detector tests, in spite of the accusatoins of lying, people who were happy to se the boys life ruined, will not accept our statements as being truthful, even when supported by the polygraphs... hypocrisy. i am predicting this could happen.

whoever that lie detector guy was, the american public and dr phil himself put ONE HELL of a lot of faith in that lie detector guy. really, they made a god out of him, the power to determine the future livability of that young boy's life.

i will have no sympathy for anyone disputing the veracity that man's lie detector reading in ascertaining my credibility or lack thereof after i am accused of being in a conspiracy, and i sure as hell dont want to hear the world complaining that the lie detector test is not reliable after people were willing to risk ruining a boys life based on that same exact lie detector test. fie on anyone who argues that the lie detector test or tester is a phony. i believe this is the kind of controversy that is coming in the next few months. never before seen levels of controversy.

it wouldnt surprise me to learn that dr phil bringing that guy on his show to be the lie detector god was somthing arranged by the black pope in order that I could make THIS exact point. and if i pass a lie detector test that i came up with this on my own, WHO will accuse the lie detector itself (or himself) of being a liar??? whoever makes that accusation, is quite likely to be facing eternal anguish for having chosen to be an enemy of goodness itself.

what enemies of the almighty love god are going to come out of the wordwork? it is going to be an interesting spectacle, finding out., the world has never seen controversy like it will be seeing soon.

time determines the age of your body, but YOU decide the age of your heart. and if you decided that in your heart you want to be a grown up, i am here to tell you that you need to learn to cultuivate the heart of a child.

prem rawat's been saying that the heart of a child is required to attain enlightenment for as long as he has been speaking to people about life and peace.

if you want to be in heaven, your Priority in each and every moment is to know, love remember and be with your creator. if you dont want that, heaven isnt for you. you have to totally fall in love with god and put all of yorur trust in him.l this is to have the heart of a child.

this world was not only created but is RULED OVER by men with the hearts of children. the baby gods (those little cupid angels) created and rule all univeses. the god who decided to be the child god is the god that rules over everything, over the creation of all universes. his name in this lifetime is prem rawat.

neil young, who says, "i am a child, i'll last a while, you cant conceive of the pleasure in my smile," and "share your loving and you'll live so long," is the creator of this world. and i am his son, and i am speaking to the world about what it means to be a god. it means you have the s heart of a child. pontifex maximus also has the heart of a child.

the child gods rule, because they are happy. happy men are called gods, and they have the hearts of children. every god is a charlie. the enemies of the child gods are the men who want to be gods. only children are allowed to be gods. satan , prince reuben, is just the guy who thought men with the hearts of adult men should be able to be gods.

and so they created a world and let satan have it his way. satan and the baby gods made a deal,,, let's create a world without the baby gods being in control and start wth a level playing field and see what happens. well the baby gods won the game. their empire, the roman empire, won the game of empire, the baby gods got all the power and wealth and now they are leaving with whomever wants to come along, and satan gets humiliated. it was a competition to see who could rule the world. it was satan's world, but the agreement was that the baby gods could play the game along with satan and everyone else.

so now we are at the end of the story. satan is defeated and this will become clear in the next few days or weeks. more like days at this point. its about to explode, as i believe that my declaration of independence was timed to come out right before the whole thing breaks open.

i have a strong gut feeling that Cain's days are just about over. satan had the bad idea, but cain is the antichrist, the one who went to the greatest lengths to oppose the truth that the baby gods rule as they should. as they must. the consequences of opposing the baby gods will soon be revealed. baby gods are very loving, but i have a feeling that their wrath against their enemies can be ferocious. look out world, i really think its coming soon. the whole world is being monkey-wrenched. hitler himself was working for the baby gods. maybe was a baby god himself. almost all of the gold bullion reserves are probably under the control of the baby gods when this thing breaks it is going to be complete economic devastation there will be no ecomony. this is satans world, and the baby gods are going to trash it on their way out. because they have the power and the right to/ because they have endured so much in order to prove the point that the baby gods are the only gods who create happy worlds.

we are moving on to the baby gods' world now. whose coming?

israel is the home for the baby gods and their lovers. israel will be established any moment now. any moment now. maybe tomorrow.

afternoon

the body of work credited to the mysterious person known as shakespeare was brought into this world by pontifex maximus. one purpose of shakespeare, as well as king james version of the bible, may have been to establish english as the premier language, what will eventually become the single language of teh human race.

i would assume that anyone who is reading this already knows some of the basics, like that i am saying that to love god is to BE HIS LOVER. There is an intimate relationship to be had there. It's pretty basic stuff. Love has its ways of being expressed. there is a part of the anatomy that we use to express love. loving the creator is hardly an exception. you will realize that the purpose of the human anatomy being the way it is is in order to be a lover of the god. we, as men, are designed with loving god in mind. its almost like first man was designed to be the lover of god, and woman was designed to be the lover of men. more or less the way it's told in genesis. god was much more interested in adam, eve was almost like an after thought/ you've got to admit that the design of the male human being works pretty darned well for masturbation. that opposable thumb really helps/ something that not even chimps have. the human being is designed for the express purposes of LOVE and of loving the Creator who invented men in particular to be his lovers. that's why roald dahl calls him willie wonka.

before there were men and women there was a holy spirit. the holy spirit is having a fantasy. it is a fantasy of love. one way to describe our creator is that he is the least repressed human being. and so his idea of a creation in which people are not sexually repressed. becuase "Sexual" energy is life energy and sexual repression is life repression. , and so our creator's idea is rich in love and eroticism. he is not into avoiding any particular way of expressing love. this creation of his is an erotic fantasy, as "eros" is really just what we call the life enrgy that we feel most strongly in our genitals. the design of what a man is works well with loving women too, but we men are created to be the lover of god first and foremost. it's just what works for human beings, that's all. procreation has to have a purpose other than just more unhappy people. it does. the purpose of procreation is to propogate happiness, which comes from this experience of loving god and one another without shame.. there is no point to having an existence if it's going to be turned into an experience of total misery by men who are hiding in shame.

we live in the having of a fantasy, a fantasy being had by someone other than our self. if we dont want to be a part of that fantasy we dont have to be, but unfortunately nothing else works for human beings, anything else turns into misery. so acceptance of our status as objects of a love fantasy, the fantasy of a lover who is happy to fulfill any and all wishes of his lovers, is really the only viable option for human beings. its not only the only thing that works, but it is incredibly fantastic to boot. once you have decided to become a human being, you have put yourself at the mercy of the love god, because the choice to be a human being is guaranteed to turn into misery unless you become his lover. i cant stop emphasizing that this is the ONLY viable choice for an eternally sentient human being. if you disagree then satan (prince reuben) is your god.

it's just how it is. if there was no love god, the destiny for every person who existed would be eternal misery. prince reuben gambled everything, he risked eternal damnation, by refuting the truth of this and rebelling against the love god and claiming he had a better idea, a patriarchy riddled with shame, phobias and taboos. and he is in the process of losing his gamble. and he knows it. and he is taking a lot of people down with him. he won't admit defeat and so save a lot of people from going down with him. he will just go right on pretending that he, like everyone else, doesnt know what is going on. but he does. i'm sure he will be brought before the world and exposed.

it really feels like it is getting close. with the declaration and the experiences i have had in the past few days, the situation feels extremely ripe at this moment. i cant imagine the father will make we wait much longer. but i am grateful that it has taken this long. because the awakening continues to deepen.

the human being is an extreme being. of all life forms is it unique in more important ways, by far, than any other. the creator himself is one of us. i mean, male human beings are a veil of shame away from being the creators of universes. that is not a small thing. that is the ultimate. and it is creative. very very very very creative. mortal human beings are gods on the way to be becoming gods. (or demons, depending on whether they choose to give up shame or not)

where does all of that creative energy come from to be able to create universes?

it's what we are made of. the only thing is, we have to remove the death shroud of shame before we can be that. and when we do, you see what a radical being a human being really is. not like anything else anyone has ever imagined. human beings without shame are EXTREMELY!!!!!! erotic beings. the human being is an extreme being. many people will feel that they cannot handle being what a human being really is. that is a terrible terrible hell. but its just how it works in this world of satans/ he invites people in.,.,,, and we go and rescue as many as we can. don't blame "the messenger!" its not god's fault that a lot of people are stuck with being something that they do not want to be. it's their own fault for believing satan's lies that you could have a happy existence as an ashamed man. oof!!!!! sorry people, but if you are not happy with the situation, you really are going to have to take your complaints to the bs artist prince reuben. he is the author of all misfortune. we are just here to save you from his lies. and if you dont want to be saved, that's fine. if you like what prince reuben is offering , as disgraced as he is, more than what we are offering, fine.

i know my god and my father are watching over me. i know this because i can feel them with me. they are my lovers. i can feel them and i know they are watching over me because i am allowing them to see me, touch me, feel me, know me. In every way. we masturbate together. this is how we know and love and feel one another, without even knowing where in the world the others are. and it is the key to the most mind blowing happiness that you can possibly imagine. this is about immortality.

nothing nothing nothing nothing makes the creator as happy as a father and a son masturbating together while both loving Him in themselves and in one another.

there is no one the creator loves more than a man with the heart of a child - a boy - who loves hm. willie wonka loves no one as much as charlie. there is no one whose willie he wants to wonk more than charlie's

he loves everyone, but the one who saves everyone else has a very special place in his heart. i knwo this even though i dont allow myself to appreciate it enough. because i am charlie.

gods are just boys without shame. that's all. its absolutely perfectly natural. its what a man IS without shame. enlightened immortal boys loving enlighened immortal boys .... it's what universes are made out of. having sons to be their lovers. and the lovers of their mother as well.

the heterosex that turns the creator on more than any other, is the son making love with his mother. brothers together, father daughter, brother sister, incest is the biggest turn on to someone without shame. thats WHY it is taboo. it's far to erotic for the ashamed human being to handle. absolutely overwhelming. it is incredibly overwhelming. it's infinite love. it's love unlimited by shame. by taboos./ it is scary but it is immortality when you let yourself have it.

is this blasphemy? or is this the absolute truth>? if you persist in disbelieving what i have to say, you will regret it.

freedom from shame

i have said a lot over the past two years. but here is probably the purest distillation and most practical thing i have said. when you reach the point where you would actually WANT a whole bunch of people to know everything there is to know about you, including your thoughts and motivations, and who could feel what you feel, could watch every move you make... and all while you are completely naked... people watching you make love, masturbate, eat, interact with others, hearing your thoughts,knowing what is in your heart...

...when you reach the point when this idea is what turns you on, when the idea of being known in every detail by an all-knowing living god, who is a human being just like you except he is not limiting himself by shame,,, when this thought is what pleases you, what turns you on, what floats your boat, when you no longer have ANY secrets from any one, when you have attained a state of liberation from shame, when you have taken off the fig leaf that adam and eve place over their genitals, you will have removed the shroud of death, YOU WILL HAVE ATTAINED IMMORTALITY. you will have arrived into a deathless state.

you will have become what a god is. and if you do not reach this point in the next seven years, you will become what a demon is, which is a person who realizes that the missed the boat by failing to give up shame by judgment day. i wonder when the first person will come to me and say, "jeff, will you show me how to get over my shame?" really, no one has sincerely asked me to show them ANYTHING at all since i began speaking of these matters. not one single person as of this moment. a very small handful of people have dabbled ever so delicately around the edges but no one has really come to me with a sincere desire to learn anything about getting over shame.

anyways, this is all there is to it. cannabis, psilocybin, amanita, water, love, the word, the meditation practices,, complete liberation from all darkness is the healing, and these are the medicines. shame is a plague and this is the cure. you have to be willing to be completely KNOWN. because if you do not want to be known, you are blocking out the source of your own life. adam and eve became mortal because they were ashamed. its right there in genesis chapter one. take off the fig leaf of shame and you have regained what adam and eve lost. (adam lost it, really. eve becomes mortal BECAUSE adam becomes mortal. in the genesis story her shame is different from adam's shame. it is a lesser shame. when adam is redeemed, eve becomes redeeemed automatically.)

but you need the will to live, the will to be happy, the will to overcome the plagues of shame, the lies of satan. that mf has everyone under his control; i am the only one breaking out of the dungeon of shame. i am the only one who defeats the father of all lies, satan. i am the only one who pulls off the shroud that he has everyone wearing

people, the thing is LIFE IS BETTER WITHOUT SHAME!!!!!! that's a slogan you will be seeing and hearing everywhere soon. it will be the biggest crusade in history. life is better without shame, SO GIVE IT UP!!!!!!!!

this crusade against shame is just going to blow people's minds/ imagine turning on the TV and every single network has been preempted and all you can watch are the images of some of the most famous and admired men in the world together masturbating in a state of extreme ecstasy. that will be the kind of thing that will be happening soon.

george bush, osama bin laden, john kerry, bill clinton, a bunch of famous rock stars like neil young, dylan, the black pope, the pope, and the christ and the holy spirit and a bunch of people like john lennon resurrected... all masturbating together... can you imagine that? i believe that when the campaign against shame begins it will be quite intense. either that, or the lovers are going to quietly leave this world and let everyone else be in peace.. but i cant imagine that a HUGE effort will not be made to SAVE HUMAN BEINGS from the eternity of anguish that will be the result of failing to give up shame.

shame is the trick that has been played on the human race, the lie that humanity carries like a shroud, given to it by the really nice-seeming guy named prince reuben, also known as satan. the ultimate bullshit artist. it's the spell of mortality, of the belief in the lie called death as a reality, that has been cast on the human race.

i believe i am the first person in the history of this world to attain this experience of completely getting over shame (or perhaps i'm still only 99% of the way there) without any coaching or techniques that are otherwise required. and now everyone has to get over it. but it will be MUCH MUCH easier for everyone else than it was for me. but even still many people will not be able to do it. and they will perish into an eternity of misery. you MUST give up shame in the nest seven years, or you are going to be very very sorry that you did not.

when you give up shame you feel so much more alive than you ever did before,,, it will blow your mind. "share your loving and you'll live so long..." you cant be ashamed of your loving. whether its sex or masturbation, that's where the curse of shame gets men. it all revolves around the sexual organs, and the use thereof. that's where men's shame is. "it's the fig leaf stupid!" maybe someday bill clinton will humor me by saying that in front of the world.

in heaven there are absolutely NO secrets. everyone is potentially in on every experience. this is the shameless intimacy of immortality. its what you will be if you are not in hell in seven years from now. thats just the way this wheel of existence turns. the good part of life does not begin until people give up their shame. then look out, its a REALLY good time.

marriage to the christ

in eight years from now you will either be married to the son of god and be his lover or you will be in in the place called Hell.

the answer to the question "what's up with that?" has a couple of parts.

if you are not married to the christ in eight years it will be because you chose not to be married to him. and you will be in hell because you will have passed up the one and only opportunity for an existence that does not turn into hell. because any other existence besides the will of the holy spirit fails and turns into hell. because people will not be fulfilled and in a world of unfulfilled men, things turn ugly. hell is self inflicted. it is a choice. few actually want hell, but the choice to reject the only alternative to hell has the same outcome as if you choce hell.

so why is being married to the son of god the only choice of a marriage partner? because he is the only one worthy of being married to?> why? because he is the only one who figured out what it means to exist. he is the only one who found the way to avoid the inevitablility of hell. as far as women are concerned, attachment to any other man would have led to hell, so wont every woman be more attracted to the christ than to all of the other men who needed to be saved from their own ignorance? naturally. also, all men will have become far better lovers as a result of being liberated from shame thanks to the christ and so the women will all be grateful to him for that. they will be recieving the love of the christ through whatever other male lover they have.

that men will need to muster a bit of humility to accept that there is someone who DID attain the perfection that they failed to attain. someone who did find their way out of the ignorance that they didnt find their way out of.

and of course men are so grateful to have not only been saved but to have recieved the way to the ecstasy of loving the love god, and the father and the son become the object of their most ecstatic love experiences so that, once again, he really IS the lover of all men.

the christ is the savior, and what he saves people from is shame. and what shame is is something that limits our capacities to love. and so the christ enables people ot love, and love is a wonderful thing, and so everyone wants to give him some of hte love that he has made possible for them. anyone who resents the christ for being the object of everyone's love is just exercising their preference of hell to heaven. its not about feeding the ego of the christ, it is just the natural outcome of the gratitude that people feel for the difference between what their lives are, eternal happiness in a realm of perfect fulfillment, and the only other alternative - eternal suffering and torment. worthy of a triffle of gratitude in my opinion. so anyone who is feeling any resentment toward me as a result of hearing me say this really just doesnt understand the magnitude of their own existence. existing forever is a high stakes proposition, considering there is only one out of the infinite possibilities of what you could become that actually works. and that someone found that answer and shared it with others, there is no possible way of people ever fully expressing the appropriate gratitude for that. its not like you can give him box of chocolates and some flowers say thanks! and wash your hands, take your woman with you and forget about him. no. that just wouldnt be right. he's worthy of better than that.

it's just the way it is becuase of shame and the fact that the script calls for just one person willing to make the incredible sacrifices and endure the great ordeals of being the one to overcome shame. because he is the only one to volunteer for that part. its just the way it is.

anyone who is not so grateful for that blessing as to want to give their everything to their savior hasn't really accepted the gift. gratitude is a natural outcome of having accepted the gift of salvation from an eternity of anguish and torment.

and so he is so much more worthy of your love than anyone else. because he saved you from hell. because he showed you how to be a human being. he showed you what you were. he taught you how to know and love the god whose love you are made of. everyone WANTS to be his lover, and so it is only fair that everyone, rather than only one person, can be his lover.

on meditation

amazingly enough, very few people have ever spent anytime just sitting still and feeeling the feeling of existence. very few. just feeling what you are is the most rewarding experience possible, and yet no one has even tried it. because people are so attached to the shame-disturbed mind that they can't just FEEL what is. existence has a feeling in and of itself, independent of any five sense experience. i am not talking about the feeling that comes from nerve endings in the skin, i am talking about a feeling within inside of your being. its the stuff you are made of, the stuff of your creator's erotic fantasy.

so there's this ancient meditation technique that i have been talking aobut for the past year or so. it's really a well known technique, everyone has seen pictures of certain saints praciticing it, especially jesus. it is the palms together in from of the chest technique that some people associate more with the word "prayer" than meditation, people think of it as the correct hand position for begging, which it probably is. its both, because true prayer and true meditation are the same thing. "be still and know that i am god" whether you call it prayer or meditation its being still and knowing that god is god.

OK so there's this meditation. you just put your hands in that position and FEEL the feeling in your hands. soon you will notice a tingling sensation. focus on the tingling. soon you will feel the feeling throughout your arms, and you can start to feel it your whole body. OK thats the feeling of existence itself. now the feeling is deep within the body, like its inside the bones or inside the nerves themselves, i dont know, its metaphysical, but theres a sense that the sensaton is deep inside the core of your body.

but whatever that is inside your body, sort of comes to the surface and projects itself outside of the body in the form of the sexual organ. what is INSIDE the body comes to the outside. so if meditating on the sensation in the hands is considered a viable meditation practice, then why wouldn't meditation on the sexual organ be more so. yes, of course. it makes logicial sense and it is true, for a man, there is nothing nearly so powerful as meditation on the sensatons of pleasure in the phallus. its the vajrayana, the way of the phallus. the lightning technique of enlightenment.

if you stare at somethng and then stare more intensely and more intensely, then preety soon you are feeling yourself being drawn into the here and now. this is another very powerful meditation practice. and the best thing to stare at in my opinion is anything with verticle stripes or lines. like a bar code. but anything with parallel verticle lines is good. just pick a point anywhere within the area of the verticle lines and look more and more intensely at it. trying not to let your eyes dart. especially if you do this while under the influence of cannabis you will start to feel your whole body being drawn into the experience of the here and now. you will start to see patterns of light, if you look at the patterns of light you will feel burning sensations in your eyes, and this will cause you to blink or to shift your eyes away from the patterns of light. but if you try to let yourself FEEL the burning sensation inyour eyes without averting it, , it will allow you to be drawn more fully into the experience of here and now.

we need to learn how not to avert all of the sensations of the here and now that we are afraid of. this is our aversion to god. our aversion to reality. aversion to anything at all is aversion to love, because everything is made of love. the only thing that it is appropriate to have an aversion to is men who have an aversion to reality. men who have an aversion to god. that's what god himself has an aversion to. men who exist by gods grace but refuse to acknowledge and appreciate it are not things of beauty. this idea of satan's (Prince reuben) that men can have a decent existence without loving god is the one ugly thing and the author of all ugliness all ugliness comes from the rebellion against the love god. .

another practice is to listen to the sounds you hear. just listen to whatever is in your environment. if you here a sound that is steady, like water running, just ride the sound. listen deeply, see if you can FEEL where the sound is coming from. listen to the ringing in your own ears, try to see if you can get to the source of it.

just sitting still and feeling the feeling in your body, you can start to feel aroused and ecstatic. whether or not it is the name of god, i believe that to speak the f word is an extremely powerful meditation practice. i believe that this is the "holy name" that prem rawat has alluded to but never revealed. we shall see, but it is a powerful meditation, just say the word repeatedly, once with each exhalation, and really bring your attention into the saying of it. nothing else like it in my opinion. think of that as if it were the name of he god whose presence you feel within you. i am not saying that this is the name of the god, i do not know, but its a good word to use as practice, since if you can say this word lovingly to your creator, then no matter what his name turns out to be when it is revealed, then you will be able to say it with love.

so those are some mediation practices. and of course, for men anyway, focusing on the sensation of erotic arousal itself by masturbating is hands down the most powerful meditation practice of all. masturbation is something that is surrounded by shame and taboos because it is such a powerful meditation practice. if you think masturbation as a meditation technique is something I should be ashamed to admit that i do, then you just do not realize how badly i want to help you recover from your disease of shame. what is there to be ashamed of? what about loving god should i be ashamed of? it could conveivably happen someday soon that all television networks will have their programming preempted to bring images of the father and the son loving the holy spirit together in the most amazing and overwhelming (for most people) images of people experiencing erotic arousal that anyone has ever seen or imagined.

if you don't like teh sound of this, what did you think love was? what did you think that feeling you had when you were erotically aroused was? that's your life! that's what you are made of. that's the presence of hte holy spirit within you. that's the love of god.

any meditation technique is much more effective under the influence of cannabis in my opinion. if you use cannabis or psilocybin, it really helps to drink a lot of water when you feel discomfort in your body. you can start to feel the sensations of thirst and so you can quench the profound thirst for water that IS unconsciousness itself. absence of water IS absence of consciousness.

and then there's amanita, which i wont really recommend aas a meditation aid until people have the one on one coaching and support that they need.

i think there will be plenty of time soon to undertake the metamophosis that these techniques will be used for, and its probably better for people to wait the few days or weeks until the big bang.

the garland of love

really just venturing a guess here. i don't claim to know. but i have a feeling that the holy spirit, who i am saying is the god of the gods, the inventor of reality, the perfect master of the perfect masters, the love god himself, prem rawat, has a thing that he does, which is to invent these worlds and these sagas, and that it just goes on and on. and its an everygrowning garland of love. that as far as this world is concerned there is the holy spirit, the father and the son, and then the holy spirit moves on and starts all over again, a new father, a new son, and on and on it goes. i dunno, but the heaven of this father and son may be just one of many. i dunno. it's pretty amazing to contemplate. the holy spirit is the master of everything. he is the one with the plan that rewards the good with the eternal happiness that it is his to bestow, and those who reject goodness and cling to its absence suffer eternal misery. and so there is just this infinity of both happiness and misery that just keep on growing.

i have this theory, and ai may be wrong, that there will always be an equal amount of happiness and misery. and that they will continually grow. but in the case of reality it is fair. the happiness is experienced byt the people willing to do waht it takes to be happy. and the misery is for the people who would attempt to thwart the happy from being happy. its fair, its good its purely just and right. any other plan, it would seem, would allow the collapse into evil to be the driving force of existence , rather than the attainment of the good. we cannot help it if the vacuum that nature abhors requires both happiness and misery in order to be satisfied. if that is the way it is, then the holy spirit has turned that into the best possible reality.

the only people who suffer, in the end, are the people who reject the only alternative to suffering. those people were going to exist in some world somewhere, because obviously they had the will to exist. so much better if their inevitable collapse into misery at least is of benefit to the people who are good and deserve happiness.

the furnace that keeps everyone warm in heaven is fueled by the suffering of the people who rejected heaven. i dunno, maybe i am totally wrong about this. it is really just based on what seems like the logical truth, that existence springs out of nothing because nature abhors a vacuum, and that the sum of what exists must be self cancelling, in otherwords, there must be an equal amount of suffering and misery that together add up to nothing. a positive and a negative of the same magnitude equal zero . i've talked about this before.

so on he goes, stringing together his infinite garland of love. because it is good and because somehow existence is and wants to be. if a little bit of existence is good, then there cant be anything wrong with a little bit more... and since in the face of infinity, everything is relative, then there is no reason to stop. it's the one thing that works. its the one existence that succeeds.

i hope i can remain a part of it forever and ever and ever. i do not know what will become of my eternal existence, if i am not with the love god. i should be praying for his mercy every second. i hope he will be satisfied with the degree of my gratitude. i am sure i fall short, given what i know.