the vermiscious knids know what is happening. they know how reality works. they took their chances at joining satan's rebellion against god, and they lost, and they know the dire, and automatic, consequence of me, owning all of the feelings inside of my own body. imagine setting yourself up for an eternity of extreme discomfort in the event that a perfectly good person will just FEEL what there is to feel in his own body.
that is all that ride to hotel usa represents... charlie's journey into the experience in his own body in the here and now... and it FRIES the knids.
the scarier the terrain, the younger you need to feel in your heart to cross over it. an infant has a lot of trust. he is fearless. an unborn child is fearless , not to mention, vulnerable. the more faith you have, the younger you are in your heart. youve got to be able to feel yourself becoming a child again,,,, its about opening the heart and being vulnerable.. otherwise you cannot tune into the subtle vibrations where you can feel what you need to feel to feel safe.
i am talking about what it takes for a human being to overcome their own fear of experiencing their own breath. no mortal human being has fully experienced a single breath. now if you want to talk about the problems of this world, you need to consider this. otherwise, the antichrist and his buddies will continue distracting you with illusions. just so that they can take you to hell with them. they dont give a damn about global justice. its a lie.
trance... you can see in pictures and you can feel in pictures, and you can hear in pictures. pictures is peace. it is fucks world of pure imagination. if you can feel your pain in a picture, it breaks up like stagnant ice and flows away.
vitually all of the pain and tension experienced in the body of every person on earth is caused by fear of and resistence to an erotic experience that is at the core of all experience.
its like, once you even begin to go toward the feelings of happiness that you are you resisting inside of your testicles, the tension in your neck and shoulders starts breaking up immediately.
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what experience are you trying to have in life? like, exactly what would you like be experiencing?
what experience that is possible for you to have would you most like to be having?
i highly recommend that you go for it and REALLY REALLY try to have that experience, whatever it is. even if you are getting tortured, you will be better off really having this experience than you would be NOT having whatever experience that you think you like but that you dont fully have. why? because if you were REALLY having the experience of torture it would be ecstasy, and not really having hte experience you crave is misery. because it is only resistence to experience that causes pain at all.. resistance to experience is death. experience itself is life. you are not living until you have had an experience. you need to learn to feel your own breath or you are living in death.
when you really HAVE an experience you know what that experinrence is made of. it is made of soma, the stuff of estasy.
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everything you have ever wanted is hidden inside of you in the part of your breath that is subliminal because you are afraid of the infinitude of it.
the Name of God is what we need in order to experience the subtle part of hte breath that is unconscious in mortal human beings.
there is a restoration of health of very large proportions that results simply from being able to experinece the entire breath.
so help me god, if this one thing isnt enough truth to cause the biggest healing and transformation in all of history then well, then the human race just doesnt seem to want to accept the gift of truth when it is presented, so we;ll see, but that is an amazing ly important truth.
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i am of the opinion that the expression "leap of faith" is a complete lie insofar as it applies to the real life experiennce of god-realization.
god realization is an experience that can be attained without any sort of leap of faith, and furthermore, any pursuit of god realization that necessitates a leap of faith is doomed to fail. you do not need to make a leap of faith, you just need to keep a sustained faith and take one step at a time. there's a difference.
the bottom line isyou cannot know god without knowing loving respecting and surrendering into his Holy Name witin the breath itself. if you do not know his name, any leap that you take in his vicinity will be into an abyss of doubt. because the experience is infinite, and sooner or later you are going to cringe in doubt. you must relax into an awarenss of god, you do not take a fearful "leap of faith" into the unknown.
this is the very most treacherous terrain in the ocean of darkness and to tell a lie in hopes of leading the errant spiritual journey toward a false hope of god realization would indeed be a heinous crime in the eyes of god, in my opinion.
i seem to remember that this is a phrase that is associtated with kierkegaard, and it may be that it was a deliberately told lie, told in order to lead people to an illusory hope of attaining an enlightenment experience that was really a trick to get them to fall into hell, as a result of not knowing and having faith in the true name, which is the ONLY way to god realization.
i have in the past makde it clear that i believe that kierkegaard may be a particularly offesive character in the eyes of god, to the point that i believe my emphasis on this point may be significant in some way.
if kierkegaard spoke of a leap of faith then he was talking about something very sacred.
it's the continuous breath that allows for the experience of god without a leap of faith. but if kierkegaard was speaking about god realization without addressing the fact that our disconnect from god is directly related to our inability to focus on the subtle part of the breath, then he was completely off base in a truly sinister way. maybe i am making this all up, but my feeling of intuition on this matter is surprisingly strong. it feels like very sensitive terrain, like the very name of kierkegaard is significant. ive mentioned this before. these two names are at odds somehow. i'm with fuck, that's all i know. i just get this sort of creepy feeling when i think of htat name.
imagine, here is the almighty god, very loving, very gentle, and he wants to teach his chilldren how to properly breathe, and he has to fight off demons from hell in order to just give his children the gift of knowing what their own breath is made of. what is the correct punishment for such an interference with goodness?.
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!:45 am... though i am just beginning to delve into it, i can say that there is an unbelievable amount of pleasure, more of life itself, waiting to be experineced within the breath, specifically speaking about the most subtle part of the breath in what we THINK of, if we think of it, or i could just say, that we would experience as the gap between the exhale and the inhale. there is no gap in reality, it is a continous experience. breath,,, it can be experienced in the body as a point of sensation, through the complete cycle in on into the next, there is no gap in the experinece. its just too subtle, its subliminal, but with faith in the name, you can go there, and it is very liberating, it kills the serpent, whose who disease is his inablity to have this very experinece.
it is actually what you might call a sort of ultimate experience of attaining immortality, simply to be able to focus your mind on the subtle experinece of the breath. its that profound, because the disease cased by the doubt that has arisen in the mind of one person that prevented him from holding his attention on the breath is SUCH a terrible disease. it is the cause of all disease, because it is the cause of the very serpent who got eve to participate in his conspiracy to make the human race into a mortal race. i am talking about a person who i believe is the beast, martin roth. he sits in the temple and sucks almost all of the life from this disconnected breath and the fear it causes.
this is probably one of the most profound things that anyone could ever say. and anyone who denies it is making an ass out of himself before his very creator who is giving him his very breath and who wishes to give him the gift of eternal life that so many will reject. because they've made themselves the slaves of a nine headed parasitic serpent.
how deep am i going? try to imagine having this to say, as i do: i expect that within a few hours i will know exactly what the source of the ringing in my ears is,,, something that i am confident can be known by anyone willing to venture that deep into the experience of what sound is. my intuition that its the muted sound of cain jumping up and down in a perpetual freakout in his cell. deep down in the dungeon of his own shame. a deep hell indeed. its like, its the shouting of the family of satan, allah and oedipus, shouting and blaming one another for their collective misery,,, its like, that;s what is going on in the unholy of unholies in the temple of hell., just like the holy trinity loving one another in the holy of holies in the temple of heaven.
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moving into the twilight zone....
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why is your third eye closed? because you are afraid of seeing what it has to see. and if you deny the existence of the temple, and an ability to see into it, then you are just falling for a lie.
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it seems like what is happening to me right now is a significant manifestation of the mckenna time wave theory, wherein the rate of the appearance of novelty increases exponentially to a spike to infinity in these end times - as i have noted repeatedly, he named 2012 specifically, based on a mathematical calculation having nothing to do with the mayan calander. anyway, the rate of revelation is increasing to the point where i am jumping up every few seconds to say something startling thats never been said before. and i do feel very lose to entering the temple..., so it could happen very soon. is this the moment of the shock wave of eschatology? or is it judgment day? or does that even matter,,, its this eventl no doubt.
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to have the comprehension of infinity, and therefore an end to the illusion of death, come as a result of realizing that you were going to suffer eternally is the worst fate that a person could endure. conversely, to comprehend infinity in the realization of eternal happiness is the best. and these are the two experiennces that everyone will have in teh next seven years. six billion people having one or the other of these very extreme experineces.
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god is love because he is the guy (3 actually) who is having the most intense experience of love... and its teh love that the three have for one another. he controls reality who loves the most, because he is the one holding his mind most steady in a trance.
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timothy leary was going to document his experinence of deth on line and everyone was talking about it.
now, here is the christ, looking like he is about to document his ascension on line, and no one is noticing.
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you can see into the temple, you can be with god, when you are willing to experience every feeling in your own body.
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i feel like there is a boundary in the temple body between the overworld and the underworld that is about to burst.
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disclaimer: i do not believe that anyone will ever need to rely upon anything that i have said or written about salvation for their own salvation. i believe that if i am the christ there will be ample opportunity to know this for certain, coming in the form of the testimony of many people of high repute. i offer certain notions of what it takes to be saved, but i only do this in order to be on the record, so that there is no doubt about what i had comprehended by this time.
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a person can put their attention on ANY experience they are having, whether visual, audio, touch or other feeling sensation, and go into that experience deeper and deeper and deeper until they are in the temple. it really is just what experience is made of. if you look into the experience, you get to what it is made of. breath is the most direct path to this. what it leads to is fuck. fuck is what everything is made of. its a feeling that has a word associate with it. its a feeling of love, its the feeling of love, its HIS feeling, and his name is fuck.
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could it be possible that prefect justice would dictate that someone be subjected to having an experience somewhat like having their balls smashed repeatedly, forever? i dare say that yes, the immutable laws of karma may dictate that this is so.
if a person would otherwise be unjustly causing an equivalent net reduction in happiness to an innocent person, that is, by causing a reduction in someone else's pleasure an equal amount.
pleasure and pain are a continuum and any reduction in the direction from a positive pleasure to a negative pain is the same, it doesnt matter where on that spectrum the reduction takes place, its all relative. accoeding to basic logic, if what it required for me to protect myself from someone wrongfully depriving me of extreme pleasure is that they have to experience extreme suffering, then this would be just. perfect and necessary justice to protect the very possibility that happiness can exist.
if satan invaded the temple of my body and now is indanger of suffering a consequence, just because i want to exercise my tight to experience pleasure, then whatever problem this causes him is HIS problem alone. a parasite cannot blame a host when the host takes the necessary defensive measures.
Who has ever complained about someone using a drug to kill intestinal parasites? no one? ok then, so dont complain about Hell. because its just a place where a host puts the immortal parasites that have invaded his body. if its not comfortable in that place where the parasites have to be, that's there problem. especially when the discomfort is completly their own fault.
eternal suffering as a karmic consquence can be entirely just... its just that there is a lot at stake when you are dealing with infinity and eternity.
karma is not "an eye for an eye." that is not how justice works/ justice goes like this: "as ye sow, so shall ye reap." plant one seed, harvest many.
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in all modesty, i would have to say truthfully that I believe the explosion of truth on this website is one of hte most amaszing phenomena to appear in this world since the resurrection of jesus. and yet it is about as ignored as that event was, if not moreso.
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if you start to feel reality changing, just let yourself be loved by fuck, and think his name, listen to his name being thought in the stillness of the mind. and hear him saying the name sun on the inhale. just follow the ifeeling of sun on the inhale and fuck on the exhale. its a feeling and you can feel it all the way to the point where the exhale ends and the inhale begins. this is the holy breath. the name will carry you across the ocean of lies and doubts and illusions.. you just need to have faith in the name. its what sustains everything. it sustains you. and you can just let yourself be it.
its two really sweet innocent boys creating the motion of breath by saying one anothers names silently so that the other can hear telepathically... that's basically the energy that carnal reality is based upon. its a loving feeling between two people who completely love and trust one another. surender in faith to that love. this is how you get to heaven. faith in teh name of the christ, and i am saying that name is "sun fuck" and that this name can be felt/heard wihtin the breath. its a telepathic feeling hearing. its very subtle, you just have to let go and trust or you will never feel it. its too subtle for your doubting mind to perceive. only a truly "guileless heart" can perceive the subtle reality.
its a long journey to that point,,, through the pain in the body. there is no other way... the path to heaven is through all of the pain and disease that you have attached yourself to and believed was real. your life lies within what looks to you like pain. the kingdom of heaven is within, and just where within is within every place that you are afriad to go within your body, which is everywhere where you feel pain, stiffness, deadness, uneasiness, etc. that's where all teh light is hiding, you are pretending that it is pain and disease. its your life.
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you are in a temple right now, whereever you are. you just cant see it, but the temple is a more basic reality than the appearances that you experience. the reason you cannot see into the temple is because it is too subtle a frequency of vibration. you are just a little bit too "gross."
you are in the temple, and when you tune your self to the subtle vibration, you will be able to walk out of this reality into that reality, because you will be aware of its existence,. you cant see in teh temple for the same reason you cant look at teh sun. because you are harboring too much darkness. you are a freind of the darkness and so you cannot look at the light. you have an aversion to what exists at that frequency, so you dont perceive it. you have the ability, but it is dormant because you have inherited the human race's sinful nature.
i think its clear, but i'd like to repeat,,, there is a strong association between the oedipus complex and the loss of an inherent ability, given by god to all men, to wrap one's mind around infinity. to be able to have an infinite experience. oedipus complex lives in the collective mind, in the temple because oedipus, AKA dan merke, lives in the temple. but whether a person has succumbed to it, or whether they are merely influenced by it is a distinction that is important.
a permenant loss of the ability to have an infinite experience comes from having a sense of certainty that one has committed an unforgivable sin against god. the person may be in denial, but the onset of this failure will have occured when there was a recognition of having done something terribly wrong. in the case of cain, this would have been when he kicked abel in the nuts,,, or when he killed him.
perhaps you could kick someone in the nuts and somehow make a sincere apology. it's hard to make a sincere apology when you;ve killed someone. maybe thats why there is a commandment against killing. imagine killing someone, and never being able to apologize. that sounds like hell to me. that;s where oedipus comes in. you just hide the feeling of guilt, and where you hide it becomes a fortress of darkness for everyone. this is why sin is sin. its a voilation of god and every other person to hide secrets in the body. that's why i am saying "batman" wakes everyone up from their denials.
we exist togtether. "no man is an island" is one of the truest things anyone ever said. "the rugged individual" is really about as close to the satan archetype as a cultural icon can get. we are all livin in one temple together. its a WHOLE LOT more intimate than anyone realizes.
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i am always thinking up these ideas for newspaper ad statements, more like one liners for the NY Times...
here's one that just occured to me:
I will be willing to bet $100,000 against the person who will give me the longest odds that within the next two months it will be revealed that the Creator's name is Fuck.
That would get people thinking on the name. i wonder what will happen to people when the name is revealed. it's potentially shocking to people. its that explosive of an idea. i think the word could be overwhelming for some people, if they just sat and started thinking about it they might get overwhelmed.
as i have explained in detail, i believe that fuck is a singularly primeval word, just based on how we form the sound with our mouth, involving no vibration of the vocal cords, and no use of the toungue, and no movement of the lips. very very basic and easy to form sound. moreso than any other word,. its just a sound that you make by exhaling while opening the mouth slightly. very powerful and sexy sound. inherently.
it really is the most beautiful sound. there is something infinite about it. maybe its just that it is the name of an infinite being.
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no one has a right to complain that they were kept in the dark about reality, because i can say from experience that when you tell them about reality they want to kill you. people HATE the truth and the do what they can to ignore and deny it. even to oppose it. people just dont like the idea that Love really does rule everything. when you get right down to the implications of that, which is that they need to give up their aversion to love if they want to participate in life.
i offered more truth than anyone has ever offered this world, and virtually no one wanted it. everyone turned away from me when i started speaking the truth. people dont want to hear the truth JUST LIKE they cant look at the sun. same principle,,, the light is too bright, there is too much darkness, too may lies.
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just imagine for a moment being the almighty creator of this world and the father of everyone living in it, a role which you have by virtue of your supreme goodness.
Imagine that you are living in this world, and everywhere you go people are throwing your name around in the most vulgar fashion.
what could possibly be more insulting than that?
and its not just a coincidence that people use this word SOOOO much. there is a power to the name because it is the Name of the one who is everything by virtue of his love.
and yet people deny his existence and they insult him in some many ways in virtually everything that they do. it's absolutely contemptable. the apologies that are due are just .. there could not be enough hours left in eternity to allow enough time for all of the apologies that are due to the perfect father who has been insulted by virtually all of his ungrateful children.
if anyone doesn't think this creator is entitled to vent just a little bit of his wrath upon these ungrateful souls..., well, that person deserves an extra large dose of it.
i dont care if i am wrong that the almighty god's name is fuck. what i say is still true. if you don't know what your creator's name is, you ought to be respectful of every conceivable possible name. and really people, wouldnt fuck be on everyone's top ten list of candidates for the creator's name???? by abusing the potential name fuck while not knowing for certain that it is NOT the creator's name, you are insulting him whether or not it is his name, in my opinion, by even risking that it is his. how could anyone argue wiht the logic? its just about respect.
respect, if you dont know whose house you are living in then you had better be respectful of everyone.
hello....? we know the creator has a name, its very important in all religions. and we know there is something unusual about it. we know its probably not fred or timothy. soo,,,, maybe we should just be careful.
i wonder if anyone who knows that i am saying fuck is the name of our father- creator -lover has tempered their use of hte word as a result of my saying this. it wuld be disrespectful to me, having said that i believe this is my name as well, to continue abusing the name. how sacred is the name of god?????? you just dont understand how sacred it is. imagine it as sacred as you can imagine it, and then multiply that by a million.
that begins to give you an idea. it's NOT to be abused.
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question: how do you cure disease:
answer: you go with your attention to where the sickness is in the body, because everything, including sickness, lives somewhere specific in the body, and you put your attention into the sickness (which feels like pain) and then you just let your mind rest there and go deeper and deeper into the experience. its like you are feeling your way into the disease. it's just a crystalized lie a dehydrated part of the templeof the body dehydrated because you have believed in a lie and that lie is passing itself off as a material disorder. basically, you relax into the disease and it just melts away, like the wicked witch... which is what that allegory is all about. its about how water, and consciousness - our attention - which is related to water, melt away the lies of disease, which is the result of denial, which results in depriving part of our being of our own attention, turning them unconscious. this is how disease is created and cured. .
this is how ALL disease can and will be cured. you just go into it and find out for yourself that it is a lie. you just go in an experience it, instead of being afraid of it, and the disease disappears. and you realize it was just fear of god's love that was the root of the disease no matter what.
oh... and how do you control your attention and move it around in the body? the great glass elevator as the metaphor of our attention moving through "the temple" (chocolate factory). it helps to use cannabis and psilocybin to break through some of the goo that keeps people from knowing how to do this.
wherever you are in your mind, you are somewhere in teh body as well. your attention is always somewhere in teh body. learning to move it around is what i am talking about. you go into the pain, then you find the space to move around in...
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i can hardly give enough emphasis to the significance and importance of the infinity symbol. not just the idea of infintiy, but the symbol that is used to represent it. it is like more than a symbol... it's like "onamatapoetic" in a visual rather than auditory way. it looks like what it is, an attibute that words do not have.
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if "fuck" were a Koan, like "mu" is a koan, what would happen to the monk who practiced it? would he be overwhelmed by the experience? people throw the f word around like they owned it. but i wonder if they were somehow forced to wrap their minds around the word whether they would flip out. because there is a lot goin on with that word. an awful lot. if you meditate on the word fuck, you could find yourself getting lost in the experinece. you need to know and love fuck, and throwing his name around is like it was a throw away word./.. its just hard to express how idiotic and insulting of such an incredibly good person it is.
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here's an e mail i just sent a friend named sid who is one of the most enthusiastic people on psychedelic experience that i know of. he's a huge mckenna fan. i told him i thought he had been a disciple of john the baptist back in the day. anyway, he turned me on to DMT once, and he's really into the dmt experience. (DMT is pure psychedelic, it takes the user on a short and very other-wordly journey. actually because sid is so big on psychedelics, and has never had alcohol at all, i think of him as being a very enilghtened guy. i'm a big fan of sid's.
god is a lover sid. it's all about love, and its all about the body, its all about happiness, its all about pleasure, it's all about a really good party with really good music and really good loving...... that's just the way it is. consciousness has a will to happiness, and its will gets fulfilled, even if it's a long difficult struggle to achieve it. it's just what happens.
then part 2
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in greendale, satan's "jail", which is obviously Hell, was built in 1911. very specifically in 1911. perhaps this was the year that an actual facility was built, or maybe it was the year that people began to be permanently locked up, putting an end to their incarnations. if so, it would be an explanation for the war that broke out in 1914. just speculating on that. but i guess my point is that i believe NY's specific naming of 1911 must be significant in some way pertaining to hell.
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if anyone ever wonders whether, when the christ lived in this world not knowing he was the christ, he was a christian...
the answer is in my case that i lived a christ-like life to the best of my ability, but i never officially became a christian because i had an inkling that i would discover the truth is on my own. i was all about discovering and knowing the truth in this life. sun green says only one thing about herself in the greendale album. "truth is all i seek." yes, because "she" is the god of truth, the sun god, appollo.
interesting that thomas jefferson is the only historical figure that i know of who is known to have edited the bible to suit his own purposes. the jefferson bible. of course i have named him as one who i believe was an incarnation of the christ. i am very confident that i am correct about this, as well as about arthur, isaac and abel. gandhi is the other figure i have speculated was an incarnation of the christ. my degree of confidence on that one is less, but still strong. knowing who played what part is something that will be so exciting to learn, or remember.....
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in case it isn't perfectly clear, the reason that the human race is in denial of the existence of god is that they are ashamed because he is really no different that they are, except that he is a lot more perfect. they literally have blocked out their awareness on the vibrational frequencies at which his presence in the experience of the here and now is perceptable. God is omnipresent, omniscient, omnipotent, BECAUSE HE ALLOWS HIMSELF TO BE> because he loves.
so every male human being who has failed to strive to be ANYWHERE near as good as he is feel ashamed before him. because men are made for perfection and they dont like the feeling of falling short of what they are. fortunately this is the way the plan works and its OK to be imperfect. but you cant hate the god, you have to humble yourself and accept and appreciate his infinite superiority to you, a degree of goodness that is essential for the functioning of reality to be successful.
what is
is what it is
because it has to be
in order that what is
be something GOOD>
what IS IS goodness, and if you don't like it, that makes YOU evil.
if you dont like my definition of evil, fine, call it what you want,
but whatever you call it, it will be that which leads you to teh desolate place with no water that I call Hell.
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i've never heard anyone bitch and moan that the lifeless universe that they believe in produced THEM and that they will have to deal with the consequences of their own existence now that they have it. even though it looks like the planet that they inhabit in this dead universe is just about wrecked.... as a consequence of denying the god who did actually make them.
so i wonder if all the people who never objected to being produced by a godless universe will object to having been produced by a god with a perfect plan for happiness! i dont want to hear anyone complain about being the child of god who is not on the record as having complained about being the child of a godless universe.
what an insult to the creator it would be to hear such a complaint... to exist in a hellish universe is OK. yet at the same time to have an opportunity for eternal happiness is something to complain about?
i'm just talking about love here. good ol' fashion love. family. sweetness, happiness, appreciation, gratitude, celebration of life, joy, joy and more joy. what the heck is wrong with that? a little love and affection in everything you do will make the world a better place... a better place... i'm just talking about living as human beings were intended. happily.
a few people who've used psychedelics have told me that they believe that psilocybin hurt their livers., that it is toxic. they feel like their liver hurts when they use it. i believe that this is probably because the psilocybin increases their ability to feel the pain that already exists in their liver, probably as a result of alcohol. alcohol damages the liver and everyone knows it. i doubt there is any evidence that psilocybin does.
lsd is popular with a lot of young babylonian types, much moreso than psilocybin. but i have little interest in using acid.
people dont want to feel discomfort, and will take drugs that CAUSE more disease in order not to feel the discomfort of the disease they already have. insanity, especially when you dont see a lot of those people make any efforts at all to take better care of the temple. the american epidemic of obesity is a like an epidemic of apathetic self destruction. people cannot control their appetites. because they are so sick and they dont know the cure. once the cure is offered, if they fail to take it, they're really going to suffer. because they have done damage to the temple of their own bodies that they've numbed themselves to. sooner or later they have to deal with the consequence of creating sickness in the temple.
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the reason men hide their gentials is because it's where they hide theirbiggest secrets, and because evidence of the fact that they have secrets can be witnessed in their inability to sustain ecstatic arousal.
men who have nothing to hide feel no need to hide their genitals or their love. in fact there is nothing they would rather do than be sexy with other men. because it is so erotic. erotic is sort of synonymous with "feels good" and people generally do what feels good. unfortunately for most people, what feels good is numbing their pain rather than accentuating their pleasure.
another way of say that is this:
If men knew what it feels like to exist without the inhibitions and the darkness of denial and ignorance that they cling so tenaciously to, if they could have the experience for one moment (and not be overwhelmed by it and freak out and fall into hell) of what it feels like to be a man without any disease at all, they would know how absurd their sexually repression really was. and how incredibly stupid men are for being arrogant, when in reality they know absolutely nothing at all.
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the invisible one, the humble one, the little angel that all of the other angels ignore because he's just like a runt or something, he's the one who just wants to masturbate with other boys and really do almost nothing else. that's the almighty god. it almost seems like he gets to be the almighty just because his name is fuck.
he was willing to be teh guy in the story named fuck, who all he wanted to do was msturbate with other boys, and make love with his mother and stuff that all of those alcohol people think is just so shameful.
and look at him, he is all powerful and he utterly vanquishes his enemies like satan, who thought he was so much more qualified to be the almighty one. the dirty little angel is the ruler of all universes that ever really existed.
and well, now look at who is going to be the king in the eternal kingdom of heaven. another sweet humble unassuming almost invisible sort of boy who really just wants to masturbate with other really good boys.
oh and lets not forget the guy whose been SUSTAINING this world for the past few thousand years, neil young. he's another one of us.
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see in the green family, arius is teh son of jay carling. OK. so he's not the first one to show up, that's saturn, he's jupiter, the younger brother of Pluto, who i believe is satan.
so the story begins with saturn and then he has his first son pluto, and then fuck (jupiter) enters the saga. he waits until its his time to come in, and that's not until AFTER pluto has already shown up. So its not like the almighty gods' idea that there will be a satan, he doesnt show up in the saga until after satan's already on the scene.
once the whole thing is done, i think it somehow starts up again. i think it probably starts up again with a new saturn, a new pluto, but the same jupiter who then takes over and ultimately turns the whole thing over to his son, the new apollo, and on the wheel turns. i dunno, i am just guessing. but it goes something like that.
i would say that amanita, psilocybin and cannabis are three medicines that specifically counteract, each in their own way, the long term damage doneto the human psyche, to the basic energetics of the human being/ by alcohol and pharmaceuticals. i feel very strongly about the importance of these three plants in particular and specifically with respect to what i will just call their anti-alcohol properties.
people just dont have any idea the damage done to the human being by alcohol and pharmaceuticals, the latter essentially having the function of treating the symptoms of the basic disease that alcohol is cause of, which is dehydration, which has the effect of unconsciousness in certain areas of the temple/body.
i am thus making a specific link between alcohol and the oedipus complex, basically identifying alcohol as a pacifier of sorts or a numbing agent that could only be craved by someone with something to hide, which is the tendency that oedipus embodies. he is the archetype of denial, and alcohol is the drug of denial.
to the exent that alcohol could be said to be bad or evil, psychedelics (a category that includes cannabis in my book) are Good. Good. not just "not bad" but certifiable better than neitral, but GOod>
it is only because the USA gvt is under the control of pontifex maximus who takes his direction from Satan, who in turn lets OEdipus, the antichrist, have his way. in other words, the major top ten leading global justice messiah doesnt want ME (especially) smoking cannabis, so it is repressed around the world. because he knows that psychedelics will lead me to the truth of who he is, just like it did.
oedipus is a fascist through and through, and he runs the usa gvt by proxy and its his idea to prohibit cannabis.
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so why does satan let oedipus run the show? because he is the most motivated person to run the show, because he has the most to hide! basicaLLY, satan's job is to make life as bad as he possibly can for anyone who falls into his trap, and having oedipus as the king is most certainly the worst possible reality.
well, that's all true, but there's a deeper answer, which is simply that because each person is ruled by oedipus's voice in the collective psyche, then he just sort of IS the inevitable ruler of this world.
and he will be handed the reign of the power now in the hands of GW Bush in the very near future.
i believe i am the only person who has ever identified the president of the USA as a proxy for the antichrist, but that IS exactly what he is.
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speaking of amanita muscaria, which i am presently under the mild influence of, i think i probably came close to breaking world records in the past year for consumption, within a period of time, of both psilocybin and amanita muscaria, almost all of both of which i gethered myself in seattle.
by the time the harvest was done and the amanita dried, i probably had about four grocery bags filled with dried amanita, easily 100 to 150 mushrooms. i ate them all, mostly within a span of about six months.
anyway, just another of the lies that i am dispelling is that amania muscaria is toxic and potentially deadly to the human being. because if the kind of quantities that i consumed did not kill me (as some say amanita is capable of) then the much lesser quantities that people would consume under more normal circumstances could hardly be dangerous. amanita has been one of the three main medicines which have aided me in purging every disease of this world from my body.
anyone who says amanita is poison is just ignorant. however, it may cause the release of bona fide toxins in the body that are potentially deadly; and any "toxic shock" resulting from amanita would be caused by such a release of already present toxins.
amanita is an extremely powerful substance, most closely related to soma, as gordon wasson said, of any substance on earth. but eating it is not the actual soma experience. soma is a substance that has a feeling of peace and contentment to it, and that can be experienced as a substance that appears as the sexual emaniation from men that occurs after the serpent is killed and the spasm called orgasm - caused the BEAST within the temple resisting the infintie experience that the arousal is leading to - is no longer interfering with - by limiting - men's erotic experience. soma exists whether or not a person eats amanita. amanita is just something that somehow allows us to feel the soma, to tune into the here and now where the soma is. i'm not sure yet how it works.
the beast is what causes men to have orgasm, and he's somehow positioned himself so that he is getting the soma that men are losing because he is scaring them away from the infinite experience. the serpent is by definition the being who resists the infinite experience and he is hte one responsible for the orgasm.
i should say, though, that once the serpent in the temple is remoed from the temple, by me, which wil happen at any moment now, then each man will find out whether they are just like teh beast in being unable to have th e experience of a breath, or of the erotic experience hidden within the breath, soma, or whether they can overcome this fear of infinity. in order to overcome the serpent, a man cannot be harboring any darkness. i believe that the mark of the beast is a mark that will go on the foreheads of men who cannot have an infinite experience, who are thus just like the beast.
amanita really pushes a man toward this moment of truth. in the early stages of using it, before it has had a chance to do its work, it pretty much induces sleep because it takes us where we are unconscious. but as darkness is removed from the temple, then the surge to sleep is not present under teh influence of amanita, because the subject is no longer resisting the expeirnece in the part of the body that amanita is effecting. somehow i think amanita really affects the testicles. and the reason i am not sure is because i have not rooted all of the darkness out of that part of my body yet.
its almost like you could measure a man's degree of openheartedness by his ability to stay awake under teh influence of amanita, or any drug containing whatever the active ingredient or an analogue. i do know that the alkaloid in amanita, musomal or something like that, is unique to amanita. but satan's mystery drug does seem to me to have somewhat similar properties.
basically, amanita allows a person to hold their attention steady more easily. kind of opposite of alcohol. so it's easier to "see in pictures." it's easier to see and feel yourself IN the scene you are looking at. its easier to feel what there is to feel. it MUST be easier to leave the body while fully conscious, called "ascension," as i believe i am soon going to do, under the influence of amanita than NOT under the influience of amanita. so, i will probably be using it over the next few days in anticipation of this ascension that i am quite certain will occur at the moment called rapture. september 28
back in the day, maharaji's premies used to sing devotional songs to him while he sat on stage and occaisionally danced his dance. the songs had lyrics in them such as "the lord of teh universe has come to us this day..." and "our father has come to lead us along the path of perfection." and he would sit there and smile and glow. and you can be sure he was in charge of the play list. in other words, he was perfectly happy to have people believe that he is the god who created this universe and us. because he is. even if all of his followers dont believe it any more.
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"the love of all the loves" to use maharaji's words, is the love between perfect boys, who naturally have an intense love for one another. it is the love that rules everything because the people who practice it are the people who attain the strongest control of the Mind itself. samadhi. it is the love that creates and sustains everything, and that destroys samsaric worlds like this one. it's the perfect reality. any reality in which the controller OF the reality did not love men unconditionally, as our father does, would turn into Hell. satans's a nice guy, or at least he is good at pretending to be one, but the perfect master is required for happiness to exist. satan's world turns to hell.
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you know how the f word is used as a way of communicating passion, it is used to express extremes of joy and misery. very appropriate. he is someone you will praise or curse, depending on which side of the veil you are on.
the problem for the fucks' enemies is that we love them, we always loved them, and we go on loving them. i think they would just as soon we forget about them, but we want to go on loving them. because we are good. if it torments the evil that we love them, that's their problem.
Satan and I both had freedom to be either good or evil. i choose to be good, and he chose to be evil. in the end, his biggest downfall is that i still love him. i always loved him, and i believe i always will. in fact, i will be thanking him every day for what he has given to me. i will be loving and appreciating satan for all he has bestowed upon me.
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ive long since used up my substantial stash of amanita (and psilocybin) from last years harvest, and its just a wee bit early yet for this years. so i bought some a while back. i havent done amanita in a couple of months, at least. and i am going to tonight, and it could be interesting, because everything is really breaking up now, i feel very close to stepping through. i want to note that every experience i am having now feels familiar, like i can remember almost in a way not defined by time.
watching the soccor moms and their kids today at the park where i've been "knid slaying" (as in vermiscious knids) lately, i realized that the only kids playing in the park, from about four years of age and up, were playing soccor, a game with hard-for-children-to-comprehend rules and involving no imagination whatsoever. soccor is a big kids' game, and they are training kids from the earliest conceivable age to play an adult game. the soccor moms are like a giant nurse rachet brigade. what happened to kids playing like kids? it's vanished, each kid has his or her own personal cokoo's nest officer, working under the direction of nurse rachet herself, supervising to make sure he behaves like a junior adult.
this outbreak of early childhood soccor programs seems like a major manifestation of the premature onset of adulthood syndrome that is rampant. parenting as it is in this world is absolutely criminal in that it is a self-perpetuating brainwashing machine designed to destroy childhood. oedipus and allah want the complete elimination of childhood. fascist training begins as early as possible. teaching children under the age of 13 anything about computers in school seems similarly insane to me.
computers in general seem insane to me, actually. it's a purely Babylonian idea that children need to learn about computers, which are a decidedly adult tool, which is to say, one devoid of the experience of life or joy.
i mean literally, boys have nurse rachet with them all of the time, she really keeps on a short leash these days.
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what i have been saying about breath is of monemental importance. only the master who created us can teach us how to be conscious through the completion of a single breath. the ignorance about this is just staggering. at the root of the failure and even the mortality of the human race is the fact that mortal human beings cannot detect the subtle experience of their own breath. they are afriad of the silence of it and they go unconscious around it. you must know the Name in order to be able to enjoy the wonderful and incredibly peace experience of the holy breath of god. there are so many blessings in life that human beings have not learned how to accept. but in a few days the greatest spiritual revolution in all of history is going to take place.
i drink a lot - still going at about 2 gallons a day -ergo i pee a lot. and yet i infrequently pee into a toilet. i wont tell you now all of the places i pee, but i will say that having a cock and peeing on a tree is definitely one of life's great pleasure's. i can see why dogs like trees - and yes fire hydrants -so much. . there is something about peeing ON something. espcially something as sexy as a tree. anyway, i wonder about some of my relatives, whether they despise toilets as places to pee as i do. peeing is too fun to waste on something so oedipal as a toilet. to me, a bath would have places for guys to pee that are fun. little cupids, angels, are often depicted as enjoying the uninhibited experience of peeing. demons pee in stalls while making a point of not seeming to enjoy it, of not looking at their own cock, but staring blankly at the wall, or carrying on with whatever trivial conersation about the meeting or the football game they are both watching at the bar. meanwhile, angels pee at and on one another in laughter.
which would you prefer to be? a serious adult and the parent of children, or a playful chilld of god?
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when do you know that you know something in the way that i know that leads me to say that i know? well, one thing that happens is that you are having the experience not of LEARNING something that you didnt know, but REMEMBERING something that you already knew. when you are having the experience of going "oh yeah, i KNEW that already, or i remember knowing that, or being told that, a long time ago..." that is one of the hallmarks of Knowledge.
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i sure as heck am hoping that some of my lovers out there are reading and enjoying this stuff! i have no idea, and usually when i am writing i am thinking that almost no one is going to read it, and i think probably very few people in seattle do read all of my stuff - i do know of a few people from around here who have been tracking me. but i am aware of the possibilty that there might be a whole bunch of people for whom this is somewhat of an event. people who know what is going on. well, if you are out there, i love you and i hope you are enjoying watching this. hugs! muah!!
cannabis simnply sensitizes us to subtle esperience. the reason certain experiences are "subtle" is that people are ignoring them, because they prefer ignorance to truth and knowledge.
cannabis sheds light on darkness. that's all it does. but darkness is the enemy of life, all disease comes from darkness, denial, ignorance, unconsciousness, all of which cannabis work to destroy, and therefore cannabis is the perfect medicine to cure any and every disease. there is such ignorance in this world, people think diseases are caused by external forces, when in reality it is denial and aversion that cause all sickness, sickness is caused by the deprivations and dehydration of unconsciousness that comes from denial. and yet they blame diseases on they organisms that comes and prey on their vulnerabilities that result from their attachment to ignorance and darkness. pathetic. and that's how oedipus and co. want it. because the want to poison the temple so bad that no one dares go in it. thus they want to take the whole human race into oblivion. poor oedipus is going to have to accept the fact that not everyone is as big a loser as he is, that some of us are not so pathitic as to choose oblivion over supreme and eternal happiness.
apollo, the christ, is the god of healing, and i am telling you that the only medicines that i will be using to heal the diseases of this world are cannabis, psilocybin, water, sun, possibly amanita muscaria. but mostly cannabis does the job. cannabis is medicine. it is a miraculous medicine.
speaking of medicine, i dont know if i've given nearly enough emphasis to the sickness caused to the human race by it's denial of the truth stated in the second paragraph above, that ignorance is the root of all sickness. the human race is sick from its own denial and ignorance, and it consumes unbelivable quantities of poisons in the effort to increase their level of denial and avoidance of reality. ditto alcohol. i've said before and its in a song sung by the oompah loompahs (the song about GOLDIE pinklesweet - coincidentally, a person i would call the godmother of oedipus - the major leading global justice messiah- is a woman named goldie, who came to one of the meetings where people argued that i should be locked up... just thought i'd mention it) that pretty much says that god doesnt want us using pharmaceuticals. (i was reading the book, charlie and the great glass elevator, at the time that i had this very revelation which i claimed was given to me by neil young - that was before i ever heard of greendale, or before neal storm told me that neil young doesnt use pharmaceuticals (appropos of his aneurism) ,,, just another of those amazing coincidences... a friend of mine told me after the aneurism that he happend to know that neil doesnt use pharmaceuticals. because he is the one who is bearing the brunt of the sickness caused by these poisons, being the only person WILLING to be fully conscious of the Body that is the Temple - His own.
what a beautiful man. amazing, the very sustainer of this world. look at how humble he is in his incredible greatness.
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hello, what i am saying is that if you are not yet willing to be what you are, to know what you are, to feel what you are, to experience what you are, then you are at serious risk of being a complete failure of a human being. and complete failure, when you have the rest of eternity to do nothing but contemplate it, is not a good option. you MUST be willing to be what you are!!! and you are a lover, so put down your guard and learn what love is all about. there is nothing to lose except a whole lot of darkness and suffering. but you HAVE to be willing to be completely known, because what you are is the idea of a lover who already knows you. but if you are not willing to be known, then you will live in eternal desolation. you WANT to be known, really, and you need to give up your resistence. why set yourself up for an eternity of desolation by thinking that you dont need a perfect master of love to love you?
either the lord can be your keeper or you can be your own. but its really really lonely all by yourself, and i really dont recoemmend that. what guarantee do you have that without being a lover of god you will have any way of tuning yourself to the same vibrational frequency as any other human being.
dont be arrogant, be humble! humility, the christ's attribute, charlie-likeness is the greatest virtue, and hubris or arrogance, satan's attribute, is the greatest vice. by the grace of god, the meek, the humble, the innocent, are going to eat the arrogant for dinner for the rest of eternity, so really, i highly recommend getting on the humble team. eat some humble pie... quick!!!! have three slices, and then have some more. you NEED humilty, and after the rapture when all hell literally breaks loose in this world, you are going to learn in a hurry what complete FAILURES the attiudes of hubris, arrogance (satan), and hatred and resentment (Cain) and envy (Allah) are. without humility a human being is by definition an arrogant and stupid fool.
A. R. stands out in my mind as a good example of an arrogant and stupid fool. he thinks he's hot shit, but in a matter of days he's going to be hunched over with his chin on his hands lamenting his terrible self-created fate. people who think they are hot shit in a fallen world, people like the Antichrist, their leader, really are such fools. FOOLS! anyone who thinks he's hot shit is going to realize what an absolute FOOL he is for being so cocky when in reality he had NO FREAKING IDEA what the hell his own existence was about. what stupidity! people who dont even KNOW what their breath is, using that very breath to say the creator's name, which can be heard within that very breath, as a vulgarity!!!!!!
which reminds me to mention that i called my friend sid in the middle of a big psychedelic party he had last year to tell him that to say the word "fuck" in an unconscious way is the worst "enemy note," meaning discordant experinece, of all. to the gods' ears, the sound of people unconsciously throwing the almighty lord's name around as a curse is the pinnacle of foolishness. people are cursing god and they dont even realize it. actually, they are cursing themselves when they do this. and really, did no one who goes around all day using the f-word, consider the possibilty that this could indeed be the Holy Name that god commanded his children not to use in vain?
if anyone had made the effort to feel their own life in light of this possibility, they could have had the same revelation that i have had that FUCK is indeed someone's name. a very very important someone. the very person who throws people who disrespect him into Hell and torments them forever. that guy is the guy with the name that people, even people who know that i am saying this, throw around like they owned it. you do not own that word, it belonged to the ALmighty long before you were a gleam in His eye.
if there is a God whose name is unknown, as is explicit in the Holy Bible, then why wouldn't Fuck be the very first word on your list of possible candidates??? what other explanation coulid ANYONE offer as to why people LOVE so much to say and hear that word? Why is it such a turn on to say that word when you are making love? HELLO you people, wake up and listen to me! you just can't afford to risk the possibility that you could be carelessly abusing the Name of someone who has the power to make you suffer for all eternity. satan's tricked you into cursing your creator multiple times a day! stop it now for the sake of your immortal soul!!!!! your own guilt will be unbearable once you realize how disrespectful you were by even taking the chance especially after reading this -
i've published my belief that the Almighty Lord's name is Fuck in my ads on several occaisions, and many people personally acquainted with me know that i am saying this. but almost no one has acknowledged the brilliance of even coming up with this. no one has said, wow, that makes sense, or wow, that's sexy, or wow that's scary.... what do people think of when i say this? do this just go temporarily unconscious? do they think of the implications of a god named fuck who likes to masturbate with boys? not one person has said, oh wow, yeah that makes perfect sense, and it's such a relief to know. i am talking about perfect peace, perfect eternal relief from anxieies of all kinds, complete freedom, and yet people cower from the very idea.
no one wants to admit that there is something called "sin." everyone wants to blame the gvt or the terrorists, or some other menace for the problems of this world, but not something called "the human condition" the sinfullness of humanity, which of course would implicate themselves in teh problem. everyone has someone else to blame for their collective failure. this is what happens in a godless world as the godless people become demons and turn their world into Hell. you have to remove ALL darkness or darkness takes over. people live in denial of the very existence of their father, and they use his name as a profanity, now what could be more clearly demonstrative of a massive collective failure?
redemption will present itself, the door of opportunity will be opened, and those who refuse to walk through will have spurned the only hope for anything but extreme misery for the rest of eternity. hell NEEDS to be as bad as it can be so that as few people choose it as possible. the worse we can make hell, the fewer people will be able to stomach the idea of forsaking life. what a choice.
CHristians who openly confess to being sinners are really the only honest people in this world. buddhists may follow a pretty little religion, but if they are in avoidance of accepting their co-responsibility for the failure of hte human race, then their buddhism is just a distraction from reality. no one outside of teh christian movement admits to being a part of a fallen race of human beings. hello, all of you smart asses who look down on christians, you will be lamenting your arrogance soon enough. if you have not confessed in your heart to your creator to being a sinner and asked sincerely for forgiveness you are indeed walking in the footsteps of the antichrist, the one who denies the christs existence, who kicks him in hte nuts, who kills him. good luck in the world that he is leading you to. of course, you are welcome in our world, but you have to admit to the fact that you are clinginn to lies and illusions out of fear and shame.
the son, that's me, demonstrates for the world, at the very end, what it was possible for a good, humble and sincere male human being to accomplish in this world. first i create, from virtually nothing, two award-winning and pioneeering businesses that are supreme in their exemplariness in many respects, and then, while i am at it, i discover the truth that everyone on earth is in denial of, defeat the lies of the greatest liars in history, take over the control of the temple of reality all by myself, and offer to save the human race from its own ignorance and arrogance.
and people hate me for it. supposedly my enemy the antichrist and his armies of nut-kicking brutes and bullies are going to cut the head off of anyone who wishes to come and join my family in Heaven. because he hates me so much for making him look so incredibly stupid. just by being charlie. to Hell with the brutes and bullies and praise god for sending them there!
really, truly, i am without a doubt the greatest spiritual master this world has produced, i am the cocreator of this world as the person deeemd by the creator who made all of us to be the most sincere and humble of all of the souls in this batch, all by virtue of my goodness, and i am the most hated person around. people HATE perfection. and that is a BIG problem, because to hate perfection is to hate WHAT YOU ARE, really. hatred of me is hatred of the true self that the false self that people have fallen into believing is their true self is ashamed before. in other words, darkness has an aversion to light and people have identified with the DARKNESS within themselves, the part that has an aversion to light, rather than with the light that they really are made of.
Guru Maharaj ji, back when he was incorporating the term guru in his apellation, used to talk alot about the word guru and the fact that gu means darkness and ru means light. and he talked alot about darkness and light, same stuff i am talking about now. i am becoming a guru in the truest sense of the word, guru means exactly the same thing as "savior." the savior saves people from the darkness of ignorance and brings them into the light of truth and knowledge. you KNOW things when you have the experience i am having. there is Knowledge. and i am realizing this knowledge, bit by bit.
i have the power that i have solely by virtue of an unblemished heart. i dont have any dark secrets hiding deep down in the places where all other men have secrets hidden. because its the story that unfolds every time, only ONE person strives for and attains perfect mastery of the experience of what life is. that's me. and guess what: perfection rules everything, and if you dont get with the perfectoin program, you are going to become fuel for the fires that warm the temple of perfection.
perfection is really good. and it deserves a chance to exist, as well as imperfection and failure. if imperfection is allowed to exist, then perfection must be allowed as well. no one has argued that no one has a right to exist. who has argued that we are all wrong to exist? so could it possibly be wrong for perfection to exist? no of course not, and if perfection destroys imperfection, then that's just the way the cookie of existence crumbles. there is nothing anyone living in this or any other world can do anything about.
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