3:15 neil, did you mention how i put the printer away in the closet? did you mention how the judgment day/washington dairy farmers night i asked them to remove the television from my room??
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so i guess i'm talking about a tribe that would consist of 12,000 men. mostly involved with farming, environment etc.. most of the major people. some of whom i have named. people on the forefront, like wes jackson is a real original thinker.. psychedlelic mind. Berry has an awesome intelligence.. i spent a week with him and Ptarmigan (who the hell is she anyway)? she's someone important, she's got allah problems, but she sure is brilliant, i am very curious to grok her.. she is so unhappy... ) at schumacher college with another person i am virtually positive is an israelite, one of the most delightful people i've met in my life satish kumar..
oh yeah, what up with benjamiin creme and his maytraya,, his name came up in my life in the past few weeks,,, i think the maitraya is just the christ, but i am curious if he is for real, like he beleives himself or if he is BSing...
was i right about Moon?? he seems like a kierkegaard kind of messiah...???
actually HERE is an intelligent thing and a cool little connection.,,, i am talking about great men, like really intelligent men here.. so i mention ptarmigan and BINGO,,, its her father, her father is israell another one in this same tribe probably,.. john Teal, the man who domesticated the musk ox, probably the first animal to be domesticated in this whole cycle... he MUST be Israel... never met him but got a sense of him being extremely intelligent and charismatic.. i did see the charles kuralt docuimentary,,, of course kuralt has got to be one of us too,,and neil, tell them about the guy in the rental car van who i complemented... he's israelll. i got to the point where i knew if i wanted to tell a man that i thought he rocked, i pretty much knew he was one of us, and i think neil put that guy in a job on a rental car shuttle just so that i could recognize him, that's his little part in this life...,,, no????
it sure as hexk would be good if joh teal and ptarmigan could work things out... she's got some heavy stuff that she's carting around, and it has to do with not feeling loved by men and her own father.. she adored her father, and she wanted to be like the boys, penis envy kind of a thing,,, did you put her in my path so i could learn about that in particular, how unhappy a woman can become it she succumbs to wishing she were her father's son?
so that bet with bob was made in the apple orchard at his farm... i think we bet a buck but i forget..
i guess we cant say what the price of the chair would fetch , that would mess with the auction, but if i dont get at leart a billion a piece for Noah's perfect chair, limited edition, only 20 available.. i might feel like Noah isnt getting the honor he deserves...
babysnow just called,, we're talking and i sort of feel like neils getting sexy with me.... maybe he gets excited hearing us talk... do you relate our conversations?? are you tracking her too/?
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so i sort of feel like i should delve deeper in to this tribe thing, i really was obsessing on it last year, thinking i was figuring out who some of the people i know locally who i would put at the top, like Peter Toms, the leader of fremont arts council, i had the idea that there is just the sort of circus entertainer sort of tribe and that peter might be at the top of that one... i love peter, he's trying to create what we have in babylon.. neil knows a lot about peter i'm sure.. he's a good sperm, no neil,, and neil knows how i like buffalo, kind of say him as like the really earthy tribe of people who like to run the show at the fair, so to speak.. i thought maybe buffalo was a tribe leader, he's just a determination...
Will of touchstone comes to mind as a similar sort of person, and george D. really, people who really like being behind the scenes amking things happen, but also like to party...
2ish yeah the gregson's ... i've got sort of a feeling their like part of some kind of a tribe...
kinda reminds me of these words that kinda popped into my head,,, and then showed up on the radio one night when i was in this same hotelll<<<<<<<<< so there's this new picture coming into focus... yes! ladies and gentlemen of the peanut gallery, i do hope you apreciate the "miraculous thing" that is happening here... just wanna say,,, raja ji,,, that Chrysler tower is really cooll, did that one come out of your book of plans and engineers? its a pretty awesome building??? , i saw it on that TV documentary,,,, i liked the statues of the Eagles,, that was a good clue, plus that show came out around the time i was really delving into greendale, so the "welded to the beak of an eagle in the lobby of powerco," the picturre of sun on the back of the eagle, plus the documentary about the chysler building on modern marvels, all added up to some interesting puzzling.... the rawats must OWN the chrysler building... but its not just that we own it, its that it is one of the eternal rawat properties in the sense that you have the plans for buildings and engineers inthe temple for the chrysler building and you just pull it out,,, kind of like all the allegries,, lord of the rings must be up there in the temple, no>? and charlie,etc.. i am thinking "glass bead game" its like you have these peices you can play with... i love hesse... is he there.? i read one of his books at every major turning point for aobut ten years... begning with siddartha on the eve of heading to hte moestary,,, was i siddartha?? i've thought possible... kind of like starting over, new world bring the truth back that kind of had faded... &&amp;amp;&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& neil i just deleted some stuff by accident,, did you lose it too, ??? or can you just fill in what i was saying...? or did you realize that i really didnt delete anything, i am not even sure now.... i gotta know, i never wanted to let myself get too hopeful, but neil i will ask you now,,,, did you or jed have someone bring that webpage to me with the psychedelic house at whistler for sale the mushroom house that looks like it waseither bilbo baggins place or else something that mckenna made for himself.. i was getting all these feelings like greendale was up on the sunshine coast of BC, like "westport" like i thought greendale WAS westport because of PORT as in PORT carling, maybe a little rickety old peir down at that marina where ny dad dropped me off on that sailing trip...<> all just my imagination?? what yours too??? sounds like something i would imagine... DING and the sun reflecting off of the towers heading down to the street,, that also gave me a whistler picture... kinda sawDING dorothy waking up like in a bathtub in that house... are you telling me my intuition is good.? hey neil tell em who told me that you have a sailboat near port townsend, i cant quite remember, i will see if i can get a picture... kind of seems like maybe it was john lee actually... &&amp;amp;&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& so maybe i'll get back to bob and bonnie now.. those guys are a part of what i would think of as a tribe, if i had to think of a tribe.. the washington dairy farmers, there's something going on there was teh "judgment day" experience on amanita here, and that word came up, along with palmos, and then ALL of the commercials on the radio that morning seemed like they were all for me including an ad for washington dairy farmers, and i had this idea that all of the dairy farmers in WA are israel, and are a tribe.. so i think i may be going into a discussion about ideas i have had aobut the tribes.. lets assume that bob and bonnie are israel, and they are members of a tribe, here are some other members of that tribe...all the people i mentioned with Wendell Berry the other day, Kent Wheely, Wes Jackson, Fred K. Gary Paul Nabhan, I'm gonna say a prayer and Mark Musick's name (he cant be babylon) maybe even Woodie deryx, bob and bonnie, the entire washington state dairyman's association. also my friend from montana the dairy farmer steve who is now in PT... and i even had a premonition that you had bought a dairy farm up near PT><<<<> 1ish,, sorry about that Dave... i fixed it now,, neil brought me attention to my little, er... big typo.... hold on, strike that, little and big typos... gotta take care of her.. whatever it takes to make her feel comfortable,,, just having a plan to come down is good, even though i kind of dont think itll happen, she will feel more secure. ((((i mean, you guys must have appreciated my "salt mine" comments, no? pretty ballsy if you ask me,,, (jeff's thinking "I'm so hung" - neil you can explain that one if its appropriate. ))))) have the reviews started coming in yet Neil? i can almost see dan merkle's face when i think of cortez... is that you doing that neil?? i sse merkle with one of those conquistador hats on... hey neil,, do you happen to know a nice couple of retired farmers over on vashon named Gregson>>> ? i made a bet with bob about wheter the human race would clonize mars, he was thinking we were gonna go mining or something like that,,, do you remember than interaction??? where were we?? i wonder if you can rememer that sort of random moment in my life at all, the exact same memory of that i have, or a better one??? lemme just sit with that picture for a minute and see if we both see it??? no doubt bob remembers that one.. and of course neil, you remember that he was like one of the ONLY people who EVER took an interest in what i had to say,,, he read my paper when we were where neil.. i'll give you a few minutes, get some water and take a break and i will be back... noonish OK,,, so the plot thickens and sun and fuck are on a roll... where should i begin.l. everything that happen, everything, for a reason... let's see, the most exciting thing i have to report is that neil has informed me that dave mathews is with us, and that he appreciated my little hello in the stranger. and well i danced for neil in my center under the moonlight, and that was pretty cool... im not sure he got as much dancing as he wanted to see, but he'll let me know... that must be allah we're working on, isnt she the one who just sort of spins,,, round and round and round we turn to weave a wall to hem us in... i wonder, are the whirling dervishes turning with us or against us? i dont know which way, if either i am supposed to tuen, but somehow, given that its purely instinctual thing i cant image he didnt get me going in the right direction... there's things like Oh, no chocolate at starbucks, ok, welll, lets just see waht happens,, and then im on my way i love you dave mathews..... i've been feeling you in the neighborhood chekcing up on me,,, i heard neil sent you down to meet satan in person... how was that anywayy.. i had my fellow homeless friend steve at good shepherd tell me you were in the park when i was there a while back and i thought maybe i would be able to cathc a glimpse, but funyy, i still have never run into you... did you ever see me in the bakery when you were there???? did you actually come there hoping to catch a glimpse,,, i never noticed, i hope you werent sorry that i didnt make eye contact... i heard so many times that you were there.... im sure neil is already telling you when i cry and stuff like that so you dont need me to tell you about that... so anyway,,, i kind of was feeling really moved by the music as i was waiting for my mocha drink at the dilletante chocolate co. store in the same building with the corporate one that the hotel person DID tell me about but not the locally owned one that's owned by the friend of our freinds john sid and lisa, which neil probably already knew..... so anyway,,, i'm feeling the music moving me, and i spin a couple times right there and then i kind of notice the big SKYlight up above, that would be a MOONLIGHT if it was night... you know how those car companies somtimes call them SUN roofs and somtimes MOON roofs, depending on whether they oipen or not? it's kind of like you sort of DIVE into an experience, and you know , sometimes there's more to the picture than meets the eye... my my hey hey rock and roll is here to stay..l. out of the blue and into the blackkk.... so anyway, speaking of rock and roll that will never die, back to Dave and Dancing,,, i headed up under the LIGHT that was up under the MOONROOF - you know, neil likes to mix things up a bit for me, its more fun that waycant tak him too literally, you just gotta get the picture when the time comes,s, its like CUSTOM KOANS for me, right and left.. i mean, i was SOLVING a KOAN as i was walking into the next one, in a way that kind of nicely sort of pulled things togeher (in the temple so to speak, if you catch my drift..har har har) .. i was thinking about his triptic emails, I LOVE CORTEZ>... so the key to that puzzle was that neil really likes it when i eat chocolate,,, that light bulb finished going off for me as i was searchin around in the car with my flashlight thiking about chocolate on my way between steh hotel and "my center..." | so the thing that finally lit up, i mean, there's more to it than this, i just forget the whole thing, this is just one piece of a multifaceted KOAN, so there in the THIRD email he sneaks into the camoflage of the lyrics to cortez the killer, - which i've listened to proabably more than any other song in my entire life --- and now that i think of it, I most definitely listened to that song with the greatest INTENSITY multiplied by the most number of TIMES of any song, which of course means that it is probably full of lots of significances for me, which it has, there's things i understand about human sacrifice, who cortez and montezuma weere (oh i hadant even mentioned it, but you can think back to last night me talking about rome and how the maurauders came wanting to sack rome in order to turn down the volume on the fun-having... so now as i am writing this i am getting that montezuma, that us, and cortez, there's that pesky cain again, we make a new world for ourselves and he comes dancing across the water, with his galleons and guns, looking for the new world and the TEMPLE in this sun, on the shore lay the Rawat family, with their coca leave pearls, and cacao,,,, BINGOOOOOOOOOOO DINGDING DING DING DING DING DING DING DING DING DING DING DING DING THERE YAH go,,,, see... neil you are a MASTER! so cortez is cain coming after us to destroy the temple one more timne,,, those guys, every time we lovers just wanna go by ourselves into a whole NEW WORLD he has to cross theh gol darn ocean and come after us,,, no wonder motezuma had those premonitions of a white diety coming from across the water,, Oh DARN, hmmm i dunno if that bodes as well as i thought for the folks south of the border,,, that is so funny, ever since i went down to mexico i always thought - and i said this to so many people, - it seems like these people relate more with the father who raped than the mother who was raped.. i've said it a million times... hey neil, how about javier. he's OK right>>>/?? i know that guys a saint. he loves me that 's how i know,,, he seeks me out, he always wants to touch me, he looks in my eyes, you've seen him right.??? i know he's coming with us, i m not sure about all those other guys, lot of them like to steal and stuff, but i know javier, i went to his wedding in his catholic church, i think he was honored that his boss and damn it look he goes to this funky little roman catholic church ... but i know he is devout, he sends his kids to parochial schooll... he's teh sweetest guy who ever worked at the bakery,, george too... what about jay? i=you remember when i ran into him while i was playing disc gold with OUR ED AND JOHN LEE<> i could go and never stop just on this stream with neil, its so complex and twisting inside outand around, how i danced on the solstice.. so anyway,, i went upstairs by the light under the moonroof and started spinning, cause when neil says dance, i kind of know that the part of the dancing that i do that he's really into is the spinning... well and he told me that,, the whole thing about burning down the house and someone follwoing her in a car over to john lee's place.,, welll she was spinning when she set the house a fire, so i know he likes the spinning. hey neil, any time you wanna do this whole thing, let me know,, its kinda fun.... so anwayk,yeah so that's kind of how these things sort of work,,, neil just kind of throws a few random seeming things in my direction, stares at a few pictures now and then, and before you know it i have solved what is probably one of the biggest riddles i have had, PLUS, something i never imagined before, the understanding that cortez is cain... that bad motherf*cker...., his mommy sent him after us once again..... what was allah's name that time,,, queen isabella was that it??? oh so NOWWWWW i know how those moslems managed to invade spain and set up shop in europe... sooooo................ the plot thinkens MIGHTILY as Benny Hinn would say to his precious flock... ^&amp;&^&^&^&^ so that changes my perspective a wee bit and NOW SUDDENLY MUCH OF EURPEAN HISTORY . that was formerly baffling to me finally falls into place,,,, \ wow. DeMididi is rawat, never doubted that for a milisecond, that's not allah and cain, that's for sure... so habsburgs, thats themmm stuck in their little inbred mortal oedipal family..... YUCKKKK!!!! i always thought those guys were ugly... the HOLY roman empire (which i had just said rawats dont allow anyone else to use) is cain and allah??? it sure couldnt been us.... so its very simple and straightforward... literally they want to take us back to the dark ages.! i think if i can solve the puzzle, you can interpret my subtle explanation. isnt it Larouche who is always talking about someone like the QUeen of England wanting to take us back to the dark ages??? he's gotta be babylon, that the kind of lie they tell.,, it's BABYLON that wants to take us back to hte dark ages because the Dark Ages were the age of Babylon. SIMPLE.. <<<<<<<<<<<<<<< thus spoke jeffythustra. Hey Daddy>>??? I really like being the son of another kid, it's a lot of fun,,, if i promise not to grow up, will you promise not to grow up?? hey grandpa, are you as fun as Earl???? he's "REALLY PSYCHEDELIC" ( same as really good) i like flyin around with ,my daddy... did i tell you enough about my little trip to the car to look for some amanita and the chocolate. >>???? maybe the european history thing will come into sharper focus... i want the world to know i've never studied history at all, the dimedici's are obviously Rawat, but all you need to know is that they were super rich patrons of a cultural renaissance, and there ya go.. and when you get like one hint somewhere that there was a lot of love in the family, something i ran across somewhere, what was that neil, you must remember, you can tell em, about catherine being much loved and very beautiful something like that,,, anyway,,,something about a sentence i read about her, maybe there was a picture (cant rememebr if it was one of neil's or in a book, but either way he gave it to me,) of her and she looked like a goddess... wouldn't she have had to have been our baby snowleopard>>> ? so rawat's let them have rome, and then constantine took back the eastern half (CONSTANTINple) and we left rome - raja ji, you gotta take me to constantimople with you and show me what you built there, will you? maybe grandpa and neil can come too? so anyway,,, pretty much its like, OK you can have Europe, but here's the deal, you gotta perform these rituals, you gotta keep the book, you gotta keep the church, we dont care if you are insincere, but you gotta have confessoin, you know, just kind of [put the church in Prince Reuben's hands and let him have europe for a few hundred years, see how ggood he can make things before we come back... so we head for mexico, maybe spent come time down at palenque, moved around a bit, down to Macchu pichu you know, build a few temples,, i m not sure why the moving around down there... maybe i got it wrong, but i seems like maybe we took off until cain could come over and get us.. so then the renaiisance is when the rawats return... so were we hanging our in scotland or something??? its not all in focus yet, but its coming.. it seems like the dark ages are when the rawats have cleared out... im interested in who was controling the money in europe while babylon ran the church.. so we're in constantinople after constantine.,, i'm not clear if we pulled out of eurasia entirely, holed up in france, over in mexico,, are we moving around that much or are there different branches in different areas su=imultaniously.. i have lttle doubt that rothschilds were us... or are to this day. all of my "antisemitism" notwithstanding. anyway, you see how the picture begins to come into focus,,, thanks to neil's little clues sticking the word cacao in the third email of the I Love Cortez (cacao) email trilogy, and made sure dave was playing, and kind of set it up so the local chocolate co with the owner who i sort of know the identity of is where the music was and sent me an e mail that said something about wanting to see me dance in the moonlight... get the picture?? no??? try eating some psilocybin!! (which, by the way i havent had in ages and odnt feel any need for.. ..) psilocybin, at least in the adult world, is for learning... amanita is for healing... see i always wondered, why the hell was the church so negative in the dark ages??? its because babylon was running it while we hung out at temples and let them ruin what rome had accomplished. so maybe in the 13th century some of us were in persia, was that rawat during the time of hafiz?? it would seem like wherever the ecstatic poets show up you know you're in rawat territory at that time. it seems like turkey is allied with rawat more than other islam countries.. is this true?? i still think maybe malaysia is also not as corrupt as the rest of islam and the reason is simple, our Lord visits there, and not many other islamic nations, just west africa, which i also see as not infected with allah, even if its moslem,, that's the thing, it doesnt matter what religion, it matters who the people are.. you could have cain people in the USA - southern man - and you could have us in the realm of islam - turkey perhaps? i am curious about the armenian massacre... i am thinking now that the kids may have carried out a few of those, obviously the 3rd reich, and i cant imagine cambodia could have taken place.. some times you just gotta round up a group and bring em to the greendale jail that 's all, and one thing i will say about armenia, i always thought the people with "ian" on the end of their names seemed a bit like those from the smaller of the two nations of of Abraham's descendants... i mentioned manchuria earlier. i'm just piecing the puzzle together little by little, i'm just writing as things occur, so i'm not really making any official sort of positions on stuff, just want to show how the mental process works.. there is so much history that i am dying to understand.. teh Elyusinian temple on crete was an important temple, did we hang on to that one for a while?? what was the average amount of time before they come and smash it.??> he came dancing across the water, cortez cortes, what a killer.......................---> just really doesnt like people having fun,,, what a drag....... i cant wait to look in his eyes.,,, if he can hold them open when i come before him.... ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^danmerkle'seyes^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^6 &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP i seem to remember that that smiley face inventor was from seattle... he's gotta be one of us, that face is rawat property.... we got it registered a long time ago... right jed? its in book with plans for building and engineers, along with the big stuff like coluseums and stuff like that? you know, like the ALexandria library plans... al the internet technology, you know, like neil's garage kind of stuff, tools for the journey, come on don't tell me there isn't a smiley face in the tool kit that you bring along. speaking of the plans for buildings ands engineers, I hope you'll have a copy of the drawing for the arc for Noah when he get's to the party.... awesome dad, thought so!!!! it gives me chills to hear you tell me that, to give me the picture... its bringing tears to my eyess,,,,, so i dont have to worry about our lord putting his tush on any inferior chairs unless he wants to, right? awesome!!!!!! I'm sure the Smithsonian wont mind letting us borrow it? maybe we could just use that one for the auction, we can ship the others out later... what do you think the bidding will get to??? Lemme see if i can get the picture>>> i'll just go listen for a while and just see if a number pops into my head,,,, kind of like LU#7 did that one time when i was sleeping with susann... soes susan have something to do with LU#& to? interesting... you really know how to weave a lot of stufff together, cool... no i wont worry about not getting the picture on the number, if we arent there yet it doesnt matter. hold on i gotta send this much.... it might be bath and chocolate time, take a toke, see if i can ramp this up enough to get neil's guess on the chair price.... i dunno if i have any chocolate, if i get the picture that i should go buy some i will,,, i dont like the crap they have in the minbar, but i bet starbucks right across the street has got scharffenberger or something worthwhile... dang dad, this stuff that's been coming out of your body is pretty stinky... i been smelling that tobaaco smoke smell for months thinking it was form my own years of smoking, but now i think maybe its in you... yeah, i think a few fresh ones is better idea too..... YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYes?YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY i dont see any pictures telling me not to have fun while earth and i "go on our little trip" to see the shape he's in... ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ hey i just had a sweet little wonkapiphany.. th@se must be my g@@d buddy's r@ss's oYos that s@rt of gl@m @nt@ the w@nkavat@r... ************ i need to advise the people of planet earth who are considering going along with the Kierkegaards,, I had a major premonition of your future over the next thousand years,,,, kind of a little idea that as out there in the either... you know, the one i was telling you about... with the police unifroms?? anyway, that's not the premonition that i sat down here to tell you about, i wanted to mention this other one, but it's just a little different , but i had it close... it was this idea that i was gonna tell the joke about the police uniforms and all that ... but i forgot about that when i waas gonna tell you about the premonition about the joke about the police uniforms, getting the pictre so far? OK well let me explain the next piece, and then it should alll begin to fall into place... it was this idea that waht the rapture would be is when i told that joke about the police unifroms and the herbide to kill the volunteer pot plants, and people would start alughing so hard that EVERYONE in the world would be so ashamed to be in a world like that and have a bunch of kids rolling over laughing at them for a thousand years, they woould ALL get over their problem and EVERY@NE would be in Heaven and I would be the savior of the wh@le w@rld by virtue of telling the funniest joke in the history of the world... but anyway, the thing i realize now it that at the rapture EVERYONE participating in the rapture are the ones who break out laughing, but that unfortunately isn't everyone.. i hate to think that some people are going to have to settle for listening to the laughter from downstairs when it's SOOooooOOooOOOOOoO much more fun the be the one laughing and not the one listening to it down stairs.. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@"Andonthe"..howmanydaysnowhasitbeenLordBrahma?I'lljustsaytenthday..Godsaid,"letthetormentingoftheadultsbegin"@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ **************andhelookedandheapprovedandhesaid,"itisgood"*********************** did someone say>>>>>>>>cosmichumor?<<<<<<<<<< i sorta feel the presence of this tall handsome stranger shadowing me from move to move>>> could it be Earth, Earth Brown???? Hey, Earth! Great to meet you finally, I've been hearin about ya for so many months now, kinds feeling your presence in the room more and more , but since last night i been feeling you really close.. but now i kinda get the picture for the first time. Huh, you want me to see the shape your in? Sure Earth I'm ready to go right now!!! hey Earth, what about my cat? can you go pick her up for me? me and earth are just kind of shaking things up down in Kierkegaard Land before we head down there for a look, you know, raise the nighbors up a little bit get em up outa bed so we can have a look at their faces! i knda have this feeling growing in my shoulders, like that part of my shoulders that always feel like the ache every single day of my life... you know, it's one of those chronic pains you never really mention to anyone because you think it's your own personal disease and you'ld be too ashamed to let other know about? I mean who wants to say something like, "i have this sort of feeling that i have my own personal disease that no one else has or even knows about like deep in my kidneys, a kind of deep ache in your lower back around your kidneys??? and up around your shoulder blades, like EVERYTIME ANYONE massages your shoulders you notice that same kind of chronic deep ache?> yeah, i kinda figured you knew what i was talking about, everyone walks around with this sickness think that they are their own personal sicknesses and are too ashamed to mention it,,, kind of one of those things that adults do, until a kid like me comes along and says, "but he hasnt got on any clothes!" hmmm well if that pain gets too bad, I'll just rest my head on Earth's shoulder and go to sleep while he's driing us to alaska later... hey earth can you e mail me and let me know if you need more than 2 gallons of water for the trip? i can get some more if you think you'll need it... i'm pretty sure you told me that would be enough, but i wouldnt want you to get too thirsy and have to stop on the way and go back to another convenient store, maybe that one up by broadway.... anyway you know i think what most people do about these bad pains in earth browns body that they think is their own, which it kind of is, but also isn't, is instead of doing what i am doing which is taking some medicine like cannabis, and drink a lot of water and really just try to feel that pain, try to sort of find out what the heck it feels like exactly and where exactly the pain is, you know, like really LOCATE it and see EXACTLY what it ffeels like before you go to the doctor so you can take pharmaceuticals that you think will relieve it (but only make Earth even more sick) so anyway,,, this here is the freaking cure for those "own personal" little aches and pains in my body... it's called going in and having a look... and releasing the demons from earth's body and flushing em down a toilet into the sparklingly clear waters of the Puget Sound adjacent to the oxygen starved fish-killed Hood Canal, where from just across the Dead Sea Naval Base at Bangorour friend Prince Rauven is sitting glumly staring down toward the ground shaking his head facing that great white cube across the water >>>>>>>get the picture???? Hey can you guys up in that airplane see my artwork yet??? i can just see the faces of these Babylonians when they see images of the most importatn people in the world rolling over laughing while the guy they wanted to lock up and put away is sitting here in his hotel room laughin his ass of along with htem... $$$$$$$$$$$nomoregreenbackssoon,no?$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ me and neil, we really get off on this thing we call "terrorizing" it's pretty cool, i dunno, but i hope grandpa and jed are into it as well,,, and Poppy, I'd love it you'ld come along on one of our raids sometime... Here is my next ad: I am Shiva, the destroyer, and I am here to TERRORIZE you with my daddy VISHNU, he's done sustaining you soon anyway, so what the hell, and grandpa, that's Brahma, yeah I know he's your Creator, but he was done creating you a long time ago, and i think by now he's pretty much had with you people too.! So get ready to be terrorized by the Fathers of all Terrorists!! you know how people save their own little keyboard-key signatures and goofy symbols like ;-) well, actually, now that i mention it, I was gonna say i wanna make one up that is like the face of earl and sun together when they are terrorizing,,, its that picture of neil's visage, i wanna know how to type that, get the picture? anyway, i think maybe its just that one ;-) lemme check it out bigger.... .....................................|;-).............. .....................................;-|.../;-) i dunno, i'll work on it... %%%%%%%%%%%%%%nomoregoldmuchlongereither%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% maybe ross and i should go long in the gold futures... @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ROSSKLING'SEYES@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ i never quite got the right the right message out, i might have to take one more crack at it. maybe like.. You adults are so stupid, you think you're being terrorized by your moslem brothers? no no no, you just don't understand, it's us kids again... you always seem to forget that it's the kids who terrorize the adults, it's not the adults terrorizing each other, you all cower together from us in the same salt mines... ********************** did i do that whole futures trading thing just so you guys could have a g@@d l@@l at th@se eyes @f r@ss's? &&amp;amp;&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& i feeel like mr. wonka might be taking me on a little visit down into "minus land" now.... i was sort of realizing, as i am returning into that visual realm that remids me of 2001 a spacwe odyssey like i wrote about in the newspaper... that's like the same thing as the glass elevator going down into minus land... i may be going down for a visit with cain and allah, not sure.. i dont think it's the three grandparents - george, georgina and josephina this time... i got the idea on them last time,,, this maybe is a little bit deeper down into minus land this time... i think cain and allah must each have one of dad's testicles of their own.. is roald dahl like, ... has he been watching this whole spectacle, i sure hope so... i hope he appreciated me getting the "bonk on the head" piece of the puzzle... this is the first time in more than twenty years that i can honestly say i am sitting down to practice the four techniques of Knowledge. and somehow i don't think Guru Maharaj Ji is particularly disappointed to hear this. somehow i just got the feeling that neil is laughing as hard as i am when we write these things together, it doesnt at all feel like he knew what i would say... so anyway, i just closed all of the blinds ---oh hey by the way, do y'all think the family can afford the cost of the room upgrade i just set up? it's kind of an extravagence, a two room suite, i mean, there's just one of me here, but at this stage of the game I just didnt feel that good about having to downgrade to a room with two single beds, or a smoking deluxe executive suite... anyway, i actually closed the blinds and will turn out this last light and maybe even shut the lap top so its nice and dark so i can really see what i need to see.. havent done that since ashram days back in '80. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ROSSKLING'SEYES@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ I THINK THERE'S BEING A DISTURBANCE DOWN IN THE CHASMS OF KIERKEGAARD!!! do you think they can hear me laughing yet? I gotta see that!!!!!!! <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< 9am this weekend when i got together with lane, who by the way is the only person i know of who is making an effort to share my ideas with others, he's got some kind of wicki set up,,, he brought me a gift, some comic book cliff note sort of books of hindu stories, the gita, krishna, buddha, tales of vishnu, the churning of the ocean.. i dont read much, but i said to him that he picked the perfect thing to give me, because i've been wanting to learn some more about these stories. it reminds when maharaji once said something like, "there's not much worth reading, but if you're gonna read, then read the sriptures..." speaking of reading, when i was at the convenient store getting my water, i saw that Time had a cover about the origins of mormonism, i did a double take and then went and grabbed it.. the only time i buy magazines is if i see something like this that might give me some clues... maybe i'll learn something about joseph smith and the mormons.. never been particularly impressed by what i've seen in that universe, but i'm curious.. the whole zion thing is intruiging, like who the heck are these people calling some place zion/ 7 am i keep taking the roses that people leave on their food service trays in the hallways for my room, i have three of them in my room now.. i think i will head for a convenient store and get a couple more gallons of water for earth brown, i think he may be needing it today... people are unonscious. every day i pick up the little roses that people leave on their food service trays... why not keep the rose in your room instead of just sending it away with the dishes? neil, are you keeping an eye on that wonderful man that i roomed with at nurse rachet's ward at the hspital? this old toothless guy, and we instantly fell in love, i mean, it was like long lost friends, and it turned out he is passionate about growing cannabis,,, has a bad alcohol problme too, but a heart of gold, and i promised him that we would get pot legalized and that i would put him in charge of growing operations... i'm pretty sure neil knows who this guys is... maybe neil's saving "that sack of seeds" for him... i forget his name, but i've been thinking of him, hoping that we will be together. really, i mean, he was in agony, and when he woke up in the morning i was in the room, i think we first met when he woke up, and i helped him move around and get food and stuff,,, very soft gentle blue eyes, and he was so appreciative and we really hit it off. i had some good times at rachet's, i think i just kind of toyed with those people, i really called bullshit on some of the staff there... but there were a couple of staff, Billy i thinkwas the name of a tall gentle balck man, - i hope he's one of us, and the really cool black woman who gave me the tips i needed to hear to make my escape from that hell hole. i left a note for the manager commending those two... how many patients in nurse rachet's ward leave notes for the manager commending the staff members who are the real human beings on the ward??? 6 am just rereading a post from a couple days ago and re marion smith i wanted to add that i remember the name of the other student who she said had stayed in touch after she retired... he was an asian boy named thomas Soeh or something like that... if he was the only other one who appreciated her enough to stay in touch, that alone might be enough of a sign to suggest that he to is one of us. actually there is one other memorable person who was in my class that year who may be the firs girl i ever really had a crush on, her name was allison hirabayashi. i really liked her, i think she's another teletubbie. the more i think about this japan thing, the more i realize how much i like the japanese. i wouldnt be surprised if the "atrocities" committed by Japan in manchuria the lead up to the second world war had to do with filling up that jail in greendale that got opened in 1911... this feeling that china is the nation of nurderers is fairly strong. "i have a strong feeling" no one ever really wondered very hard what that phrase really means.... my family had a japanese family live with us when i was a youg child for two years, he was a grad student of my dad's takashima... years later, when i was 18 he and his daughter mihushi came for a visit. she and i became very close... a couple of years ago she described me to my mom, i think they visited while i was out of town as her first boy friend,,, i intended to get in touch but never did... any girl that remembers me 25 years later as her first boyfriend (we did hug, but that's as far as we got) has got to be one of ours, and her father, being so loyal to my family, must as well. the other memorable thing about ohsawa is that i know he was interested in the hidden power structures. he had his own conspiracy theories etc., and was noted as having had anti-jewish sentiment.. i just wonder if he and kushi and perhaps herman aihara are all initiates in a rawat secret society... there is definitely a rawat connection in japan, i believe japan has always been under rawat control.. the story "shogun" in which the one englishman who went to japan to help the shogun fight in the samurai wars may have some interesting historical importance... the history of how the japanese shut out the european powers and went into isolation is interestingl.. i'm intruiged. the tokugawa shogunate may have been under direct control of p max. just throwing out guesses.... japan is this little piece that's come into focus for me late, and there is such a theme of connection to japan in my recent thoughts that i am liking this idea that i may have been involved in the formaiton of the japanese empire... the emperor is thought of as being descended form the sun, so it's kind of a no brainer... one thing about japan,,, its a VERY civilizede country... its not a nation of murderers or nut kickers. japanese men like alcohol for sure, but even so, i doubt they are alcoholic souls like the russsians. they live in a fairly free democratic (if you can live under the illusion of democracy, like we americans, that makes you a little bit superior to the nations of people who are subjected to the awareness that they actually just live under a dictator... if you are good, like the japanese, you can have a fake democracy) society that is very dense in population. there's too much to like about the aesthetic of japan for there not to be a strong rawat influence. ancestor worship tradition there is strong as well i believe which i see as being a positive cultural atribute. i really was drawn to the macrobiotic phiosophy.. ohsawa made a good impression., he said "don't take anything that is not essential to your existence" and this so much summed up my own attitude in life and this word "essential" became meaningful to me in this sense. and he talked about prayer and fasting and he said "give and give and give endlessly." i got to spend a bit of time with michio and aveline kushi during the time i was under the fatherly tutelage of my illustrious mentor the babylonian brother martin roth,,, i was with them in an airport for a few hours once, i had taken them to the denver airport with jan walker (another good friend) and their plane was delayed or something... i remember this sweet little moment with aveline - she had falen asleep and i woke her by touching her gently and we looked in one anothers eyes, and i could tell that she felt a deep connection with me... some time months later i was dining in the macro restaurant in brookline and she was there and as she walked by my table she reached out her hand and i was very awkward and i always felt bad that i hadnt stood up and taken her hand and kissed it... she was very sweet and i like michio, who i now believe is likely to have been a rawat agent. there is something about the way he met Ohsawa and then headed for the usa with his agenda of one peaceful world. he had a good vibe, even if he was all tangled up with crazies. michio said to me when they left us in the airport,,, "please come to boston..." suggesting that i come to live there among his flock of lost souls... i felt strong urges to be in new england during that time and i might have taken his suggestion but didnt. i was incredibly restless throughout my 20s. speaking of that macro restaurant, Lima ohsawa was there one day when i was there... (i had a pretty good batting average in meeting "the macrobiotic royalty" while i was in brookline the few times i was there. ) Lima was going around being introduced to people in the restaurant, and she would hold each persons hand and make one quick macrobiotic style "diagnosis" comment, and her comment for me was "too much energy..." well, I was just like 24 or something, so i guess i'm glad it was too much and not enough... maybe in heaven i will be able to show her just how good it is to be with a man who has "too much energy... " maybe she will take some of it off of my hands... around that time, when my sojourn with m roth was coming to an end, i spent a few weeks living at yogi amrit desai's "kripalu"ashram in lennox mass... i found it difficult to relate to the relationship between the students and the teacher, they called him gurudev, but i was like, wait a sec, i know the satguru, this guy isnt my guru, so i had ot get out of there, and i left there to head to FL to see the real thing... i remember writing a note to "gurudev" saying that i thought his students were too unconscious about their eating habits, they were practicing "macrobiotics" which i guess meant eating brown rice, azuki beans and steamed veggies.. i was into this thing then of chewing food,, like, really! chewing food as Ohsawa defined it - until the food is completely liquified, which requires a certain amount of focus on what you are actually doing, and i was like, well if he isnt encouraging them to chew, then what kind of mindfulness practice do they have here in this place??? the other piece of the japan connection for me is of course my wonderful year and a half working under my illustrious mentor martin at the great eastern sun trading co. an outfit that imported macro foods from japan. i ended up getting invited to come to tokyo to work in the co. that was our supplier, i seriously considered but when i thought about living in a tiny cube in a tokyp high rise and riding a packed subway to work in a tiny cube in an office high rise selling cases of jinenjo tekka, buckwheat miso and obscure varieties of seaweed just didnt quite do it for me. if i'd been offered a job at an umeboshi plum farm up in the mountains in a quaint village with a few rice paddies farmed by farmers who use small tractors instead of gigantic combines like they do on rice farms in CA, and near a nice little hot springs resort, then it might have been irresistable. i do like rice, by the way... i think i probably set a world record as the person who hand cooked more rice than anyone else in a period of two years when i was doing the cooking at my first business, essential foods.. which reminds me to mention this one thing: of all the babylonian brothers, i'd known martin roth the longest... man that guy is a vortex of negativity if there ever was one... but i did get the inspiration for my first product from him. i can say that for him. the european nations that have monarchies probably are more likely to be populated with persons more freindly to us, eg., england, sweden, holland, spain, than say france and germany. i can't say i've been particularly impressed by the german's i've encountered. i kind of have this feeling that the closer you get to moscow, the deeper the disease. people who've been made to live in "soviet style" housing projects probably dont have the heathiest lives. three of my other most memorable teachers were mjr smith, who introduced me to some good stories, heart of darkness in particular - i really liked that story as well as apocalypse now... and another was david smith, a math teacher who i had an interesting relationship with, and bill miller, who bill and i both were close to.. he really liked the boys, he was a basketball couch gym teacher type, and i heard later form bill that he got in trouble in some kind of "pedophile" (heaven forbid he should be drawn to boys!) incident... i liked him a lot and i'd be not surprised if he one of ours. the sit down toilet... did babylon come up with that one? or the urinal for that matter?? i think my other brother may have come up with the lattr.. my aversion to these implements got me into trouble once.... if those really are the deep chasms of kierkegaard, those ones that i feel when i make myself laugh - and by the way almost nothing else besides what i write or say ever makes me laugh - then i have to say, i'd much rather be the person who is doing the laughing...
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