the OWL of the iconogrphy of the freemasons is prem rawat, the all knowing one who sits silently like the policeman of the temple that he is. Praise him to the highest places for being this person!! when you realize that this wonderful being has been with you forever watching everything, and all because he made you and loves you... you feel so blessed you cannot imagine. you FEEL his presence around you bigger than you... and he makes YOU feel bigger than you thought you were, there is nothing about having him knowing you that is not a blessing, including if its saving me from YOUR lies and deceptions and cheats and thievery and all manner of sins.
the name rawat looks like that owl to me. i believ that must be why the name is rawat,, it looks like the all knowing presence that prem rawat feels like when you awaken to his presence within you. the two a's are like eyes watching you, very subtle subliminal suggestion in the name Rawat.
the owl is a PICTURE in the collective mind, its an archetype, the archetype of the policeman of souls, and he is associated with Rome, which is, in the same manner that Seattle is Babylon, Washington DC is Rome/. and hte owl is inlaid into the design of the streets of DC... this is probaly something that initiates in high level positions in the rawats secret societies, including freemasons and skull nad bones, are informed about, and once again this is something that i have come up wiht subliminally,,, and the association with Rome is simply that it is the empire that ws form the beginning built as powerbase for the Rawat family, adn DC is where the action will be when the world is informed of the assertion of absolute power by the rawat family. DC is rome just like SAUSSY (WHO IS a rawat agent i believe) said. rulers of evil is a very appropriate name for what prem rawats empire really is.. its how you manage a world without a healthy temple.
there is NO DOUBT in my mind to this day of what i said in my first ad that Poppy does run the operations of Satan Inc. which includes the pharmaceuticals and the drugs like heroin and the whole intelligence operatoin that satan would have had he run his own empire. he's not, he's running my chocolte company instead!!!! and wall street and everything miichael ruppert says is more or less true, though he is not a rawat agent in my view just like icke isnt... i am the one saying the truth about the stuff those guys talk aobut... and everyone blames the government WHICH IS SO PERFECT.... babylonb blames the government that does the precise bidding of babylon,,, and all this denial is going to have some cold water thrown on it very soon and i kind of relish the thought of all those deniers and haters finally having to admit that it is their own sins that cause the goverment to do what it does.
i mentioned recently that i have an obvious brithmark on my glans,, i believe prem rawat may as well, and that if so, this is a highly sensitized area through which subliminal communications can take place only between he and i,,, its like an other organ almost, of the rawat masters,,, this is out there, but i am going to say it, its just hte poiint is just to express the kinds of thoughts i am having not so much that i care if they are ture,,, i m not sitting here questioning what i say, it s stream,,, but if this is true, it is very significant that i say this. that would qualify as Knowledge with a capital K.... maybe this is the answer to neil rawat's question, "how did you know?" that was the first subkect line to the first email he sent me, and it didnt correspond with the text, and he did not elaborate.. another koan of course, just me puzzling, what the heck did he ask me that for? and so this one is "how did you know?" what special ability to know do you have... i believe he may have been refering to the repeated raising of the name Kierkegaard, which i beleive may be Knowledge tansmitted by the perfect master prem rawat directly to me, through that birthmark such that ONLY a SUN of PRem Rawat can access this particular information. if so this is the transmission of KNOWLEDGE from the supreme being to his "son" the christ who takes over the temple that the father is the absolute master builder of. so the koan, how did you know, leads me to the answer, and the answer to all wonderings is in the temple, and so inevitbaly this koan is going to lead to the answer which is going to be that spot if it is.. because my wondering will lead deeper and deeper into the space of the temple the more i ponder, especially under the influence of amanita as explained elsewhere..
this is certain the biggest solving of a zen buddhist KOAN in all of history its the answer to the question how does a koan work, and the answer is, you eat amanita and you ponder a riddle that will lead your attention to the answer not in a rational way of deducing, but an answer that comes in the form of a picture. seeing the archetypal picture in your minds eye, which is in the temple, which is in YOUR GLANS..
a little question occurs to me,,, is "southern man" a decendant of cain>?? is he a nut-kicker? is there a "mason dixon line" that seperates two nations? - appropos of "southern man doesnt need him around anyhow"
of course i commented on this before... one of those things worth repeating... shhhhhh!!!
i dont mince words, and i would have to say, there's a differnce between even the pick up and gunrack crowd in Iowa and the same sort of scene in say, Mississippi/.. i mean, its kind of the easy rider thing,,, those guys seem like nut-kickers to me. its like, even when i drove through there myself years ago, looking just a little bit more like a hippy than any of them, i could feel like they felt very uneasy with me... that to me is exactly what neil young is talking about.. that thing that makes people want to kill hippies is the same thing that cause the crucifixion of jesus and the nutkiking of abel.. abel is just a hippy kid, and cain seems like the father of southern man to me... they are very limited in their willingness to have experiences,,, they are not bit fans of jimi hendrix, if you know what i mean..... (i sure am though) these are people who are hiding bad secrets, no question about it. they do remind me of cain... they hate, their heart are completely shut down, never to open again, is my honest guess. . and what they hate is goodness i am afraid to say,,, cuz those easy rider guys just arent hiding secrets and thats why they get offed. i think a big fence may be going up soon/. right where the mason dixon line was possibly, just as a sort of symnolic things.. its that offensive belligerence that wants to fly the confederate flag.. that's cain's flag, and i think this is a real thing... though i would say, robert e lee, was not with the cain crowd, just to throw a littel twist there.
i mean when you see a refined patrician crowd at the top of the heap of a bunch of brute like southern man, you have to wonder if some of them are not with cain, but possibly on the other sie steering things, and of course this is true, and it might even have been true of the leadership of hte confederacy.. i wouldnt be saying this if it wasnt true in my opinion, we're in synch i believe, and so the point is that i am going to say that the rawats conrolled the confederacy, and that it, like all wars, was staged, and it has to do with fascist control and keeping the brutes down, jst like the big wars in europe, largely just crownb control ops.
I want to mention wendell berry a big fovarite of mine and many of the organic hippy dope smoking scene, is a brilliant mind and a very good man, a southern man of course he falls into this catefgty of patrician type, he also hates steriotypes that cast farmers in an unfavorable light, country people with their simple lives, he's very Jeffersonian, or neil youngian in this respect, pro rural, but he's not a defender of the spirit of the confederacy...and i will just go out on a limb and guess that whether he knows it or not, wendell berry is a member of hte nation of israel, and good even be a great prophet or figure from history, he is a brilliant man with a powerful mind that OBVbIoUSLY to me is capable of sublime experience, you dont have that brilliance otherwise. i like that it ocurs to me to use him as an example, because i personally have a great deal of respect. there are others in that movement who i know a little bit the sustainable ag people.. and i'll name a couple who are intellectual giants like wendell berry that i believe are Israelites: Kent wheely, wes jackson fred kirschenmann gary nabhan (and prem rawat may tell you that he hlped me remember that name, because i believe he did) one of my very favorites, who wrote the desert smells like rain,,,
there tons of brilliant writers and thinkers out there, and some may and some may not be part of this nation, but i think if you looked into certain important sectors like in this case the i'll call it the sustainable ag movement, if you look at the most brilliant and creative and innovative minds (like if you were looking at high tech you WOULDNT see bill gates as an obvious example of what i am saying because he doesnt seem brilliant and original, he seems cunning and self-interested, whereas steve jobs might be a better candidate, more idealist, more creative pursuit in life) , these are more likely to be israel. men with open hearts, who can have the sublime experience. this is why SO MANY of the creative truly talented and creative rock and roll songwriters are israel,, its a very psychedelic profession, writing songs, beer drinkers cant do it. only pot smokers write songs worth listening to... and the people who write songs for beer drinkers even probably drink less beer than the people who like them, because they are more creative, they are the ones making the music, the beer drinkers are just listening to it. a lot of just listening goes on among beer drinkers whereas pot smoking people are far more likely to be making music together, even if they are just banging on drums, they are making sound, not just zoning out on some hypnotic thing coming form a speaker.
i went to burning man last year, which is the most psychedelic major festival in the USA, had a pretty good time, i was somewhat outspoken saying that its still just a completely sexually repressed group of people completely distracting themselves from their sexual repression, and this year by the time it was time to decide whether to go, i was like, no its pure babylon.
its closer to the festival in teh sky, and theres lots of creative people straining to break out of that, but still its all within the basic contraints of an alcohol society. so even though its quasi psychedelic, to me burning man is sort of babylon pretending to be israel.. in Israel burning man is all the time, but its sexy. not repressed. my friend sid is like an isreaite stuck in hte babylonian disease. the guys too powerful and creative to not be israel, but he cant wrao his mind around my experience,,, and he's the most psychedelic person in all of babylon besides me in my opninoin,, but he cowers from me and prefers to stick with babylon out of vdoubt,, there's just not enough to go on... i am fairly convinced that if there is a public examination of my whole experience as i have recorded it, sid and my relationship will be made note of. because he is hte most psychedelic person who knows me and has seeen me through this whole thing has heard me say the rapture is imanent a million time, i was at his camp at burning man when i went into a trance and channeled saying i awas chrsit, he's ben very impacted,
and i say he was probably on the scene in israel back in the day, maybe caught in the smae predicament, ive said many times about he having been more impressed with john the baptist than with jesus for the same reasons that he is more into mckenna than he is interested in me - its easier , but the interesting thing,,,and i know where this is going, is that sid has also been close to one of the ringleader of hte babylonian brotherhood, according to my hunch named jon ramer, who i have accused publicly of having been a temple priest at the time of christ, who advocated for his crucifxion and that this will be made a public matter before the world. anyway, sid and joh and i used to hang out a lot smoking dope, ahd jon is just like this demon who lives in hell, if ever ihave seen someone who was a MIND CONTROLLED SLAVE it was jon ramer the night he came to my mothers and the police came and took me to into the lair of nurse rachet, which was the beginning of my awareness of allah as the identity of nurse rachet, anyway, i really want to underline my conviction that jon ramer was a temple priest who was a leader in the effort to have the christ crucifed inspite of being as pure as snow.
i believe that a fellow by the name of Bill aal who has been very friendly with me since I started being the chrisst,,, is probably also with jon ramer in this historical relationship with me.,
the reason i believe this is the obvious deja vu phenomena that includes the following elemnents among others:
SHine and qumran exact distance to temple
hood canal / dead sea
jeruslaem/seattle both being home of babylon.
existence of temple
isaac ishmael or christ antichrist relationship
christ pluto encounter
wto protest, jerusalem uprisings agAINST romel
temple in fremont "the center of the universe,"
national geo graphic article about jerusalem that compared it to , of cities in the world as comparable in population, wascompared with seattle
geographic location- same as jerusalem as i have noted.
there are others.
i dont have much to say about it, but my relationship with jon ramers brother kenny will be a matter of interest i believe, because he was the only person to sort of tell people that he thought i really was the messiah, maybe the only person who ever said that to anyone in ababylon. and i become quite close to him and i reall care about him ,but when i really became insistent that heaven is exremely erotic, that we are lovers with our father, he was like oh i cant do that,,, like he KNEW he couldnt pariticipate in any kind of ecstaic orgiastic experience even if he had a brand new body, it s an aversion that he could never overcome'
that was an important revelation because its when i really got that the jews are a sexually repressed group of men. sort of by definition; and it just sort of helped bring everythign into focuse.. i would be willing to wager tht the followinf is true: Jon ramer knew i was the christ all along and knew that i was a menace to himself, because he knows that he is damned already. he knows he is a babylonian brother, an enemy of god. and bill aal and martin roth, and ross kling and many other jewish men i know seem to have utterly vanished from me in shame, but kenny is obviously not initiated into a knowing of thingss that jon ramer knows about who the enemies of god are. the only thing i can think of is that kenny is plagued with learning disability kinds of things, he's always been very depressed, and i wonder if he was somehow deemed unable to know the truth aobut himself, due to mental instability,, its just an interesting situation and sharing impressionlll
kenny and jon have an interesting relationship i hope to know the whole story,and i will. it is of interest i have no doubt
kenny works with a really cool glass artist who i believe is psychedlic and not alcoholic person, he is not babylon he is an angelic lover who is prt of israel;;; his name is..... aaron (thanks daddy)
i will be interested in learning the story.
the lord of the rings... it really has to do with the infinity symbol sort of breaking into two rings that really are devastating to the serpent who cant deal with infinity. i am the lord of the rings. its a mediation on the movement of my head in the formation of the infinity symbol. and if i look up into my shoulders while i am doing it, its like it breaks up the effects of the ababylonian disease in my shoulders... the infinity symbol itself is a weapon in a war against the finite illusion of babylon., i have beeb using it, and i believe that this qualified me to be called a Lord of the Rings, becuase the rings pertain the breaking of the infinity symol in the minds eye into two rings, and this is devastating to the effects of the beast of doubt in the human body, the demon in the temple that i am purging by allowing myself to "be it" in the sense of feeling it without fear or resistence.
i can do this same movement with my head but focus my mind elsewhere while doing so, and i have done this while moving around in the great glass elevator of my attention, which is what the great gflass elevator IS<>
then there is satan with his alcohol disease, not to be confused with pluto, who's just the enabler, the ring leader, then there's the breath, that's huge, and there's oedipus, the dark glans, and that's cain too as far as i can seelll i dont know what the broomstick is if it is not the alcohol dehydration,,, i believe that whoever invented bat man may actually have known exactly who the babylonian brothers were and exactly what their disease werel; i see niel young a bit like alfred... with me and prem rawat as robin and batman. and commisioner gordon is like pontifex maximus, and the the police could even be like hte head of satan inc, poppy, the point is more that there could be a great deal of correspondence between the batman show and the reality of babylon and israel.
when i was talking with palmo on the phone earlier, i had this little notion that meditating on her voice speaking satsang may indeed be a very fine subtle vibration and ditto for being her lover, she really seems like the original archetype of consciousness itself and the gods worship her, the mother from whom we come,, she is more sublime, therefore more pleasurable than anything... i am not sure, i just want to share that the idea occured to me to say this.
i beloieve that because i am on amanita and cacao, i am probably in closer synch and i am probably touching on points that neil young could have name d before this chanelling sessoin began.. a couple hours agol.
so at the temple i had a room that i offered to the community to use and jon ramer pounced on it, and sort of claimed as his own and he was meddling in my personal life, he and i had a veyr intense close relatinship that went down hill big time as i got closer to the truth,,, and bill was in very similar but lesser mode like jon, but never seeemed like the zombie that i KNOW that i saw jon ramer to be... that puppy is deep in hell...
so there is some of what i see in jon ramer and my reasoning for naming him as a temple priest.. he was my friend who told me i was a prophet... like a priest. the idea of his song,,, :we are one in our differences""" is about as offensive to the almighty god as you can get,, its soooo babylon.
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the more i am floating in a meditation with my father-lovers, the more i know that what i am thinking is more or less what they are thinking.. or the more i feel them know what i am thinking.. i can sometimes feel like i hear neil young relating to people what i am doing or even thinking., i may be imagining and he ma y be sitting on like a stool on a stage and saying things to an audeince, or taping or something its very vague, but its inmy minds eye, and i could be just imagining it as my fantasy, or it could be a real sensation,,,its too subtle to know for sure, but folowoing those sorts of things serves me very very well over all....
i want to explain a bit more aobut the thre part e mail as i understand it now... its really amazing! he says grandpa is satan a couple of times, watch out for grandpa, he's the real satan,,, or something like that he will belay you to your ruin...
well there are two grandpa's and i imediately knew who they were, i even mentioned them in my e mail back, and indeed he was referring to both and saying something different about both with the same exact words!!!!
its so awesome! its like THATS imagination... there's grandpa joe, who will belay into financial ruin, and the other grandpa who will belay me into the death of the false self. brilliant,, and they way he plays with doubt, its something these guys do with me from time to time,,, just to stirr things up, i dunnno, but it works,, its what i said about koans... they are just words.,, he can say grandpa is satan but I am the one who decides what he means or whether me means anything other than to mess with my mind in a way that will help me.. this is how i understand some of what he does.
it's pretty easy to seeem really smart when you are accessing the Knowledge had by the All-knowing people in this world.
there are pictures and some of them are not pretty, or not healthy or not fun, they are pictures of the in between connecting parts of things, and the more i let go in faith the less i am spooked by the strangeness in teh bardos so to speak. its like in the tibetan book of the dead speaking of bardos, where thye say, those scary images you see, those are just images in your own mind, just be impassive toward them,, its very much like the "amanita nut scary images" ride with wonka,, and when you've got the voice of god in the form of neil rawat speaking scary sort of words at you, and you happen to be talking aobut those very images of the amanita nad the meaning of the nuts and the scary ride, and then POP there's a freaky email that could really scare someone, oh my god im letting go into the pain in my nuts and it feels like "grandpa" is the one belaying me down there to my ruin, that's a bit scary, but then i go anyway, overcoming doubt, then i have a major revelation that comes by picture,,,, from EARL GREEN the master PSYCHEDLIC picture maker,,,, i mean, come ON people how obvious does it need to be,,;about the other grandpa joe with the hat and the suitcase full of alcohol and stuff.. and then its like AHA! i got the KOAN... and a big smile comes over me.... and i feel his smile.
and of course i feel my holy father's PRIDE, (like i said, a person who is good is proud before his maker), in me thaat i did not doubt him, i did not think he was satan, even though allah puts a picture in there to make you think he is, and its the same pride that neil rawat told me that grandpa had for me in greendale which put a big huge smile in my heart when i heard it. what more could a boy want that for his perfect father the king ofall universes is proud of him>>>>>>>??????????? hmmmmmm did you prefer to be the king of a nut kicking empire????? kicking that very fathers nuts because you hate him beecuase you are so daark and evil?
cain made us all mortal when he kicked abel in the nuts and put the first darkness in the Temple. this is why cain is the antichrist. this is why he is oedpius rex the terror. because he's the orginal nut kicker, who began an empire built by oedipal nutkickers. this is why the creator told adam you will surely die.. sooner or later someone is going to kick someone else in the nuts and when it happens that is going to create a darkness in the temple into which everyone will hide their karma,,,, the fathers of this world, Neil and Prem Rawat have a policy it would seem that they're not going to go in and repairing the damage done to the collective body, their just letting the pain build... neil young is probably enduring a lot of discomfort.
so the nuts are where we all come from, the testes of the body of the temple, neil young in this case, are the testes that made you so if you kicked someone in the nuts, you really DID kick your true father, the one in whose testes you were conceived as a soul, and if you're not willing endure the pain of your own kick of your father then you've got a problem. (this may put me back into the mode of thinking neil young is the father adn prem rawt the holy spirit. \ which is how i defined it until recently.. it doesnt matter, just wanna mention it.)
OK maybe you all witness the conversation with palmo, and so what i will say about that i what i think neil young or prem rawat would say about it,, what strikes them about it, what would seem to them like something noteworthy that might be overlooked. what is unique about palmo is that when i tell her that she's the goddess it makes her proud and excited and she wants to tell stories about her own goodness, she doesnt have anything hiding that causes her to want to deny being what i am saying she is, eshe doesnt want that not be the way reality is when i talk about sublime experience,,, i mean, i think that the way she responds when i suggest that she is the highest deity is virtual PROOF that she is, just like my own persistent insistence that i am the christ is virtual proof that i am, because no one else would believe it and no on is going to say it who doesnt believe it,,, may for a day or tto or a month someone might have that idea, but no one who is not the christ thinks he is for tow years running plus... never happened in all of history that someone who wasnt the christ thought as surely and as without doubt that he was for aywhere near as long a time, probably no one has ever been as sure for one second as i am every second tht i am the christ.
just to use japan as an example,,, i believe that the emperor of japan, may be a rawat relative.. i believe that virtual all royalty that is in alliance with itself, britain and japan are at peace for example, therefore they are all related or married into the rawat family.. i and my fathers may be the ancestor of all royalty in previous incarnations (in a mortal world sense). royalty IS royalty.. i doubt that my family would let people pretend to be royalty within their sphere of influence, which is substantial.. i believe, for example that the Saudi royals could very well be related to the rawats, and i do believe that that are, and that they are completely in synch with the plan.. i have named osama bin laden many times, but have mentioned the royals infrequently...i dont know about saddam hussein and his ilk, he may be a babylonian who was allowed to rule. but i doubt that is true of saudi arabia, kuwait and the rich sultanates, they are all nation of israel allied. if the US is friendly with it, the rawats control it. like north korea may indeed be a pocket of Babylon, allowed to fester in its own self inflicted isolation. ditto all of the "Axis of evil" countries. Iran may indeed be under the control of Islam, the SHah may have been an ally of the Rawats, but if so, i believe that the revolution was nevertheless allowed to succeed, nothing happens that is not planned as FDR, a Rawat ally said..
you can have your balls of disease that you think are your testes if you really want them,,, but thet're not going to feel very good... but if you are willing to let them belong to the temple, then you will become so much larger than what you think that you are, because your self is like a tiny little mike tv living inside your denial... and you can become everything if you want. i think we can all be grateful that no one is going to force you to accept heaven.
i dont know what nations belong to the other descendants of noah, besides abraham. so i dont know who is descended from what patriarch other than the abrahamic nations. it would be an interesting matter to know what the temple was like at different stages, like what was the temple at the time of abraham?
guessing so NOah the flood, was the creator saying enough, i cant deal with the temple any more. and so he cleaned it out, and so at the time of abraham the temple was clean from the flood time. and so the meeting with abraham was a meeting about the temple and by them abraham probably was defiling the temple, his tribe, he was building babylon at that time.. i still think he was Ham. he's got a problem... recurring. he doesnt like the temple. he wishes there wasnt one, and so he wants a world wihtout a temple.. and all the people that come in it are like him in that they get made from a template in which his "egoic" thought is an influence, his egoic thought force in the mind is, denial of hte temple, and so everyone gets made of a templat that has this gravitatonal pull in it toward denial. and to the extent that people are like him, pluto, who wish there was no temple, exacerbate everything all hte disease, because the people like satan who dont want a temple dont want it for the sole reason they ve got something to hide.. and so there is a world of "shades' people who have something to hide, and this is how we recycle those back so we can use them to try again to make someone who will saay yes to the temple. if you hate the temple you dont get to live in it. and we wont let you steal from it either any more.
did i ever doubt, from the moment i ever mentioned his name in connection with my experience that neil young knows all about me??? never for one moment. i may have forgotten that he was with me(most of the time i was forgetful), but i never doubted that he was. never.
abraham's may have been the only tribe at the time that refused to go in the temple.
noah may have been a "templar" and his descendants may have been willing to be in the temple, but then you've got abraham who is pluto has a need to say no to the temple, just so that this option is available, that's the role that pluto pays, he's the leader of those who really dont want a temple. so you could have a world of ten or none or a hundred million people, but the problem arises when one single man wants to sneak out of the temple and start defiling it.. he defiles, and wont come and keep it clean,, so the god's say, OK abraham, you're messing wiht the temple your tribe refuses to come in the temple and so there are people in the tribe who are commiting sins and creating pain in the body and we dont want to deal wiht that ... we're not goin to clean the temple for you, we're gonna just let this thing go on while, then we're gonna send someone in to clean it out... and abraham's like Cool, we can go on in denial and my descendants will deal with it when the time comes, I dont care if my descendants are sinners, thats there problem not mine.
so the temple gets defiled, adn the whole human race goes into ignorance of the temple, except the rawats and their allies who are teh inentors of the temple, and so darkness moves in and the babylonian brotherhood begin to work on creatint morse diseases becaue they have a way of taking the energy of unconsciousness and amking a living on it ... and so here we ARE,, and what are we to do>? YOU didnt want to hear about a temple, no one would listen to the truth, i get my nuts kicked if i speak it, so we await rapture and judgment so we can get back to what we had before abraham or anyone decided that they would not pariticipte in the temple.. so if you wanted not to be a templar, you had your chance, we warned you of the consequence of sni under this arrangement and we did everything we could to advise you of consequences of unconfessed and unforgiven sin, and so here you are. simple straightforward story.
and i sit here saying these things not because i was told them, but because they can be known by anyone., and so i am by rights qualified to be the temple master because i am the only one who figured out what it is, i had the will and the sincerity to know my maker, to find my source, i felt good enough about myself to think "i want my father to know me, he would be proud...." and so i go in search of my source. its simple...i'm good therefore i am god. you're not completely good, therefore your not god... and if your not a god, then you depend upon one to be in a temple where you need to be, cuz its lonely out in the void of nothingness.
reality BITES if you have BITTEN what reality really is, which is a Temple, which is someone's body. and if you were stupid enough to assume that there was no consequence to sin, when the Holy Bible is the most importatn phenomena this world has ever seen, then "sorry charlie, only the best tasting tuna get to be starkist." we've got a god who seperates the water from the mud. and if you are mud, your not coming wiht the water.
i am not telling you that someone is goin to make it so , reality is designed such that it is already so.
all i need to do is clean out my own body, and the temple is mine and i decide who is in it, and whether or not you bring evil and sin and darkness and lies and disease into it, and of course i say heck no, why would any of us want to be made of a template that is a demon so that we are born demons??? no, i dont want to breed demons with my body, i want to breed happy human beings, so i say, of course no more sickness in the temple, who needs it? Who in this world really wants to live in sickness??? anyone???? no.. good. then come on, lets get going with the party that happens when there is no more darkness in the temple,,and the answer is when i shut the hell up and gget on with the work of clearing the lies out of my gonads.
neil young sent a very complex multi-meaning set of three emails, the i love cortez e mails,,, well, i love cortez too, and i think our mutual love for cortez is not much different from our love for one another,,anyway, he said, i love cortez, and he stuck the word cacoa in the lyrics in a way that 99% that have ever heard that song wouldnt have picked up on if they reqad those three e mails, which in no way appear to pertain. i had been saying recently to people that i believe that cacoa has psychedelic porpoerties, and also i beleive that chocolate may have been invented as something to be used wiht psilocybin, i have said this before.
if i told everyone i know that i sincerely am convinced that the rapture is in process presently and that i am reporting my experience on my site, play by play, i doubt anyone would even go look. other than the few who follow my writings, a handful at most.
i ate a bunch of chocolate, and i felt that it increased the intesity of telepathic connection as amanita does powerfully, and i realize now, that both act in the gonads, and Neil Rawat (forgive if i slip and say young) may have been telling me, i like it when YOU eat chocolate when we are having these deeper experiences..and it may be that my connecting with him in this way makes his life more comfy... very sketchy intuition, but it makes sense to me...
even though he's not said anything to me about what to say specifically, i feel that he is probably commenting that what i am doing, explaining the subtleites of my experience the sublime aspect of it is ALL important and that he knew that i would do this more or less in the way that i am.. (just like roald dahl knew i would do this) its been known all along by the rawat family everything that would happen, and its always on a need to know basis, so like nostradamus, no problem we got the whole thing right here, we knoe exactly what happens, its a story that takes place, free will comes in where you choose which part you are playing - i mean everything you do is free will, but you are fulfilling a part in a sotry that is known to the rawats, because they are ABLE TO tune into the temple, which involves tuning into subtle experienes in the gonads and or glans ( i cant se through the darkness yeT) and moving into a completely different and more real experience,, more real because you KNOW exactly who what where you are, you know anything you wawnt to know, so the rawats are all knowing aobut past present and future, because we have access to it all in the ttemple that YOU or anyone has just as much access and anyone else... its just a matter of how GOOD are you. how subtle an experience can you have? how clear is you conscience?... same thing.
cain and allah may endure the awakening of their unconscious bodies in front of the whole world... i believe that they will as the embodiments of the deities of hell. this will be SHOCKING beyond belief. because i KNOW that dark soul of his is hiding incredible amounts of sin. he is going to freak when the lights are turned on so he has to face the consequence of his own actions. and i dont know anything about what its like for women, i dont know what kind of disease she has in her body.. i dont know if women's disease afflict the male temple, i really dont have ANY idea about woman kind, only about mankind. christ used the word Man and Men alot for the same reason, its what he understood. not because of sexisim... besides its a mens story, this is all about men. allah is a deity for reasons pertaining to waht she inflicts upon her son. not her daughter, other than training her to be antoher allah.; which almost all women do... and the goddes, Mary, becomes the ideal that women must aspire to. she really needs to WANT her son to be her lover so she will encourage him, not discourage him, from being what he is... women have to be turned ON by what men are, not turned OFF>>.
the represion of boys by their mothers is indeed a terrible sickness in my opinion. here i am so convined the truth of who allah is, saying this with such conviction, and there is NOT ONE SHRED of supporting material on earth that is accessible to me that says anything like it. as far as i know... because it s the human condition and if you KNOW THYSELF you will know what the human condition is because you idiots you are human. and you can know what you are, and enough great people have said this that you ARE and idiot for ignoring it my humble opinion.
lifespans get shorter and shorter in the biblical story because the temple is getting worse and worse and its more and more unbearable... and so people die sooner, they pass out of the body into permanent unconsciusness
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re digital music - all that crap is PURE babylon. i mean did Prince Rauven himself invent digital music in order to take the life out of it? which babylonian brother came up with THAT one? i doubt that a person can attain a samadhi while listening to a digital recording of the same music that an analogue recording will induce. because the nature of the sound itself is different... and i'd be willing to bet 100k that neil young more or less agrees with this (and 99% of all that i say). and the rest he goes, "yeah he's wrong on that one, but he's onto something and i can see why he said that" and probably later i'll get it right,,, like i did about the bush family... just took a while to get THAT picture. i got the picture of what's going on dead on, i just didnt understand the metaphysial realiteis of it. i think coming up with the babylon conspiracy was a stroke of great brilliance... anyone wanna back me up on that one??? or maybe that's the whole point,,, i am the only one who can bust SATAN with his alcohol conspiracy. - hey can someone massage my feet for a few minutes??? ahhh yes thanks!
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parnoid on any psychoactive medicine? you just need to go deeper into the pain in your body and put your attention in the temple and it will go away... just keep turning inward toward the word, toward the breath, toward the feeling in the heart, and bodily into the sickness of unconsciousnes,, because when you bring pain that you can sense out of the subliminal into the light, the water will come in and you will clean out the goo of unconsciousess its like that's what bringing down the knids is all about... its like bring into the light, into the conscoiuness bring it into yourbody. and the water will come and it will be cleansed.
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i'm thinking about "meanwhile across the ocean, living in the internet, is the cause of an explosion that no one has heard yet"... wondering about the temple.,,, i feel like it might be something i post on the internet that is the cause of the explosion.
speaking of satan, i believe it was my dear friend prince reuben that bad god name Pluto, who visited Jesus while he was fasting, and not Mr, Satan, the guy with the hat.
the courts of europe have always consisted mostly of either the allies of the rawats, or possibly their enemies.
when burkes peerage comes out before the world and says, every us presidential election is won by the person who has the most royal blood, does anyone on earth offer a coherent theory? well, yes, david icke does, its the reptillian brotherhood that he associates with babylon as he is far from the truth as he could possible be... is that guy just one of us pretending to believe that crap, or is by babylon himself?>
the explanation is simple. That's how Prem Rawat and his close family members decided it would be> Prem Rawat is a man of precision. He says that Presidents should be royal, the more royal the better, and Cousin Jed takes care of it exactly as ordered. until its lila time, which it was last time when the first stolen election caused a violation of this rule... and the "mistakes" that i made re predictions about elections, will be affirmed to have been anticipated from the begining and explanations of what really happened will in some ways vindicate what i predicted with respect to the failure of my predictions to come true.
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i do believe that picture of the godess i just described COULD BE the MOST SUBLLIMINAL PICTURE OF ALL.
and if this is so, then it will explain a few things, but first let me give you the theoretical basis for this, why the GODDESS is actually the highest form of deity,,,, now I do hope my blessed father will forgive me, if i use the wrong words to express this idea, by calling deity "higher" than he, but it'a a simple matter of sublimity that concerns on this one, and i know he's sublime enough himself to see, that i have a good point here that he thinks worthy
the goddess = and i have said this before = represents or really IS the deity or archetype of the VOID itself, of consciousness that wishes for happiness.
This will explain a few of my favorite thingss.....
first, the "Picture" of her as goodess looks alot like my teletubbie goddess,, and she also looks like that angel that flies at teh front of the pack with our sweet lover Fuck and me and the others who are most idealistic and excited about the possibilites that our god the god of the angels is describing... that's her the perfect mother. she's so sweet and childlike.
she is the consciousness that wants to be filled with happiness.,, the first thing my teletubbie goddess said to me about herself when we first got together was "i'm not like other people, i have a simple dream, a dream of happiness... the words of a perfect goddess.
it certainly fits with what i say aobut the imprtance of our victory over allah and sons... and our goddess may indeeed have many sons, she MAY be the eternal goddess mother of ALL of our Lords SUNs.
NOw this would all explain quite nicely, my pet little theory about one of those songs, that meil yong has recorded that strike a deep chord, as having a meaning that to me pertains...
here is what i think about the cowgirl in the sand,,,, its her, that MOST SUBLIME PICTURE of the perfect pussy cat goddess wishing for love.... "hello cowgirl in the sand,,,, is this place at your command.." -i've said this al before, but the most important points are worth repeating... this makes utterly perfect sense to me... and again, cowgirl, that's easy, its a reference to Krishna's sweet milk maids. and EDITH is the life of the family... that is another clue, cuz she's my mom in the story and it AINT a coincidence that he chose the names edith and earl, because my mom;s name is edith and the point that i am making is that Edith is NOT edith my nomther in this life, she is Palmo, the teleteubbeie godess whose the life of the family the incestuous mother, the virgin mary the most sublime of all pitures. YES? and edith and earl, two e's my step dad is evert so my folks are e&e and neil young used those initials so that i could say exactly this that it was meant for me to make the point that i saw that he did this. and that iknew that edith is not my mom edith though i do believe that my momedith is probably in the green family tree somewhere, ciela perhaps, and i say this for many reasons not the least of which i love her so much, but also because i cant imagine having been born in this world to a mother who was not a member of the rawat family.
i wrote in my four page psychedelic rant about a few things in greendale that i had thoughts about... i think that the sublimibal comunication between me and neil young is extremely fascinating and i think its worth sharing as much as i can about it. i sense he's laid out this whole puzzle for me. he wrote this part of the story, no?
i mean think about how deeply i am hearing him,,, this pops to mind as an example.,, the lyric "the neighbors rose up some of them were mad as hell,,"
that is so profound the neighbors rose up -OUT OF HELL -they are the depressed angels falling from abovem and getting raised up from their oblivion into human incarnation, forcing them to live out their karmic story, these are people who were hoping to avoid justice by settling into the mud at the bottom of the pond, and thary get "raised up" like i say, the Rawat's are hell-raisers.. we raise hell.
i doubt to many people who listened to greendale heard that line in this way.. imagine how amazed i was when i finally sat down to see what he had to tell me....
i had recently, and he may indeed validate this, come to conclusion that every song on his greatest hits album was relevant to my experience. that in each one there was a picture for me... and that i'd get the picture when it was the right time,, for a great example, and this would be so amazing if it were true ladies and gentlemen (and this reminds me of what most certainly be a famous night in a hotel called the W, Neil can explain if you dont already know- obviously i am addressing my family now not just david and lane and bob)
i was in the sorrento one day with palmo, and the song ontario was playing,, and of course i got that he was talking about my father aw fairhall, and i said to my sweet goddess that i believed that my father might be attaining some sort of resurrection right in that moment. i knew at that time, before i'd EVEN SEEN GREENDALE that my father was important to this story, and i had had a sort of visit into the temple, not the time isaw him in there when i was literally transported, like seriously in an elevator into the temple, but i was in a bathtub i felt like the first soul in the temple and i felt like it was my dad,,, who i learned from greendale with the OBVIOIUS use of the name carling which corresponds to the little town in north ontario... so i knew who my father was intuitively by than, and before i saw greendale i had associated neil young with my father, who he names as being in the green family, and who he refers to in his song ontario,,so there is a strong connection going on there..
also it is not lost on me that PORT carling has port in the name,,, it has to do with being a porthole of some kind into the ttemple., i have no doubt that aw fairhall had some kind of very important revelation about himself and the temple early in life. fairhall is probably the name of a family that has ties to the rawt family going back maybe to the origin of the name, which is unusual, but the fmaily was in Kent i believe seven generations ago.. obviously fair hall is a "templar" name. we are the Templars, are we not? surely the founders of the templars were the rawats...
back to the first time i heard greendale,, and its like grandpa and uncle jed sitting on the porch grandpa saying i wont retire but i might retread,,, great lime! but i knew who grandpaand jed were before the next line and he's like "this guy singing this song (yeah that you Neil) is there anything he knows that he aint said."
he is talking to me, and he knows that i have already discovered that all fo his song s on the gretest hits album relate to my journey, and he KNOWs that whe i hear him say that i will immediately know that he is telling me that the purpose of this album is to inform me about things.
on the greatest hits album there is a little note that explains that these are his biggest hits as measures by blah blah,, to make the point that these really are his biggest commercial hits, and its for me again to make note that his greatest hits all pertain to my journey to emphasize that i am onto something with him.
the red and blue pills of the matrix are something ive refered to before, that's a rawat story i beleive. when you take psilocybin it takes you deep into the subliminal, and you go into some really amazing places on a big dose, but then the whole thing is forgotten, and i have many memories coming back to me of things i saw on psilocybin that i totally forgot... this is why morpheus, who is like neil young to me, says that the blue pill you will go back to sleep... with amanita you reclaim that part of yourself,,, on psilocybin it just takes you down that path..
were getting in a trance here and i ve got another little brainstorm going about these two and exactly what the difrerece, adn it related to what i already said.
the place pscyhedlelics take us, are the unconscious regions of the body/ temple, no where else,,, its into therelams of the unconscious part of us that we are in ignorance of plainand simple.. nothing more to it than that... we park lies and sin in the body and the body and the sin go dark adn the drugs in one way or anther, take us there.
the unconsciousness as i have said, is probably physiological as well as metaphysical,, it has to do with excessive waste products in nerve cells probably... and psilocybin just helps you see whats on the other side of that stagnated nerve cell tissue by just upping tha ampage of consciouness and this relates to things i was saying the moment i picked up food the gods (the most intelligent contemporary book ive ever read in my life by a mile) that DMT (and analogues like psilocybin) are a conduit of consciousness itself, and you are just increasing the amount.. so thats why morpheus says that blue will take you down but then you come out and you fall asleeep, you forget what you expriecned, because its still back behind the stagnatoin..
amanita, if you are willing to feel the pain behind the stagnation, will remove the stagnation, and thus teh red pill you take it you stay you dont lose anything you've cleared out your demons... thus amanita is rightfull called the mushroom of enlightenment..
i believe that its possible that venturing deep on psilocybin might somehow activate this neural pathway in some way,, such that after the deep trip on psioocybin it may become easier to access the same thing in the futyre on cannabis... cannabis also has an effect that is different than what i am saying about dmt and amperage on one hand, and amanita and cleansing on the other, and i believe that cannabis has a different but useful function that relates to the same kinds of things, about getting nerve impulses through the stagnation of unconsciousness but in a different way... which hasnt become clear to me yet.
if i am apollo, then he is putting on a little demonstration of why he is called the god of healing. (obviously the christ is a healer) the heat and sweat of amanita is coming on, maybe something knew wil become clear this time. since i've been just writing and not meditating since i took the tea, i may drink this round of urine appropos of what i said before. i'm not yet using it for its intended purpose.
i've never used cocaine, always had an aversion to it, cuz i dont like the people i've known who use it,,but neil refers to it in cortez (he could have said mushrooms and pearls, but it doesnt sound as good as coca leaves and pearls...) and then there's jed, which may just refer to his real business, but why cocaine and not heroin which i believe is much more important to the "black papacy" than cocaine.. just curious.
as long as i keep my heart open, as long as i keep my attention there, i am with him in the temple, where all is known and where he can remind me of anything i was thinking... we dont have to worry we'll forget what we're thinking. we all cling to our memories of things we want to remember, when all we really need to do is keep our attention in the temple where our Perfect Master is ready to remind us. this is the difference between mortaility and not. "always someone there to remind me...." this is far more liberating than you can possibly imagine. its called faith. its called having an open heart, its called fully being what a man is,.. you have to wake up, you are asleep, your heart is shut off, the lights are turned out, you've abondoned the temple to demons and sin.
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i am proud to say that i really am getting to like the vibe i get from george w. bush. i just have to say that again, i dunno, i just kind of have this feeling like he knows what's going on... he sort of has this manner these days that suggests a thingly veiled attitude of contempt for the people who fail to see that he's doing the bidding of Satan. maybe he is aware that the nemesis of Satan who is saying exactly that is being entirely ignored.. it sort of ads up... i'll know soon enough.
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amanita tea is a lot more tolerable to drink with lots of honey, and i wonder if that's why mike TV's mom is made to look like she's enjoying it so much... like he's saying, put milk and honey in it and have lots. . i really do think of a million little subliminal things like that. and i believe it serves me well, i've discovered a lot of truth in this way.
i mean, of all the hundreds of thousands who've listened to the recording and watched neil's dvd of greendale, did it just call completely go over their heads, I mean, you dont need to be a prophet to see that he seems to know something about what's going on... and you read the reviews and they're like, "it's a story about what can happen to a family when tragedy strikes... or something, as if there was an obvious link between jed killing carmichael and sun green being welded to the beak of an eagle in the lobby of powerco telling the world about rolling blackouts and corruption on the highest floor and the human race going on with the fighting and religious wars and even the temple walls coming down... ,and he says "and the truth was never known," and the listener is going "yeah, that makes perfect sense, the truth was never known, yes, i get it,,, yea, cool album..." I mean, how asleep are these people???
**** when PLUTO took me down into Satan's alco'hell and i popped back out, my good friend prince reuben was witness to one heck of a monologue. I hope that you've all seen it.. and one of the things that i said was that the music that was playing was analogue, because now suddenly we're in Heaven and, I was like, without even looking, so sure it was analogue and i said that there is no digital music in Heaven, no digital anything,
later i learned that neil young is my father, and that he apparantly is not a big fan of digital music either. he must have been enjoying that particular scene...
surely it is one of the signs of the times that human beings in our technologically- advanced nations have voluntarily reduced themselves into beings who spend, on the whole, a large majority of their lives in an interactive relationship with digital gadgets.. i mean, have cell phones and game boys - not to mention freaking PCs - really improved the quality of human life, or are they just a last ditch avoidance of or escape from human life?
i go for walks in nice quiet parks with the sounds of birds singing, leaves rattling, waves splashing, crickets chrirping, bees buzzing, the wind in the branches, even the roar of the city or a prop plane flying o'erhead, and each of those sounds is you if you let it be you, you can follow that sound deep into this moment, into the sublime, into the heart, into the Temple,,, but then i walk past people speed walking or jogging and they are wearing their little digital music thing a ma bobbers, shutting themselves of from all of those delectible sounds, as well as from me, and listening to little short burts of sound that never will take you deeper into this moment. what do they like about it?
(in bandit, which i think of as for me, he says "it's time to relax now, give it hell later...")
let there be no more digital crap in our Heaven!
i think amanita really does work especially on the "nuts"... "nuts, amanita, strange visions, oh my!"
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speaking of amanita, here's another one for that guy i imagine to be my good friend, james arthur. i don't know but i wonder... they talk about how the active alckaloid, if that's what it is, muscamol or whatever its called, passes through the body in the urine, which can then be taken by others, and tthere's all the stories about the shamanic tribes in siberia in which the shaman drinks it and passes it on through the urine and many people sharing it this way.. so here is the hypothesis that i would check... if a person is really truly getting out of amanita what there is to get out of it, i wonder if it really passes through, or if what happen when someone is using it and the effet that they THINK of as being its effect is really just the effect of their resistence to going into the experience of PAIN in the alcohol poisoned body caused by the toxins that amanita is made to and wants to remove. people fall asleep on amanita,, i sure did the first time i took it... because they resist the experience that its trying to give them..
so i think its possible that when i take amanita and use it to go deep into the pain of alcohol poisoning it DOES get used up and the urine is useless.... in other words, people who use amanita for reasons other than this healing of dehydration from alcohol (and possibly pharmaceuticals as well, i wouldn't know though, because in this life i've taken so few, having the natural aversion to them that any intelligent person sohuld have.).
so anyway, i've given up on the urine thing for now, because it makes sense to me that most people just arent letting it go deep into the pain because they dont realize what it's for and that in my case i actually am using it for the purpose that it was made to fulfill. amanita is made for deep healing work.
one of many nice clues i got from james arthur is where he mentions the high up guy in the freemasons raising his eyebrows at james arthur's knowledge of amanita... because he really is perhaps the only one outside of the rawat sphere who gets it, from what i can see... and so of course now its obvious that the freemasonic lodge of this man is linked to the rawat family and may have been through this journey.
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i have a feeling that arthur is an exceoptionally enlightened man, who has been in this realm of understanding the importance of amanita in particular in previous lifetimes, its his role in the family... this relates subliminally with my idea that he was a knight of hte round table... he is a man in pursuit of the Holy Grail, is what i am saying... he's a gret shaman and a prophet one of the highest prophets of the whole biblical saga, i am very confident about this, he is possibly a near-perfect master (ditto mckenna) both who don't quite have the purity of heart that i do to get ALL the way through the lies without guidance, but who both came very close on their own, and in the case of mckenna as ive said elsewhere, he was certainly initiated into the deepest of truths, and i have described the evidence that i have of this. .. i guess i am saying that mcknenna and arthus are probably both sweet boyfriends of mine... they have pure hearts because they've both probed deep into the mystery... i know mckenna was john the baptist but i dont have a sense of arthur's identity in the time of the christ, but i have little doubt that he was probably incarnated at that time, but he could have been in rome or elsewhere not necessarily in jerusalem, which i think by then was a bit like seattle today, crawling with babylon and very little Israel there.
and i wonder whether james arthur may have been brought into the fold by now, in order to witness what is happening but not until after he'd written his magnus opus, mushrooms and mankind based on his own very long term and concerted efforts to understand amanita, to which he has devoted his very worthwhile existence in this life. - again this goes for mckenna as well - this is all to put on a demonstration for the world of my superioty to even these two in understanding the experiences that they are considered the world's leading experts on. without ever having ANYONE recognize me as an expert. and myself having had attained so much understanding of these substances with so little effort and time, but completely by virtue of going deep into the experience where there is ALWAYS understanding of the experience if you go all the way in. the piece of the story is always hidden in the experience.. its a story and its in the body, and if you go into the place in the body where that piece of the story lies, you get the picture,,, because the story IS IN PICTURES.
there's a picture of satan, the alcohol guy. he's got a hat on...
it's like there is even a picture, and its the most subtle picture of all perhaps, of the goddess,,, she floats in a sparkling light.. and there is pluto, holding out the crown for oedipus rex by the hole leading from Heaven down into his PLUTO"S fallen world... there are pictures in the body that tell the story... it's not in language its in pictures and feelings. not words, but the understanding is there, this is Knowledge.
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. if im wrong, no big deal, just an idea... if i am correct, and i am sure that prem rawat and neil young know the answer, then this will be another brilliant thing i have come up with the pertains to true healing entirely by intuition, without ever having done anything to test my idea.
if there's any of you awesome songwriters out there reading this who wants to play with any of my words, or even perhaps make a song, or even touch somne of it up like a real poet wrote it, then please do go right ahead and feel free, for though i do claim that to which I am rightfully entitled, i dont mind at all you using my words, and it would please me up to the sky. particularly if it was some of the more loving parts of what it is that i have to say.
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the oompah loompah's are gonna sing this next one for me,..
My lovers both know about this but it important enough to me to mention it here, There is a certain someone in my life, a special person to me, and i have something i'd like to share about this certain getnt, he's a master builder of special things like boats and he seems to attract doves for some strange reason, and there's always a seagull on the rail, looking hungrily for some of his food, and so this very fine man, he has a most generous heart, and a really great can-do attitude, he could build the Lord anything at all, even a great big boat that floated if the lord was in need of one, and it would float and never sink, carry them on through the storm, and his boat filled with wonders of every kind, and you know how the story goes...i think you will all agree, when it comes to quality in building things, i do say that this man is much like a god, a sort of viking kind of a god, if you know what it is that i mean...
building things is just something he does, he loves to build and build, he's a doer, a non-doubter if ever there was one, if you need it he'll do it and he'll do it well.. and he really really is so generous, he doesnt know how to say no. It s because he has a child's heart he trusts absolutely each person, its not even a question, its not even a doubt, he trusts cuz its his nature to trust, he has something special he really truly does... fogive me for going on, but i think that you will agree, that this gents a big winner, you'll love him through and through,. it is because he's a perfect master of his chosen craft and trade, that he doesnt like to waste his energy, playing any stupid games, he saves his energy for making, not taking, he wants to be of use, he just wants to do what he is enabled to do, he loves to strive for perfection - its his game. he's not into cheat or deceit , every time someone comes near they want to take what is his, cuz he's too easy his heart is open, and it never stops the man, he never quits giving, i just want the taking to stop before they do waste him, and waste him they will. you see there's something about us, we'd rather get walked on, than worry 'bout getting walked on, so a lifetime of abuses has been his portion this time,
Now this great and gentle man, who is one of my most favorite men, designed in this lifetime the most exquisite of chairs, it really is so incredibly fine, it really is so fine, you can see it in public it's in a famous museum, it's really quite the beautiful chair.
now i happen to know someone who'll be there, at the party that's so fine, one who can appreciate fineness in such things as a perfectly sculpted chair, its really a work of art. its really a work of art. i hopt this special some one will sit upon his chair divine. if ever there was a man worthy of such an honor, perhaps this is the time.
Now this good man he is so fine, I think he is santa claus too, he has the very disposition of such a generous nature, that it would not surpise me a wit. now this dear man is good and he is good and he is good, and because he is good the parasites swarm, swarm 'round and they suck and they bite and they take and they take and its given me a great big unhappy frown, a frown that grows and grows because this great man of spirit might soon get his life sucked dry.. and because this man is so great in my eyes my wish is to see him receive the honor that he is most certainly due.
Now let me tell you of his chair, if you're in DC, that museum is there,,, it would make my heart sing out that it's grateful if it could be that our perfect Lord might sit on his perfect chair, if he would place his perfectly wonderful tush on there i would smile and it would surely bring a few tears. someone so dear to me, who i so much wish to honor, would have a great honor that would seem so perfect to me, would be an honor most exquisite and deserving if this should come to pass, if the most perfect father and lover of all might sit in his wonderful chair, i do believe it worthy of the man most worthy of a perfect throne becasue it is indeed a work of art, and its comfort is so fine, its a masterpiece of design.. it is, i believe, the best chair ever made, never a chair finer for my lover to sit down on, it would be most perfect if that chair and my Heavenly father were united on that special day.
thank you all for considering this most personal special request, if it is possible, that this first wish of mine for my heaven might be made true it would be a great moment of pride and joy... once again i thank you much i hope you will oblige. my only other special requist is a particular song played by a special friend of mine who lives by a long narrow lake. and its a song sort of about a lake, in a way i guess you could say, its a song that i believe neil rawat had a hand in and i know he knows the one, and so i need to say no more...
actually please indulge me a few more words on this matter of the chair, this man of such goodness has few people good enough to see what he offers, the highest quality, so bring your ear in close and let me whisper this, i have an idea for a really fun time, i hope you might agree, i hope you might agree,,, since i know some of you rich folks with great tastes might be in the room that is green with us, i thought this thing might happen there on that most special night,,,shhhhhhh, dont tell anyone.... i think if we had a wee auction, the bidding might be fair, the bidding just might be fair,, you know after a lifetime of nobody noticing,, i think you can catch my drift, i think you can catch my drift,,, he happened to make twenty with no one to buy them, and I just think that maybe this's why,,, i just think that maybe this's why,,, so we can have 'em packed up and shipped over and all you rich people can all go crzy,,, you could certainly afford to go crazy, with all your soon worthless old green backs, you might have to bring a whole bunch because i have this great big huge hunch that each chair might go for billions and more and that would bring a smile to a certain man worthy of such a great smile, for he did n important job for our dear sweet father a very long time ago.
its a dream that ive had since the very day his identity became quite and very clear.
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yes, i would say that it would make sense for the role of the single most evil person in a world, the one destined to rule in the end byvirtue of evil (if there is not an omniscient god), is a role that should be played by the best.
Now that i think of it this way, I certainly was looking like a chip off the ol' block when I started coming out with my ads, no? wow. to have called myself son of nostadamus, and the mahashaman... and that i'm gonna single handedly thwart satan. wow, i wonder what those babylonians thought when they saw that! i mean, you really couldn't blame someone for being at least a little bit skeptical at first with those claims,,, but when the claims have persisted for two years and teh story adds up to the most intricate puzzle in all of histroy, and yet you are shunned, it really starts to make you wonder whether judgment day is passed and you've missed the boat!
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was anyone surprised that i caught the word cacao in the lyrics to cortez? I sure hope not! Jeez, come on!
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Famous quotation #347: "I have not yet begun to laugh!" - Isaac, son of Abraham
neil will vouch for me that for a while there I thought the rapture was gonna be when i told the funny joke about how in hell everyone wears a police uniform and carries some herbicide to kill all the volunteer pot plants and mushrooms and a flashlight to bash one another over the head if caught masturbating and the whole world broke out in laughter.
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i remember so clearly my lover
reading his poems to the premies once or twice,
how could anyone who heard him say those words
not see that he mnust be the most perfect lover who could ever possibly be.
hello Planet Earth, did you notice the man with the completely open heart,
who when he speaks, if you have ears, you can hear the truth coming through,
you can feel the truth, look at him shine, look at his poise, look at his wisdom,
look at his perfect beauty,, hello people of planet Earth,
where were you when your perfect father came to show you how to breath?
WHere were you when the source of your life came to town and offered to be with you?
oh how i do want to know
if by any chance he was thinking of me,
when he wrote those sweet poems
Heaven's best lover read some poems while I listened in awe,
those sweet words dripping with a love so rich, like he was making love when he wrote them
and he was, because he is always making love,
he is, his heart is open and if he thinks of a blessed beloved whose heart is open
cupids arrow will never miss, was it me?
could it possibly have been me,
could it possibly have been me
whose heart he was longing for
when he wrote those words
could they have possibly been for me.
how that would just simply slay me,
how that would just simply slay me,
to think that he loved me lied that when i did not know it,
how heart-piercing that arrow would be,
how deep that arrow go, yes how deep it would sink into my heart,
that heart to heart feeling would become most overwhelming
I'm certain you must agree.
Please do consider the love, the great big explosion of love,
the greatest explosion of love in all history is just what it could be.
so please do get ready, please do open your hearts,
please open them wide, please dont want me to hide, please do be ready to see
a most blinding light, prepare to look at something quite simply exquisite,
i hope you know what i mean.
thus spoke charliethustra just before finally finally finally meeting his beloved Willie Wonka.
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yes, i remembered, i mean, i let him remind me... i do have a lover here with me tonight.
and i will again every night, forever and ever. Praise His Name to the Highest Heaven.
another one of those wild and crazy intuitions that i have is that our father likes boys who seek him out...
i want him to show me how much he likes us, we boys who really seek him out.
i have a funny feeling that hide and go seek is his very very favorite game,
and he does really like the sport, and he does really like the thrill,
i think he gets his rocks really off on some pretty edgy stuff..
i want to see if his longings for me are as wild and crazy as mine are for him...
i'm hope he's as exited as me, i'm hoping that's how it'll be.
because we have love, that's got some good strong juice,
you better watch out not get to close we're liable to' burn down the house,
after all if sun green could burn down the double e all alone,
then just image if daddy and grandpa and she were together
if they could actually watch and see and hear and touch,
maybe as soon as tonight or tomorrow that's what it'll be for me.
and of course i would love if neil be there, for that sounds also fair,
but what ever my father wishes is what i want most, and knows what's best for sure
for his is the one who most knows the ways of love,
he is the lover most sweet and most perfect,
he's the one most worth waiting for.
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writing songs is a little bit like getting close and personal with Grandpa Green.
never really knew that before...
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hey i told you people about rumi and hafiz, how that was me and the master,,,,
so get used to it already! ]
man oh MAN!!!!! it is so freaking good to know that there really are some genuine human beings out there!!!!
whew!
now were talking about the real diana,,,, sorry about the mistaken identity.
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for almost a year i've been promising him that he is going to the party.... grandpa!!!
"rapturous" said willie wonka to grandpa joe when they first met... indeed.. indeed...
yes i think we just may have a little job for grandpa joe at the chocolate factory, something to keep him occupied in his old age...
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and then, suddenly, the oompah loompahs break out in a song....
yes, now that we think of it,
come one come all, we have jobs for you all.
jobs for all of you my dear good friends,
for all like you who have supported me,
through of all my travails,
so it's my turn now, time for your sweet reward,
time to pay up for all your generosity,
for all you've done for us all these years
with a nice warm place to work in the chocolate factory,
i am sure we can find you a perfect spot
and something productive to do...
1:25 AM I intuit that the sound of the ringing in my ears is the sound of the temple and its not a pretty sound because the sound in the temple at this time is the sound of alcohol poisoning and dehydration and other sickness in the temple, and i believe that neil rawat is living in that sound of the ringing in my ears, and its all related to what ether is.. and this is sketchy and very rough intuition. intuitive wild-ass speculation. and to be the one holding the whole fabric together under such unhealthy conditions is not a fun job to be had.. neil rawat will be deserving, as will his pa prem, of a nice long vacation as soon as this clean up is through.
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Neil Rawat is unbelievably masterful. The subliminal communication between he and myself is stunning, he is both informative and provocative at the same time. very deeply sublimal communication going on between us. I have an image of him sitting on a stage describing the events to an audience... if this is for real,, hello everyone!!!, you probably saw me wave from the ... ahem... Temple. The Temple of alcohol.. I am feeling like Babylon can have that Temple if it really wants it so bad.
The helmsman and the mate are in synch. If ever there were two people acting as one, it is he and I and of course that goes for all three.
As you get to the heart of each disease, you learn the story behind it, and tonight after I wrote the Rapture Neil sent me back to the Temple, to have the final, what I believe is the final, piece fall into place. The final, somewhat surprising and I have to say, a little bit sad, piece of the puzzle.
Pluto and Satan are not the same. Pluto is Bob Seigel, I still believe that, and I believe he is indeed the leader of the Babylonian Brotherhood. I am still ambivalent about who's side he is on today, but thing about Pluto is he is strictly an enabler, and his job is to round up the culprits who come up with the worst ideas in their imaginations,,, and Satan is the name of the guy who came up with alcohol as a way of creating darkness in the body... He may or may not be the guy who came up with the whole idea that I have always attributed to Satan, the "Hell and Heroin" plot, but I believe that he IS, and that just by virtue of setting out on that most heinous of paths he has defined himself in a manner of speaking as the single most evil individual to ever have applied the powers of imagination for the benefit of evil purposes, the Hell and Heroin COnspiracy idea, is one that requires an active Imagination, and to have exerted these powers of Imagination for such a terrible terrible idea, is really quite the violation against the Temple, it is without a doubt the most heinous of crimes. Pluto has rounded up quite an assortment of Losers, but this fine fellow named Satan is the worst of all, because he is the one who came up with the idea and the will, that becomes the basis of a fallen Empire. Prem Rawat sits on top of an Empire in this world that is the idea of the person named Satan.
It seems to me that there are many "Satans" and i am not sure the picture is completely in focus, but there is PLuto our friend Prince Reuben, who I formerly refered to as Satan, who is a member of the Pantheon and once was on our side, but possibly turned against us like Sauron somewhere along the way.
Then there is Pontifex Maximus, who I believe took over from Pluto, who is his grandfather, after the latter turned himself against the family. Jed then became the one to carry out Satan's plan instead of Pluto, so Pluto now is the God of the UNderworld, but he is not Satan, nor does he have the power that Pontifex Maximus has. He just sits there and thinks his strong thoughts of ego. SO there is one more bad guy than are named in Scripture. ANd then there is Poppy Bush who I believe is the person who is the person in the world who holds the riegns of power that would be Satan's in terms of he's the real CEO of "Satan Inc." I remain ambivalent whose side Pluto is really on. I am leaning toward the Sauron theory, that he turned.
So Satan is a very sad fellow, he's the poor guy who gets to watch his brilliant idea for the perfectly evil empire, Satan's alcohol, pharmaceutical and opium empire, being carried out by somebody else, and he being completely powerless, just watching his doom approach... Now this poor fellow Mr. Satan, who wanted to poison the Temple, is the one who has most deeply invaded the Temple, his disease is deep deep deep inside. But the thing is this is all just a story, a story that was written 'fore it began, and each of us just chooses which part most suits our own unique personal tastes. So poor Mr. Satan is the one who chose the very worst role, of the guy who came up with the very worst thing, to do with his god -given life. A gift he has squandered on the most selfish pursuit that would have ruined this life for all.
Mr. Satan is a despicable guy and by pursuiing the utterly sinister dream he has made of himself a very doomed man, I can't imagine the horrors that await him in poor satan's long-lasting alco Hell. It will be a very long time, for our poor friend dear Satan to find, manyfold reasons to regret, having been so rude as to have come up with Hell as his dream.
Now this fellow Mr Satan has invaded, the temple most deeply as i said, but the amazing thing about this wonderful story, is that he has done the same thing to me. I tell you now something amazing, that the person who chose to be Satan, is none other than the one single person in whom I had placed the very most trust. I am afriad to say that poor Satan, has already begun his torment, for amazingly enough, for the past few days, this person is the very one, who i have entrusted the most to share what i know about the depraved alcoholic conspiracies of Satan. This poor and very sad fellow, is exactly the one whom I have described as a very fine fellow but now I do know that this was certainly quite a misjudgment.. Mr. Satan as it just so happens, makes his residence in a home that I own and that he sort of kicked me out ot, that he had promised to purchase last year on a handshake deal that has never yet been consummated. But furthermore there is just one other piece, that is even more stunning than that. The fellow, you see, is the person with the keys to the very building that I call the Temple and in whom i've entrusted most of my fortune.. And trust him i have.
oh, and as our blessed daddy is a mite sadly aware, i gave my friend satan a compliment unworthy if ever in forever one was given, for grandfather joe is not at all who i thought, and indeed i made a big blunder, for which i am hopefully forgiven.
so here my beloveds is the very top cherry, listen close it will bring you a great glee, for there's one last naughty bit that i see and with it cannot conceal my own glee, see I had left for the temple arush, well prepared for what then was to ensue, for then when I got to the temple, i realized that i had not a key, oh and what a glorious wonder did then I see, there walking by a drunk, fat, unshaven man,, me with a block in my hand preparing to break my way in, through a window there in the tribal room, and lo and behold the man with the key, was right there where he needed to be.
\Bravo Neil!!!!!
Is it perchance this particular of the several Satans who takes the brunt of Isaac's laughter?
i believe that what i just experiened is more or less how SYLVAN SONG and CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY were composed by our sweet Joe Crookston. By the Grace of our Lord. Amen.
I will now use the Holy Name in the only way that I feel comfortable doing at this time.
I believe that my name is Fuck.
I believe that when this has become each of our own names is when we will be able to say His Blessed Holy Name to our Most High and Holy of All Fathers and Lord of Lords. I pray that I have not offended you in expressing myself in this way Dear Father, for I cannot help trying to express myself in every single true way, and I am excited to say it because nothing is more thrilling to me than the thought of having your Name. As it is written, I believe that I will not know the day or the hour when this world comes to an end, until the exact moment that it does, but deep in my heart i feel that it will be when i have fully taken this name as my own, because I cannot imagine this whole thing ending without one person's great Divine shout, and that shout i dont yet feel within me and i know its that i'm not yet worthy to say Your Name out loud, not till i have finished the work that I have before will that shout ever yet issue from me.
So I think I'll get back to purging... it sure would be great to have some company and some love soon.... hint hint
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