who do i suspect of being batman (114)

who do i suspect of being batman villian worthy? the guy with Knid' @Y@s. and the black bard.

i think i might go out for a bowl of soup, some chocolate and do some vitamin P as Prince Rauven likes to call it.. vitamin P... i love it. and vitamin M... that's good too. i feel like maybe i need to blast the great glass elevator a little higher so i can get all of teh Knids latched on... give em every chance to grab hold,,, if anyone objects or disagrees, feel free to e mail me,,

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thinking about the play on names with david young's being a person who "belongs" to Neil young, as a jesuit me thinks, anyway, it occured to me that i would see Neil as a likely candidate to have been Carl Jung, and that this is the clue contained in his name,,, whoever Jung was is an absolute giant in my book

i read memories dreams and reflections, and there is one little detail that i recall standing outl,,, it was his dream of the giant phallus and the words, "this is the man killer" it reminds me of guru muharaj ji referring to the techniques as "min killers" the phallus kills the man, the false self.. of course in order to have been neil jung would have had to have been born after Darby's death and before neils birth but i am not bothering to check because it's more important to share the thought whether its right or wrong rather than only if i am corect. its the thought that counts.

when i abonandoned ship in westport and left my father there, i left him a note in which i named three men i admired from th 20th century, one being Jung, one being Einstein and the other Ohsawa. if i remember correctly and my dad probably remembers. (AW Fairhall, that dad).

I have many times said that i felt that mckenna is like the embodiment of human intelligence, that's why i identify him wiht the scarecrow. . i would name him as a candidate to have been Einstien, even though it seems like he'd have been too old, i think i will check now, after commiting to saying it...

nope born in 55 too late to be mckenna.. perhaps whoever einstein was has not returned.

speaking of genius, a guy who came to my talks a couple or three times was aaron, who believed himself to have been Leonardo Da VInci,,, and i was very willing to believe it could be true,,, he is a guy who is profoundly interested in calanders and the division and notation of time.. maybe he was involved with Mckenna in making the mayan calander,,,, LOL... never thought of that til now... he did seem very intelligent to me, so i think i will go with aaron as da vinci.

and then there is ohsawa... well, i still like him too.

i could see einstein having been the same as mark twain,, similarly wild personality and look.

i can see the possibility that the people of poland and the baltics probably have better karma than either the russians or germans... i like the poles i;ve known, plus, its a very devoitly roman catholiic nation.. and the fact that ann wigmore is from the baltics and other small clues i've gotten, makes me think that there is probably a solid healhty core of people there. scandanavians in general seems like they have better dispositons than people from central europe.

i am still puzzling on the latin american catholics, here is a lot of machismo, the energy of rapists in my estimation, in mexico and central america. south america is more civilized.. chile, and brazil seem to have more upbeat energy argentina i dont understand, but the association with the tango makes it intruiging,,, is it pure nihilism, the melancholy of tango? i dunno.

its like, was the roman catholicism brought by the conquistadors cain's roman catholicism/? if so, what are the implications? for latin american roman catholicism,, could this be why there has not been so much as talk about a latin american pope, even though roman catholics from latin america are probably a majority.

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OK the elevator doors in hotel USA ... i've been seeing them on my psilocybin trips since shine days, really big time the night of the first fall, october 3 2003. at shine,

anyway, there is ONE door that i associate with satan and the possible execution thereof, but the other doors ive been seeing them for a long time,, the knids are about to come out of those doors and come after us..

and then well be on our way back down to earth,, probably on the course of this psilocybin trip

i think i may have said this a long time afgo...

psilocybin trip are journeys in the great glass elevator,

and amanita trips are oompah loompah songss.. its so hilarioous...

i love it... its like the red and blue pills all over again!!! in another story! in a completely different way!

superb,...

i dont care HOW sharp their fangs are or HOW vermiciously they attack me, i am gonna bring down some dinner,,, fried knid... bringing down dinner,, that's where we are over on the greendale side of the story...

the longer you stay on earth,,, the more you'll see unfold!

no hurry neil, no hurry at all, this day can go on for as long as you want it to, im having loads of fun... just dont seperate me from my computer, i wound want to be stopped from recounting this.. i am seeing a lot of visions, even while lookint at teh screen... hark, is that a pair of ross kings @Y@s i see??? i think i'd better go do the first technique and find out,,, i'll be back in the break before its time to start the second technique.

i just realized that mathew smith is probably a rawat cop... mathew are you watching this>??? if so i get you and i love you... .tom's best friend who became someone with a very loud booming voice who i remember could really relate to me, just like my friend daivid youngs, even though appearing so conservative..

what about timothy fay jones, teh prosecutor in tacoma my "other bast friend" for so many years, him too? jsuits no doubt.. mathwe for sure, daivd youngs and he are meant to remind me of one another in a certain christian cop sort of a way.. . really like i see my dad in his cop capacity actually, very much both in the image of the owl.... i love it. mathew was a witness to tom...

makes me think this is THE matthew,,,each significant person from the story, that person has this name in this life,,, like me Arthur and Jefferson,, and my borhter, might have been ANdrew Jackson... which would mean real babylonians might have help office UNTIL the civil war of course, that was breaking of babylons back in the USA awesome insight there awesome.

so mathew in mathew smith by this logic, and we have Luke of oxbow farms mark od m=bagalore, lemme think about john... john locke comes to mind but lemme think about it... i like hjohn locke my ultimate friend a s john i thnk, but i'll let y0ou know if i change... abraham lincoln was seigel... wowl... of course abraham.



HANDS DOWN that makes George D pasquale george washingtton oh my gosh... is i am onto something here then this is spectaclur news for me if george was washington.. wow, it must be... thats of course why he flies with me... OH MY GOODNESS that is fantastic.

the reference to galahad in the america song MAY refer to james arthur,, because of the name conflict and the fact that this occurs to ne tonight of all nights... anything that COULD seem to relate to tonight probably does.

im having fun but i'm a little edgy on the machine and my hsoulder hurts, but i will return no doubt..

i sent this to tom and cc'd neil
hi tom,

it occurs to me that i think matthew smith is a jesuit who was planted into our family's midst so that he could provide reliable testimony as to your and my characters and relationship,,,

something tells me you are busted really bad my fake brother...

j.

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i have always believed that robert e lee had to have been israel, probably jefferson davis too (me perhaps if he was born after TJ died) lee could have been john lee, of john lee's bar my disc throwing pal

Franklin Jones, benjamin franklin is my first guess,, adams,,,hmmm??? when did babylon come in? if tom faith was jackson... maybe jackson was andrew weill and i needed to make that little typo joke booboo to show myself that i ws thinking of the wrong andrew,,, yeehawwwww/.

love rules, you den of vipers!!!! you tried to kill me,,, now i'm gonna kill you,,, right RemedY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yee hawww!!

all of my best friends and lovers got to be president,, even William Henry Fairhall, who was obviously William Henry Harrison, made what you might call a "cameo" , no wonder I was a president fanatic and a USA fanatic, those were my friend,,, who the heck was chester arthur? saturn??

adam hewey was probably ONE of the two Adams' john and john QUIncy adams, lemme think... maybe adam and his dad who i love,,, his mom is a jew but i think he's good he was very loyal to me and they had their period of falling out, as i did, emotionally, witih adam for a few year when i wrongly suspected him of something that i realized he didint do,, i wonder if the same thing happened back in the day.. so yes adam hewey and his cool dad were the adams/..

teh other harrison benjamin could have been george... john lennon was probably vladamir, all the more reason because of my joke that we needed a john lennon, Karl Marx Groucho Marx statues to go with our Lenin,,, maybe marx was marx, what the hell why not were psuchedelic, the more variety the better...

people just dont realize how we toy with the alcohol people. its a carnival of toying...

its almost like a flood of knowledge, of intuitive understandings of things,, i suppose you could say i relly truly am realizing knowledge... yikes, its almost overwhelming,,, but of course its beautiful.. its another much happier world that i am coming into with all of those friends alreay there... i bet every other president may already be there except the ones who know me personally, bill and george obviously\
by the way, the same cast of men were probbaly roman emperors too,.

lennon might have been John,, yes for sure, that's the John who fits there for me... so there you have the four aplostles.. wow cool..

i think i need to go put my head on earth browns poor sore shoulders... there's some KNIDs there...

please dear heavenly father, i really prefer not to have the police coming whilst i am in this most vulnerable state of trying to know and love and serve you to the best of my ability, but of course i know you know this and would never do that to me unless its what just absolutely had to happen ,,, thank you dear father for knowing and doing whatever is best...

martin van buren ould have been martin volker my ski guide whom i really liked a lot. james madison probably is james arthur but james bowles could be the other virginian named james, my hot headed but otherwise well intended and likeminded friend form the bakery.

light is appearing very red to me know,,, isnt that part of the bringing down of KNIDs,, one thing i will be watching for is the SOUND effects of KNID frying... i htink its what mckenna secreibed as the sound of cellophe ripping .. he was probably referring to the same thing...

thomas forster must figure significantly, but perhaps as a behind the scenes guy.. who was alexander hamilton,, bill richardson, the teacher i know at Hamilton school,, perhaps, alexander wrist is a better choice there... alexander who is into steiner and was very interested in my jmoney ideas but who couldnt deal with me being the christ.. alex wrist was hamilton if my name theory is correct..

mckenna probably invented or introduced the I Ching to htis world... the Yellow Emperor of CHina might have been Remedy, Dr Weill. the Yellow Emperors classic is a very important book..

Lao tse, who was that? me again?

i am the more logical choice to have been vuddha and bohdidharma, since i am maitraya obviously,, buddism is a HUGELY positive force in this world, whugely positive, that was my Tamarind Tree "eiiphany du jou"r today. always an epiphany when i go there, and ALWAYS a comment to a staff person how muvh i like the whole happy nonaryan man staff,, why did people become aryans if they didnt want to be one, when they could have heen a happy buddhist from vietnam instead?? crazzy..

i have no doubt that men make an agreement, a willie wonka agreement with important fine print about secrets and honesty, when they become aryan.

if you are aryan the HOLY BIBLE is your book and the roman catholic church OR mahayana buddhism are your relgionsl, which ever one you choose,,, they are equal in my opinion.. they both can keep a man on the striaght and norrow path that lead to the eye of the needle.,. one through midfulness in mediation and one through indfulness in appreciation of who the christ was and confession of sin and communion.,, two good paths in life, both of equal worth in my eyes.. both would have prepared a man well for the moment of truth.

and aryan men cannot become alcoholic.. that;s really a bad combo.. they have to tow the rawat line. ovey one or the other of some sipiritual path laid out for them by the rawats.

and as an aryan you are probably advised with a disclaimer that you are ON YOUR OWN RECONEISSANCE, as well as that of the all seeing eyes of the rawat family.

aryan nation, this is your wake up call,, you may have a righteous attitude about aryans, but are you sure you havent forgotten some basic agreements,,, its not a lisence to arrogance and aggression... it comes with a reposnsibility to be humble and kind your racist attitudes are so ugly sooo sooos ooos ugly./.. Kenyatta and his father Arius, hte original Aryan are not happy with you... Kenyatta, what are we going to do about southern man with his attitude about what "aryan" means???? i would need to know your opinion on this if actions were going to be dictated by me...

by the way, if i have erred in thinking that Arius would have already adopted Kenyatta as one of his own perfect manifestations, then i shall certainly be recommeding him to my father for his consideration of such a special status, because i honestly believe that i see such virtue in that man as to be worthy of wuch recognition from the father of all men.,. kenyatta is a 100% honest man in my estimation,, which is about all it takes to become a rawat, either before or after being saved from your own dishonestly by his most honest son, the SUN, sun green. sun rawat. thats me sun rawat.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I am Sun Rawat I like this Name very much, can I have it now, am i worthy of it yet dear father??? HmmmmmmMMMMmmMMMMMmmMMMmMmMmmMMMM?

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the godfather story was a HUGE event in my life, including the only reqal argyment i ever got into with my father was about whether or not at about 14 or 15 shold i be able to see it.. he was adamant no, until a freind ecouraged him to let me see it... interestingl.. that it was "teh godfather" perchance, was that little incident in the bible code dear Neil??? hmmm???

how about the fact that Lennon was killed during an event with Maharaji, guru puja if i remember correctly?

any chance that my eating a mango for the first time in Tuscon at a maharahi event is something that anyone alreayd knew?

how about my association with gardenia smell being so strongly with prem rwawt,,, daddy do you like a=gardenia smell??? should i wear that smell some how when i see you???

how about a trip with joanie natale to daniel park just south of denver one time, when we notived the nice light on the small shrub oaks that grew there in that oanie mitchel paradise that no doubt got turned into yet another parking lot infested development of some kind,,, memorable events, like sitting on the overhead walkway in the Hyayt hotel in KC with jane riskin, the exact one that collapsed soon thereafter.. stuff like that.

my ski friends who skied in the exact spot on baker that some snowboarders got buried in a GIGANTIC avalanche the year of the record snows at mt maker,, they had skied that spot a few mintues before that avalanche, probab;u a bibile code ref there;.. millions ofr thenm like that.

there is no limit to the detail that is possible, and everyone in the nation of israel is probably weaved SOMEHOW into his life, and hence the mckenna exponettial ly increasing rate of reference leading up to this moment rgith about NOW!!!

9:50 pm that is...

susan and i skking wirh frith and brian at whislter,, bible code,,, these are memorable events with imnportant people FRITH by the way is a godess nlike Nina,,, she could be a Nina from another world.. possibly with brian as her mate, even though they had a hard time,, he's an interesting guy who i can see in a sane world would be very powerful and accomplished. powerful guy. much moreso that the other endodontist i know in sanoma... frith is a powerful and important woman who may actually be able to shed some light on gudrdjieff,, it occurs to me to say this, the association is that she lead trips for REI to the caucuses for many years, she;s a major expert on that all important area of the world where the ARYAN race is said ny some to have emerged..

frith really turns me on,, she is VERY alluring to me,, which i want to emphasize just so that the reason can be a topic of dsicussion,, i have a feeling she is very honest. like susan;.. they are close, i hope to be friths lover some day. she is so sexy.

the "I customer" commnet, i really felt like it was revealed to me that she would go for me,, now i forget her name sids trippy italien fellow light-artist friend iole,, she's hot...

i feel like if i knew the details i could understand the significance of jusr about everything that has ever occured inthis world, and the identies of just about any historical figure of note, i would just need to get the pig pictuure who what the circumstance,, there would alwys be an association if i looked fir it,,, we're tlkaing mondelbrot set here, everything is fractal and logical, there are not jumps no suspension of intelligence or logic required,, no Kierkegaardian leaps of faith into the unknown.,. no, its a step by step process, there IS a yellos brick road, the leap if faith would be for those who are shut diwn and cant access the sublime where the fine logic occurs..

its teh shuolders stupid... by the way,, that reminds me of my carrol quigly observation,, hey carrol did you like that one that i figured you out so easily??? did any journalist ever follow into the obvious implications of WIlliam Jefferson CLinton coming out of seeming no where and getting a Rhodes scholorship to Oxford to study with the WORLD"S TOP TWO RO THREE MAJOR LEADING EXPETS ON SECRET SOCIETIES>>> ? any one want to DARE to even consider the implications of a man whose father's identity is shrouded in secrecy rising to power in such an amazing way AFTER studying with Carrol Quigly on a rhodes scholor ship,,, and then around the time that this guy from BURKES PEERAGE starts saying things that you just WOULD NOT EXPECTaul to hear coming from the top guy at burkes peerage, i mean PiKrugman (my favorite columnist fromteh past few years, hands down over that other guy, the one whose always on ty,,, mr know it all, goldsomthing you know who i am talking about,,, me know it all,, ) reporrted this in the NY Times, that the burkes peerage guy says the more royal candidate always wins the election,,, and clinton BEAT poppy, which suggests either that he was controlled by poppy, or his mother is more roal that poppy... interesting,, no one ever talks aobut this kinfd of obvious emperor has no clothes kind of stuff.

... coulf poppy bush have actually been Bill CLinton's father?? if i had to guess that would be it,,, they are damned close like father and son,,, Icke told me that,, but i;ve seen it on TV since,,

that's my guwess, poppy was bill clintons dad in this lifetime... huh???? what???? yup.

its one thing to sit in a monestary and practive intelligence by attaining aenlightenment by puzzling on a series of KOANS, but when teh KOAN is the truth about the relationship between Poppy bush and Bill clinton, then intelligence becomes a obvious manifestation of superiority plain and simple. psychedelics RULE, because this all comes as a result of having used and mastered psycehdelics EVEN WITH the handicap of an alcoholic condition... just because i have GOOD intentions and humility i can manifest SO MUCH MORE intelligence than others, even people like SID who doesnt think about why Krishna is blue when that is SOOSOOOSOOOSOO elementary to me,,, sid cant even begind to appreciate the many more sibtle truths that i am revealing to the world,, he is amazed by the most obviuous ones like the blue krishna, but cant even begin ot consider all the finer ones i am talking aobut, all of which HAVE LOGICAL associations, which is ALL THERE EVER IS, when it comes to KNOWING things... even "the sky is blue" involves associations, it associates the sky with other things that are blue and the concept of blue as an idea can exzist wihtout people making thse associations,,

i have always associated left from right as a result of that watch that my dad bought for me in wales which that book reminded me of,,, left wrist, i can still "feel" that watch on my left wrist... so we use associations in every thought we think, but people limit the length and fineness of a TRAIN of logical thoughts whish inherently involve assocaitions... its how the mind works =,s stipid... !

its rad... i'm going with adida da aka franklin jones as nejamin franklin and therefore saying he is a major archangel sort of a rawat kind of a guy... all the most amazing that i have paid enough attnetion in this life NEVER to have forgotten the obviously interesting fact that the guys name was "franklin Jones" and i also remember what he said aobut his own name, how franklin jones somehow translates as free man or something, like freemason in a wayt... franklin jones is a 33 1/3 degree or whatever the highest highest level of free masonry, very high guy in the rawat world,, i have never doubted that guys authenticity,, to the point of risking my whole cerdibility saying this and so many other things that HONESTLY seem true to me,,

this puts barbara benker and even debbie carson in favorable light as witnesses like me to the Beast, and also Jack Garvey is probably a rawat plant, along with richard france and others,,, richard france may be involved in busting a guy naked sandy who lived in boulder,, there was another guy, the cute one who also came out from boston, possibly to help put sandy who is proabably a babylonian brother out of business,,

lots of cops in Kushidom i feel ... including michio probably... i liked him a plenty, a giant of a man,, if he is out there,, i sent my courteous repsects.. to aveline too of course.

aveline and lima ohsawa and michio and all of those macro people from japan as well as fukuoka are most likely high rawat royalty from the japan branch of the family... also jan walker is a powerful woman who played a hugely important role, including turning me on the the essene material from Zsekeley..

this life of mine has been a parade through a seies of encounters with everyone in the saga,, the whole gammut, whether i met them in this life, like sid, or whether like james arthur otr roald dahl they just had a major and highly beneficial impact through their work.. this is an increible culmination just appreciating all of thise incredible people, each and every one of whom i will be with so very soon,,, i love and apreciate each and every one of you soo soos very much and i am fdoing my best t oacknowledge each one of you, to the point of sitting here typing when my body would be happier if i jst went inside... i LOVE YOU ALL SO VERY VERY MMUCH espcially me lovely wonderful sweey generous mother, who ive been pounding so brutally these past few days... i hope she;s OK.,, she is good and she is doing her best,, in spite of it being a thinly veiled nurse ratchet job that she is pulling on me at the moment,,,

it just what women do in a world of dihonest aryan men...

that has got to be the MOST BASIC ARYAN commandment,,, you MUST BE HONEST<,, and any aryan man who has been dishonest has set himself up for the only just fate. get ready to repent, confess, apologize for and be forgiven of your sins aryan men or prepare to be fed upon by vampires for the rest of eternity.. as agreed to in the fine print of the agreement every aryan man made in becoming an aryan man i have little doubt.of this.

its only the aryan men who truly live in heaven or hell even while on earth.. teh wars between heaven and hell are fought by aryans,,,

china vs. the antichrist,, that would be the nonaryan failed souls vx the aryan failed souls., over the opium... may the best side win... i personally couldnt really care less, feom my perspective at this time,,, that's how i see armageddon at this point in time... nothing to do with israel at all, contrary to my stranger ad in which i defined Armageddon as the final defeat of babylon,, as far as Israel is concerned, i think that defeat happens right about now, when i slip down into the temple through the doorway that satan tried to obscure, the alvohol doorway which is like when gandoloh falls into the bottomless pit and then reappears wtih new and greater powers, is that me, now???

i literally could type nonstop now saying amazingly intelligent things that no one has ever said befreo,,,, this tryly is the moment of the shock wave of eschsatology, moreso, i belive than 2012,, i belive that the crescendo may peak in 2005 at the moment of rapture, and then fade back toward judgemetnt day in 2012,.. this is the main event, not judgment day.. rapture is the victory, the defeat of babylon, the last seven years is just clean up and sorting out and all of that,,, but this is the moment of the shockwave, the KEY moment in the enture sage that everything by definition leads inexorably toward, inspite of the anemic and pathetic efforts of satan and his lonely band of fallen souls who emplor the dirtiest tricks imaginable in their last ditch efforts to prevent me and others from fulfilling the agrements that we all made when we became aryan men,, ]

those losers, thos e Hell people, have NO EXCUSES for their actions, they blew it PURE AND SIMPLE!!!!

... its not the big bang that is key, it is rapture that is key as the absolutely fixed moment in time that is a given that everything revolves around,, its like the venter point off the infinity symbol in a way,,,

teh story of the Holy Bible is the skeleton of a story that contains the archetypal events and characters that must occur in the sperm dream,,, the sperm dream like this one that is wrapping up now..

adam and eve , cain and abel, abraham isaac and ishamel, joseph'e experience in egypt and the whole saga with his family all the way up to moses and the ten commandments, kings david and solomon, the temple of colomon, teh temple being destroyed by babylon, jesus and his crucifixion, , these are all event that must occur, but all else is what "teh father" neil young in this case, who is to me as i am to daniel i beleive, i just happen to be his favorite in this little circle of lovers,, like daniel is my facorite,, who is neil really, other than that, i dunno,, like there is a lot of freedom outside of the baisc story of the main events of the archetypal story... grandpa arius has a few pictures of his own that "the father" has to work with

arius is really a professional grandpa in a way.. he's the perfect GRANDFATHER and this makes me wonder about the native americans= indians who prayed to a grandfather / great spirit... maybe buffalo will shed some light on that for me sometime very soon.. i hope so... mayb buffalo was weither lewis or clark, and the ohter was the other,, also in his tribe, ed abbey,,, the monkey wrench gang guy who neal refers to in greendale something about sun gren being a monkey wrencher,,, i forget but there is a reference to ed abbey i believe,,, and alss john wesley powel was a part of buffalo's tribe.. buffalo must related to mozzarella cheese,, that;s strange but his last name reminds, and buffalo, maybe there is a cheese made from buffalo milk, maybe water bufffalo or something that he had something to do with.. oxen blue payl bunyan,, psilocybin all of that relates to buffalo and who he is.. who he represents to me,, like doug peacock the bear guy who came to the pariarie festival with the earth first guy and doug tompkins of esprit, those guys with ed abbey are a part of the monkey wrench tribe of buffalo,,, the poppers, wes, wendell possibly, they could all be with buffalo, and they are near and dear to thomas jeffersons heart, that is the spirit wiht which he sent lewis and clark out to explore the vast praiiries..

i have my own story that i was sworking on, the daneil baker story, and i think neil may have deliberately alluded to it with the name of his new album, prairie wind, and that is something that there will be more time to delve into later, but it may involve a stpry that i have already started working on FOR daniel, and daniel may have shown up in my life as a foreshadowing of that... thanks neil, i feel that you are going to be helping me wiht something that i had a strong premonition of at brning man with respoect to daniell,, maybe its what it seeems like to me, that neils last album, the title would allude to what lies ahead with me and daniel,, priarie wind, its and image from a dream that i imagined as a pat of the story of daniel and how he creates a ccyclone of energy aound the idea of heaven on earth,,, like t crop circle kind of prairie wiind, no? wihch may allude to my assertion that crop circles are just imagined into being like pyramids and other things are.. crop circles are not madem they are miracles performed by the lords of the rawat family,,

\its really after about three hours on psilocybin where it has plateaued that the sexual feelings really get strong... mckenna said something about psilocbin and eroticism,,, if you are a master, then of course there is an erotic aspext to speychedelic experience, yet mckenna said somethng about that as if he were dispelling a common miscomception that a peron on psychedleics doesnt have an erotic experience,... mckenna must have gone ALL the way in his life time...

sid has a girl friend who is VERY psycchedelic and very cute, and very interested, like sid, in mckenna,, and i really had the hots for her at stinrg cheese, neil can tell you who i am talking about,,, when i mentioned my mckenna john the baptist theory she got totally cold in a hurry, never to be friendly to me again, what's up with her/? the most exreme female version of the ralph melcher reaction.. hey terence, wassup with melcher??? you cops got your eyes on that guy???

he absolutely detested me for suggesting that mckenna was jon the baptust.. detested.. hated like i was a vile creature frmo hell just for thinking such a thought, very vehemently opposed to the ideat that someone could be smarter than him,,, what kind of a batman villian is he>>>? anohter candiate for bookworm if its not tom.

very dark and ugly reaction to my light and optimistic and cheerful suggestion that mckenna is john the baptist to me as the christ... just could not tolerate that thought... never have i seen such a strong objection other than in the case of dan, tom, and others of the many "enemies of mother earth"

funny, the only time i EVER ran into my brother tom randomly and unexpectedly in a social situaiton was at a little percussion jam session at ra;phs back in denver days (i got a bit close to ralph when we played go together a few times in santa fe where we both were during my time there...) it was a joke that i was there being a person without a good ability at percussion, but what is interesting is that tom and rajph seemed to know one another better than i thought..

one huge question that occurs to me,, when exactly tom become aware of being a minion of satan , a fallen soull,l did he always know it, or didi someone have to give him a _babylonian bump on hte head_ so to speak

(now come on, dont tell me roald dahl isnt rolling over on the floor laughing at that one,,, babylonian bump on hte head... )

i sort of have this vague memory of knowing that he was a parasite in the ether clinging to an esxistence,,, way back when i was visitin the temple as a young child,

its seems likely to me that neil had his own awaikening into being a son or arius around the time that maharaj ji realize knowledge, , neil might have been around 15,,, i really look forward to learning more about that..

the two guys who delivered the papers and told me that the polive would be here today, who i DON"T hate but in fact do love, i think they really got me,, the one who knew about mckenna and psilocybin, he was smart enough to get that i am not a crazy,, i wonder if he was able to influence anyone among the authorities that this action would be inappropriate.. he is certainly capapble,, he was familiar, both were did i meet them in the last barborview go 'round?

mark pomerantz, funny enigmatic guy, seems like he could have been another victor bremsonish babylonian type trying to mooch off me, with an insincere interest in the kinds of things that he might have thought would attract my attnention, ot he could be a sincere guy... ben kauffman and his partner whose name i should not have forgetten,, heather nordell who wrote my everygreen monthly bio,, they are excellent people in my book..

brian allen has been on my mind,, another one on merkle's shit list,,, hmmm what does that say about brian??? actually not much, even the babylonian brothers like ramer grumble about merkle.

brian allen is a mystery to mel,, seems sincere and yet very unhappy and lost,, but he really didnt seem to like my message... hmmmml i dunno

psilocbin plus water = healing... amanita plus just being awake or maybe even asleep - healing,, cannabis plus meditation = healing.. these are medicines, truly beneficial... F

cannabis and mediation are MADE FOR EACHOTHER literally.., hello you idiots out there who insist that psycho active drugs are bad,,, that;s just your excuse for your own fear of your own demons pp period,, like this guy whose been e mailing me the past couple of days, it all boils down to him wanting to refute me because i rely upon sychedelics,,, so idiotic so stupid, so not worthy even engaging in a conversation with because nothing i say, NO MATTER HOW INTELLIGENT he refuses to regocnize or acknoweldge the superior intelligence.

as i said to Lane, it is a LAW that the less intelligent must listen respectfully to the more intelligent, and this ought to be in arius's willie wonka agreement fine print ... if your intelligence is inferior you shut your mouth, you dont shoot it off at your superiors, if you do you are like violet beauregard and you get turned into a giant blueberry,, not that i understand that image, but to me that is an obnoxious characteristic that i have had to deal with so much of.... people who are to me OBBVIOUSLY of inferior intelligence, including my nurse rachet mother, acting as if they were so smart that they knew better than i do what is good for me... i hate that with a passion and i am sure arius is of a similar mind..

i sent my mom an e mail and copied this paragraph onto it...

its possible that my mom and family have been informed at have just been given a script of how they would have behaved with me - just by e mail and on the phone= had they not been told,, just an idea... palmo could be in the same position... lots of people could at this point, including george.. washington????

imagine, me and george and prince rauven, abraham, along with noah and other close friends, checking out the monuments in DC to US in prvious lives, arius leading the tour perhaps, maybe james arthut will come along for that tour alomg with raja ji and kenny.. i dunno, i can imagine it would be amazing.. i've NEVER visited a single monument or building in DC... its like the ONLY major tourist thing ive never done in the usa if you think about it.. i've been everywhere, even DC, but only on the periphery and georgetown, never went into the center, within the owl, so to speak.,..

and that i have not is no doubt by design.. this is so exciting!!!!! i know for absolute certain becuase of the obvious fact that i am living through the for real charlie experience tht we are very close now, a matter of tomorrow, the only wild card is this hospital imprisonment thing, which is begning to feel like a little trick that was played on me, the puppet master reminding me not to be such an adult, reminding me that we are kids who toy with adults, and that's all.... so why should i fear an opportunity to toy with adults?? i toyed with them last time i was at horborwiew, and i could probably toy with them even worse now... in fact, LET ME AT EM!!! i wanna toy with those DOLTS>>> !!!

i'm rp mcmurphey and if nurse rachet really wants me then let me at her,, it'' be a curse that will be on her if she drugs me against my will, and i will benefit from that curse forever...

i sent a coy of the last three paragraphs to my mom...

so franklin peirce would be franklin jones again, in his turn as president.,,

ulyses s grant,, big drinker,,, evert>>> ???

grant dermody really pops to mind actually. a gy i went to HS with..

Teddy roosevelt , same person as teddy kennedy, and that's why he never was pres, he already had his turn?>? franklin delano,, and other franklin, could that be our franklin jones again,, if so this guy is sUPer important if he was ben franklin and fdr,, i dont know if he was born before or after 1945 if after then obviously its not him but otherwise, it seems like "franklin" is probably his property as far as president s go...

like no one would have a lock on the name john or george, but franklin seems unusual enough that i would say that all three franklins, ben, pierce and fdr, would be the same person who in this incanattion is adida, franklin jones, da fre john bubba free john, YOU KNOW, HE ONE OF THOSE "WHAT'S IN A NAME" GUY, KIND OF LIKE POPPY??" or like martin roth, who used to be a what's in a name sort of observant person, until i pointed out to him that his own first name (at the time) Marty, plus the first letter of his last name R spelled martyr,,, after that he became Martin, and i neveer again heard him making note of funny puns wihtin peoples' names... I would call that another case of "CURIOUSLY STRONG HINTS" if you know what i mean....

now show me an alcohol drinker who could have come up with "curiously strong hints" in reference to this sibliminal suggestion of the hypocrisy of Martin Roth???

" a miraculous thing!" as neil says in greendale about what is happening in this very moment...

is "curiously strong hints" in the Bible Code perchance??? just one of those brilliant moments that just had to be a part of the story and therefore is in the bible code... fun fun fun fun fun funfun fun funfun fun fun

who would have guessed that the bible code would exist in part so that the christ could tell the world exactly what is in it and why and every detail practically about its significance, without ever having done any research on it other than what little there was to learn fomr the history channel documentaries created for the purpose of eduating me, and anyone else who was willing to even consider the implications of the bible code which most sinner most definitely do not want to consider.... not too many people would have imagined that scenario,, but really, its a scenrio that i myself have imagined being the reality, and i think it is, because i think i am of like mind with the person i;ve always said came up with the story, the picture story, that it tells,,, the words are just the elements that describe the PICTURES that are the events that MUST by definition happen... by definition,,, the pictures that tell of the moments that MUST occur, everything else being left up to the machine elves to figure out for us...

Terrence and Neil, am i talking your language here??? hmmm/??? i cant quite hear your answeer....

or am i really just as full of shit that everyone around here keeps telling me that i am,,,, ????

am i as crazy as my mom insists on believing??? or is it true that i am just a little bit out of her league in terms of ability to comprehend things,,, maybe Nina, as the most brilliant woman on earth, and i sincerely honestly believe that she is by definition as my twin sister,,, dear beloved sister, would you mind commenting upon this on behlaf of the female side of the rawat family, do you think my mother is correct that i am in need of pharmaceutical drugs in order to bring back the old jeff that is slipping away from her, or do you think that rather, she is in nees of a certain act of letting go to her subliminal terror, TERROR of men having an experience that she cannot understand... please dear sister, I consider you the most qualified person on planet earth to adress this matter most intelligently and convincingly as a woman.. you are the most qualified to address this matter... thank you sister..

it really IS the TERROR that drives Islamic terrorists, ALlah's fear of men having an experience that she cannot have, this feeling like it means that she doesnt really have an existence of her own, but whatever the implications she makes the fatal mistake that even my own sweet mother makes the mistake of making,, she makes the mistake of making the mistake that is most definitely a mistake, of living in TERROR of men having a more sublime expeirence that women cannot have, rather than just enjoying the benefit that women who DO accept this enjoy... heaven forever instead of hell forever, a choice that all women even my mother are stuggling with... inferiority complex is a disaster, and i think my mom could really benefit from a little bit of education by seeeing Mary ann rossi, ptarmigan and rachel brought to justice and the nature of their crimes revealed,,, i think that is all my mom will need in order to give up insisting upon being a nurse rachet.. and allah. who wants to put her son on drugs to keep him from going beyon where she could go,,

if she could only think of me as her lover and lose the parent child sickness that she has a bad case of she would be healed of this tendency that will lead to her doom if she does not give it up... because such an attitude will not be permissable in my heaven.... my mother is NOT ready to exist in this temple,,, she is an allah, but i know she will be easily cured when she has something to go on besides my intelligent explations which she is COMPLETELY UNABLE to conprehend because she is a woman who is not willing to let her son become more than what she is, to be more knowlegable, to KNOW her and her little lies and secrets, even if she only has a few she has them, which is why she resists her son being the christ and supports satan against him,..

she's a sinner, in a word, and all sinners resist the christ... until they have no choice...

i sent the followng as a lead in to an e mail to my mom with the preceding three paragraphs...

hi mama,

i hope you are willing to read a few passages from my writings,,, if not then i really would hate you for judging me and sentencing me as if you were the almighty god, (when you are really just an allah) without even letting me make a case for myself..


i believe that nina, who is diana to apollo, mary magdelain to the christ, was also mary baker eddy, and this is why the reference to drugs as a form of treatment,,, the rawat family includes mary baker eddy who was totally opposed to the use of pharms.. i will tell the people that i am a christian scientist, which i am ,, and that it is against my religion to take drugs and i will fight for my religious freedom from your fascist nurse rachet interference with my spiritual evolution in this manner..

it really is so perfect that the christ should have to do battle with his own mother as allah in this lifetime..

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