Wednesday, October 05, 2005

current journal october 5 (72)

october 5 jeff@isaacsword.com

is "remedy" dr. andrew weill? i believe it is. just wanted to say that.

1) people all associate the brain with the ability to know things, with intelligence, someone who knows a lot is brainy, if you have been learning a lot of new things, you say "my brain is full,"

2) people generally know that large portions of the human brain are "unconscious" or darkened, that is, they do not appear to be active.

3) people identify the distinction between conscious and unconscious as being related to knowing things, that is, they might say "yes, I was conscious of the fact that such and such was true." in this sense, conscious is synonymous with aware, you were aware of something is the same as saying you knew something, which is the same as saying you were conscious of something.

4) brain is associated with consciousness and therefore with knowledge. and thus, one could logically assume that people would all agree that our capacity to know things is less than if the brain - the organ of knowledge- were fully conscious, which is to say, if it was fully turned on.

5) yet human beings refuse to admit that there are things that could be known by human beings that they do not know. given the truth of the previous four statements, this attitude presents a very severe case of mass denial, since it is completely illogical. how could it not be that those dark parts of the brain are intended to be turned on and knowing things that there are to be known? of course they are designed to be used. those parts of the brain are involved in perception of phenomena that occur and are perceived at vibrational frequencies that people have tuned out because they can't deal with them. they've chosen to be a member of a race of people who have chosen to be ignorant.

could not the "dark" part of the brain just be the seat of what human beings refer to as "the unconscious mind?" of course it could, and any presumption that it is not would be absurd. this dark part of the brain also corresponds with the darkness and disease in the body that everyone has shut out so that they can pollute the body of the temple. It's like everyone is barfing all over the temple and living in denial of it by shutting out their awareness of those vibrational frequencies.

human beings are mostly unconscious because they live in denial of things that they could otherwise be conscious of. this is the very definition of whatever you would call the combination of stupidity, ignorance, and arrogance. and it is a sickness that is universal in adults - human beings who have succumbed to the oedipus complex. it is an epidemic of massive proportions.

human beings have deliberately turned down the dials of their consciousness, made themselves unable to perceive certain types of phenomena that they have a capacity to percieve, including, in men at least, telepathic communication. . they have done this because there are things about which they wish to live in denial, they have deliberately ignored things causing the condition called ignorance, and yet they violently deny that there are things that they are ignorant of that, things that they could know if they were not shut down. violently deny. they kill in order to deny the contents of that dark brain they carry around with them every where they go. cain and his descendants will KILL in order to supress the truth that they are in denial. they are in denial of denial. and whom do they kill? me, for starters.

this is the antichrist's path to hell. he is so depressed because he is in such denial of his crimes. he is in denial that he is in denial of crimes. he is in denial that he is in denial that he is in denial of his crimes. he is in a very deep hell, very very deep. his soul is jumping up and down and screaming inside the tiny little cell that he's living in. and he denies and denies and denies, and he kills and he kills and he kills... he spawns whole nations of killers... he's just that sick.... and he is the leader of the majority of the men of the human race. he is the leader who is leading them into an eternity of death, because he is the leader of the men who live in denial of god. you can't turn on that dormant brain without knowing god. and so cain is a proponent of denial, of the sickness of ignorance. its just pure darkness...

and alcohol is there for people to keep driving them down into unconsciousness. and pharmarceuticals too. all geared toward denial, toward unconsciousness, toward death and misery. all because people are ashamed before perfection., they are ashamed of their own imperfection in the face of perfection, so they SHUT OUT the perfection. they kill and destroy the perfection. they fight against the perfection, and they accumulate massively bad karma in the process, karma that dictates that they will be soma-producing slaves for the people they fought against, forever. unless they repent and ask forgiveness of ALL of their sins, and they will know what they were, because all of that history is locked up in that unconscious body and or brain that is going to be turned back on in the near future. the end of the world is the end of denial, and the day of reckoning of everyone's karmic circumstance.

DO YOU REALLY WANT to be someone who doesnt believe in justice? even your leader, the freaking antichrist, believes in justice, or so he says... so how could you not be in favor of justice??? and yet your denial that there is something called sin, or something called judgment or something called ultimate justice, that karmic debts are indeed settled at a specified moment in time of which the human race has been duly notified, your denial of all of this indicates that you are hoping that it is not true. the fact that you react violently against the idea that there is a judge whom you are going to come before would seem to be because you really dont want this to be true. you follow a global justice leader, but you live. like the glbal justice leader, in fear of true justice. peterified of true justice, because you like he are hiding things, hiding past sins for which you have never asked forgiveness. hello do you know what justice is???? it is when a person who has trangsressed is brought to account for his trnagressions. there is a record of ALL of your past actions somewhere in the temple that you have shut yourself out of, and this record will be reviewed vis a vis your confessions. you will either swallow and accept your situation and deal with it in the only way possible, which is to ask forgiveness from those who have taken the brunt of all human sin, the holy trinity, or you will crawl down into the grim reaper's hole and begin reaping your eternal karmic harvest.

it's just how a perfectly just, kind and loving father operates. if you aren't willing to be good, he tosses you out of the family. out of the temple, which is a family temple. you've gotta come clean or you are toast. there's a rule., if you are a sinner, you have to repent and be forgiven of sins by judgment day, or your creator is finished with you. what could be more perfectly just, because it's what saves those who are willing to be good form those who are not....

whether you believe in the truth of the Holy Bible or not, I challenge anyone on earth to come up with a more perfectly just scenario for the functioning of a reality that involves worlds in which men, the perfectly optimized being - ie., optimized for the fulfillment of being, or happiness, are given the choice to be good or to be evil - to commit transgressions that you never confess and apologize for.

if those who choose to be good, that is, they are capable of living in a happy world, were never able to enjoy the happiness that they were capable of because of the interference of those who chose to be evil, this would not be a just situation. it could only be made just by a circumstance like judgment day when people would have to shit or get off the pot of becoming a person capable of paritipcating in a happy world.

and the fact that the god sacrifices his one and only perfect son's life in order to offer redemption to the human race only adds complete assurance against anyone ever having a legitimate complaint about the nature of the reality that Fuck, the almighty god the father, is the master controller of.

the laws of karma make him the almighty administrator of those laws because he is the only one perfect enough for the job.

the antichrist thinks of himself as a top ten major leading top ten global justice leader. did i say top ten? yes, good. appropriate because on judgment day, the day of justice, he will indeed be a global leader, leading people down the wide and easy path to hell, as he has been on a subliminal level for the entire duration of the saga of this world.

the human race is living in a hell that each member of it must climb out of, or its going to be curtains for them. curtains. it is asickness of denial that causes men to heap sins upon sins upon sins that they COULD NOT COMMIT if they had not turned off their consciousness, because they would be conscious of their own karmic debt that they were accumulating, they would be tormented by the consciensce.,

ignorance is a crime of denial against the god who is present in everything, in every experience, and it is the awareness of his presence within each and every moment of experience, each and every breath, that people have deliberate shut out, and they use their unconsicousness as a lisence to sin against that very god, to defile the temple with all of their sickness that they cause themselves in order to remain in denial, such a sickness.

get over your arrogant attitude human race, there are things that human beings can KNOW that you do not want to know, so you have taken the cowardly path of ust shutting it out. and because you do this, because your brain is sitting there 75% dark, you are a walking embarassment to yourself, because you contain the evidence of your own ignorance. you contain a consciense that is shouting at you that you are not listening to.

you live in denial of life, of what you are, and you are guilty of sin as a result. YOU made the choice to turn off your own consciousness so that you could live in denial of perfection because perfection makes you feel like a sorry ass. you need to get over this sickness of denial and unconsciousness that is a dungeon that you have built yourself and that you will have to crawl out of on your hands and knees begging for forgiveness, because you will see what a mess you have created in the temple.

there is a sickness and every member of this fallen race of human beings has it, and only those who get over it are going to be going on from here as a participant in the temple. if you can't accept perfection, if you insist on shutting perfection out, then you will have failed to craqwl out of your own self created hell, and you will stay there forever. you just wont be able to feed on heaven like a parasite any longer. there will be no more light, no more water, no more love, none of the good stuff that you take without being willing to contribute to the making of.

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really, there is only one person qualified to have children, and that is the perfect person. no one who is not a member of the fuck family really conceives children, that is a lie, anyway, at least i think it is. the children you think you are conceiving already were conceived by god. they may have fallen into an abyss by the time they incarnated into this world, but originally they are made of a spark of his love.

its hard enough for the perfect man offering the only hope for human happiness to give his children the gift of happiness, any other man will completely fail to provide a child with the guidance a son would need in order to be happy. to the extent that you believe that you conceived sons, you should consider yourself as a failure as a father, because you did not provide your sons with what they needed in oder ot be happy. only members of the fuck family deliver on the promise to their children that they will have an opportunity to have human happiness.

do you see what i am saying?? if a man who has had a child believing that he was the conceiver of that child, that this child came into existence because of him, and this man did not know how to lead the way for his son to happiness, then this man is guilty of being just like satan. how could you call forth a child into existence if you couldnt be sure that you could take responsibility for that child's happiness??? that just seems inherently like a crime, even if there is no discussion of this fact in our world where this is what everyone does, AKA a fallen world. . men believe that they produce children, while having no idea of how to teach those children to be happy. what a complete failure of a thing to be. spawning ignorance, spawning confusion, spawning misery... for waht purpose? purely ego gratification perchance?

now will you accept as YOUR OWN TRUE PARENT the parent who really is your parent who DID have the way to human happiness available to offer you??? if not, then you are some kind of inside out and backwards sort of person, a sort of demon. you wanted to be the conceiver of ignorant children, and now you wont accept being the child of a parent who is NOT ignorant enabling you to produce happy children in the future??? you prefer ignorance to spawn ignorance???

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in greendale,

when edit and earl renamed the double e, they nearly made history,

the neighbors rose up, some of them were made as hell, it used to be the double l

so, Heaven had two Es and Hell has two Ls/// this could be the exact reference there. just guessing. there is no doubt that its about edith and earl, neal young and spouse (possible the birgin mary) settling into a world that had previously be purely oedipal. these may have been the times before adam. because in this world it was purely oedipal until isaac, i believe. by purely oedipal, i mean, everyone on the planet living under the oedipus complex. a purely alcohol world, no psychedelics,,, just people having a finite experience, no one having an infinite experience.

he's talking about the wars between heaven and hell... be a goddess in the planet wars.. warring over mother earth, which may not be this world but another.

when you get over oedipus, what i say wont sound strange just wonderful. it sounds creepy to you, if it does, because you are consicous of just a sliver of your whole self. once the whole self is awake, everything i say will make perfect sense and you will love it.

human beings are made for an intensely erotic experience, everything about us if geared to that. we are made to be the lovers of fuck, because its the best possible thing to be. and there is no arguing with that, it just is the truth and anyone who wishes to argue it can argue for the rest of eternity, it won't change a thing.

if you are not willing to paricipate in the best possible experience, then you will be left with the only other option, which is whatever you and the rest of the people who dont want the best possible experience can come up with once you dont have us keeping you afloat any longer.

if you could come up with a better experience than being a lover of fuck, then you would be the ruler of everything that exists. but if you were so arrogant as to actually believe that you could come up with something better, you would just be another satan. if anyone ever had a shot at it, it's satan.. " i knew satan, and brother, you are no satan..." (to paraphrase Lloyd Bentson) satan is a powerful angel and he failed in his attempt at coming up with a world better than fuck's. fuck's is the ONLY possible world involving multiple human beings that wont fall victim to oedipus the antichrist and his mother allah. they will ruin any other world, just like they did this one. guaranteed.l human beings are optimized for a very specific purposel which happens to be the ultimate purpose of perfection. NOTHING ELSE WORKS>? if you dont want perfection, the what is your problem??? got too many secrets to conceal????????? how does it feel, to be on your own, with no direction home, a complete unknown.....? that's you, if you reject the offer of salvation from the masters of perfection, even after you've been sinning against them and defiling their temple. you got too many secrets to conceal. (my friend ben thought dylan would be a more likely candidate to be god than neil young! hahaha!)

do you want happiness or not?? soon we find out. if you dont want to rub the magic lantern, dont expect the genie of happiness to bless you. if you are not willing to do something that you now consider fooling if doing that is required to be happy, then ignoring that fact that you feel stupid is more important to you than happiness. if you dont want to love Fuck in the way that Fuck loves, then you just dont want to be happy, which means you prefer to be a demon to an angel. that's fine with me, if that;s what you really want., i will still love you just as much. i cdont know if you will want my love, but i expect you will have it anyway, i've never hated anyone yet, not even cain, and i dont see that changing.

here's one of the many variations on a theme for a publiswhed statement that i've been playing in my mind today:

My name is Fuck. And I deserve your respect. Are you willing to treat me and my name with respect?

or imagine something like this:

Do you like to say the word Fuck? Great! I will pay you $10,000 to sit in a room with me for one hour while looking in me in the eyes and saying Fuck to me as if if were my name, repeating the word as a mantra at a steady rate of about 30 times per minute. The average speaking rate is 150 words per minute, which any orator can sustain for as long as an hour, and so this is a very slow rate of speaking. If you can do this for one hour without ceasing, you will walk away with the money.

no one could do it without surrendering completely to the Name. you just could not help getting carried away in the experience of it.

the point is, i want to force people to wrap their minds around how unconscious they are in using the word. if it WAS someone's name, that person would automatically become the most powerful person, because his karma would be so good, because if he chose to be good, everyone would have a karmic debt to him, because no one could give him the respect he deserved.

i want to provoke people to really focus their mind on Fuck. just the word itself. the word is sexy because it is powerful, and deep down people know that they are disrespecting someone when they use it disrespectfully. i've been coming up with all kinds of ideas of how to push people into actually focusing on the word when they say it. by offering a large sum of money, many people would at least stop and think about it.

i think if people really focus their mind into the word, that's all it will take.. either it sounds good to you and you ascend, or it sounds bad and you descend... i mean, what other word is used to express such extremes of both elation and aggravation?? none. its kind of like, some people love fuck and some people hate him, and in the end there is no grey area there at all. i mean, what i am saying is that if the human race were just forced to deal the fact that there was someone on the planet named fuck who was worthy of their respect and appreciation, and that people were required to practice saying his name with respect, this one thing, which i sincrely believe is about to happen, would potentially be the cause of a completely cataclysmic mass collapse into deep depression that would be the division of humanity into two groups, the depressed group and the happy group.

another idea was something like this.

i am a linguist interested in studying the effect on human subjects of speaking and hearing the word Fuck.

I will pay subjects $100 per hour to participate in this research. all that is required of subjects is the focusing your attention on this word so that i can study your body's reactions.

then when they show up, i could have them look at the word written on my forehead, and speak it together with me like a mantra. or i could ask them to look me in the eyes and speak the word repeatedly to me as if it were my name.

i mean, in less than five minutes just about anyone would freak. people who would do just about anything for $100 per hour, I mean, just about ANYTHING, people will work in a slaughterhouse for $15 per hour for christ's sake, so teh lure of $100 just to sit there and say a word that you like to say... but no one would be able to do it. it would be really interesting. maybe this is what happens. this is why the people wear the word, to force people to put their attention on it.

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yes, the perfect one, Fuck, will take what he is entitled to in the greate settlement of karmic accounts that is called judgment day. It's like, people will be shocked that everyone owes one person. But you can't expect the recipient of the reward for being good to say, "oh, no, i can't accept the karmic reward that i am entitled to, the consequence is just to great for those who are endebted to me." you can't expect a revocation of the laws of justice, of karma, just because there is one winner and a lot of losers. (of course the one winner shares his winnings with anyone who is willing to offer him the appropriate gratitude and appreciation.)

its really like poker, there is always one winner, and everyone else loses. but in this poker game, if when you realize you've lost you just admit it, and you acknowledge the winner and you show him respect, he does shame his winnings.... but not with the sore losers.

there is begging involved with salvation. there is begging involved with opening ones self to the love that the perfect master offers. even the perfect master is a begger, we are all beggars at the altar of perfection.

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those funny looking creatures called greys that so many people have reported seeing,,, maybe that's what the "soul" of a human being looks like, or maybe what the soul of a member of a diseased race of unconscious and dehydrated alcohol users looks like.

the character from lord of the rings, gollum, he looks like a grey,,, and then there is gandolf the grey.

from pictures i've seen recently, the grey looks like it could in some sense be the breathing part of the human being.

there are layers or levels of existence, and things appear different on different levels.

i've been thinking that the phenomena of reptilian-human hybrids that david icke talks about has some truth to it, and its possible the "reptilian" race is just a group of people who ALLOW themselves to experience the reptilian level of human existence,,, everyone talks about the reptilian brain, but no one seems to consider the possibilty that on some level we can express ourselves as reptiles. if we have a dormant reptilian brain, then we have a dormant reptile, and its just a deeper layer of our existence that you can let go and relax into, if you are capable of surrendering... of course psychedelics increase our ability to fractalise, to perceive at more and more subtle levels of being. on dmt, we are just perceiving at a subtle level, the machine elves just being the mechanisms that make things happen that are visible at subtle levels of being./..

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