there must be a provision (113)

there must be a provision in the law that says that a christian scientist should be offered other forms of treatment before drugs are employed against their religious freedom,,, i will fight for my rights on the basis of this,,, i should be able to undertake a non drug therapy and be evaluated on the basis of some sort of reasonable empirical testing of a persons vital mental functioning using EEGS or something,,, the State cannot trample on my religious freedom based on a specious accusation of "mental illness" with NO empirical evidence WHATSOEVER that i have a condition that has been identified and that there is an effective drug therapy for,... that's all bullshit and i will fight them on it with every penny i have in legal fees if i have to..


i will spend every penny i have on newspaper ads accusing my own mother of conspiring to thwart my own spiritual journey as a nurse rachet... i will shame her into leaving me in peace from her totally unjustifiable meddling in my life..

dear mama,, i swear to god i mean what i say... i will sell my house and the chocoate company at auction to the highest bidder and use the proceeds to fight against you and tom and satan joe whinney, the biggest liar in the history of planet earth...

you've been duped by satan, hte most pathetic liar in history into believing that he is going to save the christ from himself,,, you are so stupid...

you're such a stupid girl

you've really got a lot to learn,,,

that song is so fitting in this moment..

i gotta go get the lyrics and put em up here.


You're just a stupid girl
You really got a lot to learn
Start living again
Forget about remembering
You're such a stupid girl.

You're such a beautiful fish
Floppin' on the summer sand
Lookin' for the wave you missed
When another one is close at hand
You're such a stupid girl.

You're such a stupid girl.

I saw you in Mercedes Benz
Practicing self-defense
You got it pretty good I guess
I couldn't see your eyes
You're really stupid, girl.

You're such a stupid girl.
You're such a stupid girl.


is this just neil speaking the truth that women, when they try to outsmart men. really just are plain stupid??? lesser intelligence MUST respect superior intelligence, its a sin not to... its just flat out wrong and contemptable when a person of lesser intelligence pompously pretends as if he or she is of superior intelligence its buffoonery, like my mothers present buffonery.. ..

there's a piece on AOL home page right now about luxurious private aircraft of the type that my father jtes around in... hmmmm,,,, what is the meaning of this appearing on this of all nights>>>> ???>??????

aany possible association there????

or just randomness,,, neil could tell you the answer to that one.. he might have that one in the bible code too..
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what i just said about my mom's TERROR about men having an experience she cannot have or understand being the root cause of what is manifesting as Islamic terrorism is an extremely important thing that is being said here. it comes from a lack of having her relationships with men in the proper order,, she is not lovers with her son so she opposes him, whereas Palmo is my mother who is my lover, and she supports me...

ALLAH is the cause of all the religious wars in this world and my mother is putting on a nice little demonstratoin for the world of how widespread this problem is...

i'm sending her all of these comments as exerpts in e mails.

i am fighting my mom in spite of an e mail that neil sent me that seemed to be VERY EXPLICITLY directing me to lay off... but all he does is send puzzles, even when they sound like directives,,, i am atacking my mom, and i wouldnt be doing it if it was not meant to happen, in all honesty this is what i believe at this time..

he said he wanted to pick me up in his helicopter the first e mail, that was what, three weeks ago or somethng/

so if i took that too literally, i'd a been standing in the parking lot waiting like i did last november,,,

now i dont take what he says lieterally and my gut instinct is what i am going wiht,,, i want to fight against the system and protect my body from their poisons if i can...

what an incredible controvery,,, the christ trying to protect himself from satan and allah in the form of his own mother against pharmaceutical poisoning , using as the basis for his defense against involuntary suicide, or shall i just say, his defense against _assault with a deadly weapon_??, his own sister's religion, christian science, the most profound understanding or interpretation of his own life's teachings that anyone ever came up with..

as i finish clearing the "yellow" out the nerve cells in my own body and my central nervois system appraoches full functionality, i feel a certain sense of erotic desire that i feel could never be fully satisfied by a woman... i believe that this is a trait the i am coming to understand that i have that is associated with what it really means to be Aryan, to be Aryan is to be a lover of other men, as well as women,, it is to be completely free to experience an intensity of experience that is intense, and that requires goodness and a lack of need to conceal anything at all about oneself... if you are a man who has chosen to be a member of the aryan race, you need to get back with the program that you agreed to or its curtains and worse for you, for you will have subjected yourselves to a terrible curse by having aligned yourselves with a terrble conspiracy with epic consequences devised by a really idoitic but evil guy named Satan the promoter of distilled alcohol who as an Aryan made himself and some of his friends into the enemies of the Aryan Race, and the whole human race, as a result of deciding that he didn't really like being what an Aryan is because he wanted to conceal his own evil intentions..

if you wanna go with that guy, good luck to you, but i do recommend if you have any ambivalence about it at all to check us out, we're the rawat family, the source of the Aryan Race in every world that our family invents and we're what you wanted to be before you aligned yourselves with the mortal enemies of teh Aryan Race..

there is nothing i can do about your own stupidty, all I am is a person who didnt fall into the traps that you fell into,, i am just trying to save myself from your own failures to be what you said you wanted to be... it's your sickness, and i need to release me and my family from it regardless of the consequence.. if you can still reform yourself, then i adivse getting in the line ot get in line that should have already formed at teh doors of the nearest roman catholic church... your salvation is at hand if you want it, otherwise we will need to get you out of the way with the greatest possible efficiency... i cannot see why there should be any delay in ridding this world of aryan men who are unwilling to abide by the agreements that they must sruely have made when they made the choice to accept the gift of being an aryan man.. the thing that everyone wants to be until they realize that they cant be that AND be evil at teh same time, and they decide, like Joseph P Whinney, Mr Satan, the Alcohol Salesman par Escellence, that being evil is just a little more important to you than you admitted to yourself when you made a vow to be honest..

did not all aryan men make a promise to he honest/?? i want to know?? if so then lets get the truth serum ready and get busy with some truth tellinjg.. please,,, it is time is it not?> weve had it with cheat and deceit and lies and deceptions... its time for the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth, so help me god... it's time for honesty..

to toy with Patrick Henry, Henry???? is that YOU??? man if that's you Henry then you are a good actor!, "give me your honesty or give me your death, one or the other,"

honesty or damnation as far as i am concerned for the aryan men who've wrought havoc in this world by breaking their own promise to be honest.. '

teh women are all messed up allahs but its only because, as adam SYMBOLIZES, but did not necessarily manifest himself as the person of adam, since he was a rawat, its the men who are dishonest that give license to Allah to ever come into the world and play.. Adam invited allah in by being dishonest.. and that may have been a rawat allowing her in, perhaps as what dave matthews is referring when he says "the wicked lies we tell."

but that isnt a wicked lie, to set the stage for allah, becuase even though they promise to be honest, virtually any man who was in adam's stead would have done the same thing.

Aryan men who are dishonest are, like adam symnolises, the beginning and the root of all human failure. once their dishonesty is established, the worst RESULT of this failure to abide by the agrement to honesty is allah, but its the dishonest men who INVITE allah to come and play..

ARYAN MEN, you are busted, almost all of you for renegging on a hugely important agreement, to be honest.. and you need to get with the program immediately in my opinion there will be little delay in dealing with this situatoin... it is time, obviously..

it is time for the ALCOHOLIC DOMINATOR culture to give way to the PSTCHEDLIC PARTNERSHIP culture... yes terence, you were most certainly PRECISELY DEAD ON in virtually everything you said, as i have been,,, and yet NO ONE really got that you were SO OBVIOUSLY john the baptist, any intelligent person could figure that out, and anyone who HEARD me say that and dismissed it without giving it deep condieration, virtually everyone, is in my opinion stupid by definition..

stupid:someone who thinks he is smarter than someone who is actually smarter than he is is stupid.

i can't think of a better definition for "stupid" than that, and i tell you, there are a lot of stupid people here in Babylon by this definition.

i know, i know, Bill Clinton will look at that and say, "it depends on what the definition of "is" is... since he and i are two people who like to use consecutive "is"es, maybe that means we're secretly lovers,, is that why your middle name is Jefferson my lover dear slick willie?? because you are a secret admirer of mine>>> ? Hmmm?? or even a descendant??? you know what would be so perfect for me to learn????

this: that here is the explanation for how Bill CLinton could have beat Poppy Bush in spite of the burke's peerage's adage that the more royal always wins,,, so here is my hope and my prayer is the truth about the man with the cigar in monica's "tu" as its called in Tibetan...

That he is a desendant of Thomas Jefferson through his liason with Sally Hennings who was really my sister Nina, and so is of he most royal blood possible, the Blood of the holy twin brother and sister, the holiest of holy blood, is that is dear bill??? or should i present Carroll Quigley with this interesting and quite queer query???

that would be too cool.. nahhh too cool, it could possibly be THAT cool that CLinton was a descendant of Jefferson and Hennings, who was Nina,, no that would be just too perfect, justitcouldnt bel.... nooooo jo jeff put that cray idea out of your head.. stop it!!!!

the longer you stay on earth, the more you'll see unfold,,

so who was Nixon dammit??? i wanna figure that one out... who got to play that role???

no wonder i cried when i heard clintons speech, i think it was his acceptance speech, thinking, now here is a decenty human being - only to become totally depressed by the reality of what he did in office, which no doubt had nothing to do with his Character that i could see was so good and so sincere that is moved me to tears, the only time a political speech ever did that.

i was pulling for you ALL THE WAY throught that incredible farce Bill... believe me, i didnt fall for that crap,,, the only thing you ever said that i knew was a lie was "i didnt inhale,,"

did you hear my joke about what W said when asked about his rumored cocaine use from long ago? "I didn't inhale."

he figured since Bill got away with it he would too..

i told that joke to a few people but never got much of a rise, but dammit, maybe bill and george will appreciate that one,, and of course poppy and others... now i never heard anyone else tell that joke, but come on, isnt it sort of obvious, didn't you all tell that joke amongst yourselves???

how's the truman show going? you all having a good time out there in greendale, which i know is probably right in front of my face so close i cant see it..

that scene from finding neverland was SO realistic and trippy, and it so reminded me of the back yard hot tub at Inn San Francisco, i actually wondered if that was deliberate... i loved those quiet times in that tub alone late at night... s

does the pinch nerve spasm thing that just happened to me that has always happened infrequently until recntly,, that intense pnch nerve in the top of the spine,,, does that happen to everyone?? is that something that happens to everyone but no one talks about??? it's happned a bunh during this time of breaking up the ension in and around my spine,,,

its amazing.. i think this is exactly what harrison is referring to when he says "the ice is slowly melting," in here comes the sun... in a sense it's sun rawat, and the ice that is slowly melting that melts because the christ the sun can do what it takes to melt it... its the ice that when it melts the spine really starts crunching.. it feels like pack ice breaking up,.. that image works.

all of the beatles, though i cant say for sure about ringo, must have gone through an initiation very early in their career, if not before they even got together,, someone rounded them all up and gave em their roald dahl bump on the head... lots of those people.. lots... how could hendrix and morrison not had some kind of knowledge experience>> or garcia and the grateful dead, and so many so many too many to list. they KNOW things, like i said about bruce cockburn, you dont write and sing songs like those if you dont understand the story...

ELvis is SUCH a singular character in the culture of music this century,, he's got to be an important high up sort of a guy, no??? plus with that pelvis action, he's like something very unusual,,, i never really got into elvis at all, wrong age, and i am not sure i like what i see of how he really seemed to descend into a deep sickness, so i find him to be very enigmatic.. its like for some reason i almost feel like i dont like him, but i really cant say why other than he just deteriorated and seemsd really strung out on drugs, not very israel sort of a life, but as an entertainer he was so popular and archetypal he seems like something that a magister ludi would pull out of his bag of glass beads...

it wouldnt surprise me if cirque de soliel has rawat connections,, i think they are really a superb phenomena within the realm of high priced high budget entertainment..

i sort of hope so, like it'd be cool to have them at the green r@@m party whenever that dANGED THING is going to get started... so kenyatta, can we have circusy stuff like curque de soliel and these cool people from seattle that i love called Circus Contraption, at your massive??? at your MASSIVELY MASSIVE MASSIVE????

ive cut back water consumption, inluding tea to maybe about i gallon in the past couple of weeks, and now i sometimes, like just now, get really really dark pee, and i can feel the water and drugs and just my own attention really working deeper into the vermicscious knids, which i now believe the word KNID may actually refer to te kidneys, were that everlasting godstopper is located, the one that we all think is our own little personal and very private, tab@@!, symptom to our own myserious disease that no one should ever know that we have... just because that;s how allah wants it...

but i am slowly washing that thing away, and teh wicked witch will soon be dead and gone forever.. very soon... i can almost here the munchkins warming up for the ding dong the witch is dead... hey i sure hope judt garland is watching all of this... are you there Judy! I love playing you in my little journey, its fun, thanks for playing the role so beautifully for me, and the songs, oh my thank you dear Judy, and i cant wait to be with you... maybe we can have some special ways of sharing this experience with one another... it's been such a meaningful and helpful story for me... good thing i watched it faithfully every year when the big event of its sowing on TV came around again.., was that for me that they re[peated that so many times?

there are so many story tellers and actors and film directors and music people and tv people who have been treating me to a wonderful experience of awakening and putting these pieces all together,,, there are too many to mention, but i hope everyone who had played a role that would be worthy of my mention will at least get that i appreciate it all and just cant possibly think of everything and name everyone...

sometimes i wonder, like Josh the guy who takes me on little archeological expiditions that alwyas give me cool and obvious clues like the defacing of the face of nefertiti by allah...

does he know when he is making those shows that they are largely for my benefit and that i am going to be sitting there going, "man, he's so cute, I wanna go crawl down into a King's chamber in some big giant Pyramidal Temple and get down to some worship togehter..."

or is he completely oblivious that i am actually going to watch his shows... i wanna know!!

dont tell me that beautiful aryan looking sweetheart of a boyman is not a lover of mine! no way! i know he;s gotta be, he's too sexy not to be...

who knows, maybe he can feel me loving him right now... i'll try to send him a little cupid arrow, and if he's paying attention maybe he will feel it...

maybe he will lead me deep down a long dark stairway and into a secret chamberof some great pyamid in palenque,,, with just a candle to light up the great stone walls of the temple and then we'll just let go into the nice feelings that we can have together and enjoy... enjoy what the children of arius, the self-realized deity, are given to enjoy, which is loving one another... oh yeah and i hear there's a lot of cubensis around there, hey maybe terence will join us in palenque for some exploration of temples and the local cow pastures,,, and cow pies..

its really hard to even begin to imagine the scope of difference between an alcohol culture and a psychedlic one.. utterly different, and the most obvious difference in the eyes of most of the people of this world is that it is a million times more erotically charged... burning man is a festival of sexual repression compared with what i see... if that many people were going somewhere to be outrageously creative and free and self expressive in Israel it would be so compteley different of an experience from burning man which is really so tainted by alcohol and general oedipal repression of the actual having of expereince,...

you know the holy blood holy grail idea behind the davinci code, i read that book many years ago, never read davinci code, just holy blood holyy grail, and i didnt fall for it, it just didnt seem right to me,,, but now look, maybe they were right, bill clinton is the man they were looking for the descendant of the holy blook of jesus and mary, as TJ and the slve that the feminstas like to accuse him of raping..

there are all kinds of bloodlines that descend from the rawat family, including teh one that began with Adam.. so really its all a bunch of crap from what i can see, unless you want to say that jesus's blood was more precious than the christ's vlood when he was TJ;

surely Clinton doesnt have jefferson in his name unless he is related to jefferson...

imagine, am i correct that nina my twin sister was mary baker eddy the one woman in all of history whose thought has made the greatest impact on me.... and she and i, the christ, are going to be lovers??? what a SHOCK for this world of people who have so ignored and poopooed the incredible truth that mary baker eddy presented to them..

and are we going to conceive a child together? and if so, what kind of child will that be/??

and then you imagine us being lovers with that child in due course, and it gets out of control,,, this incest thing is dangerously erotic, which is why people are so afraid of it,, it is dangerous if you are not purely good and honest and open hearted and well intended.

from my limited experience of going to christian science services, i think that the church is really boring and stagnant, but i have found over the years that the christan science montior has been consistently good... i am curious if the rawat family has continue to have a hand in the monitor,, i subsripbed doe a while, and i always would read the religious editorial,, i used to read christian science literature all of the time, i would even go in reading rooms and study the weekly lessons... but i did nt get anything at all from the church service itself. too dry.. no passion.

obviously the holy bible is absolutely paramount in its importance above anything else in this world, but a person wishing to understand who the christ is doesnt really learn as much from the bible as there is to know... look at the life of sakyamuni for starters, study buddhism, read all of herman hesse, who really is describing different aspects of the christ's personality in his books, read the essene gospels, read mary baker eddy, there is so much more to understand,, consider his other incarnaitons, kefferson especially...

nina may or may not have invented the ideas of mary baker eddy,,, it may be somehting like the koran and the bible that is just a glass bead game bead, and nina is the one who interprets it who presents it, but doesnt actually do the writing.. it seems like a major picture in the sperm story, like an archeype, its an eternal book, science and health with key to the scriptures, by mary baker eddy,,, maybe its something that gets originally reinvented by each nina, but here is what i know,, nina has what it takes to come up with it, that' her role, its like a christ like role that nina pays are his counterpart in a seriously intellectually powerful way.. i am quite sure i have heard that teh english vocabularly that Mrs Baker used is third to Shakespear and King James. is there a bible code in shakespeare??

is there a bible code in King James? How about Mary Baker Eddy? maybe Nina has her own code in tehre...

What about Goethe? What about Dante and Virgil? what about Cervantes, Hugo, Melville, Twain and Tolstoy? I would nt be surprised if all of those leading authors in each language are rawat items that are used each time and contain code.. of course.. i would say yes probably a list like that would all have codes in them... there is a lot of detail somewhere in code i believe.

in one of those history chanel shows about the bible code one of the critics, who seem so idiotic to me, said he found some evidence of code in Moby Dick, as if that DISPROVED that the bible code wasinserted deliberately, a totally illogical arguement,m and then he's saying sarcastically that someone will just claim that that was put there in Movy Dick too, and there's me, the christ watching going, damned right you idiot, if you are finding statistical probability defying occurances of code in Movy Dick then Moby DIck has code, if someone could put code in the BIble that has accurately predicted past events, then wouldn't that person be like a pretty powerful person, powerful enough to have also put a code in Moby DIck???

I mean, the idiocy that people resort to in their efforts to deny the truth that they are just in denial of the truth about the truth that they are in denial of, if you can follow my overly contorted logic, people are just idiotic...

i feel very close to those KNID doors right now, i better go have a look in case they are coming out o fthose doors and chasing me 'n mr. wonka out of the hotel USA>>> be back soon..

if some doctor was actually willing to spend an hour with me actually looking in my eyes and listening to my heart, without a presupposition that i needed to be drugged, but with a completely open mind and heart, with a sincere and compassionate concern for my well being, I think I could sit down with a copy of the greendale green family tree and just tell the story of how those cahracters obviously correspond perfectly to a perfectly coherent explanation of reality that is consistent with so much myth and religion that an intelligent person, one intelligent enough i should hope to be a Doctor of Psychiatry, would have a really difficult time beleiving that i was anything but the christ.. it's all to obvious, even that neil young is obviously earl green... i mean, my understanding of greendale alone, my ability to present a coherent version of reality through and through, just by interpreting the music and all of the accompnaying material on the web and in the CD package is nothing short of the most bnillinat thing that anyone has ever come up with... yet i doubt that i would get such an opportunity to present my own case for why i am sane and not be drugged into sickness in a hundred years of being committed to Nurse Rachet institutions and assylums of human insanity enforcement.


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