For what its worth, I also practiced staring at the sun in a straightforward exercise in practicing what I preach, since I have asserted that it is a lie that to stare at the sun causes blindness. Why ever would a loving and kind god create man and put him in a world with a sun, beautiful to behold, but that causes blindness if looked at? Does that sound like something a loving god would do? No that sounds like a lie that an evil penis-envying deity named Allah might tell in order to keep men from being what they are.. I dont know whether it was satan or allah who came up with this lie, but i am guessing it was Allah, because I see Satan as a passive enabler of such conspiracies.
The lie that human beings cannot stare at the sun could be the single worst lie ever invented, as would be defined by the criteria of being the lie most difficult to overcome. It's right up there with the lie that incest is wrong. But in my own experience, actually opening my eyes and holding my gaze and intently looking into the light rather than fearing it is probably the most difficult thing I have ever done. Of course the person who does it only because of his faith in the love of god, without any support from anyone on earth whatsoever in doing this, is presented with a much greater challenge that those who follow, who will have the evidence of other's continued sight as proof that it can be done. the christ is the trailblazer.
Jesus said something like, "you aren't ready to enter Heaven until you can stare at the noonday sun." He is talking the truth here. (It makes me wonder why all of those evangelical christians who are anticipating rapture at any moment aren't doing anything whatsoever to make themselves into people with a hope of being able to stare at the sun????) When Heaven is presented as an option, then people will have to get busy getting over their diseases if they really want to be there. only the 144.000 members of the nation of israel get raised up in the rapture. the christ is the sun god because he is the one who dares to stare at the sun. this is why (s)he is called "sun" by neil young in greendale. water, the sun, masturbation, these are really imporant elements in what the experience of the christ is about.
The result of that experiment is that it seems like my vision is improved, not damaged. because it forces the mind into intense states of focus, this practice results in a greater luminosity to all visual experience. (you arent ready for this practice until you've had a lot of preparation and healing, so I don't recommend trying it.)
Staring at the sun is an ultimate meditation practice. I can say with confidence that "sun worshiping" peoples have been enlightened groups of people who practiced staring at the sun. (Why would they be called "sun worshipers" if they didnt even look at the sun?) You can't do this without focusing your attention very strongly. Worship, in my opinion, as far as men are concerned, involves masturbation. If you dont love something so much that it makes you want to masturbate, then you arent worshiping it, you might call it worship, but it certainly isnt the ultimate in worship.. I believe that staring at the sun while woshiping it as a manifestation of the love of the master who is inventing and sustaining everything, INCLUDING the sun, in the Imagination, by maturbating is about the most ecstatic possible experience (by this I mean the experience in which men can attain the highest degrees of erotic arousal posible) other than doing the smae thing in the actual living presence of the one whose love is generating reality itself, the perfect master. The light of the sun cannot be more brilliant the the light of the Mind in which everything exists. We are the designated experiencers within the Mind, and it is just preposterous to believe that it is not possible to look at some part of what is imagined.
As a digression, this leads me to say that really what reality consists of is that someone, "the holy spirit," is having the most intense erotic (eros means "love") fantasy that anyone could have. and a part of the fantasy is that people come to live in a world like this one, prove to themselves that they fail if they are not having the experiene of happiness, and eventually the comes a moment of decision whether to pariticipate in the fantasy or not. People who wanted to exist but dont want happiness get what they want, its called Hell, and the people who wanted to exist and who Do want happiness get their wish fulfilled and its called Heaven.
That's pretty much all there is to it, and I am talking about the diseases that cause people to have an aversion to this reality, when in truth it is absolutely perfect, because it is a fantasy of HAPPINESS and what could possibly be wrong with happiness? And I am talking about how i have gotten over these diseases, the ego complex, the oedipus complex, doubt, denial, etc., and I am talking about the truth that me getting over these diseases is a sure sign that the time has come for everyone to make a chioce about whether or not they want to get over their aversions to happiness. And the options will be presented, the way to overcome the diseases of mortality will be shown, and people will make their choices about whether they want eternal life or eternal death.
Anyway, I learned a few things in the process of my fast, not the least of which is that I realized that human beings have a peculiar aversion to the experience of drinking water! If you put down a quart of someone's favorite beverage, the average person will down the whole thing in a matter of maybe ten minutes. But if you put a quart of water in front of them, it might take then ten hours to drink it. People just plain don't really seem to like water. I dont understand, but I know it relates in some way to everything I am talking about, which really has a lot more to do with water and hydration than people would imagine.
Water and only water quenches thirst. Our bodies need water, not the stuff people put in it. So everything that people put IN their water, sugar, alcohol, caffeine, artificial flavors, or natural ones, all are there to satisfy some kind of HUNGER, not thirst. But are these ingradients things that actually satisfy whatever hunger it is? have they even identified the hunger that they are attempting to satisfy by drinking things other than water? Water is perfectly pure, why do we need to adulterate it with other stuff? what's wrong with plain water?
Water is hugely important. I am having or have had the experience that is very specifically referred to in the wizard of oz story. dorothy, as I've been saying for a long time, represents the christ in yet another allegory of the christ's experience.
basically i have killed the wicked witch and am bringing her broom stick back to Oz. And of course it has to do with water. specifically, with drinking water in spite of an aversion to doing so. It has to do with overcoming an intense resistence to being hydrated, down to the core of our being, the parts that we are hiding from. to be fully hydrated is to be fully alive, but there is an evil spell that keeps men from truly hydrating. They are afraid to because they are afraid of the uncomfotable sensations where they are dehydrated and therefore unconscious, in paticular the place that i am about to describe.
the wicked witch of whichever direction it is, east?, is Allah, and her broom stick is a burning sensation inside of the glans penis that men are unconsious of and that is the reason why men have orgasm, putting an end to the generation of the happiness of love. allah somehow has created that burning sensation. but that's sort of jumping ahead.
What is "the heart?"
As usual I offer the explanation that being a man and speaking about experience involving sexuality, I can only speak about men. When I do so I do not mean to imply that what I have to say does not apply to women. I just dont know.
Here is something with absolutely explosive implications, an empirically provable fact about men that 99.99% of men are in denial of.
Men have an organ of sensory perception that is dormant, numb, inactive. It is the organ referred to in the poetry and literature of divine and ecstatic love as "the heart." It is because they are descendants of Adam (Satan) and Eve (Allah) that this is the case, and the fig leaf they placed over their genitals after their fall from paradise represents the turning off of this organ.
The organ is the heart shaped organ called the glans penis. It is not fully awakened in mortal men, and the implications of this are absolutely staggering. I believe that the whole end times scenario is what will inevitably ensue immediately when this fact is brought to light, which I believe will in the near future, now that its coming out here. This is the greatest secret in the world, previously known only to teh elite members of the secret societies that i refer to as the nation of israel. Israel consists of the men who have had their "hearts" awakened.
The major wars of this world have all been fought between two factions, one that wishes that no one ever know this truth ( Allah and Oedipus's side) and one that does want Love to be a factor in human existence, that's us, the Holy Trinity and our nation called Israel. Satan gets to be the ruler of the people who never awaken their heart, whether its everyone, as Allah hopes, or just some, as is the intention of the trinity. anyway, this is the most intense and long lasting struggle on Earth, the war between two sides, one wanting to keep men in darkness, and one wanting men to have an opportunity to choose Life. Obviously you could say one side is "good" and the other "evil."
I believe I am the christ by virtue of being the only person, other than the two other members of the holy trinity, ever to awaken this organ completely on my own. everyone else requires secret initiations, but the leader of the nation of israel is the one who can awaken and become a truly alive male human being on his own. It's that rara, because it is an extremely scary proposition to venture into this terrain without guidance. This ability defines the perfection that is required in order for one to become a perfect master, an inventor of reality. It's a test that everyone has to be put to so that the one who actually overcomes it can prove his own qualification to become the master. . The only others who have this knowledge and experience are members of the secret nation of israel. this is who the christ is, in his various incarnations he accomplishes this feat to various degrees, as Abel, as Isaac and as Jesus.
The Heart is an organ of love and connection between men and one another and their master, the one who is inventing the reality in which they exist. It is an organ of telepathic communication. It is an ogan of knowledge, it is an organ of love. This organ cannot be awakened unless the man has a real sincere love relationship with the Master. The man will fall into Hell if he does not. this is a powerful organ that makes possible powerful experiences that are potentially overwhelming.
The difference between a mortal man and an immortal man is simple whether or not this organ has become awakened. This mass awakening is about to occur. Those who are willing to love the one who makes their existence possible will attain an incredible happy result. Those who are not will meet with an unimaginable awful failure. Its just how it is. It's how reality works.
This is the incredible truth that is about to explode into this world. I have found the way to Heaven, which is simply the appropriate relationship with the master under the conditions of having the heart organ awakened.
"The fall"
The experience of ecstasy that men feel themselves on the brink of right before they have orgasm is the experience that Adam fell from and that men are trying and yet failing to recover from every time they have an orgasm. The recovery from the fall is the attainment of the experience of happiness unconditional.
The reason men have an orgasm is because there is a wound deep inside the unconscious glans penis, and before there is too much awakening of the feeling, the man has an orgasm to avoid the sensation of the burning of this wound. This sensation is described specifically in the incredible allegory called "Charlie and the great glass elevator" by Roald Dahl. The vermiscious knids represent this burning sensation. The story of bringing down and frying in the process the vermiscious knids is the very same experience of Dorothy destroying the wicked witch. Since both stories end with a great rapturous victory party immediately after these two accomplishments, I am expecting that now that I have come this close to fully comprehending the situation and completing the healing of this wound, that the rapture is at hand and will occur in the coming days. based on my present understanding, this could not have occured until now, because i hadnt killed the wicked wich yet. and now that i have, or nearly have, it seems like the "end times" should be getting under way.
men dont understand the wound and so live in denial of it. this is the wounded heart of every man. it is about time for it to be healed, for all of those who want it healed. the wound is the wound of seperation from the master, from god, but it may also be that some sort of metaphsical parasite takes advantage of men's unconsciousness is this huge area of their existence.
(this experience is referred to in both Charlie and the Great Glass elevator (the vermicious knids) and in the wizard of oz (the broomstick)./
i have made my way, I am havin and I understand this healing. i believe i and my brothers will be teaching others how to awaken this heart and how to have the relationship with the master that allows for the flourishing of life under the conditions of an awakened heart.
Satan, the ego complex is really just an enabler. He is a liar, but he never really set out to do any harm, only to be in denial of the presence of the living god in his experience. as Adam, the founder of this race of men, his "heart" went numb because he wanted to be in denial of god, because he big ego couldn't tlerate such a thing as a god whom men were to love.
Allah, on the other hand, is the evil witch who set out to do some serious damage. Satan wanted to be the ruler of Hell, just because he wanted to be a ruler of something, anything, just because he has that big of an ego problem. But Allah wanted EVERYONE in Hell, and she had a plan to try to accomplish that.
Really Satan and Allah are the two antigods, and the antichrist, Oedipus, the major top ten leading global justice messiah, is their spawn. Allah set out to cast a terrible spell on this human race. I am the only one, other than the gods who invented this world, to break the spell entirely on my own. The spell is a profound dehydration that causes unconsciousess, and in particular conceals the burning sensation coming from the wound in the heart. Somehow she has managed to make it so that human beings have an aversion to water.
This is why the importance of water in killing the wicked witch. as well as the role of water in the final scenes in which the chief escapes from the evil cookoos nest of nurse rachet, who is another important allah figure. allah wants to be the god of hell, perhaps as an alternative to a male ego maniac lord of hell (they are allies in the end) and the lengths she goes to in order to keep the human race ignorant are astounding. its like she mothered the arabs with her own son in order to create a whole race of people made out of the same sickness her own unfortunate son is made of. such desperation in unfathomable. she is the much more difficult evil deity to track down and destroy. she invented the oedipus complex, and made her own son its first victim.
the antichrist is the spawn of satan and allah.; his father is an ego maniac and his mother is a nurse rachet. that's pretty much what there is to this story. oedipus is the inventer of such things as denial, doubt, resentment, hatred, and us just a seriously shut down dude. in this life he has major hearing loss, and i believe that its just because he doesnt want to hear the truth.
the human being is necessarily in a deep state of dehydration in order to remain ignorant. there are places in the human body where there is a great deal of disease stored, areas from wihch waste products of metabolism are not being elimated. water is in some way the medium of consciousness. allah is defeated by drinking water, along with other practices, including learning to know and love what is hidden that allah does not want anyone to find. i am attaining what feels like a permanent psychedelic state of mind, just by going through a profound rehydration process, aided greatly by cannabis and psilocybin. i am coming alive out of a half dead state of unconsciousness.
everyone knows that human beings are largely unconscious, and i am telling you why. because there is a whole lot of sickness in the unconscious part. the ego complex (satan) the oedipus complex (the antichrist) and the penis envy complex (nurse rachet). these mental diseases are responsible for the sickness and ignorance of this human race, and they have to be gotten over. or people go to the place where Satan knew they would go,,, to be with him,,, the ego maniac who himself becomes the most ashamed person for having enabled the terrible sickness of allah and oedipus.
ego leads to shame, it is inherently a being of shame. and in the end, following any of the evil deities leads to the ego maniac Satan's Hell.
A seminal moment:
The period of the lifetime of Abraham is among the most important moments in the history of this human race, up there with the fall, the murder of abel and the crucifixion of Jesus. It really set the stage for the events that have been transpiring ever since.
The significance of this is demonstrated in the fact that this may have been the only occaision when all seven of the major players in the saga, Satan, Allah, the Antichrist, all three members of the holy trinity and pontifex maximus were all together in the same place at the same time. I beleive that all three, the father, the god and the pontifex maximus came to negotiate with abraham and then of course the whole thing proceeded from there with the nations and religions that were founded by abraham's descendants. (these same three were the "wise men" who came to bring gifts to jesus.)
After the fall, cain went on to have his own descendants, all of whom were wiped out in the flood. but adam and eve had seth, about whom nothing at all is said, other than that he had descendants and their names. I believe that once adam and eve had experienced the disaster of cain's murder of his brother and his banishment into an experience of misery, they raised seth fully indoctrinated into the various taboos.
Anyway, the only noteworthy decendant of seth in the story is NOah, the best of all men in a fallen, hellish world. I want to make note about the son of Noah named "Ham." Ham was cursed by Noah after Ham convered Noah's nakedness while he was sleeping. This is very significant in my opinion, I believe it identifies Ham as an incarnation of Satan, the one who wants men to be sexually repressed. I believe that this is alluded to by the fact that god changed Abram's name to Abraham. It seems like adding "ham" to the name indicates that this is one and the same person. Yet another thing that I may be the first person ever to have pointed out...
So Abraham comes just a few generations after the flood. Anf of course the Creator has a plan. It is to send in Abel, the one who loves him, to found a Nation to be his agency in this world, to effect his purposes. And of course this is Isaac and the nation of Israel. Then of course Allah and Oedipus get their own multituinous nation as well, the Arabs who have spread their founders' indoctrination throughout much of Asia and Africa. And then there is Abraham's own nation, the Jews, who are the hermit crabs who come to occupy the bloodline, so to speak, of theNation of Israel but who do not practice the lifestyle that made it unique. These three groups become central to the story, the other descendants of Seth and Noah who did not come out of the lines of Abraham being more or less by standers in the story, though they too are mostly locked up in the taboos, the commandments of the deities from hell.
I believe that the descendants of Abraham, excepting the Nation of Israel, are in very poor standing with the Creator, given that they have chosen to be agents of his enemies.
On Islam
It's truly a testement to the superiority of the way of life practiced by the lovers of the living god who is love that 144,000 of them could defeat the hundreds of millions of their enemies who follow Allah.
I openly criticize and condemn Allah as a deity. I mean, let's get real. What would any healthy human being say about a culture in which a woman who is the victim of rape is ostracized and even killed by her own brothers or father? What kind of sickness is that? How could there possibly be the virtues of kindness, compassion, love in such a culture??? Yet this sort of attitude is rampant among people who worship Allah. If you look at Islam, its the only religion that says that people who don't follow their religion are "infidels" who need to be exterminated. The only genocidal religion. ALmost all religious wars ever fought have involved Islam on one side, they have fought religious wars against hindus, jews, christians, and others. This is because it is the religion of the Cain who committed the first act of genocide when he killed his brother. This is the religion of denial of shame. Also, the only people who routinely blow themselves up in order to further their shame denying objectives are Arabs.
There are Nations of people who practice Islam that are more and less effected by the sickness behind this religion. The Arabs are the direct descendants of Allah and the Antichrist, Oedipus, so they are the most deeply mired in the Oedipus complex. But take, for example, Malaysia, whose people probably had ISlam forced upon them, but who remain more akin to the much healthier nations of the people of Southeast Asia.
I happen to believe that "Nations" are defined by indoctrinations into various ideologies, ways of thinking, taboos, etc. And I am thinking about these things and I am comprehending stuff about these things, so I am not afraid to talk about them.
I believe that some of the healthiest nations on Earth are the nations of people who have historically practiced Hinduism and Buddhism (which is really just a sect or offshoot of Hinduism) , the Indians (at least insofar as Islam has not had a negative influence upon it) the Mongoloid peoples of Tibet and environs, and the Southeast Asians. These nations have attracted relatively happy and unashamed people. the most ashamed people have incarnated as Arabs. Another region where Islam was forced upon people was in West Africa, and I find that west africans are far happier and healthier people than the Arabs and some others who practice Islam. People from Turkey, who have practiced Islam for a long time, also seem more peaceful and happy than the Arabs.
I guess one way of saying this is that looking at nations of people, people who share language, religion, customs, etc., rather than at followers of respective religions, is much more informative about the kinds of people that have incarnated into them.
To emphasize, I believe that the Arabs specifically (and secondarily the other nations whom they have most fully indoctrinated into their way of thinking, which could include Afghanistan and Pakistan) are much more deeply mired in shame and the oedipus complex than others who practice Islam. Islam is not the problem, it is the indoctrination of people into the sickness of those who happen to be descendants of the founders of Islam, the Arabs, who descend from the penis-envying mother Hagar (Allah) who invented the oedipus complex as a way of establishing herself as a deity.
The very idea of worshiping this deity is so repulsive, it is such a sickness. She invented a religion to hide her own shame. (I guess you could say the Jews borrowed a religion for the same purposes, though their sickness is the ego complex more than it is the Oedipus complex.)
Of course most of the people who practice Islam don't understand any of this. The are just blindly going along following a religion born of sickness. But the people who have been born into the sickness by being born as a descendant of the source of the sickness, these people really have the sickness. The sickness is not the religion, it is the indoctrination in the oedipus complex and the denial of shame that is passed down through generations of people too ashamed to confront their own sickness.
We don't get born randomly, each incarnation comes naturally in the form of the situation that most stands to further one's wishes. The people born as desendants of Ishmael and Hagar, the Arabs, are simply the people who most strongly wish to be in denial of their shame because they are most deeply mired in the oedipus complex. Mohammed is their leader because he is Oedipus himself.
The oedipus complex, with Nurse Rachet as the mother, is an unbelievably terrible vicious circle. It leads to ever worsening misery. It goes more or less like this: it's the son being ashamed and turning to his mother as a source of love. and the mother making the son even more ashamed of himself... because the more ashamed he is, the more he is willing to do her bidding. Allah wants to be a deity, so she gets her son, the Antichrist, to make love with her and fall into a pit of shame. and it just goes on getting worse and worse.
he becomes her slave and she makes him do things for her that will cause him more shame, which causes the problem of shame to worsen. it's a really bad program. their shame becomes so great that whole nations of people are spawned out of their shame. People who for whatever reason, like the orcs, come into being to play the part of some very sick people. It's a choice they make, that's all I know. Mysterious. This is the worst sickness the world has ever known, far worse than most people can imagine. So the Arabs worshping Allah, no matter what they believe about Allah's identity, is a bunch of men who are really the victims of Allah, like their leader the antichrist, mohammed, and yet who turn to her for comfort. how sick is that? Its what allah wants because she wants to be a god, or maybe at this point she is just desperately trying to save herself from a shame so terrible as to be almost unimaginable.
By the way, one of my favorite preachers that I see on the Trinity Network is Michael Youssef, an Arab immigrant. This man is in my opinion outstanding in the clarity and truth of what he speaks, no hype, no meaningless use of words like "anointing," which I have a pet peeve about how it is used by evangelical preachers. I see in Dr. Youssef an extremely high quality soul. I'm talking about the ideas that people are indoctrinated into and saying that people choose to incarnate in cultures subject to certain indoctrinations that suit their purposes, whatever they are. Of course there are high quality people of arabic descent... (One of whom I happen to believe is named Osama bin Laden.) ... I should also mention that Youssef was raised in a Christian family.
and while I am on the subject of preachers who I think really have an understanding of truth, James Kennedy of Coral Ridge is another who I've seen who stands out. (not to mention Billy Graham, who I have no doubt at all is an agent of the Naiton of Israel, given his important relationship with virtually every US president in the last fifty years... and his excellent teachings) The preachers who pretend like they know what they are talking about, but obviously don't... they really turn me off. It's like some of these preachers make it seem like the experience of knowing and loving god is something that you hype yourself into, whereas it is something that you gently and very quietly surrender into. These preachers are leading people astray.
What of the other descendants of Seth?
I'm talking about Nations, and other than Israel (which controls the USA) , the Arabs and the Jews there are many nations who play peripeheral roles. These people have been indoctrinated into various customs that seek to avert the problems caused by Satan, Allah and the Antichrist. These people have, as I have already discussed, seperated themselves into various nations depending upon their mental state. I have named the nations that follow the hindubuddhist religions as among the most healthy. I would also put the English speaking countries into this category. Americans may be ugly, but this is just the ugliness of the basic fallen human condition run amok because of the affluence of this particular nation. The Americans, Canadians, Brits, Aussies and Kiwis, seem to me to be more willing to be open hearted than people of some other countries.
China presents an interesting situation. I percieive in the Chinese a mentality that seems to me more aggressive and less peaceful and harmonious than I see in the Indochinese people. I don't know how I would characterize the chinese mentality, but when I think about the liklihood of various groups of people accepting the truth that I am talking about, which is why I contemplate these things, I somehow feel that there is less liklihood of acceptance on the part of the chinese people than their various neighbors to the south.
To me europeans in general seem to be less open-hearted than some of the others I am discussing. The europeans seem to me to be more resigned to a godless existence that the peoples of many other nations. The popularity of Existentialism, the de facto religion of the denial god that is the leading religion in europe, suggests this to me. Of course there are many nations within europe, each one with its own signiture mentality.
As I have indicated in many writings, I believe that a higher percentage of Roman Catholics will accept the truth than will followers of the Protestant religion, which I don't even like to call "Christianity" because it is so fraught with lies and deceptions. The people of central and south america are the largest group of roman catholics, and hopefully acceptance of the truth among these people will be reasonably good.
among followers of different religions, I would guess that HariKrishnas might be the group that experiences the highest percentage of acceptance of truth, these people already haven proven that they won't be ruled by shame and that they love the idea of loving GOd. I believe that the Harikrishnas must be fairly dear to the God who is Love simply by virtue of their devotion to loving him, even though they dont really know him yet. Hindus in general will have a high percentage of acceptance. Buddhists from traditionally Buddhist cultures, Roman Catholics will also be high. Relatively lower in percentage of acceptance will be moslems, jews, existentialists and protestant and evangelicals, who are so rapid in their homophobia, the aversion to the idea promoted by their supposed savior, that men love one another. But I think the protestant churches are just doing their best to keep messed up people with a lot of shame pointing in the direction of redemption, even if a lot of that flock has srayed seriously far afield from the actual reality of loving the god who is love.
Have those people really wrapped their minds around a world in which men like Joe Whinney and Jeff Fairhall love one another?? no they aren't even trying. Have they really wrapped their mind around the idea of being the lover of the Christ, a man, who their own good book informs them that if they are going to be in Heaven they will be married to? doesnt look to me like they aspire to such a lifestyle...
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