aug. 11 (51)

august 11

How hard can it be to learn to drink water? I mean, to really have the experience of drinking water. Is this one of life's greatest challenges? Or is it the easiest thing there could possibly be to do? what is more basic to life than drinking water?

The answer is that it is hard enough that a lot of people end up living eternally in a dessicated landscape, having completely deprived themselves of ever having had the experience of drinking water. and so they never ever quench their own thirst.

If everything is made of light, then water is certainly the most pure form of this light. Water is a very pure form of energy, light or consciousness. Water, the suff we are made out of is the very enemy of darkness. And this is why the person who invented the darkness that human beings are living in, Allah, doesn't want us having the experience of drinking it and turning it into light inside of our own beings.

Poop Oedipus, his mother didn't really want him learning to drink water. Maybe she just couldn't really love what a boy becomes when he learns to drink water. she decided she prefered him to be dependent upon her. it's a symptom of penis envy, part of the oedipus complex.

Weaning is something that happens when a boy is ready to give up nursing as the source of his hydration. Oedipus never really got weaned. He never learned how to drink water. And so he and his descendants, those who followed in his path, the path to the hell where he will live forever, will live eternally in a dessicated post apocalyptic desert completely devoid of any life.

If you want to be alive, you have to learn to have the experience of drinking water. You have to be willing to remain conscious in the experience of drinking water. why is this so difficult? who knows, but it appears to be near the core of the question of whether or not one really wants to exist. those who refuse to have the experience of drinking water, a white experience like looking at the sun or at the face of the holy spirit, or listening to silence. no where to sort of hide from the totality of an experience like that. looking at the sun is a big commitment. it's a real experience. same with drinking water.

breathing is the same. no one in this world has really learned to breath. everyone is full of disease that fills the area of their body where they are not having the experience of breath. breath is not something that you DO, it is something that you let happen. but in order to let it happen, you have to be able to rest your mind on its happening. and no one is doing this. not even the people to whom prem rawat has given the keys to life, which includes the way in which we are meant to breath.

you don't breath, you feel the holy breath of the holy one who really is breathing, and keeping you and everything going in the process. you become one with the real breather, and his breath becomes yours. its an intimate experience. so intimate that people would rather die into an eternal lonliness than have the joy of intimacy of breathing with another human being. there is so much darkness around breathe, so much discomfort, so much uneasiness. poor pathetic people, they think they know so much, they think they are so sure about things that they are absolutely ignorant about. they have NOT EVEN LEARNED HOW TO BREATH! maggots from hell have filled the parts of their bodies where they live in unconsciousness of breath itself. and they pompously go around acting as if they are the masters of the universe, all powerful and all knowing beings who really have not really even become what a human being is, they are sub human because they refuse to even become what a human being is. they live in death, and they never enter life before they march down into Hell when its all over.

drinking water may actually mess with our dysfunctional breathing. it's overwhleming for us to focus on drinking and keep track of our breathing in the way that we do. its like when people drink they go partly unconscious for fear of drowning. something like that. basically though, the real aversion to water is that it is a form of light, really, and people are unconscious and they don't want to become conscious. in men it is a way to keep the glans fom awakening. the glans is screaming out in some way pleading with men not to drink water.

Oedipus never learned how to experience drinking water, he never learned how to breath, he never learned how to look at something perfectly white like the sun, he never learned to listen to a single sound that was in his hearing. all he ever did was try to blok out more and more and more of the sound that was trying to be experienced. Oedipus decided that he did not want to exist, and yet he really felt that in order to succeed in being a non-existence being, he had to be the king who would take everyone down with him.

so her dredged a kingdom out of the detritus lying on the floor of the swamp of hell, called it babylon. He started making the dead come alive and become the living dead. so that he could use them to fulfill his own sickness. and now the world is crawling with the spawn of oedipus, the living dead who fell for the sickest ploy ever invented, the opportunity to be a part of an empire of pure sickness by subjecting themselves to the awakening of the glans and the fall into hell and a life of opium dependent slavery, just like i described over a year ago. that was cain's idea, except that he was just the spawn of satan himself, and it was really satan's idea, he knew cain would become the antichrist if he just initiated him first into the hell that lies behind the curtain of the numbed glans of someone with Oedipus complex.

Satan's a smart guy, a million times smarter than cain, who in turn is smarter than his minions, though no sicker, he being the first guy to want to wear the crown that Satan was holding out for whomever would do his bidding. so satan lets cain build his empire, babylon, but he stays around in an advisory capacity, kind of like george and poppy, while satan goes on about the business behind the scenes, the opium business that is the real reason for babylon. babylon was the empire that wanted to get a lock on the global opium supply for these purposes. its where satan's conspiracy began.

and so all of the story i told was true, except the detail that an agent of god's agent pontifex maximus took over when he formed the roman empire and began executing the plans of satan on his behalf.

but babylon marches on toward its doom. its hard to know the numbers, but it seems like it may be formidable. i believe that many babylon people are in seattle. many of babylons leaders are jews who live in seattle who masquerade as workers for social justice or health or whatever. they are just living disease bags, holding huge portions of the human body in a deep state of unconsciousness so that satan can have his own temple.

i still am ambivalent whether satan is really just an agent of Israel, doing what someone would have done, but something that involves far too much power to allow a depraved person like cain to occupy it. so Satan is sent for the job. or perhaps not. he works for god, one way or another, helping dredge up the souls who went into a sleep of denial about their sins and gives them a reason to live, to be a part of the empire that trues to destroy the god who made them. and so they accept the offer to participate in teh empire that tries to destroy god himself, to destroy the temple of existence. and so they get thrown into hell and turned into something useful, generating the static energy that makes imagination possible by suffereing eternal torments that are the fulfillment of their karmic due.

the holy spirit is the ultimate enforcer of the law of karma, the law that keeps the wheel of eternity rolling along. the law that says that your share of the suffering in hell is [proportionate to the misery you tried to be the cause of and or the happiness you tried to thwart, in this world. and since there are some people capable of eternal happiness and ecstasy who the people in hell tried to destroy, there is a great deal of suffering to rightly be endured by the souls in hell.

Satan's job is to give a life to the people who tried to hide their way out of dealing with their karma. he brings them to life so that they can be thrown into the furnace that keeps the lights on in the temple of imagination.

the holy spirit experences infinite ecstasy and in his infinite arousal he has an orgasm in which he is fantasizig about even more lovers, and sparks of his own love go bursting out into exsitence. a new batch of angels flying around looking for an opportunity to incarnate. the holy spirit then goes out and flies among them, and picks up some of the good ones to be his lovers and starts building another temple. and that's how the wheel turns.

we are made out of the love of the holy spirit, the man who realized that in order for everything to work someone had to stay in the temple at all times and keep a constant experience of samadhi going in order to tie all exprience into one field. the holy spirit, the one who realized the absolutel importance of the temple and volunteered to be the one to stay in there all of the time for the sake of everyone. very generous. chose to forgo everything else just for love and to be generous.

some of us return to that love in an experience of joy and gratitude. some fall into deep state of depression and end up being recycled back so that the joy can continue. the holy spirit is unconpromising in his commitment to the experinece of happiness going on in the temple. he is happy to let anyone else have any other priority in their own life, but in his own, his commitment is absolutely to the ttemple, to the exprience happening there and to the people who keep it going. and i will eternally praise him for his perfection in making his commitment to love absolute. he is the god who is love because he is absolutely committed to the experinece of love. and he has enemies. and we live in an existence in which there is freedom. and love wins in the end and he succeeds without ever employing devious tactics like his enemies do. he only does what he has to do to protect the interest of his lovers.

i have been drinking probably about one and a hlf to two gallons of water every single day for the past couple of months. in that time i have had what i would call a clear pee less than five times. there is so much waste in our bodies, in the places where we are unconscious, which is everywhere in our bodies, every where where are bones a dry and brittle, everywhere where our muscles ache. everywhere where we feel stiff, where it hurts when we stretch. humans are walking disease bags, totally unconscious of what life is. totally unaware that every where they feel pain they are just hiding from ecstasy. there is no pain really, and there is no disease, but there is an error in thinking that begins when a father says no to loving his son.