August 1, 2005 3:45 pm. about on ehour ago i had the experience, while sitting in a garden at teh good shepherd center in seattle, meditating after smoking a tiny pinch of cannabis, i had what i know is the ultimate enlightenment experience, the experience to which my entire journey has been leading. I would call this experience - very specifically- "breaking the Oedipus complex." This complex of the collective psyche is like a crystilne structure in the mind of all men, that is robbing men, anyway, of so much peace, so much of he experience of this moment. It's a terrrible parasite that has glommed onto every man.
Oedipus is the enemy of every man. He is terrible enemy. He is the theif who steals the life from men. Breaking him is the goal of any man who wants anything better than the worst imaginable fate. Oedipus is the force of mind that doubts whether or not he wants to be having the experience. he is in a deep deep state of doubt. oedipus is a complete failure in his doubt about whether or not he really even wants to exist. this doubt is a force in every man's psyche. I have broken it, like a bone, brittle, snapping in a moment, and now i can listen and see and feel without that sense of doubt interfering.
Men, get ready to free yourselves form oedipus. this experience will certain need to be celebratd, and i can't imagine why my father would have me wait much longer before we start celebrating. The end of the world comes when the first man ever to get over Oedipus all on his own completes his journey. Then its time to start a new world without that SON OF A BITCH!!!!!! That son of Satan and the sickest witch ever to cast a wicked spell on a world. We most definitely want to staart over without him or anyone like him coming along for the ride. No Oedipus baggage comes into my Heaven!!!!! That sickness has no place in any world but the world called Hell. called oblivion... called pure desolation. Get free of that sickness dear brothers and do it as fast as you can.
This happened as i was thinking of this as the possible concept for an ad:
Jeff Fairhall, that guy whose been calling himself the Christ, is the only guy who goes around Seattle in a sarong for what reason?
a) because he went psycho and now thinks he's the jesus, so h'es trying to look the part.
b) because he lives in a free country and he is just exercising the same freedom everyone is exercising to dress however the hell he wants.
c) because he is the only guy in seattle who isn't a slave to the Oedipus complex.
Answer, c and only c. People think I am crazy, but they all live with the Oedipus complex ruling their lives. there is ZERO freedom when oedipus is running the show. he's pure fascist. people follow style wherever style leads them, even to pants sagging half way down to the kneees, if that's how the image makers tell them to dress.... people think i am nuts, but that's just oedipus lying his ass off about me. which if he can't kill me he will certainly try to make others ignore me.
while i was thinking about being the only guy in seattle who isn't a slave to the Oedipus complex, I sort of all of a sudden felt this thing lift off me. something that once it's gone it seems like it was nothing at all, but that had somehow been robbing me of my experience.
now it's 7 pm. i want to go off and be in this incredible experience, but then i have to come back and say something aobut it. because i know that everything is going to happen very soon now. this experience is way to good that there isnt going to be a party now.
the difference between life with oedipus and life free from him is like the difference between the brightest sunshine and the darkest night. he ruins everything. life is so much more incredible than anyone realizes.
i can tell you one thing. the creator is a lover. and he likes boys who will be his lovers. and i am telling you, this is any boy who has ever tasted the love of the lover god. and oedipus does everything he can to thwart the lover god, with the help of his mother allah. i can tell you people this: the lover god does not like oedipus. he does not like him at all. and he doesn't like boys who decide to go with oedipus to their sexually repressed hell. you just cant imagine the difference, thats all. life is infinitely better without oedipus ruining it.
i am so ready to party.
Tuesday aug 2 8:22 pm
you , a man, do not want to go to the stratospheric leels of erotic arousal that a man without the oedipus complex can attain, and find yourself alone there. that's what happened to oedipus, he went there with his mother, without his father having shown him around first, because his father is satan, the ego, who is too proud to teach his own son about such things... i guess you could say it was a trap, anyway, you just can't go into those extreme erotic experiences alone. Oedipus exists as a force in the mind to keep men from going to the point he went to. Oedipus is the cause of the spasm called orgasm that mortal men experience long before they approach the degrees of arousal that are possible. Oedipus is the enemy of the relationship between men and their god, which wen cannot live without, unless they want eternal damnation. hasn't someone been trying to tell the world this for the past 2000 years?
when you go to those levels for the first time you MUST be with your father and your god, and thenceforth always with at least your god, but hopefully with your father and brothers as well. You cannot go into those experiences thinking that you are by yourself. you will fall into a pit of doubt, as oedipus did, about whether you really want to go on existing from that point forward...
It is impossible to conceive of man as he is being in an existence devoid of a relaitonship with a god without the disaster of oedipus occuring. it WILL occur, and when it does, it will turn that world into a Hell. Period. Man cannot exist outside of a relationship with his god, in everysingle nook and cranny, and in particular, in the most powerful experiences of samadhi that a man can attain. That is pure folly.
anyone who says that they don't want a god who is love to be with them and hold them in their experience, that person has oedipus, the antichrist, as their shepherd. you HAVE to want to be in an erotic relationship with your father and your god and your sons, or you should never have chosen to become a man at all. you are doomed. you are doomed if you cannot say yes to the god who is love who sustains your very existeence and who wants to gift you with the sweetest love anyone could ever dream of. absolutely doomed. i am so sorry that you ever chose to exist, to have chosen to say no to the only possible hope for happiness. you are so in denial of the truth, it is your own fault for being so closed to the possibility of happiness.
The Lover who is willing to go there with every man is the most perfect lover, the most perfect man , the most perfect being that could POSSIBLY be. without him, nothing but hell would ever be possible. as far as he is concerned, every man who gets to be his lover is one man saved from hell. existence wasnt his idea, making it work is what he came up with. every man must bow down to the lover who comes to save them from the only other reality besides perfection, which is everlasting torment. the lover who loves unconditionally, the lover who is so perfect you can't even begin to pronounce his name. it's just so hard to believe that someone could have been that good. he certainly is the right person to have in charge of things. Phew!!!!! I don't care is sex billion people go to hell hating him for being as perfect as he is, i am going to go on singing his praises forevermore. i dont care how many people turn and go to hell. i am staying with my lover who i know has never erred in doing what is absolutely the right thing to have done. all he does is love. how could anyone complain about that? he looked at the situation and he said, "i have an idea for how to make this work," and so he did. the only thing that could ever have made it work. may he go on eternally spinning his fantabulous love stories.... i can only hope and beg that he will at least stop by and bless us and allow us to worship him once in a while...
In case you haven't figured it out, men without the oedipus complex are an entirely different kind of being than mortal oedipal men. its all about the experience when you dont have oedipus. it's all about maximizing the enjoyment of existence. its about the ecstasy that men can experience, if not for oedipus. are people going to figure this out? how many, a few thousand? i hope humdreds of millions, but its scary to think about how tenacious the grip that the wicked witch has. i hope that as many people as possible get saved, but man it is a bad disease this world has.
Let me be clear about this: i do not have a shadow of a doubt that i am the lover of the almighty god who is love. his special favorite lover. from this world anyway... the almight love god; willie wonka- loves the charlie. and charlie loves him. they are lovers and this is their love story. the almighty god who controls everything that exists did not set out to be a creator, he just wanted to be a lover. and his is given the role of creator by default, because by the intesity of his will to love he automatically becomes the one whose wishes will ultimately be fulfilled. he's just a really really loving boy-man. i know he takes the responsibility that comes with it seriously, he is a man og the greatest integrity, but he is first and foremost a lover. and i would imagine he will react to different people as a lover would react to whatever treatment he gets. i am the other lover, ultimately in the love story. because i am the one who always knew i wanted to love him., perhaps since long before oedipus came along and messed everything up. i showed up early on to play the role of the lover. it's who i wanted to be. i wanted to be his lover, not because he was a "creator" - i probably didnt even know that then. he was just a perfectly sweet and guileless child who was perfect willing to love. and i wanted to love him too. perfect little boys who are untainted by oedipus tend to really love one another. in case you hadnt noticed this, you will soon.
Whatever you think love is, I can say this about it. The more of it you feel, the greater degree of erotic arousal you can sustain. and i know that in the experience i am having of loving the father and the love god, i am experiencing an extreme degree of erotic arousal, far exceeding what mortal men experience, i am feeling an overwhlemingly beautiful feeling of being in love. the love that i am begninng to experience is the love worlds are made oot of. there'a a lot of love among the holy trinity. it will strike some people as rather shocking if and when they have a glimpse of what it looks like. they might even go into a state of shock when they see the love that sustains their very existences in action being generated. i can almost see this being so stunning for people as to make some almost comotose in their shock.
August 3
Oedipus is the guy who went deep into samadhi during an experience of sexual arousal, it happens to have been with his mom, but HOW it happened really doesn't matter so much as WHAT happened to him. The story of oedipus begins with him falling into doubt while he's in this extreme state of arousal. he suddenly feels terribly alone. So he turned off his glans, wishing to forever avoid going back where he was. and he is responsible for the numbness in his and all men's glans. He went into this experience ignorant of god's presence in all experience, because his egomaniac father wouldn't show him around. so now he has thrown the baby out with the bathwater, rejecting the very idea of opening his heart ever again. and he's got nurse rachet, his mother, watching over him at all times making sure that he remains closed.
basically, oedipus is the man living with his heart shut down. he is the man in denial of the possibility of love. he is a man ruled by shame. his heart isn't in anything at all. whereas the christ has his heart in everything he does. his heart is all the way open. the christ, like the other two members of the trinity, has the heart of a child. his heart is open. oedipus has the heart of a man. a boy becomes oedipus when he starts turning his heart off, turning away from the possibility of love and connection from others, sullen.
he also has a twisted relationship with his mother, because he looks to her for the love that he deprives himself of. he is ashamed, so he turns to his mother., which is the wrong reason for a boy to love his mother, besides not being a form of love. a healthy boy loves his mother because he appreciates her, not because he is needy. in the case of oedipus present lifetime, he's in what you might call an extremely oedipal relationship with her, having stolen her away from somehting like three different relationships over the years. that's ishmael and hagar, still practicing their sickness after so many thousands of years. .
The perfect master is the one who, if known, completely pre-empts the exact experience of oedipus. he is there to be with us in even the most extreme experience of erotic arousal. he's perfected that experience, and so can go with any man there. this is an absolutely 100% vital function. any world without a perfect master is doomed to be taken over by oedipus. men need to have the experience with the master. everyone needs to have it together. and the men who think they dont want that are choosing to be ruled by the antichrist, oedipus.
No one knows what a perfect master is. I am defining him here in a very precise way. i believe that the father, neil young, will play this role for all men. he is "the father" of all men who will be with us in heaven, where there is no oedipus, the one who will initiate men into the experience. he wil be the one having the experence with them. and iwill play a role as well... i will be having the experience with him. people will be following me into the experience with the father. this will be a massive initiation into the breaking of oedipus, allowing men to fearlessly experience what a man is.
people dont have any idea of how lost they will be if they pass up the opportunity to know and love the perfect master. people don't realize that hell, the place of lost souls, is a reality. there are going to be so many very disappointed people, so many very depressed people in the near future. to be perfectly honest, i can understand the whole armageddon scenario, with -i've heard- something like a third of the people inthe world being killed in some kind of major war. i believe that the decision may be made that there are certain groups of people who are hopelessly lost, for whom there is no chance for redemption. these people could be wiped out just to remove them as a distraction from the hugely important task of saving people who have a hope of being saved. the descedants of satan oedipus and allah, people whose very existence came about as a part of a conspiracy against the truth, would certainly be candidates for dispatch. if i think about the geopolitical system with respect to this scenario, it does seem as though china represents a wild card. china is neighbor of countries that i believe must be on the to-save list, india and indochina. i would expect that action could be taken to stop china from trying to hamper such efforts. i don't see in the chinese people the will to know and love god that i see in the people of the hindu-buddhist countries. if there was a mass annhilation of one third of the people in the world, i would guess that islamic countries and china would be prime candidates to make up the bulk of this.
August 4, 7:00 am
I feel that i am very close to leaving this world. Master Joe Whinney will steal everything I own. i feel dead to this world, my mission having been completed, which was to single handedly defeat the oedipus complex, which is the difference between a mortal man and an immortal man. oedipus is what defines this world. this is oedipus's world. it's so astounding that no one even talks aobut oedipus. it's because oedipus people are genocidal chocolate. they tend to want to kill people who don't suffer from their disease. which is why i feel that my life would be in danger at this point. oedipus is a messed up dude, that's all there is to it. so we non-oedipus people have to keep it quiet. until the moment that has arrived, when the truth gets told.
Oedipus. Oedipus Rex. King Oedipus. There's a little understanding that comes to you when you arrive in Heaven. Satan's standing there with a crown waiting for some sucker to come along and get duped into beleiving Satan's gonna make him a king.. and poor cain is about to be coronated, and all of his wishes, to be recognized as a great king, and maybe even as a savior of sorts, will be fulfilled. i think its in the relevaltions, that everyone has to bow down and worship the antichrist. oedipus rex. king oedipus. the king of this world. talk about twilight zone!
cain gets his wish fulfilled, but at a rather substantial cost to his immortal soul. he sold his soul to satan for a crown, and became satan's minion, by becoming the oedipus complex, the path to hell thus being laid out nice a wide for everyone. oedipus is a piece of work. reuben, i gotta hand it to you, you really did come up with a dousy.
since this really started on monday, i am slowly purging the disease of oedipus. he's all of the tension in our backs and shoulders. he's got SOOOO much light all caught up in that tense back. you know, oedipus himself, the major top ten leading global justice messiah, can ofter be seen trying to break that tension, holding his arms up in a certain sort of way of stretching that sort of says that his whole body is caught in a vice of stress.
oedipus takes teh imaginative aspect out of life. he turns what is truly just an experience of imagination, and attempts to turn it into a fascist dictatorship, which I think he will finally have the fascist dictatorship he's always yearned for. now all of the fence posts and trees can all be topped off at exactly the same height. oedipus really is the king, always has been, since his sickness is so powerful that it afflicts everyone. it sort of gives men license to be the worst person that they can see themselves being. it really serves satan's purposes so well to have oedipus on board with his program. really is quite the win-win situation for those two. how many people will get over oedipus? gosh, it's just hard to see it being all that many.
whatever exists is something that someone somewhere is wishing for. everything fulfills someone's wish. whose wish is being fulfilled by this absolutely insane world? Satan's, to have a world of his own where he can be the god, and Cain's, to be the king of that world. Me? I always just wanted to be a shepherd, wandering around in a wildflower meadow with my sheep.
so now the merry band of gypsie lovers will be moving on from this world, on with the circus ride through eternity. stirring things up among the wannabe humans every once in a while, give people a chance to find out what existence is made of. after all,, we gotta give em a chance. too bad oedipus gets the better of most of em.
i was thinking of a riff that would go something like this, imagine in the NY Times:
I believe that we are on the eve of the end of days, and before everything gets too crazy i have something i would like to say. I have been studying the situation of why the human face seems to be heading on a course directly toward disaster. I have come to believe that the cause is that too few men have their hearts in what they are doing with their lives. Men are not living with heart.
I would like to acknowledge two men who i feel are exceptional in living heartfully, who put their hearts into their pursuits in life. Prem Rawat, who is known by many as a perfect spiritual master and Neil Young. If having your heart in what you were doing is the measure of greatness, then i feel that these two men are worthy of being cited as the two greatest men living in this world.
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