The Chocolate Company (129)

11/12 5:30am

get ready to party brothers and sisters, cuz we're almost done with the KNIDS.

we're really bringin' down some dinner this time..

darth vadar's black helmet looks like the glans penis of an aroused aryan man. circumcised. this alludes to Darth Vadar's identity as abraham to whom the creator, arius, gave the commandment that his - Abraham's - male descendants would be circumsized.

The circumcision of Abraham could easily be thought of as the foundation of the Aryan race in this world. I am not certain, but from what i can see, Arius himself does not appear as a father in this story, other than as the father of the Christ in the latter's incarnation as Jesus. Therefore PLUTO, Prince Rauven is the founder of the Aryan race, but not so much as Adam, but as Abraham, which is the first time since the Flood that Arius (God, whaever) appears in the story.

I continue to believe that Ham was Darth Vadar, the really good son of Arius who is the actual founder of the Aryan race. The single best man who himself does not appear as a descendant of Arius anywhere in the family tree, because he incarnated BEFORE Arius, grandpa Green in his original incarnation as the first of the three sons of Saturn, the second of which was Neptune Captain John Green, elton John, and finally Arius as Jupiter, come to save the day, so to speak, just it is a really long day so to speak... roald dahl said that...

the darth vadar / archangel police force that is the Pluto branch of the Green family tree / Roman Deity family named Rawat has certain responsibilities that will be carried out. They pertain to agreements that aryan men DO MAKE in becoming aryan men. Circumcision is one of these. It was commanded by Arius that Abraham / Darth Vadar and his descendants be circumcised, and they either obeyed their own agreement to obey the agya of arius or they disobeyed, and there may be a consequence of having disobeyed this commandment.

The 144,000 member nation of Israel who are Jaocob's first 144,000 male descendants, have maintained a steadfast commitment to circumcision through the duration of the 3,000 - 4,000 years since Abraham endured his own circumcision. Abraham, Darth Vadar, is Pluto, the top guy in the Aryan police force that includes the archangels, the nation of israel and the freemasons.

nana nana nana nana nana nana nana nana BATMAN!!!!!

comprehension is the result of perspiration....

you gotta be willing to SWEAT if you are going to comprehend the knowledge of good and evil to this degree - that the christ reconizes in Darth Vadar's outfit what he has long been saying: that who Darth Vadar is, Pluto, incarnated as Abraham.

The evidence has been sitting out in the public domain in the archetype of Darth Vadar that one of the most interesting novel and potentially controversial things that I said, that Abaham corresponds with Adam and "Reuben James" and Bob Seigel has serious intellectual merit, given that the Star Wars allegory seems to be based on this same idea.

Yet the CHrist, who is the only one who comprehended these things on his own, using the subliminal evidence available to him and everyone else, is apparantly disregarded completely by the entire theological and intellectual communities that one could expect would take an interest in such comments appearing as paid ads purchased by someone claiming to be the christ.

This is but one example of the comprehension of the Knowledge of Good and Evil that was spelled out before the people of Seattle and was completely disregarded as worthy of consideration by even the very most intelligent people that I know of in Seattle, including Sid Genette who is in my opinion the most intelligent person in Seattle that I have ever known who I do not associate the the Rawat family, including Kenny and Jake and bob, the hippy fisherman who i suspect is a rawat in the pluto line of archangels, the biggest McKenna fanatic on planet Earth, and he just refused to focus his brilliant mind on what I had to say.

i know i have a bunch of voice mails, and i also know that todd, surprisngly, tried to call me at some point the day before yesterday and i did return his call, but i have not listened to my voice mails.

if todd is there, and if i have been anywhere near right about what i have been saying about hum, then i want everyone to give him a standing ovation right now as one of my first sort of directives, if i may be so bold. thank you.

i love todd, and i have no boubt that todd is good and that todds whole mission in this life was to be the really important friend that he has been to me, and i believe that he may have known all along who i was and if so has demonstrated complete mastery of what i think of as being the very particular art of what i call the satan tribe,

the ability to fulfill any mission on behalf of the rawat family and their perfectly GOOD objectives.

Paul marcoux, who i now see as potentially refered to by name of the Paul bakery in Paris, as the reincarnation of Charles De Gaulle and possibly of Chrlamagne (who is no doubt de gaaulle one way or another) a very royal dude if he is, (if his life did not coincide with that of Jefferson, then I was Louis the 14th the SUN king.) i also see Paul as possibly being Paul. the apostle, this is certainly my first guess on the offical "what's up with Paul?" dokusan.

Paul really made me feel like he was capable of saying what no one ever said to me, which is, "if the christ were known to be alive in teh world today, you would appear to be a major top ten leading candidate," and somehow i dont think Merkle would have been on his list, like he might of been on, say, Goldie Caughlin's or Jon Ramer's list. I founded Theo Chocolate really, and i just cannot believe that he really intended to do me ANY harm whatsoever, and therefore i believe he MUST be a high level jesuit or freemason who may or may not know who he is, but who has been taken through some kind of a journey of a psychedlic nature as a memner of a secret rawat society as i believe hoo has and Wm Lehman has not, as a member of the "Satan" tribe, the tribe that does the bidding of Satan Joe Whinney.

This all relates to the KOAN that I would call the _Todd said to Jeff "I'm not sure I'm not Satan"_Koan. A very important Koan that I sort of sailed safely through, but over a long time and with a few storms along the way.

every bible code reference is a KOAN, and i want to solve every single one of them. and i want everyone to at least solve the KOANS (code ferences) that pertained to that person.

For example: Aunt Sue has a story and there are code references to events in her life that occured becuasue they were encoded and there were specific reasons. that code could be contained in any rawat book, but the most likely source of code pertaining to aunt sue based on what i currently know about her, would be in Mrs. Piggle Wiggle and Pipi Longstockings, which are rawat books that pertain in particular to this rawat archetypal characrter who is one of the glass beads, a role that one really good woman sort of chooses to play.

Luke chapter seven also is likely to have code pertaining to Aunt Sea, quite possibly regarding the cicrumstances of her death by burning perpetrated by the witch named Magag, or Ptarmagog.

This is just an example, an important one, of my ability to comprehend things, it will turn out that Luke chpter seven does have code pertaining to the crime of burning an innocent Rawat, Aunt Sea Green, when she was Joan of Arc, and Neil Young will somehow be the one to reveal the code itself, which is certainly contained in the English King James version of the Holy Bible, which to me is clearly the version of the new testment that contains code.

Shakespeare is probably rick in code, and Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy will contain codfe pertaining to my comprehension of Mrs. Eddy's identity as the Roman deity Diana, who is Magdelaine, the Christ's twin sister. Easy. Obvious.

there are clues about mrs eddy - the name MARY BAKER EDDY strongly suggests that she is my sister, but i never considered this until after i had already become convinced that she was is/

the CLUES that i get in names affirms intuitions that i have. James madison and james monroe.... its the coincidence of the two james that i realize has meaning AFTER i realized that goerge D is washington, and Franklin JOnes etc, all of that occured to me in a short period of time, and teh clues in the names were just there to affirm what i knew through other intellectual lines of consideration.

it all has to do with faith. Jeff Faith, you can call me that if you want. I am Faith as ANdrew Weil is Remedy. I AM an archetype and my archetype is FAITH, it's what I have perfected as a Rawat, as Remedy has PERFECTED an understanding of medicine and Evert has perfected certain skills and crafts, qualifying him to be a rawat, i would think, in some sense, though he may not be aryan. he was NOAH before Abraham, and this is a clue that I have been correct in my belief that Evert is NOT aryan, and that scandanavians as a whole may not be arayan. not sure, but there is something there. within the people on every continent, at least in the old world, are both aryans and nonaryans. how i could make A distinction between scnadanvians or swedes as non aryans, compared to the British and French, who I see as being aryan, i do not know.

othe than whether or not certain promises have been made including the promise to be circumcised. Evert could be a rawat person or a near rawat person wtihtout being aryan in the sense of not being descended frmo Abraham . there could be a super aryan subrace that includes ONLY teh actual BLOODLINE descendants of Abraham, plus the nation of ISrael the 144,000 who mostly do not incarnate as Jews today.

whereas there could be other races who descend from arius in some sense without ever having incarnated as a descendant of Abraham, for example, descendants of NOAH through lines other than Abraham's, descended from a Rawat in that they descended from Darth Vadar, thus they are aryan in some sense without being Abrahamic Aryan - the race who can become orcs of one kind or the other.

Orc are descendants of abraham, i have said that for a long time.



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luke of oxbow farm IS luke, and this is the LUKE Dokusan, and my ZIK rating will now be raised another notch.

This is simply the "Who is Luke" KOAN, that I have solved in a sort of (Arius will appreciate this matephor!) "simultaneous visual approach" formation alongside the "Who is Mark" Koan, and the "Who is Paul" Koan, i think I solved the Who is Peter Koan when I said Dr James Kennedy appears to me to be Peter."

so to Luke: Luke of Oxbow is a very good and honest man, of the highest integrity of anyone i know. he's a pot smoker and he's interested in the psychedelic experience and has been more than willing to hear me out, being one of the VERY FEW men in my life who have brought my experience and my writings to others' attention...

this ALL points strongly to Luke, strongly enough that I have resolved in myself that I know who Luke is, but then the coup de grace is this: the Lu#7 dream which i had sleeping with Aunt SUe in Aunt Sue's bed in Anut Sue's home refers to Aunt Sue and the nurder of Joan of Arc by Ptarmagog.

Oxbow LUKE AND AUNT SUE are very close , I met LUKE through Aunt SUe. It all adds up to LUKE IS LUKE as sure as Aunt Sue is Sea Green.

no doubt, this is my FINAL ANSWER on the LUKE KOAN,

and my final answer on the who is Mark? KOAN is the guy named Mark who lives in Bangalore India and who the teletubbie goddess baby snowleopard got off of the phone with just before I started into the LUKE dokusan, and who i have encouraged Palmo to pursue whatever kind of relatsionship she wants with him, I even offered to pay her travel costs to go to india to be with him. Mark of Mangalore is Mark, Final ANSWER!!

Final answer at this time on Mathew is the person I have already given as my solution to the Who is Matthew? Koan. Mathew Smith, who grew up across the street and was Bookworms one close friend throughout his entire childhood - mathew went on to become a very David YOung's like christian with a booming voice that seems to really be out to get my attention... he seeems like an archangel level Plutonic cop and I believe that his role is probably important enough to warrant Apostle status as Matthew.

This leaves the who is John subKOAN of the Who are the four Apostles, plus Peter and Paul Koan, and my answer, FINAL answer on the WHo is John who said, "in the begining was the word, the word was with God and the Word was God" one of the all time favorite quotations of Arius as Goo Maraji, is FINAL ANSWER ON JOHN

no competition hands down its why I started naming him as interchangable with prem rawat as the wizaed of OZ, one of the ALL TIME most psychedelic of psychedelics,

TH CHRIST WISHES TO BE VERY EMPHATIC THAT HE IS ABSOLUTELY CONVINCED BEYOND THE POSSIBILITY OF DOUBT, TO THE POINT OF SPECIFICALLY WANTING TO SAY AT THE SAME TIME THAT JOHN OF PATMOS WAS PROBABLY NEIL RAWAT AND THAT HE IS CLEAR WHICH "JOHN" IS WHICH, IF THESE TWO John's are different men, John the Apostle and John of Patmos, then I jeff Fairhall Rawat proclaim my STRONG BELIEF that JOHN THE APOSTLE was JOHN LENNON whose other past incarnations include VLADIMIR LENIN/

Whoa!!!

yup that's my final answer on teh "Who was John the Apostle" KOAN. and it looks like I nailed franklin jones and i cant imagine i am wrong about lennon.

If "PAUL" was not Paul Marcoux, then obviously my next guess,m my SECOND guess if my final answer on my offficial first guess that Paul was Paul marcoux is incorrect, then Paul McCartney is my next guess.

Even if Paul McCartney is found to have been Paul, I believe that the rawat authorities who include JOhn Lennon more surely than they include Paul McCartney, will agree that JOhn Lennon as John the Apostle is a more enlightened, more royal more intelligent person compared to Paul Mccartney even if he was PAUL who some regard as second to Jesus in his importance among early CHristians,

My belief is that PAUL is very important for reasons that I may not fully comprehend but that BOTH JOHNS JOhn the Apostle who i believe was Lennon, and JOHN of Patmos who was the prophet of Revelations and whom I believe was an incarnation of Neil Young Rawat are MORE ENLIGHTENED or INTELLIGENT or ROYAL that Paul, regardless of if Paul is Paul Mccartney today.

Pauls' recent stop through seattle may have been thought of by Paul mccartney as a tribute to me, he may think of himself as having paid his respects, for whoever paul mccartney was or was not in past lives, he's played an important role and he IS a very OPEN HEARTED and HONEST man and is a Heaven person, and archangel of some degree of importance that i just happen to see as something less than what john lennon is.

SO there is have done the whole top six dsiciples sort of KOAN. Lazarus, i am going to go with bejurin, which was just my first thought on who lazasrus might have been. Bejurin cassady remains my guess as to the identity in this life of the father of SPECIFICALLY thomas jefferson... i had thought he was joseph, jesus' "father" and i realize i was wrong, but he is my father in another incarnation and its jefferson, and one clue is that hiding behind the name Bejurin is his original first name jeffrey. which would make me the son of jeffrey in son sense, with of course reduces simply to jefferson. the awareness that bejurin was named jeffrey was obscured from me on purpose until after it had first occured to me that bejurin would be a father of jesus in another incarnation,,, the calloing bejurin after the yosamian puzzle came into focus was probably the moment when one could say that i KNEW bejurin was my father from a different incarnation, and it may have been in that very conversation that he told me the jeffrey was his original first time, whereas i was under the mistaken impression that it was something like "John Thomas"

The DOUBTING THOMAS koan.

my first answer is Tom Fairhall, and that this is a secret that THOMAS was an incarnation of the enemy of the christ who i have identified as "Bookworm" if so then JUDAS would be an ally and THOMAS would be the imposter, which of course would solve the JUDAS koan as well,

JUDAS is probably KLUGER. THOMAS is THOMAS A FAIRHALL< bookworm, the only evil-intended of the twleve disciples

if tom faith (fairhall) is NOT the correct identity for doubting Thomas then Bejurin Cassady is my second, unless he is LAzarus because that was a more definite answer and this Thomas apossibility is a SECOND guess for both THOMAS and BEJURIN's biblical personage.

if the water girl in the bible is roxanne, or if roxanne refered to by the name of the crystal geyser water company is somehow a rawat reference that in some way COULD BE interpreted by a fully informed Jeff fairhall as being a thumbs up on the CG water, then i will have nailed the ROXANNE koan.

&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&Heymark,you'reatthetrumanshow,alongwithjacobandhugo,no?????????????????

it seems an aweful lot like mark of bangalore is at the truman show, that he knows he's in the middle of a lila,

i made a point of asking her to think of me naked in the tub, and asked her if i could eat her or masturbate in front of her while she was having an HONEST conversation with mark about a relationship he has with another woman,

and the amazing thing is, it is SO OBVIOUSLY a set up and that it seems obvious, based on my impressions, that Mark KNOWS what is going on at the Cole Valley rawat residence, and yet palmo, as the best of all women, refuses to see it.

because she is a woman and because women are inferior intellectually - as KOAN solving, ZIQ ratable beings, to healthy aryan men like mark and me - by a long ways - which is fine. they are JUST as capable of pleasure, happiness, and fulfillment as men, but this comes through men, whereas in men it comes directly from arius and his sons.

its all about proving certain things, one of which is the inherent inferiority of women relative to aryan man and what they are intended to be as male lovers of arius and or his sons

i sincerely believe that whether he knows exactly what is happening or not, and i tend to think he does know what is happening, mark of bagalore is helping tVm the woman of the tulips, whose tulips are the finest on earth IMHO, the teletibbie goddess baby snowleopard ts. p@lm@ dak... put on a demonstration, with she as the subject according to a scrpit devised in advance by Neil and or Prem Rawat, that is intended to demonstrate optimal behavior in men and women in relation to issues around honesty and loyalty and integrity in an intimate relationship, and as a part of the lesson it is being demonstrated that women have an inherent trait toward dishonesty, as I have defined it, a resistence to complete transparacy, that is obviously, to a man such as mark or myself, a failing that MEN cannot succumb to, or even tolerate too much of in women. Men MUST be honest, and women need to become MORE honest and need to OWN UP the to truth that when push comes to shove, the MAN is more likely to be honest and truthful than a WOMAN in virtually any breakdown in a relationship involving lack of honesty. honesty is the crux between success and failure in human existence, as i keep repeating.

WOmen can lie if they want to i suppose, but if they want to be a part of a successful situaiton, if they want to succeed in their existence in their lives, they MUST accept the rule that MEN have the power when it comes to resolving issues in which HONESTY is an issue. women MUST submit to the inherent superiority of men, and the consequences are grave.

to be honest, it is hard for me to imagine the desolation that i somehow believe ptarmagog has subjected herself to by taking the man-hating role, the pure penis envy role. the wicked witch ptarmagog is faced with a terrible plight, whether to fly south in winter or turn white.

glass bead game role: "PAUL" includes Paul, charlemangne, charles de gaulle, some famous french revolution figure, possibly someone like ROBESPIERRE for example, (i dont know what kind of role be played only than the name is so distinctive my attention is drawn to is as the most memorable name of a frech revolution character and this is the first time i have delved this deep into a comprenhension of things french, so this seems like it might be wht the machine elves have given me to work with, Paul Bakery in some sense is related to this very Francophillic KOAN. However Paul was in the french revolution period would have been his own french connection, so to speak in france, possible Roberpierre, and possibly someone named Paul who I am not aware of, or in some way there may be a clue in the name of the french speaking person i can imagine was a close french confidant of Jefferson while in paris,,, robert lynx as well. he in fact, because of the ROB syllable is probably a more likely choice as Robespierre.

Jefferson was in Paris during the aftermath of the french revolution and the emergence of WANNAW as napoleon and i long ago identified Napoleon as the first antichrist enactment, which was related to the final destruction of the habsburg dark ages rule over the decidely unHoly Roman Empire, not to mention the louisiana purchase, the intruiges going on in Pris and between the French and the American during this time, it was a VERY intense time and P Max was VERY busy during this crux period of european history, the french and american revolutions, the END of the glden age that was typified by the reign of Louis 14 who appears to be thr christ leading up to napoleons defeat and exile, and the descent of france into becoming much less than it had been, the rawats may have had a MAJOR stronghold in france that they decided to let go of after the death of Louis 14, louis 16 may have been a babylonian, or maybe just a satan tribe person who'se role it was to take the fall. marie antoinette could be a rawat woman PRETENDING to be the dillentante that she appears to be, or that could be allah or someone allied with babylon.

the three antichrists, beginning with napoleon, whose real purpose was the rawat elimination of all vestiges of the dark ages rule of babylon from western europe by the final destruction of the Habsburg holy roman empire, enact three major pieces of Satan's plans to rule the world through the Satan tribe's British east india Co. and poppy bush's conspiracies, all done as the fulfillment of Joe WHinney/ Satan's stated directives,

all of which leads to ssatan;s ultimate defeat by the one who sees in the execution of satan's plans as they can be seen to be weaved through the narrative that includes Napoleon, Hitler and GW Bush by the christ, who begins calling bullshit on satan as soon as he can seee the story and how it would intuively relate to the opium trade.

in a sense you could call this the "merovingian" KOAN, as the authors of holy blood holy grail would agree, i saw that guy lincoln on TV, - i read holy blood holy grail but NOT da vince code - i htink he is like icke, and i like Lincoln, another candidate to have been abraham, put him in that guess cue if i didnt nail it already.

see the rawats had some kind of power base in france from whenever the merovingian kings whoever they are ascended, charlemagne was rawat htrough louis 14, and de gaulle was rawat,.

when the pope was based in Avignon, or whver it was in france when the ope was in france, that was no doubt a pro rawat pope, not a babylonian pope. and the french connection relates to the french involvement in the opium trade, which is related to the papacy and these are all KOAN key words in the Merovingian KOAN>

France has always, at least until louis 14, but possibly right through de gaulle, been pro rawat, possibly even maintaining a presnece in france during the darkes of dark ages,,, there is a lot of historical intruige that i can only guess at in this period of european history, but i believe that france may have remained somewha of a rawat stronghold all along until the monarchy was destroyed,,, degaule may be de gaul's name because he somehow is a revival of the rawat power in france. just ideas. i dont know frecn history at all, i cant even tell you who was who in the french revolution, i only have ideas about who Napoleon was.

Jean Paul Sartre was a member of the "existentialist' group of philosophers that included kierkegaard, i believe, and he may be a rawat who moved in circles that included either neitzche kierkeaggard or people allied with them, but jean paul artre is another possible marcoux glass bead role.

it could be that "lucifer" had a stronghold in france for a long time, and that after the french revolution, possible occuring as a result of allowing babylonians to take over france, the center that had been in france move to the UK and or th eUSA or other rawat stronghold.. USA has always been solidly rawat, aaran burr may have been the closest that anyone came to usurping the rawat plans for the USA>

the abdication of the duke of windsor, th eking who resigned, there is something significant about that, it could be an actual defeat of babylon, or an eneactment thereof by actors. it seems too significant not to be related to the rawat vs babylon struggle.

hre is the lastes e mail from green@eskimo.com (no prankster or heckler would have come up with green at eskimo as their e mail address.) so even though it seems critical to the point of typical rudeness, there is an intelligence and a sense of koanness that is undeniable.

this is from arius in one way or another, and it could have been sent by neil or arius or ben f. or one of many rawat archangels. i dunno, but i will be open to something involving a horse that will bring me back to studying this e mail, or maybe something else will trigger, but its just grist for the mill, i dont feel like i HAVE to solve this KOan right now... but i KNOW that it presents a KOAN of some kind.

you've been calling me for some time now and I've been extremely busy
feeding the animals and watering the lawn so I thought since I had a few
minutes now I could begin to address some of the issues you bring up.
before we can move into the core of some of your more inane ramblings we
have to start at the end.. Your latest diatribe in the Stranger ends
with a statement refering to the meek. I have to say you have not
really presented yourself as having anything in common with the meek.
You rant on and on, I am this, I am that, blah, blah, blah. A thousand
people will testify to your greatness. So what. Though some may testify
for me I would never ask them to as the truth is more powerful than all
the people on the earth and the power that radiates from me and
nourishes you is not relative to the subjective opinions of others but
stands on it's own through the purity of it's purpose. I will offer you
several opportunities to acheive humility in the near future. Just for
fun let's encode a secret flag so you will know when one opportunity is
on you. Our secret code word will be "horse".
I have to say for someone who gets all swollen with pride over your
ability to sell bread that contains parasitic organisms and is baked at
temperatures that ensure the gluten has bound the nutrients into a
barely digestable product and then purports to speak from some position
of truth as to how you are going to bring relief to the humble, meek,
and gentle I have to wonder just what your plan is. Is it to kill them
with crappy food? That is the one thing whole wheat generally does . It
forms a nice turd. Then your going to sell them some chocolate whose
sugar will debilate their immune systems and help insure they will be
the one out of three who gets cancer. But it will sure taste sweet. And
besides, the sugar will feed the systemic yeast you introduced with your
bread . Great job Jeff. If you can get their parasite cultures large
enough to reach the critical mass that allows for the cohabitation or
possession by a demonic spirit you can ensure that they won't have
enough sense to see through your chest thumping gorilla antics.
I know from the way you posture yourself that you are dedicated to me
and my work. My wish for you is that instead of wasting the precious
resources I have given you telling everyone how great you are that you
might come to understand that you are the only one who gets what you
get, but so are each of the others, so take your resources and learn to
give them away to the meek, humble, and gentle, but learn to do it so
efficiently that you neither have profit or loss.
By the way, I just can't seem to find anything wrong with your salsa.
adios
no one in particular

certainly there are things written in there that make me think, and its good, i think its just a part of what it takes to kill the jack nicholson in me. adn maybe my ads are worthless, i just know that earl green says grandpa green is proud and earl seems proud too, and that is all i care about, and if the way that they can help me is to make me doubt myself, then so be it. my self doubt is getting pretty small already.

but i accept that i am still not behaving in a completely perfect and impeccable way, but i do feel that whoever sent that e mail prbably would have more kind things to say to me at some other time.

this was my e mail reply to "green" at eskimo dot com.

Just for
fun let's encode a secret flag so you will know when one opportunity is
on you. Our secret code word will be "horse".

well since this is from "green" @eskimo, which really suggests alaska to me, i have to take it seriously, and even though it is just words which may or may NOT be intended to be truly insulting or critical, there is a KOAN embedded in you rant, and it obviously seems to be relate to the horse, which probably pertains somehow to what i have been delving into on my site, or perhaps to the image of the christ on a horse, no one in particular sounds a bit like someone who will help you doesn't it? i dunno who you are, but thanks, i will consider what you have said.

jeff

i am honest, i TRY to be honest.

i am humble, i try to be humble at the same time as being honest first and foremost

i am peaceful, i try to cultivate and atmosphere of peace around myself, i try to make things so that people can feel secure, trusted trustworthy, an atmosphere that encourages happeinss.

i am loving, i try to love and be lovable./

so i may have room for improvement, but i dont think i am failing to be a good person.

but this KOAN gives me cause for reflection, i WANT to be a good student and son to the perfect father who is teaching me how to be his son.

at this point i believe that arius is the author of the poem, whether or not he clicked on the send button.

my second guess is neil, and if they want more guesses, then they will come in due course.

i do have resource that i could have used, and still could use, for humanitarian benefit of the humble and meek, but to be honest, i just feel like focusing in my body right now is what is most important, and nothing that is said to me in an anonymous e mail, even one from Neilrawat@ yahoo.com can be considered as AGYA.

guru maharaj ji once said something like, if it is agya it will come directly from him, not even from himself appearing in a dream.

so this e mail is something that appears because i'm meant to cogitate on it as a KOAN, including to consider any suggestions, but its not something to take as agya. just a koan clue. the mail seems to contain familiar forms of disregard for me and my message, in this case the assertion that belittles me is that i cant be the christ, even though i offered people some of the best sourdough bread on earth, becuase there is soemthing inherently wrong with yeast in bread, which there may be, but i didnt force anyone to eat it, and i remain proud of the degree to which i attained right livlihood.

so there is that aspect and there are the aspects that honestly seem to indicate tht grandpa or earl green wrote this e mail to play with me. aand possibly to provide me with important guidance,,, and to the extent that i can read anything at all into it, i need to believe that i got it for a reason and that the person whose will is being manifest, grandpa green, loves and respects me, at least what i really am, even if i am still being something that inevitably has to die like RP mcmurphey.

then there is the subject line of that e mail,

"your in the bardo now baby" again baby suggests fathers green AND

this also suggests the peaceful and wrathful deities the latter relating to self doubts and the pangs of consicious that an aryan man would expect to feel in such a moment in their journey, so this e mail is aobut life in the bardos, which i have spoken aobut intelligently in the past, the in between place of the realms of samsara in which there is the lie of mortality to deal with.

this e mail is from greendale for sure. . its like, if you were grandpa green at this point, watching your best son become what his best son becomes, and you needed to provoke him in some way to self doubt, this e mail might be what you would come up with.

maybe joe whinney came up with it??,,, doubtful.

another thing about the green@eskimo e mail is that it suggests to me that grandpa green is in alaska, which sorre of suggests, again, the sunshine coast of BC up to the end of the road in lund, which still is my first guess as the physical location of greendale if it exists as a place

in the bardo thodol, and this email MAY have been sent as the BORDO THODAL koan in order that i might be able to express some of what i understand about what is undeerstood in tibetan buddhism specifically about the bardos,

in the bardo thodo, the tibetan book of the dead, and i am familiar wtih the wilhelm baynes edition with the psychological commentaries of carl Jung who says that the bardo thodol has been his constant companion, like his own bible, and that are as important as the text itself, which if there is some CODE in anything tibetan, it is as likely to be in the wilhelm baynes edition of the bardo thodol as anywhere, in much the same way as the classic yellow i ching is the e ching that is the official rawat i ching, just like i believe, for example that christopher alexander's book, a pattern language is an official rawat book which is probably why i take offense at the plagerism of a pattern language committed by a guy in seattle named david sucher, who i could ype imagine neil and prem rawat are aware of as a babylonian type of a guy in seattle whose ego is as big as a mountain and who plagerized a pattern language which i just have to believe is a rawat book just like, say, man of the trees, the story about the guy who planted acorns in france, or pipi longstockings or bharlie and the great glass elevator are RAwat books, one straw revolution and the chuang tzu book that i read from at dai bosatsu, and even some music is rawat music, and i will name all fo the stuff that daniel lanois, including the album of robbie robertson that was used in powow highway, for example may be glass bead game stuff invented by arius long ago, or by earlier sons in earlies world, as i believe the neil young is the invetor of the car KOAN relates to.. the car is something that appeared for the first time in this world thanks to ganesh the elephant AKA neil young rawat, and now th ecar has become a glass bead that a son of arius can play, if they have the right dispositions.

the wilbur and oroville wright glass bead could include oroville wrigiht returning as oroville redenbacher the popcorn guy, another glass bead combo. perhaps so that the christ can say, maybe oroville wright and oroville redenbacher are the same person. just like "vlad" and john lennon are the same as are Karl and Groucho Marx, pontifex maximus.

anyway in the bardo thodol , the tibetan book of the dead, the initiate has several opportunities for liberation through seeing into the clear light of the void, which is the ether, the self effulgent reality of Imgination.

it seems like this aspect of the bardo thodol is refered to by the green @ eskimo e mail. again, pertianing to the liberation from the nurse rachet cocooks nest but also pertaining to the book of the dea itself/ and the truth ther in. hperhaps his holiness the dalai lama is at the truman show now.

i respect the author of the green @eskimo e mail and yet i dont see where he has really made a meaningfyl criticism of my expression in the world but i do see where there is a lot of subliminal meaning in the e mail.

any e mail that i get now is suspect, and the past few are all koans.

this IS the truman show is it not/??

this tVm koan, i just wanna make sure i answer it fully.

the tulip has always had an erotic association for human beings

and the rhyme with two lips is not lost on most people, but what is lost in the reference to the tibetan word for vagina, "tu" which of course if interesting because the goddess, the mother, is tibetan.

so anyway what i wanna say is that the teletubbie goddess is so hung in a manner of speaking having to do with hydration and the full swelling of the venusian mound so to speak. she is a little bit self consxcious about her so hungness, but i thik she's pretty proud of her loving abilities.

the tVm koan. which is related to the tulip koan.

3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3--3-3-3-3-3-3-6-6-6-6-6-6-6-6-6-6-6-6-6-666-666-666-666-666-333-333-333-33-33-3

OK this e mail, i wanna just call it the "your in the bardo now baby" and if i could i'd like to invite the roshis who include prem and/or neil rawat and quite possibly franklin jones , HH the dalai lama, eido shimano roshi fukuoka, chuang tzu etc.. but this KOAN is about the bardo, and about buddhism and about why the christ is coming across as a zen buddhist master in his final incarnation in this world.

i offer the following as my first attempt at answering the _your in the bardo now baby_ koan:

"it's all about the ebb" but that is sort of paraphrasing. but its about a flag and a horse, in a manner of speaking and its about buddhism and the flavor of the last e mail.

CHristianity is about the story, the whats and whys and wherefores of the story of the human condition, but buddhism offers the keys to "the ebb," to the time in life when it is time to leave the lies and illusions and regain the true sense of what it means to exist as men and as women, which are two diffferent animals in many respects.

this is broad and vague but i believe it pertains to the "your in the bardo now baby" koan. its where we deal with the wrathful deities of our own conscience, the whole e mail and things that have happened since and the thrust of the past few days is a lot about how zen buddhism emerges as the truest religion on earth in terms of its ability to lead a person to the realization of knowledge. KOANS are essential to how the imagination works, to the way in which things happen in the world, so to speak, because koans are how the intelligence that exists works.

neil young's greendale album works within a cetain understanding that not all can be known by even the ultimate KNOWer, neil says inthe book, "we're going on a little trip folks" and even he "who made it all up" doesnt really know what it all means, it all depends ultimately upon faith in the laws of karma, in the primacy of goodness, faith in truth, it reminds me of the movie MISSING which moved me quite a bit, the father who came to find out the truth aobut his son was a christian scientist and he was asked in th e film - and this always seemed deliberately ocntrived, like it WAS A BIBLE CODE reference that i experienced as a memorable event before i ever heard of the bible code, and i could name lots of events from my earlies like, stories i read, movies i saw, bits of infromation i picked up on the way, that i would now say are all in the bible code or some such code.

anyway in the movie missing someone asks the character played by jack lemmon if i remember corectly (i saw this on video at french's house back about 20 years ago, and it made me cry, along with Killing FIELDS which i also saw at that time and that is NO DOUBT also an eternal rawat story that i had to experience in order to gain some understanding of SE asia, and in fact palmo wants me to read the chapter on WAR in the book about the hmong that she is reading and in some sense this relates to my having seen killing fiends and apocalypse now and dances with wolves and numerous other films, probably almost every film i ever saw was predicred would be seen by me, and so in missing he is asked what christian science is all about and he says "faith" and his quesitoner, i believe it was the ford foundation guy who helped him locate information about his son, who was killed yb the pinchet regime during the aftermath of the coup d'etat in chile, then asked "faith in what?" and the lemmon character -who obviously is sympathetic to christian science otherwise he wouldnt be willing to do this scene, but this scene is VERY IMPORTANT in the overall purpose of making the film missing - says "faith in truth."

that sums up so much of what i believed then and now about christian science and it relates to everything that i am saying about faith and how even the deity who wrote the story doesnt know how it all turns out, there are just certain skeletol events in the archetypal story that sort of FORCE one person to be what one person has to be by virtue of their being a part in a story that has to be played by someone... the cast was all rounded up and orgnaize before the sperm dream evern began.

so i am in the bardos now baby, and this is what i have to ttalk about, the thoughts that come to mind appropos of an anonymous e mail and a bumper sicker than appeared on a car while walking down to the nakery where the goddess named Tara works to buy a dessert for another goddess named Rada, the cowgirl lover of kirshna. the bumper sticker that said something like, "it all pertains to the ebb," which to me means that this whole bardo, buddhism, franklin jones, chuang tzu emphasis of the past few days relates to the ebbing of lies and illusions, and how there are residual fears and pains in the body that are alittle bit scary, more lies that have been placed in the collective mind that the journeyer has to deal with.

so i know that the "your (sic) in the bardo now baby" e mail was a koan from arius and or neil, and that its all about the conscience that men will have to deal with in the process of awakening to reality and they have to be prepared to resolve karmic debts as they arise from the depths of their own repressed memories, like i wish to deal with my guilty conscience about morgan o'brien and john elvin, which i believe is already close to being resolved, as well as any and all incidents in this life in which i stole anything from anyone, i want to pay 100% interest on all theft that i commited which was limited pretty much to shoplifting candy as a child.

as life is ebbing you need to be able to let go of things lurking within your conscience. i believe that this is at least not too far off the mark that green @ eskimo . com had in mind when he sent the e mail.. maybe green@eskimo will send me another e mail. to help hone the searching aorund with the flashlight.

this really does seem like a reasonable critique, coming from a true master:

I know from the way you posture yourself that you are dedicated to me
and my work. My wish for you is that instead of wasting the precious
resources I have given you telling everyone how great you are that you
might come to understand that you are the only one who gets what you
get, but so are each of the others, so take your resources and learn to
give them away to the meek, humble, and gentle, but learn to do it so
efficiently that you neither have profit or loss.
By the way, I just can't seem to find anything wrong with your salsa.
adios
no one in particular

and there is this question of fermentation that i have puzzled on and i dont know the answer,

but there is the salsa, which has nothing fermented and no sugar and maybe its as simple as that and maybe not but this is a KOan that is trying to help seperate me from ego in some way/

could it possibly be said tht english is the optimum koan asking and solving launguage, that is in some sense a sort of A "zix master's" favorite language?

IT SEEMS to me LIKE ENGLISH in some sense could be understood to be the most intelligent language,

and the thing i have said before about mary baker eddy i will say again:

in the context of learning about mary baker eddy twentyish years ago i came across the factoid that other than shakespear and the holy bible, mary baker eddy USES MORE DIFFERENT ENglish words than any other writer in english, surely a significant factoid that i was destined by the code written in either the bible or science and health with key to the scriptures by mary baker eddy, that i would hear and that is an indication of teh supreme intelligence manifest by the author of that book whether man or woman. it may be that mrs eddy was handed these books in much the same way as mohammed was given the horn... its an expression of who she was, but because of the code contained therein, she needed to present verbatim exactly what she presented and so was given the books by an archangel or other member of her family, the family of arius who had formed a familiar constellation in the environs of concord mass in the life time of mary baker eddy.

going to baker beach to watch the sunset.

is that in the bible code too?>

of course, and its also in there that the first song we heard on the way home (after the ending of vampire blues was on the Beach.

but there is a lot more, this is the fairy tale ending to an incredible fairy tale a love story unparalleled, and i was told that by neil yesterday appropos of the octagonal chuang tzu dokusan.

so first of all i will just mention that while we were out at Presidio, we took a walk near and under the golden gate bridge.. there was a flag, a sign there with a map of the bay, a topo map of the bay, showing water depths, and there were arrows indicating the flow of water in the FLOW (opposite of EBB) tide. but not the EBB tide. the omission of the EBB tide and the picture of the FLOW tide certainly is appropos of the "it all pertains to the EBB bumper sticker" and i believe, in all honesty and humility that the author of the e mail doesnt really mean to criticize me as to HELP me with my searching around for meaning in my experience.

lots that is happening pertains to the ebb, which is like the flushing out of the old disease and the refreshing that would naturally be associate with teh flow tide, the incoming tide...

there is palmo;s relationships with mark and me

there is chuang tsu and fukuoka emerging as singlurly iconic figures in my own life,

there is the book about the hmong that palmo is reading that i can imagine the directive came down through wither Pmax or neil young through dean bertolami that this book needed to be assigned, because its very pertinent to the momemt to the point where i see a connection between the word HMONG and the name of CHUANG Tzu. the HMONG could be, and whether they are or not is not as significant as the thought that they SEEM like they could be the actual descendants of chuang tsu, the HMONG appear to be a fairly intact tribe of psychedelic shaman hobbit like people that FUK - uoka is the embodiment of.

there is a quotation on the back from a critic who says that the book should be assigned reading, and it is among palmo's class at dean bertolami's sschool of life and densistry.

so one thing that is a theme is the theme of honesty that is paramount in palmo's life at this time,, she has me and mark working on her, and she is breaking out of the molds of secrecy that were induced in her by her mom mostly. her mom who i see as the mother of milk maid girls, very nurturing woman who has a boudary problem that will be easily corrected in my opinion.\even with her short comings, dolma la is sacred in her own way , very nurturing, she just needs a world to live in where there is a place for her nurturing energy.

so palmo, mark and i, and the woman with the Tibetan name Pema who is mark's other girl friend who i've stated to palmo is probably a lot like her such that there could be a four way relationship of respect and honesty between all four of us.

Palmo has her perfect intentions in life, but she is also a woman and honesty is not one of the virtues she has worked on perfecting, but she IS honest, its just that HONESTY isnt as high a priority as nurturing and taking care which is fine, if MARK and I and the other men in her life demand honesty, she will happily oblige i am sure.

these are the last and some of the most important issues as i see it, and i really think the "your in the bardo now baby" KOAN was just there to keep me going into the puzzle. and deep in the muscles around my spine i feel the alcohol burning and i just want to keep going into it, my spine is turning to liquid, the false self is being dissolved, the water that dorothy throws on the witch could also be seen to be related to the EBB as well as the whole theme of drinking water in my life,

and then there is that really COOL pink floyd song that is a stand out from the past sixteen years, i dunno if was the whole pink floyd band or just one of the guys - and pink floyd, whoever the creative forces are in the band are imnportant archangel types - but this one song with the refrain "ohhhOhhhh the tide is turning" comes to mind. The tide is turning and its all about the EBB, right now we are in an EBB tide in some sense, a washing out of poisons, and the final revelations that pertain.

and if i have exhibited a lack of appropriate MEEKNESS, or if in some way i could do more in servidce to the MEEK, besides make a trail into heaven for them, then i hope i will learn that lesson to, but i have a feeling that there was a lot more to the "your in the bardo now baby" email than just being a critique of my statements and it is clear that this e mail is from someone in greendale and i've learned one thing from Neilrawat@yahoo.com whoever he is, that when i am puzzling, sometimes i need to be led to believe the opposite is true, and i just cant really believe that grandpa green is that unhappy with me at the moment, at the same time, i just want to face criticism as honestly and faithfully and peacefully, and lovingly as i can.







so there is that.



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you've been calling me for some time now and I've been extremely busy
feeding the animals and watering the lawn so I thought since I had a few
minutes now I could begin to address some of the issues you bring up.
before we can move into the core of some of your more inane ramblings we
have to start at the end.. Your latest diatribe in the Stranger ends
with a statement refering to the meek. I have to say you have not
really presented yourself as having anything in common with the meek.
You rant on and on, I am this, I am that, blah, blah, blah. A thousand
people will testify to your greatness. So what. Though some may testify
for me I would never ask them to as the truth is more powerful than all
the people on the earth and the power that radiates from me and
nourishes you is not relative to the subjective opinions of others but
stands on it's own through the purity of it's purpose. I will offer you
several opportunities to acheive humility in the near future. Just for
fun let's encode a secret flag so you will know when one opportunity is
on you. Our secret code word will be "horse".
I have to say for someone who gets all swollen with pride over your
ability to sell bread that contains parasitic organisms and is baked at
temperatures that ensure the gluten has bound the nutrients into a
barely digestable product and then purports to speak from some position
of truth as to how you are going to bring relief to the humble, meek,
and gentle I have to wonder just what your plan is. Is it to kill them
with crappy food? That is the one thing whole wheat generally does . It
forms a nice turd. Then your going to sell them some chocolate whose
sugar will debilate their immune systems and help insure they will be
the one out of three who gets cancer. But it will sure taste sweet. And
besides, the sugar will feed the systemic yeast you introduced with your
bread . Great job Jeff. If you can get their parasite cultures large
enough to reach the critical mass that allows for the cohabitation or
possession by a demonic spirit you can ensure that they won't have
enough sense to see through your chest thumping gorilla antics.
I know from the way you posture yourself that you are dedicated to me
and my work. My wish for you is that instead of wasting the precious
resources I have given you telling everyone how great you are that you
might come to understand that you are the only one who gets what you
get, but so are each of the others, so take your resources and learn to
give them away to the meek, humble, and gentle, but learn to do it so
efficiently that you neither have profit or loss.
By the way, I just can't seem to find anything wrong with your salsa.
adios
no one in particular