wallingford chocolate mess (133)

And in ONE HOUR, (minus one minute now) it will be 9:33/// interesting coincidence that after mentioning 933 apropos of noting the time as 733, and then being reminded at 833 that i said at 733 that i would start a new page... is this related to the anticipation i had a year ago (during the thanksgiving false rapture, A I W) that whomever was going to pick me up would pick me up at 9:33???

and now its 903 and palmo is heading to school/ half way between 833 and 933

i am posting on another page the curent draft of the ad i will place this week in the stranger,,, i hope green@eskimo will let me know IN ADVANCE if there is anything about it that he doesnt approve of...

Stranger ad

OK, it seems like i have a lot i want to say. I want to have an official Dokusan session with the Most Holy Master Roshi Grandpa Green, who I believe is the author of the green @ eskimo e mail, about the green @ eskimo e mail, AKA the your in the bardo now baby e mail and so i am going to imagine that i am in his dokusan room with whatever onlookers, including Earl Green.

I am going to paste the entire e mail here and then insert my comments. I am doing this while listening to what i would call, and Skywalker might have a better name if you want to ask him, "tribal belly dance drumming music" which i purchased recently from some "Islamic" brothers at their nice little shop down under the market at Pike Place in Seattle, Moslem men who I consider brothers worthy to citizens in the Nation of Israel that I imagine will be established in a few days time, simply because when I talked with them about honesty they looked me in the eyes and spoke honestly about their belief in the importance of honesty,, Egptians if I remember correctly who just may not be Arabs in the sense that they are not descendants of Hagar and Ishmael, or maybe they are, but do not subscripe to the mind set that some Islamic people seem to have that all "infidels" (non moslems) must be destroyed, the sort of attitude manifest by whomever justified the killing of MOslem Jordanians on the basis of their being "triators" against Islam. It (being a citizen of Israel has to do with things other than the brand of religion that men have grown up indoctrinated into, such as the intentions of the clergy who teach and promote the religion for example, but more importantly, the condition of the soul of the individual before beginning this particular life.

so this music, which I associate strongly with the "gypsy nation" which Victor Hugo Skywalker Piottin has taken - at least somewhat, if not entirely appropraitely - the liberty of defining as affiliated with himself and that I also associate in my mind with the word Aryan. I hope my Lord and father Arius is not unhappy to hear me make this associate between Aryan and Gypsy, and I offer his own description of himself in Peace Bomb as "just a travelling saint," which actually fits in pretty well with the idea of the "Aryan Nation" being somehow related to "the Gypsy Nation," though this idea may not be popular with some of the Green family's neighbors up around their Idaho stronghold who associate the word Aryan with white supremacy, which I hope that the enthusiasm I have expressed about a young man named Kenyatta, as well as my condemnation of "Southern Man" are sufficient to make clear that my own association with the word Aryan is very different from that of the white supremacists who like to use the term as if it meant, simply, "White." If I am correct about what Aryan means then Kenyatta himself, as a son of arius, must be Aryan, and I have named Ethiopia and certain West African countries as being populated by Aryans with black skin

OK so here again, for the purpose of making some official Dokusan-worthy comments about the e mail in question.

green: you've been calling me for some time now and I've been extremely busy
feeding the animals and watering the lawn so I thought since I had a few
minutes now I could begin to address some of the issues you bring up.

jeff: i note that the author is like me in being inconsistent in his use of caps in e mails. "calling me" may refer to using his true name. feeding the animals and watering the lawn seems to relate to a picture i have of Greendale, being "a GREEN DALE," a swale in a grassy pastury environment with cows and the watering the lawn could also refer to this "picture" that is in my minds eye of Grandpa in Greendale, surrounded by green grass, "wearing what he had on" so to speak. i interpret his use of the word "begin" to mean that this may actually be the first e mail he has sent to me that HE is the actual inventor of. if so, then i believe that someone_who_will_help_you could be Ken Kesey, since the final e mail from him, which had introduced me to the word ZIX, pertained to the crux of One flew over the cookoo's nest. the pictuer of greendale i allude to also relates to SUN green and her crop circlish perfromance art project.

g:before we can move into the core of some of your more inane ramblings

j: core of the ramblings (whether or not grandpa really considers my ads to be inane ramblings other than because no one who is not an initiate into Grandpa Arius Green's Knowledge reads my stuff is another matter) means the core of the things i am talking about, which is the dispelling of the poisoning of the Temple that Satan has committed.

g: we
have to start at the end.. Your latest diatribe in the Stranger ends
with a statement refering to the meek. I have to say you have not
really presented yourself as having anything in common with the meek.
You rant on and on, I am this, I am that, blah, blah, blah. A thousand
people will testify to your greatness. So what. Though some may testify
for me I would never ask them to as the truth is more powerful than all
the people on the earth and the power that radiates from me and
nourishes you is not relative to the subjective opinions of others but
stands on it's own through the purity of it's purpose.

jeff: well this is confronting to me, but i honestly think that it is to help me get into a certain mind set, not to vent unhappiness with what I write.

Grandpa: I will offer you
several opportunities to acheive humility in the near future. Just for
fun let's encode a secret flag so you will know when one opportunity is
on you. Our secret code word will be "horse".

jeff: he refers to "achieve humility" as if it means answer a KOAN, perhaps because KOAN solving requires it, I am charlie after all.. this fake reprimanding refers to the scene from the Gene Wilber Willie Wonka movie, when Wonka has to be intense with Charlie, in order to shake him into a new way of thinking before he leaves and returns the everlasting gobstopper.


GG: I have to say for someone who gets all swollen with pride over your
ability to sell bread that contains parasitic organisms and is baked at
temperatures that ensure the gluten has bound the nutrients into a
barely digestable product and then purports to speak from some position
of truth as to how you are going to bring relief to the humble, meek,
and gentle I have to wonder just what your plan is. Is it to kill them
with crappy food? That is the one thing whole wheat generally does . It
forms a nice turd.

J: here he seems to be saying he isnt into flour based bread, which i am not either any more, though i did have some for lunch today, it dont each much bread, but this could also be a form of support of my sprouted wheat bread ideas, which surely could help people eliminate toxins from the intestines.

GG: Then your going to sell them some chocolate whose
sugar will debilate their immune systems and help insure they will be
the one out of three who gets cancer. But it will sure taste sweet. And
besides, the sugar will feed the systemic yeast you introduced with your
bread .

Sun: maybe he doesnt like chocolate, but i doubt it but to whatever extent he cares about this, i have a feeling that grandpa probably would support the idea of dveloping local beet sugar and abandoning cane as a sugar source for chocolate. but perhaps more importantly chocolate and sweetenss begins to alude to soma.

GG: Great job Jeff.

Sun : thanks grandpa!

Arius: If you can get their parasite cultures large
enough to reach the critical mass that allows for the cohabitation or
possession by a demonic spirit you can ensure that they won't have
enough sense to see through your chest thumping gorilla antics.

Sun: i believe that this sentence was indeed meant to be the key, the crux of the KOAN. and it relates to how not to have an orgasm by meditating on the poisoned condition of the body while being very aroused. i've used this twice so far with good results. its about cicumventing the KNID ripoff of soma that is what we call orgasm. he's "leading me to a deeper thirst" he's helping me understand not how to write ads but how to defeat satan, how to overcome this poisoned condition.

its about the gobstopper, which must relate somehow to SOMA, and this really IS the moment that is enacted in the charlie story just before he returns the "god stopper." or is it magog stopper, or gob stopper, or wad stopper, i mean it seems to be about orgasm and soma. its about how to be a lover of Arius.

I want to digress here. Taoism has become associated in the minds of many, including myself, with the type of teachings and practices that I associate with a book called The Tao of Love and Sex, in which the author Jolan Chang suggests that men can and should limit the freqency of orgasm, should learn to overcome this reflexive spasm. this book and others like it, including one called Tantra, the Yoga of Sex, had a big influence on me in my early 20s and i have been a student of Taoism, in this sense, ever since. i just want to allude to this sense of CHuang Tzu whose name is again suggested by "Jolang Chang" (not to mention, again, Fukuoka's name and the suggestions evident there too)

this sentence from roshi completely relates to this stuff that i am relating to Taoism. and chuang tzu.


grandpa: I know from the way you posture yourself that you are dedicated to me
and my work. My wish for you is that instead of wasting the precious
resources I have given you telling everyone how great you are that you
might come to understand that you are the only one who gets what you
get, but so are each of the others, so take your resources and learn to
give them away to the meek, humble, and gentle, but learn to do it so
efficiently that you neither have profit or loss.

jeff: all i can say here is that i have more puzzling to do if the meaning is other than literal, if exagerated.


G:By the way, I just can't seem to find anything wrong with your salsa.

Jeff: again, perhaps relates to inherent problems with wheat and with fermentation as a food process.

G: adios

J: to god!

G: no one in particular

like "erewhon" which Ohsawa and Kushi use as an idea, "nowhere spelled backwards" it also alludes to "do nothing farming of Fukuoka.

OK there's what i have to say in dokusan with my master Roshi Arius. or is it "sheik Ariuis?" when i think of the pre-babylonian, pre-Islam culture that I associate with Rumi and Hafiz and Sufism, i think of the sheik as being like the roshi, the father/teacher/lover of men. this is about being aryan, and that means its about being a son of arius, which means being a lover of arius, and this is what he is teaching me about. i am being prepared to be what i really am, which is the son and lover of the man who really wants to be the lover of his sons.

this isnt about what life is like AFTER the knids are gone, its about what needs to be done to get them out, and i am having mixed successes but progress in becoming the very erotic (loving) being that an aryan male human being really is. erotic particularly in how we ineract with other men. itsjust something you can be, and to be aryan is to have decided that this is what you wanted to be. but for wahtever reason, men forget that they thuoght that they wanted to be this.

and after orgasm, when it does occur, and it still does at this stage when the knids still are present with minds of their own, it seems like it gets easier to sense and so "capture" the kinds.

if i had to name someone else to have been the author of this e mail who is someone i have never really serious suggested was actually with grandpa in greendale as a living person and not as an idea it would be fukuoka.

let me just list a few of the key words that i am associating as a part of this past few days, the fairy tale KOAN as all being related.

zix, the idea of a KOAN based system of intelligence evaluation as the basis for a tax on stupidity as an enducement to intelligence, honesty, and happiness, things that are required in order that a human race succeed in spite of a guy named Satan/ kierkegaard / joe whinney, who is a fount of terrible schemes designed to ruin everything for everyone..

chuang tzu / fukuoka as together an important manifestation of pre-alcohol or pre babylonian enlightenment.

the christ identifying taoism, buddhism and hinduism as religions that in some sense have more relevant truth than christianity, whose truth about human life and how to live it is contained largely in the sermon on the mount, the rest being more history than religion. zen buddhism being the most highly evolved system developed for the purpose of progressing on what is called "teh spiritual path"

ben franklin as adida a zen buddhist master in cognito.

john lennon being the sme person as vladamir lennon

identifying an ethiopian man as the reincarnation of napoleon based on his playful pscyhedelic friendly personality and the spelling of his name,

realizing soros was nathan rothschild largely because his name is whatever you call that backwards forwards the same thing thing

realizing the the island of elba was named elba so that i could realize that soros was nathan rothschild and that napoleon is alive as a cute boy in a mental hospital named wannaw.

describing in great detail what exactly the function of "machine elves" is.

defining many imprtant terms, like for example "aryan" in entirely novel ways

discovering pictures contained in english words including aryan. not sure what its a picture of, but its a picture.

getting that kenny ramer is carmichael, archangel michael, rudolph steiner

identifying darth vadar as the biblical character of abraham and suggesting that his out fit pertains to circumcision.

naming soren kierkegaard as the most evil man who ever lived based on part on the lord of the rings character named Sauron.

naming mary baker eddy as an important incarnation of diana, the twin sister and soon to be wife of apollo the christ.

solving the mystery of JOan of Arc's death by burning by naming the living incarnation of both Joan and magog, the true witch responsible for her burning.

understanding that pluto is the father of more than seven archangelic sons including john lennon and peter gabriel and rudolpoh steiner who are really like policemen, and who play roles like lenin and marx in between being john lennon and groucho marx.

just as a sampling. its different than what anyone ever imagined, except the people who made it up, and even they are somewhat mystified by it all.

its all about this thing that a guy named arius calls intellici that i seem to have tapped into .. there is intelligence, intelligence DOES exist and does have an agenda, which is happiness, which is honesty, which is peace and quiet, which is love. and the KOAN is how we tap into this intelligence,, its how we SEEK so as to FIND answers to questions.

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there are a lot of questions and i have answers. think about the hopi and navaho indians and their big mountain land dispute. the true hopis have a creation story, of how they were directed to wander around like gypsies until they arrived on the mesas where they live today and never capitulated to some of the compromises that other tribes were subjected to .

the hopi, whoever they are, are more closely related to the rawat family than the navajo, and i say this having been in black mountain advocating for the navajo position along with other hippies and there is a picture on the cover of the NY times where you can see that i was there.

thomas banyaca was a hopi (Hippie) who traveled with alfredo's caravan to big mountain as a PRO navajo anti-relocation hopi "elder" who spoke of hopi poohecies about teh end of the world that appeared to be being fulfilled. yes all of that, adn this: he represented a faction of hopidom that had not fallen into the trap of mormonism, which is not a particularly enlightened school in my opinion.

people like stephen bechtel, whose family i learned a few things about at that time, would know a bit more about the history there, but the history is intruiging to say the least, many large famous corporations that are israel affiliated (even if they do the bidding of satan) including the CIA-Skull and bones affiliated Bechtel corp, and williams bros and southern pacific railroad had all been involved in the struggle to control resources including coal and urannium in the hopi-navajo joint use area, and while there i made a point of learning and passing on what i could to daniel fourwinds who i hope is there at the truman show as someone who KNEW i was onto something big, in general if not in my specific research into the like of John McCone and the liberty ship enterpirse that put bechtel on the map, and the relationship of shultz wienberger and others with reagan and bechtel, and so much else that i learned about how satan was ripping off the relatively innocent hopi and navajo, along with the mormons, whatever they are, they sure dont seem like they are aligned with the rawats,,, and even my travels with ptarmigan to mromon land where we stayed in a Band B in the home of a nice mormom family (now that i think of it) when the roads were closed in and around the teton valley near grand targhee where i skiied with Yale lewis and mimi stone his own personal ptarmigan who had found HIM as an archangelish sort of a guy that yale is,, yale who i later realized was LEWIS to mathesson as clark who lived in Pocatello at the time, right on the path of lewis and clark.

i went to flagstaff to work on the KOAn of life, along with ashevill where i lived both wirh martin and barbara , met another barbara with a sister whose a goddess, i forget her name but we recognized something in one another, then right next to the biltmore mansion where i visited later with my father in our later day trip across the country, and to florida with the enigmatic stever panos a good hearted guy who had succumbed to alcohol and heroin, joe whinneys favorit combo., and on to coneeticut to live in the town where skull and bones is based, new haven, and western mass to spend time with yogi amrit desai, whose significance i am still unaware of at this time, havent puzzled much lately on his KOAN, and to chicago to get to know mirian for obvious reasons, and jan walker down in jackson who turned me on to the essene gospels and who was with me in denver when aveiline kushi looked in my eyes with more love than perhaps she ever looked in anyone else's eyes with, and i just happened to be in the macro restaurant in brookline when Lima osawa was handing out five second diagnoses, with jan walker, by theway, and i walked around the resefoir many a time with the beast martin roth, the resevoir near the kushi compound in brookline, and we went to the kushi compound in bershires the former faranciscan moestary as a matter of fact and met there an old monk, the last one to live there as well as teh shiatsu goodess shizuko, with whom i wanted to have sex but kept my shy mouth shut, i wonder if the thought crossed her mind,

and on my puppet master he led me through endless such travels one greate big decade long fact finding mission, geting the door to my truck opened in the middle of the night by some southern man sort of cops and told to get out of their sight, neil will remember all of these details, all happening as exactly the plan for this life, this restless decade of my twenties desperately wanting to figure out how i could say what i so badly needed to say which was simply, "if we just have the intention and act consciously upon it we could have heaven on earth its just a matter of doing it,". never quite knowing that it was inevitable becase all wishes are fulfilled and heaven was mine.

i got naked in a corn field in new jersey and nearly lost my clothes and came down with a terrible rash of somekind that my friend the sister of barbara, the goddessy one got worried about me because of. i looked into christian science fduring this period and found lots of solace many a time by reading what mary baker eddy said and the writings of others in the literature of the church.

imy travels led me to santa fe at the suggestion of a cool premie i love named sherman the lover of margie two of my favs from that greaet gand at rainbow, steven sunseri crossed paths with me in so many ways as to be beyond a coincidence, i wandered through the derert countryside near my friends who were owners of SF NFS and nearly got eaten by a pack of angry dogs there, i slept in a cold cave outside zacartecas mexico and had all my belongings gone through by a nice famioy that had me to dinner as a way of saying sorry,

all as a part of an amazingly rich story written by neil rawat with the input of thousands who wished to play some part in this one lifetime,

now back to baker beach with my lover baby snowleopard for one more lovely sunset, maybe my lovers will be watching the same sunset from some other perch like perhaps from goomraji's residence in malibu.

and back home again, and its after 6 so i will start another page,